Chapter 184 – Chapter 02: The Gold Half Is the Hero, the Half Is XXX
So, Jeol Yu-jin was telling her that if she was thinking of denying the entire life she had lived so far because it was not possible, then she should give it up.
“If you, who have experienced your own life and not anyone else, deny your life just because the original exists, then who can affirm your life?”
“…”
“Even if the original work exists, there is no guarantee that this Orbital World is truly the world in the original game. Conversely, the original game may have been created based on this Orbital World.”
Eugene said, “Isn’t this a setting that often appears in novels?” The setting is a game that appears in a different world as a result of simulating one world.
“In other words, there is a good possibility that this world is real and that games about the world we live in were created based on that reality.”
So, Eugene was saying that if you have time to waste your mental energy on useless things, think about what you can do for yourself in the future.
“B-but you know everything about me, right? That is, through the original work…”
“I told you. “The original work itself may have been the result of a simulation of this reality, the Orbital World, by a nearly omnipotent being.”
“Well, there’s no way such a thing exists…” …”
“Then does it make sense to enter the world of the original game? Right there. I told you, right? “It is said that entities called yomas also existed on the Earth where we lived.”
Eugene said that he believes there is a high possibility that even the gods who appear in mythology exist in the underworld of the Earth.
“In other words, it is said that the mythical era existed even on Earth. But can we be sure that there really isn’t a divine being who simulates an entire world and releases it as a game in another world?”
“… …”
There was no way Yeonhwa could answer Eugene’s question.
She didn’t even know that the Earth was such a magical world, so even on that Earth, she had no basis to refute the words of Eugene, who had superpowers.
“Hey, Moon Ae-ri. I give this advice as a senior who was originally a person with special abilities, and for a person with special abilities, confidence is the most important factor than anything else. … But at the same time, you can’t be sure of anything.”
“Fuck… “What kind of bullshit is this?”
Moon Ae-ri, who seemed to have been persuaded by the advice Eugene gave her in a serious voice, but with no signs of going crazy, spouted out her swear words and answered.
“You might think it’s a contradiction. However, since humans are inherently contradictory beings, we must accept that. … Well, to put it simply, that’s it. At least don’t doubt the fact that you exist. At the same time, it also tells us to never be absolutely sure of our judgment.”
Ultimately, the thoughts of a person with special abilities can be said to be an ‘image’ that comes from self-confidence.
An image of how you will handle essence based on your confidence that you can handle essence.
And for a person with such abilities, if his confidence in himself is shaken, it means that his intention is shaken, which in other words means that his image of dealing with essence is shaken.
Therefore, if a person with special abilities loses confidence in himself, it immediately leads to a demon of coinage and an overflow of essence, and such a phenomenon is commonly referred to as ‘simma’.
“Doubt about oneself leads to demonic possession by the mind. However, if you only have confidence in yourself, you may not be able to move forward because you cannot recognize your shortcomings. In other words, people with special abilities are ultimately human. Even if there are contradictions, we are beings who always have to believe in ourselves and move forward while doubting ourselves.”
And, perhaps in her past life, Moon Ae-ri in her current life was ultimately a martial artist with the ability to manipulate essence.
“So don’t doubt the trajectory you’ve been through or the reality. That was a clear reality. “Even if it was just a setup to someone else, it was still real to you.”
In the first place, for a person, what he or she has experienced, not what he or she has experienced, but what others have experienced, even if it is the reality experienced by someone living in the same world…
“In a way, it’s just a setting. For example, things like the biography of great people and the diary.”
Obviously, the biography of great people is a book that records the history of someone who existed. The same was true for the diary. A diary was a record of what happened.
“But. You haven’t personally experienced what happened in the great man’s story and what happened in the diary, right? In that sense, what if, when you read those two books, you accept them as mere ‘settings’ in fantasy, not reality?”
So, in the end, even if it really happened to Moon Ae-ri, it could have been nothing more than a setup to her.
“Who can guarantee that all records of human history actually happened?”
So in the end, the only thing you can truly believe in is your own experience.
“So don’t doubt it. “This reality you have lived in is clearly real.”
“… Fuck, you speak well. “The possessed guy.”
In response to Eugene’s remark, Moon Ae-ri took a breath and responded, wondering if it was somehow true.
Orbital World If a person who is more likely than anyone else to think of this world as a game and not reality were to speak in such a way, it would be inherently unconvincing.
However, each of Eugene’s remarks contained a feeling of sincerity, which is why Moon Ae-ri could not bring herself to say anything denying his remarks.
And as a result, Moon Ae-ri, who was eventually persuaded by Eugene, asked with a sigh.
“Yes, what’s important now is not whether the world I live in is real or fake. Isn’t it important that a possessed person who knows me better than me is making an unknown proposal to me? “Fuck.”
In that sense, it was Moon Ae-ri who asked a straight-forward question about what she wanted by talking to herself, the reincarnated person.
In response to her question, Eugene compliments her by saying that, like an assassin, he has the eye to distinguish what is most important in the current situation.
“You have very good judgment. Yes, the important thing now is not a philosophical story that cannot be verified. “The point is that the possessed person, whom you also vaguely know about, revealed his identity and spoke to you.”
And as always in stories where a possessed person is described, the fact that someone who knew about the original revealed his identity naturally meant that he wanted something from the other person.
So, right now, it is more important for Moon Ae-ri to find out what Eugene wanted when he spoke to her.
“But unfortunately, this is not the moment for us to have a proper conversation.”
“… What?”
However, Eugene was not able to give the answer she wanted to Moon Ae-ri, who was trying to somehow regain her senses and get to the point.
“What we can confirm here is that you are a reincarnation and that I am a possessor. It’s the position we’re all in. And by confirming this position, we were able to understand that being hostile towards each other would only make us tired.”
No, more accurately, he could have understood that if Moon Ae-ri became hostile toward Eugene, she would inevitably become tired.
… That would be true, Moon Ae-ri was just an ordinary ‘boy’ who did not even know he had this ability in his previous life, but his opponent was a person with this ability who had been through a life-or-death battle even before being possessed.
In addition, while Moon Ae-ri knows nothing about this world, Eugene has knowledge of the original work, which is almost like a cheat.
It was Moon Ae-ri, who understood from memories of her past life what a possessed person was and how cheat-like a possessed person was, even knowing about the original work.
Because she was like that, since they had confirmed each other’s positions, she did not want to be hostile to Eugene, no matter how much he gave orders from Crescent.
… No, at the point when she was judged to have a cheat called original knowledge, she was the one who understood that the possessed person, Eugene, had been talking to her.
The moment she made that decision, she was able to see ‘hope’ for the first time in her life, which had been nothing but despair and was so busy surviving that she did not even know what hope was.
Thanks to Eugene’s persuasion, she was able to stop denying the experiences she had lived. The moment she regained her sense of reason through him, she intuitively realized that this situation where her possessor revealed his identity and spoke to her was a golden opportunity for her. Because I understood it.
‘The fact that the possessed person knew about me and talked to me means that I was at least a character with some significance in the original work.’
And what would it mean if a possessed person who knew the original story spoke to such an important character? The story is that he plans to use himself no matter what.
And for that to happen, as a prerequisite, Crescent, who was currently holding Moon Ae-ri’s leash, had to be resolved somehow.
In other words, although she did not like the fact that the possessor was trying to use her, she at least sensed that the existence of the possessor named Eugene was the only opportunity to break this disgusting leash that was placed on her.
Therefore, it was Moon Ae-ri who asked Eugene about his purpose in order to figure out what he wanted in talking to her and how he was planning to use him…
‘What on earth is this guy thinking?’
He couldn’t help but feel absurd when he was told that he would not reveal why he was talking to Moon Ae-ri after revealing that he was a possessed person.
Are you making fun of yourself for a moment? Eugene smiled bitterly and explained to Moon Ae-ri, who was making a bewildering expression.
“It’s time, time.”
“What about time, you motherfucker?”
… What should I say? I knew that she was the type of sub-heroine who made a living by cursing, but I couldn’t help but be a little shocked at the fact that she was swearing so vulgarly with that innocent and pretty beauty.
But instead of panicking her, Eugene points to her own nametag and reminds her of something she’s forgotten.
“It means that it will be time for orientation to begin in each class in a little while.”
“… Ah.”
Moon Ae-ri, who remembers the facts she had forgotten due to her own mission in Eugene’s explanation, understands what he was thinking as he was blindsided by her assassin.
“The bottom line is that we don’t have enough time right now to relax and get to know each other.”
That wasn’t all. Even though it was an unavoidable thing for her as Moon Ae-ri, she attacked her to assassinate Nefty under the orders of her Crescent.
And by now, the fact of the attack has become known within the academy and the professors are busy trying to find the attacker, Moon Ae-ri.
“No matter how unpopular the place is, it won’t be long before this place comes within the search range. Is it okay to talk to me in that situation? “Like that too?”
In response to Eugene’s comment, Moon Ae-ri checked her school uniform, which, although her robe was still intact, was so messed up that her white underwear was exposed due to the battle with Eugene.
No, it wasn’t just the school uniform. For some reason, even though the injuries she had suffered here and there from the moment she drank Eugene’s blood are recovering quickly, her wounds are not completely gone.
The internal injuries were also at a significant level, so if those with a certain level of skill saw Moon Ae-ri now, they would be able to understand that he had just fought to the death.
… And since it was known to the Academy that Nefty was attacked and that Eugene fought the assassin who attacked Nefty, Moon Ae-ri, looking the way she does now, could be said to be a clearer candidate for the assassin than anyone else.
“… Damn.”
Who is responsible for Eugene’s comments like that?! Moon Ae-ri glares at him with this look in her eyes.
However, Eugene confidently shrugged his shoulders and spoke despite her gaze.
“Even if you glare at me like that? Rather, I think we prevented you from committing a murder you didn’t want to commit?”
