Chapter 50 – Level 6 – I’m the Social Underdog (4)
“Monster, monster!”
Why can other people make such scary faces?
If it’s pain, you can feel it.
But if it gets worse, I only feel the value of dying, and I don’t know why that’s a problem.
It’s just that everyone says pain is scary and dangerous, so I’m just as careful.
“To be a monster to a person.”
“You, you… Blood! Mi-crazy!”
“It hurts. But why are you afraid of me? I haven’t hurt you yet.”
It’s strange.
Also, people don’t know.
Didn’t the feeling of fear come from the reaction of pain?
Why is he already scared?
“Ah.”
It’s because you anticipate the pain I’ll give you in the future.
My knowledge has increased today.
You may need it, so keep that in mind.
A person may become frightened if he expects to suffer, even if he has not yet suffered.
“I’m coming.”
“Okay, my daughter has a good day.”
I’m kind of getting used to it now.
But why do people live while considering such troublesome and complex reactions one by one?
First of all, since everyone does it, I thought you would feel it if you followed along.
Why am I still not able to understand anything?
“Aren’t you being bullied?”
“Torment?”
What else is that
Are you saying that I keep doing weird things because my reactions are subtle?
Bugs on your clothes, scribbles on your desk, water being sprayed on you?
I thought it was fun because he looked so happy, but I guess I was wrong.
“Mi-I’m sorry. I was wrong! Kyaaak! Don’t put it in! Hee!”
“Well, I don’t feel much after all. Is this fun?”
“Huh, huh!”
Why is he crying because he got some bugs in his body?
Just catch it and kill it.
What is fun anyway?
After filling my curiosity, the sense of emptiness tends to decrease. Is that the sense that it is fun?
Recently, I tried to imitate masturbation, which is said to be enjoyed by children of my age, but I didn’t feel much of it.
Why are you doing this again?
I thought I’d learned a lot, but I’m still a long way off.
“Eating rice is fun. Eating delicious food is fun.”
Because that’s how I learned
I get used to reacting that way.
Because that’s the reaction of a normal person.
“Awakening?”
“Yeah… Generally speaking, entering the academy is the norm. The college grades are high, isn’t it a waste?”
“Not really.”
I was trying to be normal.
Because it’s easier to find out about other people that way.
If there was a strange person, I wanted to know about him.
The more I get to know people, the more empty things are filled.
So, I played an ordinary person.
At first, it was very annoying, but as time passed, I started to get used to it.
Since my mom, who I thought was normal, was about to cry, I think she’s successfully acting.
In fact, she doesn’t even understand her mother’s tears.
Crying is the result of suffering.
Crying because of me means suffering because of me or sympathizing with my pain.
But why are you crying when you’re obviously making a happy expression?
“It’s difficult.”
It is said that there are tears that come out because they are so happy.
It would be nice if it was made a bit easier like the CSAT.
Why are there so many difficult things about people?
It’s refreshing after seeing errands in the bathroom.
What does it feel like to be cool?
You say you feel cool when you take a bath, is that the same thing as that cool thing?
I guess I’m still far away
“Hey, don’t you think you have a bit of control and don’t have a lot of naughty things? Your level isn’t that high yet.”
“Really? Um… I’m sorry if you felt that way.”
“Huh? Uh…Yes.”
Now I knew
At times like this, you should apologize and the other person should stop.
In the past, I didn’t know what I wanted at times like that, so I did the same, but then for some reason they scared me and called me a monster.
Then it must be that it wasn’t a human reaction.
I knew that much now.
“Ah, you’re the motive who was assigned to the same place. My name is Bae Jeong-ah.”
“Ah, hehe. I’m called Myoseol.”
And by the time I graduated from the academy, I had found a decent identity.
Because if you’re usually foolish and always react brightly to the other person’s actions, there are many people who come closer to you.
It was the best character for me, who wanted to get close to as many people as possible and study them.
“Aww!”
He likes to slide me on ice on the floor.
Of course, it’s so crappy that you always notice, but if you’re going to play the character now, it’s probably better to hang it.
Because if you fall, you have nothing to lose.
“Hey, is the senior funny?”
“I’m sorry!”
“No, if I’m sorry, will my life as a hunter end?”
Was his name Yeo-rim?
He was a person who liked the typical junior galgugi.
However, it was quite refreshing to see the juniors at the academy and then be craved in the hunter life.
I thought it was fortunate that it felt like it had been filled for the first time in a while.
To be honest, the feeling of emptiness continues these days, but the more I learn about humans, the harder it is to find something new.
Should I think that this is enough?
“Yeo-rim Yeo, are you going to fuck as soon as your junior comes in?”
“Oh, well. Don’t be annoyed and go away.”
“No, I’m just asking you to be kind. We’re still on the same team.”
“Why do you care about that. Organize the dungeon information properly and give it to me.”
The manager of this team is a man named Park Eun-hyuk.
It’s not unheard of, but it’s not uncommon for people to take issue with opponents stronger than themselves.
That means there’s a lot to fill in from him.
Yeah, at first I approached him with just that in mind.
“But the manager thinks of us…”
“Hey, what kind of teacher are you? You taught and sat down.
“Huh? Eh.”
And it was only after I realized that he had awakened that I thought I wanted to get to know him better.
For some reason, I thought that I was watching something in the air, and I knew it secretly while watching Jung-a and her actions.
You’re an awakened male.
A really hard-to-find type of human.
How many voids can he fill if he learns to be human?
I started to have that kind of ‘expectation’.
At that time, I didn’t notice.
That there’s no way I could have the feeling of ‘expectation’.
I was so engrossed in acting that I naturally passed on it.
“Uh…”
For his own sake, he condemns the child who had bullied him.
Seeing him like that made me feel strange.
Tickled.
A feeling of being overwhelmed by something.
“Nana…?”
I was giving up that I would never know for the rest of my life.
I didn’t even expect it because I didn’t know it was expected in the first place.
At least what was given to me was to fill the emptiness, so I only tried to fill it.
But that life was of no use to anyone.
What is this shock that shakes the whole body?
Why is my heart starting to sound the same as usual?
Why? What’s this? I don’t know. Scared.
“Scared?”
It’s scary.
That I was scared?
I? I? Are you saying I’m scared now?
This is weird
Why is my body pounding just looking at that man?
After that day, if I had time, I started following Park Eun-hyuk and watching his actions.
There was no need to study other people anymore.
What is the importance of that sense of satisfaction?
If you study Park Eun-hyuk, you can feel real emotions beyond satisfaction.
“Joe, I like you!”
It’s a strange feeling.
Bae Jeong-ah, who was bullied by Park Eun-hyuk, wooed Park Eun-hyuk while saying that.
For some reason, it made her chest tight.
I feel bad.
Is this what makes you feel bad?
‘Ah, this is jealousy.’
I felt like a thrill welled up in my head for a moment.
Until now, no matter how much I thought about it, the emotions that I could not understand are ‘understood’ one by one.
I ‘like’ Park Eunhyuk.
That’s why you’re jealous of Bae Jeong-ah who is targeting him.
I’m jealous.
You’re jealous
At first, I thought it was just strange.
To be honest, men like to sleep like that, so it must be used like an onahole like what was just mentioned.
Thinking about it, the feeling didn’t get too bad.
“What’s delicious here? Can I get a recommendation?”
“I like set B, but D is also quite popular.”
Of course it’s a lie.
Because I’ve never really felt the pleasure of the taste of food.
If you were a hunter, all you had to do was come to a restaurant like this.
I did it because everyone else was doing it.
‘By the way, it seems Eunhyuk’s level has risen a lot lately.’
I looked at the characteristics just in case, and a diamond 4 came out.
It meant level 4 with golden eyes.
As expected, Eunhyuk’s character development speed is also very fast.
“Oh, eat.”
“It should be.”
It’s fun just being with him.
To be honest, I didn’t feel much different from having food in my mouth.
However, just being in front of him made me feel happy as if my head was floating, so it was okay.
This is love
This is a pleasure
Ah, this is why people are crazy about pleasure.
This is so thrilling
I understand now.
I understand the actions of people I didn’t understand one by one.
Oh yeah, it feels so good
“Ah, good job. Do you have time today?”
“I’m sorry. I had a prior appointment today. It happened that the situation ended up like this.”
Got rejected got rejected got rejected got rejected got rejected
No. No. No. No. No.
When I was in Jung-ah, you chose me and dated me.
Who are you to abandon me this time? I need to know
“Aha, then I’ll ask again later. Uh, hang on.”
Attach an attribute to his back.
It was a guy who was often attached to him.
It was a magic tool that could perfectly observe the situation around it no matter how far away it was.
“Darling!”
“Ah, it’s over. Let’s go.”
Oh, it must have been Min Ah-young.
Yes, my level was 8 that year.
But Eunhyuk, it’s okay.
I’ll make it level 9 right away so they can look at me.
If you become an A-class hunter, that B-class hunter won’t be noticed, right?
No matter how much you bond with each other, if an A-class hunter confesses, would a B-class catch your eye?
Even Min Ah-young is the trash who bullied Eun-hyuk.
Compared to that, I’ve never done anything that Eunhyuk would hate, right?
This is absolutely to my advantage.
“What is it all of a sudden? Did you break the wall?”
Until Minah Young reached the 9th level, she was thinking that way.
The moment she witnessed the scene right in front of her eyes, something in her heart seemed to collapse.
Fear, envy, pain, despair, even in these circumstances, the pleasure that comes from seeing Eunhyuk in my eyes.
The intense emotions felt like they were about to explode.
Emotions, which were strange at first, boil over and start to mess with her head.
The feeling of loving Eunhyuk.
A feeling that makes him jealous of women who approach him.
It starts to burn in my head.
“Ah, this is why people kill people.”
That day, I understood one more human emotion.
