Chapter 179 – Chapter 179
Eun-chae read her notes with her blank eyes.
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-Are you okay with this week’s schedule?
└ I’m fine. 〈- witch
└Yes, then I will do this.
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A notebook used for communication between personalities.
Now, only the words of Eun-ah and Eun-byeol remained in the note.
Eun-chae felt empty for some reason, and felt her heart throb, so she couldn’t look at the note anymore. She got her body up and ran toward Do-gyun.
As always, Do-gyun, who was sitting on the sofa looking at his smartphone, tilted his head at Eun-chae running to me and hugging her.
“Why?”
“Fish.”
“Oh, shall we go see koi?”
“Yes.”
Burying his head in her arms and holding Eun-chae in her arms as she nodded, Do-kyun thought that Eun-chae was down for some reason and moved on, stroking her back.
After leaving the entrance, go to the left corner of the yard and you will see a pond.
Do-gyun arrived there and handed down the silver bowl, and continued.
“It’s getting colder now, so let’s go in tonight.”
“Yeah.”
Nod Eun-chae nodded her head and put her butt on the small fishing chair in front of the pond.
It was the chair Do-gyun had bought. Eun-chae likes fish so much that she comes to the pond every day, and she buys a chair because squatting doesn’t look good on her back. In addition, it was a chair that has now become one of Eunchae’s treasures.
Eun-chae sat on her chair and blankly watched the koi swimming in the pond.
‘Red tooth’ with red stains on her white body.
Shining brightly in silver, ‘Bitnari’.
‘Sarangi’ is Eunchae’s favorite because it looks prettier than other carps.
Eun-chae looked at the carp she had named one by one, and she spent time holding Do-gyun’s hand, who had approached her side before she knew it.
Do-kyun spoke while feeling a small worry welling up inside Eun-chae, who seemed particularly weak lately.
“What’s going on?”
“No.”
“Really?”
Eun-chae’s gaze turned to Do-gyun at the pond. The gentle smile on his face was one of Eunchae’s favorite expressions of Dokyun.
While Eun-chae was looking at Do-gyun, she felt the words she had been hiding inside come out.
“Should I go too?”
Pop-.
Do-gyun’s movement stopped. His expression began to harden.
Prickly. Do-gyun, who had been looking at Eun-chae for a long time, not knowing what to say, and not knowing how Eun-chae was feeling to say such a thing, soon hugged Eun-chae tightly and spit out those words.
“You don’t have to go. You can stay as long as you think you don’t want to go.”
It was a lie.
However, even so, Do-gyun had no choice but to say that.
Since Eun-chae was Do-gyun’s sore finger, she was a person who approached Do-gyun with a toxic attachment. Do-kyun couldn’t possibly say to Eun-chae, ‘You’re a child who should disappear.’
Eun-chae gently closed her eyes in the warmth of her hug, and she nodded her head slightly.
Her outstretched arms wrapped around Do-gyun’s waist. Every time she breathed in, the smell of Do-gyun’s clothes seeped into Eun-chae’s nostrils.
Warm smell. Bean. Bean. A smell that makes your heart beat.
While Eun-chae was hugging Do-gyun, she suddenly felt drowsiness and closed her eyes.
*
Do-gyun, who came into the house with Eun-chae, who had fallen asleep, laid her on the sofa and tucked her hair flowing down her cheeks behind her ears while thinking.
‘I…’
Can I send silver coins?
Can I send this child away and live like that?
Eun-chae was different from other personalities.
Eun-chae’s lingering feelings have already been resolved. What Eunchae remains now is that Eunchae, who did not know anything at the time, wanted more Eunchae left, and he did not want to send Eunchae, so Eunchae still remained.
In other words, Eun-chae could disappear anytime she wanted.
If I had to count the lingering attachment to Eunchae, it would be to apologize to the four personalities that this child swallowed. Even that was the only one left.
Do-gyun realized that it was time to accept a fact he had been ignoring.
‘… Now.’
I had to prepare for a breakup.
There was no option of symbiosis. As with other personalities, it is because Eun-chae has a large share of Eun-ah’s memories in particular.
The memories of the four personalities and the memories of Eun-chae. In addition to that, Eun-chae has a personality that even has a core trauma that dominated Eun-ah’s childhood.
If Eunchae remains, Eunah will have to live with a hole for the rest of her life.
The question of which of the two is more important was not a matter of choosing one over the other.
Just because that was the right thing to do, Do-gyun couldn’t leave Eun-chae with greed.
Do-gyun looked at Eun-chae with a frowning expression and blurred eyes.
Sap-. Sap-. The sleeping figure exhaling was definitely Eun-ah’s, but it was Eun-chae to Do-gyun.
He was a very pitiful child who had been in pain all his life and now finally found joy.
Do-gyun’s head was lowered. A long breath flowed from his mouth.
‘I know…’
He knew he had to send Eunchae, but Do-gyun had absolutely no confidence to do so.
*
A few days later, the day Eun-seol comes out.
As soon as Do-gyun came out, he saw Eun-seol taking out a drink, and he spat out those words.
“Eunseol.”
“What.”
“Do you want to go out for a drink together?”
Eun-seol’s gaze turned to Do-gyun. The deeply sunken gaze quietly penetrated Do-gyun, as if trying to understand his intentions.
As Do-gyun received that gaze, he smiled and added his words.
“It’s been a while.”
There’s something I’d like to talk to you about.
With that in mind, Do-gyun waited for an answer, and eventually Eun-seol nodded in agreement.
“Go as you went before.”
“Good.”
Click.
Eun-seol put the liquor he had taken out back into the storage.
*
Quiet bar in downtown.
Do-gyun, who had been drinking until the film cut off the other day, sat down with Eun-seol and ate dry snacks.
“It’s nice to see you again.”
Words to evaluate the interior of the bar.
Eun-seol kept her mouth shut and nodded at his words, then continued to mutter a question.
“So, what’s the matter again, why are you so desperate?”
“What is the job?”
“You can see it from the face. It seems like you’re thinking about something that isn’t a dick again.”
It was a harsh word, but the meaning was infinitely warm.
Do-kyun giggled at Eun-seol’s tick-tick words, and then got out of luck.
“Because of Eunchae.”
“Why is that bitch in trouble again?”
“No, Eunchae is always nice.”
“George. Didn’t you see her doing that? You know that this ungrateful bitch lives off someone’s money.”
Wasn’t that because he passed on the hangover every time?
There was a thought that came to mind, but Do-gyun, who swallowed it with effort, spat out the words of excuses as if reciting with an awkward smile.
“… Still, in my eyes, he is the nicest in the world.”
“Huh, are you her father?”
At the question that came out with a blank laugh, Do-gyun shuddered and looked at his share of drinking glasses.
Are you daddy
It was a word that penetrated the meaning Eun-chae had for Do-gyun.
It wasn’t blood, and it wasn’t that the years we were together were long.
“… I think they are similar.”
Do-kyun thought of Eun-chae as if he were his daughter.
Is there no choice but to do that? She was a child who knew nothing and only knew how to hurt herself, so she saved such a child with her own hands.
He had accumulated new experiences and memories one by one, so Eunchae meant that to Do-gyun.
Do-kyun blurted out his expression at the thought that came to his mind, then spat out such words.
“… I don’t have the confidence to send silver.”
These days, a thought has been swirling all over Do-gyun’s head.
“It’s true that I have to send silver, but I know that…”
Seriously, why can’t my heart follow my thoughts?
“… I don’t want to let go.”
Words that were barely spoken.
Eun-seol listened to those words and gave that answer while looking at Do-gyun with a slightly broken expression.
“Then don’t send it.”
“… Yeah?”
“Who cares to tell you to send it? If you don’t want to send it, you can just not send it.”
Do-gyun raised his head at Eun-seol’s words. His expression was a frown filled with bewilderment.
“What is that…”
“Isn’t there a lot of time? Eun-ah is getting better now, and all the dangerous things have passed.”
After saying that, Eun-seol raised a glass and had a drink.
After drinking in a hurry and putting down the glass, he continued talking while looking at Do-gyun again.
“Why are you in such a hurry? Who wants to tell you to send her away quickly?”
“That’s…”
“That year will go smoothly. Look at the other kids Didn’t you go because it was your time?”
Do-gyun looked at Eun-seol with a blank face.
The image of him withdrawing his gaze from me and sipping alcohol with a nonchalant face.
Do-gyun looked back on himself at that appearance and at the words that continued right up until the moment.
‘Are you in a hurry…’
Were you in a hurry? I need to send Eunchae quickly. Did you think you had to send it?
After thinking about it, the answer came easily.
It was right to be hasty.
Since when
From the moment you send Eunji and Eunsam, and from the time you find stories related to Eunbyul, you have to resolve your lingering attachments to Eunbyeol. That the personalities should have a happy end.
It seems that from the moment I made that resolution, I had a mind of being chased.
Do-gyun realized it belatedly.
He knew that no one had told him to send personalities out quickly.
The one who was in a hurry to send the personalities now was himself alone.
Suddenly, a breath came out of his mouth with a ‘fuh’ sound.
“… I must be an idiot.”
“You bastard.”
“That is a bit too much.”
Food. A laugh escaped Dokyun’s mouth.
“Is that okay?”
“Why are you asking me that? Did you ask Eun-ah?”
After saying that, Eun-seol frowned at the empty glass and ordered another bottle of strong liquor.
Then, he cast his gaze toward Do-gyun again and spat out those words.
“But damn why don’t you drink after you say let’s drink?”
A swear word that bursts out.
At that, Do-kyun said ‘Poo-Hyung’ and burst into laughter.
