Chapter 46 – Chapter 46
5 billion.
It was too much money, so it didn’t touch me realistically.
However, only the meaning of her proposal was conveyed.
Seduce Go Eun-ah.
In other words, stay by her side.
In her proposal, only that meaning was deeply engraved in my heart and shook me.
Fist clenched tightly.
It was not caused by feelings of rejection or anger.
The emotion that made me clench my fist was relief.
In the meantime, it was a hatred for myself who was embracing relief.
In the midst of this, he was relieved that he had an excuse to stay by her side.
A little, a willing heart arose.
It was so absurd that I was feeling this kind of sentiment, but I couldn’t help it even though I didn’t understand myself.
The smile or warmth that permeated me dyed my heart and left a sticky mark that I couldn’t get rid of.
Even if I remove it, the traces will shake me and make me turn around to find her. Perhaps it was an illusion that I felt that it was a weak body temperature, but her traces had already dug deep into me and were tormenting me.
The warmth that I had been clinging to in pain was clinging to me even now.
Even though 5 billion is money that can be spent playing and eating for the rest of my life, and even though the offer is nonsense if it is not true, I did not have any doubts that she would not give it.
Maybe it was because the money wasn’t that important to me.
Seeing that a smile that exceeded that amount filled my head, it might be that my head, which was somehow out of order, was using the offer I had made as an excuse to stay by her side a little longer and feel the warmth again.
Her chirping was heard again.
“How about it, isn’t this enough worth the challenge?”
Like the whispers of the devil, sweet words tickle my ears.
A low-pitched voice broke my heart.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, letting out a long breath.
“Whoa…”
Do-gyun, who opened his eyes and held out his share of the empty glass to her, opened his mouth and let out words.
“Give me a drink.”
“Can that be considered acceptance?”
Do-gyun answered while glaring at her smiling round and round.
“You know, what are you asking?”
Very cleverly, she gave me an excuse so that in this brief moment she would fully understand me and I would gladly accept her offer.
My emotions, which were at a loss on the single wooden bridge between rationality and sensibility, were raised to the realm of sensibility.
Only half of the alcohol was poured, and her mouth opened.
“Okay, good luck in the future. Aren’t we on the same boat now?”
The way he laughed was annoying, but he was very happy with his meaning.
“Yes, please.”
The brusque tone was a hint of defiance.
However, she seemed to be laughing even at that, and she raised her glass to herself while letting out a timid laugh.
“Let’s do it well.”
I was suggesting a toast.
Do-gyun silently bumped his own glass into the one held out to him.
Crack-.
Clear noise.
It was a verbal agreement, but neither of them complained about it.
The glass fell and he brought it to his mouth.
My stomach was agitated and my head was complicated.
“Hehe! Keck! Keck!”
His startled stomach hurriedly coughed to expel him.
Poisoned It was unbelievably toxic. It was stronger than any alcohol Do-gyun had ever drank in his life. It was as hot as if it had swallowed a fireball.
When Do-gyun, surprised by the strength of her drink, looked at her, she shrugged her shoulders a little and smiled.
“Puff…”
It looked like he was holding back a laugh with his head turned and his mouth covered, but it was clear at a glance that it was meant to be a mockery.
Do-gyun’s eyes narrowed as he looked at him.
Suddenly, I was able to realize why she wasn’t drunk the day Eun-ah and her first kissed each other.
‘Because I drank alcohol like this with the same body…!’
It was only now that I understood that even though she drank exactly the same, she did not change the color of her face.
When Do-gyun, feeling unfair, glared at her Eun-seol, she twitched the corners of her mouth and spoke to him with a face holding back a smile.
“Oh, are you not good at drinking?”
The sly tone inflamed his anger.
“Yes, that’s how it happened…!”
She gritted her teeth and replied, and it was so mean that she shrugged her shoulders and emptied her portion of the glass at once.
“Well, so what about your social life?”
It’s like a painted twist.
It made me even more angry because I was hearing this from someone who didn’t seem to have done even a speck of social life.
“By-self. Well. Do.”
It felt like bloodlines were standing on the wooden pole, but the remaining reason was steadily maintaining respect in his tone.
Eun-seol, who was looking at Do-gyun bubbling over, saw his expression, and she smiled again and answered succinctly.
“Well, yes. It’s none of my business.”
What he said with a slight smile seemed to scratch his nerves.
What should I say, honestly, I was careless. Drinking it like water all the time, I imagined it to be as strong as beer or wine, but I didn’t expect it to be such a monstrous drink.
Do-gyun looked at the remaining alcohol in his glass and thought that if he drank more, he would really upset his stomach, so he put him on the table and opened his mouth with a sigh.
“So, how long will you be in that body?”
I didn’t want to continue the exhausting emotional wrestling, so I changed the topic.
Judging from her immediate attitude, it was a question she brought up because she did not think she would enter her immediately.
I could understand what she wanted from me and the general policy for him, but it was a very important question for her to flirt with Go Eun-ah, because it was only possible with Go Eun-ah using her body.
Eun-seol, who stopped sipping at Do-gyun’s question, raised her left wrist and said,
“Until this is all over.”
The visible wrists were bandaged. Right before she came out, she was the wrist that Ko Eun-chae had dug with her knife.
“There is no need for pain after self-harm in Go Eun-ah’s happy world.”
A sarcastic tone. Do-gyun was able to infer several facts from the words.
Up to this point, it was her job to take care of what Eunchae Ko had done.
And.
‘I didn’t pay attention to the scar on her wrist…’
It is because they do not recognize the existence of scars themselves.
Another question that had bothered me all along was solved, but the stuffiness inside got worse.
It is because her attitude towards Go Eun-ah, which can be felt from her tone of voice, was not very good.
It’s not comparable to Go Eun-chae, but at least I could see that it wasn’t a positive reaction.
There was usually sarcasm or a downward looking attitude.
Judging from the way he treated me, it could be like that for everyone, but even so, I couldn’t erase the growing anxiety.
As Do-gyun remained silent due to his growing anxiety, Eun-seol, who had been observing his expression, opened his mouth again.
“Once again, if I was going to eat this body, I already ate it over ten years ago.”
He didn’t seem to show any signs of showing off, but he was reading it again.
Do-kyun, who had an embarrassing face, hurriedly apologized.
“…Sorry.”
“No. Thoughts are free and there’s nothing to say, but it’s a bit unfair.”
Do-gyun’s gaze moved over her face.
She protested, saying that it was unfair, but her face when she said that was a calm expression that did not contain any special signs.
Even if he tried to read the inside of that woman, Do-kyun couldn’t read anything from her face.
What is her purpose, what does she want. She couldn’t read anything.
While Do-gyun continued to think about her, he was looking at her. Once again, her mouth was open.
“Oh yeah.”
“Why are you like that?”
“There’s something I didn’t tell you.”
Saying that, she cast her gaze at me and opened her mouth to continue speaking in her low tone.
“Probably Go Eun-ah won’t remember what happened today.”
“Today… You mean?”
“Yes.”
After emptying her glass again before she knew it, she refilled her glass and said,
“As I said, Go Eun-chae shouldered all the stimuli beyond Go Eun-ah’s threshold. Same goes for today. Whether you saw your secrets or did a self-injury show in front of you, these are all stimuli that go beyond Ko Eun-ah’s threshold.”
“…”
“Maybe Go Eun-ah will act as if nothing happened today. So you act accordingly.”
There was a part that I couldn’t understand because the words that continued all the way and the explanation immediately before were intertwined.
Do-kyun, filled with her doubts, spit out her question as she watched her raise her glass.
“It is strange.”
“What.”
“It will take at least a week for the wound to heal, but if you have a different personality in the meantime, won’t you feel a temporal gap when Eun-ah wakes up?”
I didn’t understand that. This is usually how people with dissociative identity disorder notice their other personalities.
No matter how much she dismisses it as a delusion, she herself will feel the temporal disparity. Is that possible?
“What else am I saying?”
What I heard was a tone as if I had heard something insignificant.
Then, as she spoke, her expression regained the sarcastic spirit she had seen before.
“If you just ignore that, the happy world will be maintained, so why are those few days so important?”
“Ah…”
Definitely understood.
She was saying that she was maintaining her delusion by consciously erasing any sense of alienation that had approached her in reality.
I wasn’t very aware of the fact that I had multiple personalities, but I was able to realize that Eun-ah’s delusional symptoms were quite serious.
What followed was silence. It was time for Do-gyun to sit on the sofa and organize her thoughts while she sipped her drink.
As he continued his thoughts, Do-gyun felt a suffocating feeling welling up inside him.
Perhaps sorrow or pity resembles this.
In the story that continues, this is probably the feeling she felt for a person named Go Eun-ah.
She felt sorry for her, who could only live by splitting herself apart and looking at her world with her false image overlaid. It was her feeling of pity that she was her only rope with no contact point.
She regretted that the fact that she had entered her study was a stimulus beyond her threshold, that she was such an important person to her.
She said that as she looked for a place to lean on, what she found was herself, barely one of her numerous readers. It was such a lonely life for her.
I moved her gaze to see her drinking her drink beside her.
Perhaps, this was what she was trying to say. Was it not her intention to make me sympathize with her, her with her for her?
She did not bother to ask him, as she could vaguely know that silence would be her answer.
Just, she bowed her head again to organize her thoughts.
Like that, after a long silence, by the time the bottle was empty, the girl who had been drinking until the day before stood up and opened her mouth.
“I will go out tomorrow. I know that.”
When Do-gyun raised her head, she stared at him and explained again.
“I’m going out with you.”
Do-gyun, who did not understand the meaning of her words, hesitated for a moment, and soon after he realized the meaning, Do-gyun opened her mouth with a blank face, and she continued her words in a low tone.
“Isn’t there anything else to take care of? There will be places to contact.”
Of course there is.
However, she never thought that the words would come out of her mouth.
“Take care of everything as you leave. Because I don’t want to create useless variables.”
Definitely a nail-biter. Do-kyun couldn’t understand her intentions, so she looked at him for a moment, then she opened her mouth to let out her words, trying to find out somehow.
“What are you going to do if I run away?”
A word that can be called a provocation.
She listened to him and stared at me, then raised the corner of her mouth slightly and answered with a question.
“Are you going?”
A look of confidence.
She answered her question with her question, but she was sure she wouldn’t go.
“…That’s it. What are you talking about?”
She seemed to lose herself by talking more. She first declared her surrender, and I saw her smile.
“Clean up the top. I go to bed first.”
Saying that, she turned around and went into the bedroom. Do-gyun, who was left alone in the living room, sighed and leaned back on the sofa. A sudden thought popped into his head and he stood up and stared at the table.
‘…Wait this.’
I looked over the table. A messy table, empty bottles and glasses were rolling around, and in one corner of her was a book she had been reading until just before I came out.
As she continued her explanation until just before, the alcohol she had spilled on her table was sticky, and only she was left here.
Suddenly, Do-kyun, who was thinking, let out a laugh.
‘Did I get the timing right?’
His gaze turned to the closed bedroom door.
He went in so naturally that he didn’t notice it, but he was definitely right on time.
His eyes narrowed slightly.
‘Also.’
It was not an easy opponent.
