Chapter 239 – Ep.17 – Nightmare (1)
All life presupposes pain.
From the moment you step into the world,
Until the last moment when you leave your loved ones behind.
A life filled with pain, both beginning and end.
We all live in tragedy.
However, what makes us more miserable and despairing is,
It must be a sad bondage called love that never lets us give up on this heartless life.
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The journey has clearly come to an end, but the final option that had been postponed lingers in the mind of the man at the center of the story.
Since returning from God’s Garden, Delrin has been having trouble sleeping. As soon as she falls asleep, even for a moment, nightmares come and pound her nails on his chest.
Nevertheless, Delrin tries to divert her words and refuses to reveal the details of her nightmare. Even though her women notice that his condition is worsening and are worried, Delin just tells the obvious lie, ‘I think he will get better soon.’
Delrin’s body begins to break down more and more. No matter how hard humans try, if they starve for several days, they eventually collapse. When he suffers from constant stress, his whole body becomes exhausted without knowing why.
Even if you try to hide it, it won’t be hidden. Even if you try to fix it, it won’t get better.
It didn’t take long for his fragile body to fail. After exactly three days, he reached a point where even walking was difficult. The mental pain inevitably affected his body as well.
The ladies notice that there is something out of the ordinary that is causing Delrin’s health to deteriorate, but everyone is confused because even the great witch’s magic cannot find the cause.
“Is it a curse? Or are you sick?”
“No. There’s clearly no problem… “
The fact that Chi-Chi cannot find the cause of the disease means
It also means that something is lurking inside his mind.
Despite the concerns of the worried women, Delrin cannot regain his strength. Even as he shakes his head with a helpless look on his face, the feeling of guilt that once surfaced shows no sign of disappearing.
“Eat properly, and get some sleep even if it’s hard to fall asleep. “If I keep holding on like this, I’m really going to collapse.”
The four wives sitting huddled nearby create a comfortable atmosphere by giving Delrin a massage or holding his hand to help him fall asleep,
In that cozy environment, Delrin actually complains of even more bitter pain.
“Ugh… “
The scenes I saw in my dream cannot leave my mind.
He sees the Earth in his dream.
The familiar and nostalgic images of my hometown,
There, he ends up seeing the faces of some people who are still waiting for him.
Her mother, who was young and beautiful for her age, had already grown a lot of gray hair on her head, and her face had wrinkles like her scars.
I don’t want to sleep.
I don’t want to see her mother’s face anymore.
I can’t sleep while facing that.
“Why on earth are you doing this… “
The wives, who cannot even guess why their little husband is in pain, just look at them with concern.
Illness originating from the mind cannot be improved even by the magic of a great witch or the medical technology of advanced demons.
That’s why Delrin continues his lonely fight alone. She sobs as she feels the vivid nightmare gnawing at her mind.
In the meantime, what makes him even more miserable and lonely is,
The fact that she still hasn’t revealed her last secret to her women,
It may be an unconscious attitude of the person who keeps trying to hide the truth from them.
Even though I promised myself many times and made countless promises to live in a new world,
Is there still a [Young honesty] In a corner of his heart that makes him want to let go of everything and go back to the way things were?
Delrin does not understand his own mind. Maybe she really wants to throw everything away and go back to being a normal person in her 20s. Otherwise, she may just be acting out because she can’t take back the lies she told in the past.
No, maybe,
It might be because of the stupid altruism that has been bothering him for a long time.
Oh no, no need to worry,
Useless responsibility, guilt,
Consideration that holds one’s own ankles.
A stuffy and weak nature that suffers from guilt even though it is not his fault.
This is your last chance.
It’s really your last chance…
An opportunity to return to the arms of my beloved former family by asking God.
Instead, whatever is left behind as they flee from the human continent may end in tragedy.
Everything that has happened so far passes through Delrin’s mind.
The countless stories I left behind linger in my head.
The faces of everyone who saw them off.
In particular,
The feelings of the queen I saw for the last time do not leave my mind.
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“Huh! Wow… !”
A few days later, Delrin seemed to be having trouble sleeping due to nightmares as usual, but something was clearly different this time.
“Eek… Ugh…”
Immediately after waking up from a nightmare, he began to vomit. The nausea that started with red bloodshot eyes and shaking like a fit seemed to be far outside the normal range.
“W-what! “What’s wrong?”
Before the women who were sleeping around him hurriedly woke up to check on Delrin’s condition, he had lost all his moisture after gagging fifteen times. After Chi-Chi’s magic began to take effect, he regained some stability, but his body and mind still seemed to be in great shock.
The sight almost looked like the struggles of a human being who had drunk a lot of poison. I just woke up.
“What the hell is going on…!”
“I don’t think we should leave it like this. If it goes on like this, it’s really…”
Riko and Kaede used their strength to hold Delrin’s body, and Chichi quickly drew a magic circle to calm down the chaos. At that moment, Neva hurriedly brought a towel soaked in warm water and wiped away the sweat and vomit. There was clearly a handful of blood mixed into the gastric juice, which was empty of any contents.
Although they couldn’t guess what they were dreaming about, the four felt a chill as they watched Delrin struggle. Even considering the turbulent lives they had lived so far, these nightmares and seizures were unfamiliar.
Delrin exhaled harshly while surrounded by four people. He found rest in the warmth that immediately embraced him, but perhaps because the shock of the nightmare was so great, he suffered from just maintaining his sanity.
“Okay, okay… “
“Yes, we are all here. Calm down and take slow, deep breaths. Slowly… “
The women even felt fear due to their sobs. Delrin’s eyes, which looked like he was about to die at any moment, were trembling uneasily and sadly scanning everything around him.
“Go, I have to go… I have to go now…”
“What are you muttering about…? For now, don’t worry. It’s just a dream. “It’s just a dream.”
Rico was deliberately trying to act strong and console Delrin, but she was also in an endless state of embarrassment due to circumstances beyond her control. What kind of nightmare am I having that makes me suffer so much? It seemed to her that something beyond her imagination was tormenting Delrin.
“My clothes, sister! My clothes…”
To his dismay, Delin jumped up and left the four men’s embrace, and he immediately began rummaging through her closet. Everyone just watched in fascination at the unnatural behavior of the person who had been convulsing as if he was about to faint just moments ago.
In the corner of the closet, the dusty dwarves’ clothes and red cloak were sleeping, but as if drawn by Delrin’s anxious rummaging, they were both dragged out into the outside world. The ancient clothing, which seemed as if it had been made just for him, seemed to be illuminated by a soft light, unlike before.
“No, where are you going… !”
“Just calm down first! “I’ve just woken up, so I don’t think I’ve come to my senses yet.”
While he was dressed in the right size clothes, the women sitting around him said various things to calm him down. Of course, that didn’t slow down his movements for a moment.
“I’ll be back soon. In the meantime, please take good care of Karin, Karen, Rika, and everyone else. It won’t take long. Because it’s soon… “
It seemed as if he was being chased by something.
It seemed as if time, fear, and an uncertain future were chasing him and pushing him.
When Delrin, who had been sick just moments before, tried to run somewhere, the women naturally tried to stop him and persuade him, but,
“It’s my job. It’s something I have to solve, so everyone, don’t follow me. Please… It’s no big deal. Ugh… ? Don’t worry… “
The sight of him making up lies with a tearful smile was so pitiful and pitiful,
No one came forward.
