Chapter 158 – Chapter 158
The act of writing was like a kind of obsession to me.
The reason is… What would it be It’s just because I was born that way.
Obsessed with the stolen story, but still unable to hate the mother who took him away. For that reason, Eun-ah made me, so I shouldn’t stop talking.
It was me who had to continue the story Eun-ah loved and the story she had been taken away from, so writing was an obsession for me.
I had to relieve my anger.
It was a resentment that was not mine, but it was still welling up inside me, so I had to relieve it.
I had to hate you.
It was a hatred that was not mine, but I had to hate my mother nonetheless, as my emotions forced me to do so.
I couldn’t finish the story.
If that happened, this story wouldn’t belong to Eun-ah. Because the end of the story that I was holding on to was all taken away.
So, the story isn’t over.
So I have written countless times the last volume of the story that can never be finished.
It was a repetition of writing, erasing him and writing again, erasing him and writing again.
Time passed just like that.
There was no more mother.
However, the story could not be finished.
Eun-ah’s heart closed. I disappeared from Eun-ah.
Even so, the story could not be finished.
The story that lost its purpose continued its voyage, drifting aimlessly like that.
Maybe that’s why I was tired.
I’m afraid of the future where I have to continue the never-ending story, I feel like what I’m doing is not sailing but an endless dive, I feel like I’m falling into the bottomless deep sea.
Maybe that’s why I was tired.
So, when I got to know you, I was finally able to be saved.
In the community that Eunbyeol introduced, I was able to see your writings and be saved.
Do you know The day Eunbyeol introduced me to the community, it was you who made me a ghost there.
While I was sinking endlessly, what brought me up was the nonsensical text you wrote at that moment.
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[Deep Sea Bee: How’s the annual work?]
No, it’s a bitch, why are you swearing at the year-round due to the obituary of the author!!!
└ Non-Cooperative: Yes~ Next abortion bug~
└Tank in heat: Year round, right? Did you have an abortion? Isn’t it finished?
└Deep Sea Bee: Even your parents should have aborted you.
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There were words I couldn’t bear being ashamed of.
To me, who was continuing the never-ending story, you can stop as it is. It feels like saying that, it means that I was able to be saved by that trivial word.
So, to you who saved me. To you who don’t know me, I want to present a story for you with stories you might like, so I started writing my own.
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[Deep Sea Bee: Why is there no color ball in the Heavenly Magic Ball?]
This is color ball discrimination!!!!
└Muchigimuchi: Nook hahaCheonmabalkkkk
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I wanted to write the story you imagined.
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[Deep Sea Bee: The Knight Commander is a Bangkaeji]
Full plate looks like joss?
└Tprtmzld: Are you cut from the magic missile line?
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I wanted to present a story that you would enjoy.
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[Deep Sea Bee: The hero pours all his strength at the end]
Isn’t it a national rule to turn around coolly after catching the final boss?
└ Meow Heaven: Heroine and Ignorance Crossing Press Ending ㅇㅇ?
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So, I wanted to express my gratitude to you that I cannot express in words.
If I do that, then I think I can end this voyage without a destination. I think my story can come to an end. So that was when I started writing.
So the day I finally came, I felt like my heart was going to explode when I first met you.
The thought that I could finally show you my story, the thought of being able to present this story to you made me feel all over the place.
Finally, this story has found its owner.
It went wrong somewhere and became a strange novel, but I was so grateful that you watched it.
So, because you are Thanks to you, I was able to finish the story I wrote. The story of my endless voyage can finally come to an end.
‘Now…’
I was able to leave feeling relieved.
The gaze was directed at you, the deep-sea bee, and Chae Do-gyun.
“Oh, is there a place like this in this town?”
“How are you?”
“Awesome.”
Do-gyun Chae’s eyes sparkled, and I laughed for some reason.
One day, he guided me to a night view spot I accidentally discovered, so it was worthwhile to introduce something I liked so much.
I talked to Chae Do-gyun in the same state of giggling.
“A temporary shelter.”
“Do you know everything about this subject?”
“Ah! I’m not the head of this town!”
“Ouch, you’re doing great.”
Dude, you should be grateful. A smile came out of my mouth even while thinking about it.
I shifted my gaze from Chae Do-gyun to a faraway view of the neighborhood.
Under the dark night sky, the whole neighborhood is lit up in colorful lights, which is mind-boggling.
The last thing you see is this kind of scene, isn’t it a really awesome ending?
“I’m gay.”
“Yes?”
“Thanks.”
Pop-.
Chae Do-gyun’s body stopped.
Shitty guy Already then, what are you going to do later?
“Thanks to you, my novel, which was buried in the deep sea, did not go up. Thank you very much, gay.”
“… Star.”
Chae Do-kyun’s expression darkened. Look at me measuring each one to cry again.
“Uno?”
“I don’t cry.”
“By the way, is the expression Wagrano?”
“… I’m sleepy.”
Try to be a little more sincere in your excuses. Chae Do-gyun, with a face that looked like he was about to burst into tears at any moment, was trying hard to suppress his tears by frowning on his face.
Oh, is it too selfish if I feel grateful for nothing? Still, a feeling of gratitude welled up little by little for being sad.
I made a embarrassed face for no reason at the emotions rising inside me, then spat out the words.
“Bee gay, one of the juices is excellent.”
“His way of talking… !”
You should be less sad this way. Everyone except Eun-ah knows that Chae Do-gyun is a crybaby, but what is he trying to hide…
‘… No.’
Now Eun-ah will know. Because i’m leaving Because I will leave this memory where I leave.
‘Hmm, it’s worth watching.’
What would Eun-a do if she found out that this guy, who pretended to be cool in front of Eun-a, was a loser in the world?
It was a bit sad that I couldn’t see him. Well, if he regrets it so much, he won’t be able to go even if he goes for the rest of his life.
I shook off a bit of regret and then turned his head towards Chae Do-gyun.
“Don’t cry, gay. Who would think you would die if you saw it?”
“… Because I’m not crying.”
“Catch Gao.”
Oh, the laughter continued. Isn’t it all a belly button comedy?
Chae Do-gyun crying so much, and my situation of leaving now.
“I’m gay.”
“… What.”
“All of our babies are gay. I can’t even ride anymore.”
“I’m still riding.”
“Ah, it gives you mental ownership, isn’t it?”
My eyes looked at Chae Do-gyun again. Chae Do-gyun was sniffing at his nose as he watched the night view again.
I had a few, many questions. Actually, it’s a question he half knows the answer to, but he wanted to ask Chae Do-gyun directly and hear the answer.
“I’m gay.”
“What else?”
“My novel. How was it?”
A novel I wrote thanks to you. A novel I wrote because I was so grateful to you.
Was the novel good? Did the novel entertain you? Did that novel, the story I wrote, have meaning to you as well?
The curiosity remains, so I will hand over the question here.
Chae Do-kyun started to whimper at my question, and finally uttered a word.
“It’s fucking weird.”
“Kuh, is that so?”
“But it’s fun.”
“Yes?”
“It’s fucking weird, but it’s fun. It smells like brawn.”
Saying that, Chae Do-gyun looked at me, and then he continued with a squeamish smile on his lips.
“I don’t review any novels. Don’t you know me?”
Answer you hear. At that, I blankly blinked my eyes, then replied with a ‘bread’ bursting into laughter.
“Ah! Fiction Community Group 1 Gonik Deep Sea Bee No!”
“Yeah dude.”
Ah, I wanted to hear that even empty words are fine, so I got a pretty plausible answer to the question I asked.
I laughed at him again, but I couldn’t stand the joy that rose up, and I pushed my fist toward Chae Do-gyun.
“Who are we?”
Oh, I hope not.
The moment when I was about to lower my fist, wondering if I had gone too far since I was a guy who freaked out just by doing this.
“… A jokester.”
Took-.
Fists met.
When I opened my eyes wide and looked at Chae Do-gyun, Chae Do-gyun spat out those words with a smile on his face.
“I’m doing it because it’s the last time, dude.”
At the answer that came back, I let out a laugh.
“Thank you!”
Bastard, don’t you know what romance is?
With a face full of joy, I fell from the railing I had been leaning on the day before, and turned my body straight towards Chae Do-gyun, weaving the words of farewell between my lips.
‘Hmm…’
I want to go really cool.
How should I speak. I licked my lips and thought about it for a while, then I came up with the right words and continued with a smile.
“Thanks to you, I had a good time!”
Once you start like this
“Third-rate writer Go Eun-sam, I’m going to finish it right here.”
Also give me this line
“So, now you only mark first-class writer Go Eun-ah!”
Well, I wish it would end like this.
I said that and looked at Chae Do-gyun.
Chae Do-gyun made a face full of surprise at my words. Why, since I don’t use community language, it must be awkward.
It was understandable enough. Isn’t it awkward for me to say it too?
I giggled at the thought that came to my mind and returned exactly what Chae Do-gyun had said to me just before.
“I’m doing it because it’s the last time, dude!”
I beg you to speak so plainly, but in the end, what is it that you can’t do?
When I said that with a chuckle, Chae Do-gyun spat out the answer with an expression that didn’t know whether he was crying or laughing.
“Thank you!”
Likewise, Chae Do-gyun was returning the same answer I had given.
I made him smile as brightly as possible.
Thoughts follow. My long, long story runs through my head.
Well, what should I define?
‘Ah.’
I hope this
‘I had fucking sex.’
It was the most fun
