Chapter 9 – Chapter 9
Eun-ah said as she put the tray on her lap on the floor.
“I’ll… I’ll give you… I’ll give you…”
Eun-ah turned her head and looked at her Do-gyun. The glowing eyes that did not reveal even a handful of emotions and the pale skin that showed veins combined gave off an aura like that of her corpse.
Gulp.
Dry saliva went down the back of her throat at her tension. Was it because the stomach was full and the tension was relieved? She was a disaster caused by a moment’s cold judgment. Do-kyun opened his mouth in a pleasant tone, trying to ignore the rising fear.
“Haha, I made a mistake. I did it because I felt like I was giving you too much trouble.”
“…”
“I have to brush my teeth! If you don’t, you’ll get cavities, right?”
“…”
“…Miss Eun?”
Silence followed. Eun-ah’s eyes fell on Do-gyun. The cold eyes and suffocating silence choked Do-gyun, letting him know that this situation was no joke.
No matter how much time passed, even after Do-gyun’s fearful gaze fell to the floor, Eun-ah’s mouth, which had been closed all along, opened.
“Ah… No… I… The bad boy…”
It was a stuttering tone like usual, but Do-gyun felt a distinctly different atmosphere from the tone in that tone.
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry.”
Terror struck again. His mouth naturally let out words of apology and the will of submission.
“I made a mistake. Sorry.”
“Yeah… I’m sorry… I have to be sorry…”
After answering with a nod, Eun-ah moved his body and approached Do-gyun.
Swoop-.
Eun-ah’s hand landed on Do-gyun’s thigh.
Flinch.
The learned fear made Do-gyun’s body vibrate. His hands, which began to tremble, could hardly follow the control.
“Wrong… Wrong… Just once…”
He didn’t even have time to think about how to get out of the situation. Do-gyun’s mouth only spat out words of apology. I looked up at Eun-ah with a trembling gaze, but her cold gaze only made me harden like a frog in front of her snake.
While listening to the apology, Eun-ah’s head moved left and right.
“Ah… No… If you don’t punish it, the habit… Will get worse…”
Eun-ah’s hands, which had landed on Do-gyun’s thighs, moved once more and headed for his wrists bound in handcuffs.
“Everything… Everything… It’s for the sake of the bee…”
Kwak-.
An incomprehensible monster. Eun-ah’s powerful fingertips began to scrape the inside of her wrist vigorously, as if digging down.
Pudeuk.
“Turn it off!”
The pain was overwhelming. It was so painful that she wondered if her wrist would be pierced.
Pudeuk-.
“Why… Why… Do… Don’t you listen…?”
Pudeuk-.
“I… I don’t want to do this either…”
Pudeuk-.
“If I… Act like a bad kid, oh… It won’t work…”
Pudeuk-.
“Sah… Sah… Because it’s a hawk of love… I’m going to put up with it…”
Pudeuk-.
“Ku… Bee hurts… I’m in pain as much as it hurts…”
Pudeuk-.
“Ba… I’m reflecting…”
Creepy murmurs ringing in my ears, the pain of skin being ripped from my wrists. The sound of friction between fingernails and skin. These three things mixed together and began to gnaw away at Do-gyun’s spirit.
Words of apology escaped intermittently from his mouth. It felt like my throat was choking with desperation. It felt as if the whole skin would be torn off.
How much time has passed Do-gyun, struggling with fear and pain, felt a different kind of pain rise up his wrist.
Crack-!
I had the illusion that I had heard such a sound. His mouth fell open and he screamed in agony.
“Aagh!!!”
It felt like his wrists had been torn off. As Do-gyun’s pupils moved to find out the true nature of the pain, Eun-ah’s words sounded in his ears.
“Oh, it’s blood.”
Do-kyun looked at Eun-ah’s wrist at the sound of her voice.
Eun-ah’s fingertips were soaked in blood. Behind him, several red lines ran down his own wrist, following the trajectory of his fingernails. Do-gyun, who checked his wounds, screamed again with his eyes widening as if they were about to tear.
“Aaaaa!!!”
“Ah… Does it hurt…?”
Of course it hurt. I feel sick and I feel like dying. No, you will die. If no action is taken, he will die of excessive blood loss. It was that kind of wound.
“Live… Save… Please… Wrong…”
His eyes burned hot and he burst into tears. Words that hadn’t gone through an accident came out of my mouth. Even in the midst of her mindlessness, whether she knew that it was the only way she could live, the things she said were her sins and her words of apology to her.
“Everyone… Never… Being a bad kid again…?”
“Yes heh… Kkuh… Yes…”
He responded reflexively to what he had heard. He couldn’t figure out what he was doing wrong. He didn’t even want to know. He just wanted to end this situation quickly. I hoped to stop the blood from bursting out.
Eun-ah’s head moved at Do-gyun’s trembling words, and a smile soon appeared on her face.
“Yes…! This… Now… Listen carefully…!”
Having said that, Eun-ah hooked her little finger to Do-gyun’s little finger and began to wiggle it up and down.
“Hey… Yaksoo-ok~”
Eun-ah’s words ooze her laughter. If it had been before, she would have felt a creepy rejection of it, but she couldn’t even afford to recognize him. My head was filled with just the idea of stopping the blood quickly.
“Keuk… Bah… Hurry up and bleed… Please…”
“Ah…! Yes! Wait a minute~”
At Do-gyun’s earnest plea, Eun-ah nodded to him, got up, and stretched out her hand behind the bed. It was a place with a stand.
“See you~”
After rummaging around for a while, Eun-a grabbed something and brought it out. Do-gyun’s gaze turned to Eun-ah’s hand. It was a bandage and antiseptic. Eun-ah picked up the disinfectant and began to apply the contents to Do-gyun’s wrist.
“It… It stings…”
The medicine dripped onto the skin exposed on his wrist, causing a burning pain.
“Sigh…”
Do-gyun bit his teeth tightly and endured the pain. He wanted to scream to his heart’s content. I couldn’t do it because I was afraid that the expression would disappear from Eun-ah’s smiling face as she applied the disinfectant.
It was a time of patience and patience. Disinfectant was applied over the wound, cotton was applied over it, and a bandage was tightly tied to stop it. I just hoped that this moment would pass quickly.
“It’s… It’s done…”
Eun-ah nodded her head and looked at Do-gyun with a satisfied expression, as if she liked her own treatment. Do-gyun, whose eyes met, thanked him in a trembling voice, weighed down by the madness that permeated his smile.
“Thank you… Thank you…”
“Hehe… Yes…”
The treatment was over, but the pain never subsided. The tears hardly stopped. Eun-ah’s face was filled with tears as she looked at him.
“Hhhhh”
Swoop-.
Eun-ah’s hands were facing Do-gyun’s face.
“Suck!”
His body trembled and his head pulled back slightly. Immediately after, Do-gyun, realizing what he had done, hurriedly checked Eun-ah’s expression. A face that looks like it’s about to cry. It didn’t seem like his previous actions had bothered him too much.
“This… Now the punishment is over… It’s over…”
Before I knew it, a hand on Do-gyun’s cheek wiped his eyes and wiped away the tears.
“This… Now, thud…!”
Eun-ah pulled Do-gyun’s hair to her chest and hugged him, and began to caress him by gently sweeping the back of his head.
Fear spread throughout the body. He seems to have completely forgotten himself a few hours ago, when he had vowed not to show fear. His mind was just busy trying to somehow channel the fear.
Paradoxically, even in the midst of that, the hand trying to comfort herself, the constant heartbeat emanating from their touching chests, and the shallow voice quickly calmed her body and stopped her tears.
Do-gyun felt that he was becoming very strange at the moment, but he was confused because he couldn’t figure out what to do with him.
“This… Has it all stopped…?”
I wonder if I felt the stable breathing of Do-Gyun before I knew it. Eun-ah lifted Do-gyun’s head slightly and examined his face. Do-gyun gave him a reflective answer.
“Yes Yes…”
“Lol…”
A laugh escaped Eun-ah’s mouth.
“Ah… Now hey… Brushing my teeth… I’ll prepare it~”
After confirming that Do-gyun had completely stopped crying, Eun-a handed over her words as if she had just remembered it, took the tray and left the room.
Click.
The door is locked. Room left alone. After confirming that she had left completely, Do-gyun stretched out as he felt her body loosen up.
“ぅ…”
She felt her cries welling up again, but held it in, not knowing when she would return. Because she hadn’t fully identified the triggers for her seizures, she had to refrain from showing her emotions prematurely. She was just a will from her heart that she didn’t want to get sick. The pain in her wrist kept reminding him of the cost of going against her will.
“Mom…”
She indeed found her mother after a long time. I don’t know how many decades. Her frightened fuse made her head emit a childlike murmur.
“Huh…”
It was one day, just one day. She ruined herself like this in one day.
‘No.’
Even this day isn’t over yet. Her first two times somehow fueled her rebelliousness by fueling her hatred, but this one was even harder. The moment I saw her gushing blood, her hair turned white and I was filled with the thought that she might die.
The face of her casually hurting herself crushed her inner rebellion.
‘Ah…’
She lost herself
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Dalgrak-, Dalgrak-.
The hands washing the dishes became busy. I was worried because I remembered the situation from a while ago.
“Ah…”
She tried to give a grown-up admonition, but she couldn’t. Her worries swirled in her head: ‘Could my feelings have been revealed a little bit?’, ‘Couldn’t he have forgiven me too easily?’, ‘Could I be sure that I taught him right?’.
‘Wouldn’t it have been better to be more specific…?’
“Ah… No…! Mr. Bee is… Smart again…!”
She shook her head, driving away the bad images that popped into her head. In the meantime, the situation at that time came to mind.
“I… I told you…”
While being punished. Words she had unknowingly done.
-Sa… Sa… Because it’s the hawk of love… I’m going to put up with it…
Anger-!
Her face flushed.
‘Ugh… I wonder if you heard…’
She said she loved me When admonishing, I should have spoken more calmly and maturely, but when I saw him in pain, I became sad without knowing it and revealed my sincerity.
‘I’m ashamed…’
Her feet rolled over. In an instant, her hand washing the dishes made a big splash and the bowl she was holding slipped.
Jjaeng!
“Ah…”
I hurriedly picked up the bowl and examined it. There seemed to be no flaws.
“Everything… I’m glad…”
If your mind is distracted by things like this, you won’t be a great adult. Like the worms outside, they will become emotional beasts. The thought awakened her spirit.
“Oh, no…!”
It shouldn’t be. Since he is now an adult, he had to think calmly and logically.
“Ji… Calm…!”
I took a deep breath and calmed my mind. He had to finish what he was doing. Thinking so, while washing the dishes, moving her hands busily. He remembered the person weeping in his arms. The tears that wet his chest gradually stopped at the touch of his hand, and before I knew it, I remembered the person who had stopped and started laughing again.
“It’s cute…”
I wanted to take care of you. I wanted to give back several times the amount of compliments and caress I gave to myself. Because adults have to make sure that they are giving and receiving.
“Yes…!”
He will warmly embrace and treat the person infected by the bugs, making him a great adult. Let’s relive that promise. In no time, the dishes were finished.
“This… Now…”
It’s time to brush your teeth. The man couldn’t move his hand now, so he had to do it himself. Apply toothpaste to a toothbrush and scrub every nook and cranny of the person’s mouth.
‘Tongue… Tongue…’
Anger-!
“I… Bad idea! Mmm… Stop!”
Drain! A shrieking sound came out.
“Kuhm…”
I was not mature. Calm down, let’s calm down.
Who- Ha- Who- Ha-.
Calm thinking, logical thinking!
I took a deep breath and calmed my mind. Now is the time to really go.
“Then… Then let’s go~”
Oh, the corners of his mouth were rising arbitrarily for some reason.
