Chapter 110 – Chapter 110
The words that followed were the first things Do-gyun knew.
“The reaction people have when they see something outside of their understanding is one of two things. Awe, or fear.”
Eun-seol said that and gently shook her glass. Immediately after, Eun-seol, who was watching the small whirlpool inside the swaying glass, seemed to be thinking for a while, then spat out the words.
“Seo Han-gyeong’s reaction was fear. Her pride would not allow her to be in awe of the daughter who came out of my belly.”
Laughter that suffocates and bursts out.
Do-gyun recalled that the laugh must have been a mockery. That would be the case, it was because Eun-seol’s expression remained firm even while she was laughing.
“Well, even if it wasn’t for that, it deserved it. How many people wouldn’t be afraid of a five or six year old kid walking towards me with blood dripping down his arm?”
Startle.
Do-kyun shuddered as he felt a sentence from his diary come to mind again at the words he heard.
– Today, instead of my mother, I was sick.
His fists were clenched. I was so sad and angry that a kid who was only 5 or 6 years old wanted to be loved, so that was how he came up with it. So my fists were clenched.
“Since the day he met Ko Eun-chae, Seo Han-kyung’s mania has intensified to the point where it couldn’t get any worse. It’s rare that I have time to stay sane. Ko Eun-chae at that time did not know good anymore than she does now.”
Eun-seol continued with blank eyes and a face that seemed to reminisce about a more distant past.
“Seo Han-gyeong had a seizure every time Go Eun-chae came out. She picks up and throws things and screams at her loudly. Then, one day, Ko Eun-ah was locked up in this house.”
Hearing this, Dokyun widened his eyes.
“The structure of this house is…”
“It’s because of Go Eun-chae. There are a few things we added to catch you, but that’s basically it.”
It was for an unexpected reason. He obviously thought he had built this structure to confine himself. Another house within a house. Door lock installed in the reverse direction. A window covered with insulating tape.
“What is that… !”
When Do-gyun let out such boiling anger, Eun-seol, who saw him, smiled and continued.
“It is in the past. Just know that So, going back to what I was saying… It worked. The more Go Eun-chae did the damn thing, the bigger the place for Go Eun-ah. Seo Han-gyeong came to care for Go Eun-ah even more.”
At the words he heard, his expression darkened.
It’s because he thought it was a very bad way.
“It was the worst. From Seo Han-kyung’s point of view, she was afraid of Go Eun-chae, so she held on to Go Eun-ah, but from Go Eun-ah’s point of view, that wasn’t the case. The more Go Eun-chae grows, the more she is loved. In the end, everything Go Eun-chae does becomes a ‘good thing’ to be loved.”
Twisted. Twisted and twisted again. It was a situation where I could only say that.
“It’s ironic, those moments were the happiest moments in Go Eun-ah’s life. She was the period when Ko Eun-ah was most loved by her. Because Seo Han-kyung, who is my only world, and Ko Eun-chae hugged me every time I opened my eyes.”
Eun-seol, who was talking, took a deep breath and drank the glass that had been filled to the brim.
“That set-up came out then. The moment Ko Eun-ah was loved the most, I wanted Seo Han-kyung to see this and praise me.”
Do-kyun’s gaze followed her chin and headed for the note.
[The Rusty Sword and the Grave of the Hummingbird]
I dare to say my first love.
“It was a time when Seo Han-gyeong was engrossed in writing a new book. Even in the middle of the mania, I had to achieve something.”
“Result… You mean?”
“Yeah achievement. I don’t know if he felt it roughly, but Seo Han-kyung was the son of his family. He said that Go Eun-ah’s grandfather hated flawed humans.”
Flaw. Am I abandoning my child for that reason? It was something Do-gyun couldn’t understand, so it was naturally revealed on his face.
Eun-seol glanced at Do-gyun, then let out a small breath and added an explanation.
“From his grandfather’s point of view, Seo Han-gyeong is a child of depravity. He’s been through years of ROI converging to zero. He’s not doing anything to help the company. He writes while he says he will do art on the subject. But he doesn’t have anything to say that he’s representative. In addition, he was born with a child from an unknown man as the apex of the fire dragon, so he must have looked good in his grandfather’s eyes?”
Only then did I understand something. Certainly, all of Seo Han-gyeong’s works were ruined until he published a book called [The Rusty Sword and the Grave of the Hummingbird].
“Well, for Seo Han-gyeong, this house was like an exile. I’m sure I was living a life that others couldn’t imagine, but it was more dissatisfying than living at my father’s house. So I did something to get recognized.”
Do-kyun, who had been listening to that, suddenly felt an empty laugh coming out.
“So what you’re doing is stealing my son’s story?”
“So there was nothing I couldn’t do if I could be acknowledged. To Seo Han-kyung, Go Eun-ah’s heart is not important.”
Do-gyun listened to the words and took his share of the glass and drank. It was because his throat was so dry it felt like it was going to burn.
“Of course, I roll my eyes. Who would have thought that a five or six-year-old kid could write something like this? It was an unexpected windfall from Seo Han-gyeong’s point of view.”
“The windfall…”
“If Go Eun-ah had been a little stupid, it would have been a windfall. It would have been an ending that everyone was satisfied with. Seo Han-kyung achieves results, and Go Eun-ah is loved.”
Do-kyun’s gaze turned to Eun-seol at the words that followed. Eun-seol was refilling two empty glasses with deep sunken eyes.
“As I said, Go Eun-ah was a kid whose thinking ability was beyond human. I knew that Hankyung Seo was stealing my story. Seo Han-kyung is also stupid, I stole it and proudly put the published copy in my library.”
“What…”
She was an absurd human being. When her words spilled out, revealing such thoughts without filtering, Eun-seol smiled and spoke again.
“Oh, even Go Eun-ah is eccentric. Even though she is my mother whom I love so much, it seems that I can’t forgive her. She just gave up on the story and started to resent her mother for not being able to do what she should have been loved.”
Obsession with the story. There was something about him.
“Even in the midst of that, I was afraid that I couldn’t be loved more if I resented her, so I read the book I stole and published until the paper ran out, breaking my spirits.”
Do-gyun realized what Eun-seol was talking about.
“That’s when Eun-sam came out.”
“You notice so fast.”
It reminded me of what had happened several months ago. When I first went to the study and found the book, only that book had a lot of hand stains.
According to Eun-seol, it would mean that Eun-ah had been looking at the book all day in order to split her personality.
While listening to the story, Do-gyun raised his head as he suddenly had a sense of incongruity, and continued talking while looking at Eun-seol.
“Then did Ko Eun-sam come out before Eun-seol?”
During the story, Eun-seol’s story never came up. In response to a question raised by a question about him, Eun-seol stayed silent for a while before spitting out the answer.
“I was there a long time ago. There was just nothing I could do.”
Words spoken softly. As Do-gyun tilted his head at him, Eun-seol continued with a tone that hinted at remorse.
“Do you remember when Ko Eun-chae was said to be imprisoned in this house?”
“… Yeah.”
“That front door didn’t open until Go Eun-ah came back. So, when I was out, I was always stuck here, so I couldn’t do anything. There was no clue that Seo Han-gyeong could detect my existence.”
“Ah…”
As the words continued, there was a sentence that popped into Do-gyun’s head.
Words written in a particularly crooked handwriting in the diary.
– It’s too cold.
It was about him After Ko Eun-chae came out, I was always there alone. In other words, his blood gushed out in a flowing state.
Through him, Do-gyun was able to understand that the sentence meant the cold caused by hypothermia that comes as blood drains from the body.
After seeing Do-gyun’s expression distort after noticing him, Eun-seol, seeing Do-kyun’s expression, sighed briefly before continuing.
“Well, that’s not important. After Ko Eun-sam was separated through such a process, it is important that Go Eun-ah’s delusions began to overlap reality.”
What do you mean it doesn’t matter? Same. No, maybe he was the one who suffered the most.
“Now that Ko Eun-sam is separated, there is no reason to hate Seo Han-gyeong. In Go Eun-ah’s head, the book became a story that her mother and I were making together. She became a tool for herself to be loved.”
As Do-gyun was looking at Eun-seol with a sad face, Eun-seol sighed deeply at the sight of him, then continued to speak.
“Don’t make that face. It’s in the past for me.”
“How…”
“Still, if you feel sorry for me, then make Go Eun-ah happy. Because that’s all I need.”
Words that interrupt me and continue. Do-gyun felt his mouth shut tight.
Because Eun-seol wanted it, he didn’t have himself until the end.
Dokyun felt his fists tighten.
At that moment, something vaguely felt. She was felt in her words and expression.
It was infinitely close to intuition, but I felt a strange certainty nonetheless.
She was about to disappear the moment her eunah was happy.
“… I hate it.”
Eun-seol’s eyes turned to Do-gyun again. The expression was frowning.
“What…”
“I don’t understand why. If it ends like that, Eun-seol will end up unhappy until the end, right?”
It wasn’t meant to be.
Do-gyun did not like tragedy. Every story Do-gyun knew had to have a happy ending.
“Give me another reason. I cannot accept that reason.”
Perhaps, it was a word similar to forced. It is said that this is what he wants, but isn’t it that I am not convinced and am talking too presumptuously?
I know, but what I didn’t like was what I didn’t like.
“If Ko Eun-chae disappears and I remain, aren’t you trying to disappear?”
“…”
I didn’t hear an answer. However, Do-gyun could feel that the silence meant affirmation.
Do-gyun recalled other personalities.
Eunji wants to fool around to the fullest. Eun-sam wants to finish her story. Byeol is… I don’t know, but there must have been a reason for myself.
Not to mention, even that Go Eun-chae had a wish for herself.
“Even if it’s just a small thing, give it a reason like what Eun-seol wants to do.”
“… The story keeps leaking the other way.”
“If you don’t talk, I won’t listen.”
Do-gyun crossed his arms and said that. The cover-up was just as important to me as the contents of this note.
Eun-seol looked at him and frowned, then sighed deeply and began to think.
He didn’t drink a glass. It was a time to connect my worries while staring blankly at the alcohol in the glass.
The silence continued for a long time, and Eun-seol’s answer came only after that.
“… I just want to drink all day without worrying about anything.”
The answer that came out sounded like a trivial thing at first glance, but Do-gyun could feel from those words that she had lived a life that had never been worry-free.
Do-gyun, who tried to raise the corner of his mouth, nodded in satisfaction and spat out an answer.
“It’s good. Then, I will do the masterpiece for you.”
“A bastard who can’t even drink is saying…”
I felt like I flinched at the words I heard.
“… What will happen if you decide to die and eat it?”
“Throw away the inside.”
“That’s something I’ll be worried about the next day.”
“… Sick bastard.”
Do-gyun glanced at Eun-seol as he said that.
The words that came back were words of selling, but the expression was soft. For a moment as her heart was relieved by him, Do-kyun stretched out her left fist, spread only her pinky finger, and spoke to her.
“It is a promise.”
The hand that was handed over to signify a finger. Seeing Eun-seol, he let out a deep sigh and spat out an answer.
“Are you a kid?”
The words of selling that come again. However, even in the midst of that, the fingers were steadily intertwined.
