Chapter 123 – Chapter 123
Do-gyun fell asleep before he knew it and spits out a laugh as he sees Eun-chae shaking his shoulders.
Fortunately, Eunchae liked fairy tales.
… I liked it a little, a lot.
Eun-chae wondered if she had read all 10 fairy tales and still wasn’t enough.
There was no problem with the reading itself, but as the tree frog reads to you, you will be at a loss for answers as you continue to ask difficult questions.
Do-gyun, who had been moaning in pain at the moments that came to mind, soon carefully laid her Eun-chae on the sofa and stood up.
It was dinner time now, so we had to prepare the meal.
‘What should I feed…’
Anxiety came to mind.
It’s almost two weeks now, and what I’ve felt while taking care of Eunchae is that taking care of someone’s meals is not an ordinary job.
It was work to come up with different dishes so that I would not get bitten each time, and it was work to consider nutrition, and it was also work to force feed them when they complained about side dishes.
Do-gyun let out a small sigh, turned his head, looked at Eun-chae, and let out a giggling laugh.
I didn’t know that I would know the hardships of parenting first before getting married.
‘I gave you meat, so this time I have to give it mostly grass…’ .’
I’m worried about what will happen if I run away in front of the fish tank again.
Continuing his worries, Do-gyun exhaled for a long time and then headed to the kitchen, rubbing his stiff neck.
Feeding is something to think about at that time, so I had to make a meal before I woke up.
*
Eun-chae woke up just as the prepared meal was on the table.
Do-kyun saw Eun-chae, who was startled, and wondered what had happened, so he quickly went to the sofa and looked at Eun-chae’s complexion and spit out a question.
“What’s the matter? Where is it not good?”
“Yes?”
Do-gyun made a complexion full of worries when he saw Eun-chae blankly looking around.
A cold sweat broke out on his forehead. A slight trembling was transmitted through the hand touching the cheek.
At first glance, it doesn’t look good. As Do-gyun brushed Eun-chae’s face, Eun-chae caught her breath and then looked at Do-gyun and spat out words.
“There were no bees.”
“Yes?”
When Do-gyun tilted her head at her words, Eun-chae leaned her head against Do-gyun and continued her words as if muttering.
“It was in a strange place, but the bee was not there.”
It was a bit meaningful, but Do-kyun knew at once what it meant.
“I must have been dreaming.”
“Dream?”
Giggle Do-gyun, who saw Eun-chae’s head tilted to the side, sat down next to Eun-chae and patted her on the back.
“Yes dream. Well, it’s like thinking in your sleep.”
“Do you think about it while you sleep?”
A ‘grunt’ sound came out of Do-gyun’s mouth at the question handed to him.
What should I explain?
Do-gyun’s knowledge was too shallow to explain what a dream was within the scope of Eun-chae’s understanding.
While pondering for a moment with his lips moving, Do-gyun added a little clumsiness.
“So, you just had a dream too? Because dreams are thoughts that you don’t know about, so they feel a little bit real.”
“Yes…”
Do-gyun let out a small sigh of relief at Eun-chae’s understanding with a small nod, then asked a question.
“By the way, what dream did you have that makes your face look so bad?”
“… A dream without bees.”
Still vague words.
When Do-gyun tilted her head, Eun-chae crumpled her expression as if trying to think of her thoughts, then added an explanation.
“I was very sick and very sad, but the bee was not there. So I looked for Mr. Bee, but I couldn’t find Mr. Bee…”
Eun-chae said that, and her lips twitched, narrowing the space between her brows, and continued her words slowly.
“… So I was scared.”
She must have had a nightmare
While Do-gyun, who remembered that thought, was trying to answer, Eun-chae’s words continued once more.
“And there was Eun-ah.”
“… Yes?”
Words that followed. Do-gyun’s fingertips trembled.
Eunah.
My body responded to the word without even realizing it.
As if Eun-chae was trying to recall the content of her dream, she narrowed her eyebrows and continued her worries. This time, she added a more specific explanation.
“Eun-ah was sleeping. She is cold when she sleeps lying on the floor, but she won’t wake up when I wake her, so I keep waking her up, but she still doesn’t wake up.”
Do-gyun’s mouth twitched.
I wanted to ask more details.
It’s because she had something on her mind.
If it wasn’t just a dream, but a manifestation of unconsciousness, if Eun-a really fell into a deep sleep, then when that thought came to my mind, I felt like my heart was pounding.
While hesitating for a moment, Do-gyun chewed and swallowed the questions that came to his mind as he watched Eun-chae breathe a little.
Asking him here was a handshake.
Doesn’t Eun-chae look uneasy right now?
Do-gyun patted Eun-chae on the back, took a deep breath, and erased the rising anxiety.
It was, a little bit, to be expected.
Lastly, how was the situation before Eun-ah went in? Didn’t the moment come when he should realize the temporal gap, so he handed himself over to Eun-byeol and hid?
The stress would have been enormous.
Maybe, as in that dream, it could have really fallen asleep under unconsciousness.
I knew the solution.
The thing I always had in mind, the way I listened to it too much and now it’s stuck in my head.
‘… The integration of silver.’
If Eunchae is integrated, Eunah will return.
Do-gyun looked at Eun-chae, who gently closed her eyes in his arms.
I know, I have to, but yet.
‘… Little bit more.’
I wanted to take my time.
I wanted to greet a more satisfying farewell, not a farewell that was chased by time.
Maybe it was my greed.
He might feel sorry for both Eun-ah and Eun-seol.
Even so, the reason why he swallowed such a nervous heart was because he had already given affection to Eun-chae.
Do-gyun calmed down his trembling heart, put a smile on his lips, and then spoke to Eun-chae.
“You had a bad dream.”
“Yes?”
Eun-chae raised her head. Do-gyun looked at me with blank eyes, made a slightly humorous expression, and then continued his conversation playfully.
“I was punished for eating only meat.”
Flinch.
Do-gyun laughed lightly at Eun-chae, who trembled at his words, and continued by gently stroking Eun-chae’s hair.
“So should I eat vegetables too?”
Eun-chae’s mouth closed tightly at the words handed to her.
Even in the midst of that, the car that had a firm will to eat unbalanced was seen, and Eun-chae, who had been glancing over the table, nodded slightly, narrowing her brows.
*
Another few days passed.
After that day, Eunchae had many nightmares.
Even in the middle of the night, during naps, when she wakes up from nightmares, she shakes me up and puts her head in her arms.
Why is this? Do-gyun, who had been thinking of such a thought, came up with a possibility only belatedly.
Perhaps, this is a sign that Eun-ah and Eun-chae are separated.
Eun-seol once said something like that.
The reason why Eun-chae and Eun-ah hadn’t fallen so far was because Eun-chae thought of herself as Eun-ah.
That’s why Eun-chae was able to identify with herself in Eun-ah’s delusion.
Judging from those words, as Eun-chae no longer thinks of herself as Eun-ah, the sluggish separation must be progressing.
In hindsight, that was a good sign.
The moment Eun-ah and Eun-chae were completely separated, that moment was the moment when Eun-ah’s delusion ended, so there was no reason to be bad.
However, it must be because of Eun-chae, who is just now realizing the world, that she feels uncomfortable despite the moment she has been waiting for so long.
The moment the separation ends, Eun-seol will try to delete Eun-chae.
It’s because Eun-seol doesn’t know Eun-chae’s current situation.
As Eun-chae is a personality outside of Eun-seol’s control, Eun-seol also cannot know the outside situation when Eun-chae is out.
Do-gyun wanted to convince Eun-seol. He wanted to give Eun-chae a chance so that she could live a little longer even after the separation was over.
So, Do-gyun came up with a method. He thought about it for several days, and while he was thinking about it by reducing his sleep, he came up with a simpler method than he thought.
‘I ask Eunchae to call Eunseol.’
At the point where Eun-chae is not completely separated, he convinces Eun-seol at this timing that he can use his hands.
It was not an improbable story.
If Eun-chae could summon Eun-seol in a way other than self-injury, she could show a lot with that action alone.
I was able to show that Eunchae was no longer in danger, and that Eunchae was changing.
That’s how you can create a basis for persuading the concealment.
Do-gyun lowered his gaze a little and looked at Eun-chae, who was sitting on his thigh and looking at a storybook.
In the meantime, he was reading a fairy tale to Eun-chae.
Ugly duckling.
Eun-chae only likes fairy tales, so she begged me to read this book every day.
When asked what she liked so much, Eun-chae thinks about it, but she immediately responds with ‘just’.
When he hears such an answer, Do-gyun strokes Eun-chae’s head and smiles.
Why don’t you know
It is natural that there is no reason to like it.
Good is just good.
If you were to point out the reason, you could give a lot of reasons, but wouldn’t that be a fundamental answer to that ‘good’ thing?
It was just that my heart was moved, and I liked it so much that the elements that made up it became the reason for ‘good’.
Eunchae has finally learned the right form of affirmation.
She couldn’t end it like this.
He had to convince Eun-seol not only for Eun-chae, but also for himself.
Do-gyun closed the book he had read to the end, took a deep breath, and then spoke to Eun-chae.
“Hey.”
“Yes?”
Eun-chae’s eyes turned to me.
Do-gyun looked at Eun-chae, who was shaking his head in a daze, and pursed his lips, then took a deep breath and continued.
“… Can I call Eunseol?”
I won’t ask who Eun-seol is.
Eun-chae would know who Eun-seol is better than anyone else in the world.
Why not He was a person who always put the brakes on me, but Eun-chae couldn’t help but notice.
Tension began to build up in his body.
Do-kyun looked at the trembling Eun-chae, startled by my words.
Eun-chae hesitated at the words that were handed to her, but then again, unable to make eye contact, she looked around the room and spoke while holding on to Do-gyun’s collar.
“So, am I going to sleep again?”
Took.
And spit out words.
Do-gyun understood at once what Eun-chae meant by ‘sleep’.
It must mean being submerged unconsciously.
It was an understandable kind of anxiety.
How would you like it? It is to sleep without knowing when you will wake up, but who will like it?
Do-gyun looked at Eun-chae, who showed anxiety with his whole body, and put the book in his hand and hugged Eun-chae tightly and spat out words.
“No, it will be very short this time.”
Tok. Tok.
Do-gyun patted him on the back and spat out his words, then put Eun-chae and his forehead together and spoke in a calm tone.
“I want to be with you longer, I want to go to more places, so I’m only leaving for a while.”
“Wait a minute?”
“Yeah, wait a minute. You fall asleep for a little while, then you wake up again.”
While Do-gyun was talking, he felt Eun-chae’s body trembling little by little and stroked Eun-chae’s cheek as he continued.
“When you wake up, shall we make another sandwich?”
Eun-chae’s lips were sweet.
Eun-chae, who was staring blankly at herself and pursed her lips, continued by holding onto Do-gyun’s collar.
“A lot of meat?”
Words coming back.
At that, Dokyun giggled and nodded his head.
“Yeah, a lot.”
So much that I couldn’t fit it all in one bite.
As I looked at Eun-chae with that thought in mind, Eun-chae’s head nodded slightly.
“When you wake up, will you be with me again?”
“Yeah, we’re together again.”
“Yes…”
Head nodding once again.
Immediately after, Eun-chae, who fell from Do-gyun’s arms and sat down next to her, closed her eyes and remained silent.
A small breath follows, followed by a body stretch.
Do-gyun swallowed his tension and looked at him for a long time.
When she opened her eyes again, it was Eunseol who was moving her body.
