Chapter 24 – Chapter 24
Bad boy, was the woman’s frequent phrase on her lips.
[I hurt her mother today as well.]
‘Is it about parents?’
[Her mother was sad because she complained that the book of philosophy was not interesting.]
[My mother made me use a cane.]
[My mother was sick because she was punishing me.]
[I am a bad child who hurts her mother.]
As Do-gyun read the first page of his diary, his brows narrowed.
‘What are you talking about?’
Hearing the cane means that the woman is on the beaten side, but why does she [Her mother is sick] Stick out. Her context was not well understood.
‘She is a bad daughter who breaks her mother’s heart. What is it?’
She turned the next page.
[I became a bad child again today.]
[She didn’t follow her mother’s advice to read her classic humanities and read fairy tales.]
[The princess in the fairy tale was so pretty that I sold my eyes.]
[My mother is sick again.]
There was no more context than the first chapter. Reading up to the second page, I can infer that the books in this study were read by the woman, and it must have been his mother who made her read them. She was about to do it.
I turned the page again and read the next page.
[I became a good child today.]
[As my mother gave her compliments, she hugged me tightly.]
[It was so nice because it was soft and warm.]
[Tomorrow, too, I want to become a good child and be praised by my mother.]
The third chapter was a bit more upbeat. Compared to the previous two pages, the letters are larger and more prominent, and it seems that the letters are full of emotions, so a timid smile came out.
I went to the next page and looked at the text.
[I received compliments today.]
[She feels so good when her mother strokes her hair.]
[I love the way he laughs while praising me as a good kid.]
[My mother is so good.]
Turned to the next page.
[I became a bad child today.]
[My mother was sad.]
[You are sick again.]
Moved on to the next page
[My mother is sick again.]
[Tears come from mother’s hands.]
‘What do you mean by that?’
Did that woman’s mother have eyes on her hands? I couldn’t understand the sentence that said tears were coming from her hands. It seems to be a metaphorical expression, but it was difficult to infer the meaning because there were too few clues.
However, that sentence was full of displeasure and made my stomach ache.
Her hand moved and turned the book to the next page.
[I have become a bad child.]
[I haven’t read all the books my mother gave me.]
[My mother interrupted me at work.]
[My mother is sick again.]
[It’s too cold.]
The further I went, the more incomprehensible the content became. Sentences were cut off and the contents could not be understood. Do-gyun turned the page again, thinking that he might have something to gain from it.
[Tears come out of my hands.]
[I think I’m crying because I hurt my mother.]
[I cried because I wanted to be sick instead of my mother.]
[I hope my mother doesn’t get sick.]
Turned the page again.
[I became a good child today.]
[I didn’t even interfere with my mother’s work.]
[I read all the books you gave me and wrote a review.]
[My mother hugged me tightly.]
[I can now get sick instead of my mother.]
Turned to the next page again.
[Today, instead of my mother, I was sick.]
[I hope my mother doesn’t get sick.]
[It’s too cold.]
Having read that far, Do-gyun closed the notebook without turning to the next page.
It seemed that something unpleasant, unpleasant aura was rising from within. As I read the text, the displeasure that gradually increased in size spread throughout my body, and it was difficult to read because of the physiological resistance.
All I could tell was that the woman’s mother was very keen on her education and that she was very fond of my mother.
‘I just wasted my time.’
Do-kyun put the notebook back in place, put a novel on top of it, and put it back to the same state as before I took it out.
The nasty feeling didn’t go away. I thought I might have seen something wrong. It felt like an unpleasant, sticky sensation had stuck to me and tortured me.
For a long time, Do-gyun reminded me that I had something to do and brushed off the emotions that had been soggy until the day before.
‘No, this is not the time.’
I turned my head and stared at the bookshelf I hadn’t checked yet. Anyway, I had to find a clue to escape.
*****
In a small room surrounded by pure white wallpaper, with a table with a computer in between, I faced a man in a white coat.
“How is it going?”
He replied in a dry voice to the words of the man he was facing.
“Joe, fine.”
“That’s fortunate. The passage is also very good…”
It was so disgusting to see her smiling and talking to me that I felt like I was going to vomit. It was a routine she had been doing for quite some time, but she couldn’t like the faint smell of medicine or the man wearing the white coat in front of her.
Seeing the smile on his face made him feel annoyed, and he wanted to cut it as hard as he could, but he endured it while thinking of the person waiting for him.
‘Miss you…’
If you don’t have yourself, you’ll be lonely, but you have to be by my side, I have to go and hug you. When I thought of the person who would wait for me, my heart ached again, and on the other hand, I felt strangely warm.
Now that person has gone a little bit of shame, I suggested a hug to me first today. The way he gave me his arms, or the warmth or pressure he used to hug me when he approached me, his heart warmly melted and the corners of his mouth rose.
“Did something good happen?”
Perhaps he was examining his own expression, the man in front of him smiled and spoke to him. He didn’t want to answer, so he just nodded his head instead. The things that only I want to know, the people that only I want to know. You should never miss it in your life. I didn’t want to talk about it because it was my secret that would fill me forever from now on.
“Okay, can I go when it’s over…?”
Remembering it made me want to see it again. I wanted to go and hug him and feel his body temperature.
“Okay, could you wait a minute? I’ll get you a prescription right away.”
“Yes…”
He lowered his head and left the room. It was less like being alone with that man, but the air in this space made me feel so bad that I wanted to leave.
I sat down on the sofa arranged in the lobby, closed my eyes, and tried to calm myself down by thinking about that person, but it was hard to concentrate because the voices and noises I heard bothered my nerves.
“Go Eun-ah~.”
After a while, I heard a voice calling my name. I turned my head and saw a nurse in a pink uniform. If you get the prescription in that hand, you can get out of here. As I thought so, my steps quickened.
“Here is the prescription.”
After receiving the prescription and bowing my head in response to what was being said, I went outside. Now, as long as you stop by the pharmacy, your daily routine is over.
Waiting in front of the elevator to go down the floor. A person came and stood next to me. My footsteps falter and move away without even realizing it. It was troublesome when the insect smell was buried. Because that person will hate it. The smell that person should smell should be my smell. It was difficult to ask for dirt.
As I widened the distance, my gaze was fixed. I lowered my head and tried not to look at him, but thinking that he was looking at me made me feel like insects were crawling on my toes, so I wanted to get rid of those eyes right away.
‘It’s annoying…’
It is itchy from the tip. I want to scrape it off with my fingernails and erase all this unpleasant feeling, but I want to pluck out the eyes looking at me and throw it away, but I can’t, so my annoyance keeps rising.
He is the only one who can see me. He is the only one who knows me properly and looks straight at me. Holding hands, making eye contact, and overlapping bodies. It’s something only he can do.
‘Lord, die…’
I was pouring out curses that I couldn’t spit out with my mouth. The elevator has arrived. I quickly got on the elevator and pressed the button to go to the first floor. I wanted to go out.
Tring-.
As soon as I reached the first floor, I quickly got out. There was a pharmacy ahead. If you quickly take the medicine there, it’s really over.
‘Oh right…’
I also had to buy a present. Handing over what I prepared, spending time together, and when the night gets late…
Hwaaak-!
“Haha…”
Heat rises in the face Again, my stomach began to throb. Just a little bit, just a little patience. With a little bit of patience, now I could go to the end with that person.
‘Oh no…’
It wasn’t the end, but I was able to stand at the starting point. Yes, it’s a start I was able to stand at the starting point of a long happiness that will continue until the end of my life.
My mood softened a little. It felt like the unpleasant feeling of scratching all over my body was gone. My steps became lighter and my breathing became easier.
I entered the pharmacy, approached the person standing at the counter, and handed out the prescription. A pharmacist in a white coat took the prescription and walked away. A pharmacy is much more convenient than a hospital. Because you don’t have to talk. Because I don’t have to answer the words that walk.
The pharmacist walked away, sat down on a chair in the back, and waited for the medicine to come out. She turned her head outside of her, and saw a mother and daughter walking hand in hand through her window.
It was hard to see the happy face. I felt like I could hear the sound of crackling laughter in my ears.
Kwok-.
Her hand involuntarily gripped the hem of her dress. She couldn’t look further, so she lowered her head again, hoping that this time would pass quickly. After a while, I heard a voice calling me.
“Go Eun-ah.”
When I looked up, the pharmacist who had taken my prescription was staring at me. I quickly got up and took the bag of medicine the pharmacist was handing over to me and came out. The air infiltrating his nostrils was cold. The cold winter air stung the lungs and chilled the inside.
I calmed down, but the air was so cold that I felt like crying. I wanted to see that person. He didn’t have the confidence to endure this cold air. My steps got faster and faster. I had to go back and share his body temperature. The world without him was still a cold winter.
