Chapter 162 – Chapter 8 – Seo Eun-Ha (3)
“It’s a memory worth regretting, 『It’s too scary』”
What is the reason why humans regret thinking in a very principled way?
It’s because there are memories to regret.
If so, how can we prevent the situation that stimulates such memories to lower self-esteem and make us hate ourselves?
‘It’s not that simple.’
You just have to erase those memories from the beginning.
It is impossible to defend against the ability itself to increase self-hatred, but it is possible to change the constitution to a state where it can withstand such an ability in this way.
Of course, this does not mean that it can be completely blocked, and there is a downside that the memory is not perfect while attacking.
Still, to be honest, I had no other options.
‘No matter what, I’m sorry to have to stand up.’
In case you didn’t know, I would erase as many memories as possible, but among them, Seol-ah was the one who had the most memories erased.
Not only did they fail to save young Seol-ah, but even the fact that Seol-ah collapsed this time.
Because I was full of responsibility and regret for Seol-ah.
Honestly, I was pretty sure that if I erased this memory, I would be much better than I am now.
And unless I was in a very bad condition, I already knew how to get through this dungeon with a good attitude.
I was thinking that I was very fortunate in my heart, but there was an extreme difference in difficulty between bumping into it without knowing anything and making a strategy build knowing this information.
Of course, it’s a very old dungeon and the report isn’t perfect, so not all of the detailed monster attacks remain…
‘Because that wasn’t an important dungeon in the first place.’
I knew roughly what types of things would come out anyway.
However, the biggest problem in the current situation is about Eunha, who is still self-deprecating next to me.
In fact, it was the galaxy that was the most problematic and played an important role in this attack.
‘Unable to designate a target really makes people go crazy.’
When proving the oath, it is impossible to use my characteristics against the galaxy.
Not to mention my normal traits, even if I bypassed them using mirroring, all mental traits were bound to fail.
This means that unlike me, the memories of the galaxy cannot be erased.
Of course, from the beginning, Eunha is so passive about regret, self-deprecation, and self-reproach, so there’s a high chance that those memories can’t be erased.
It was more troublesome because I was blocked from even trying.
Then, in the end, it is said that Eunha should proceed while embracing the characteristics of this dungeon as it is…
What would happen if Eunha, who had a lot of self-blame, was hit with this straight away was beyond obvious and was still ongoing.
“I-I…”
“It’s okay, Eunha. Look at me.”
“Babe?”
“Yes, I am your sweetheart. In other words, I am also you. I said that I shine, so you are also a shining person. There is no need to blame yourself?”
“Huh…”
If that’s the case, literally, the galaxy needs to be made into a normal state of mind that can withstand this kind of hell.
There was a strong possibility that even the reason why this dungeon was chosen in the first place was to induce it.
Even when Chaerin was overcoming the trauma of her parents, throwing her into the dungeon where her parents passed away was the system.
Do you think it’s this time?
“Okay, let’s go. Honestly, we were doing great.”
“Ah, yes…!”
As expected, the dungeon I expected was correct, and sooner than I thought, the style of the trap I knew began to appear.
After defeating the monsters, a device will appear, and you must operate this device from both sides at the same time to move on to the next door.
If it fails, it’s a device that has to deal with the regenerated monster again…
‘It’s so vicious.’
What I just explained is the role of the device that can be felt on the outside.
In fact, it was set to fail even if it was correctly matched, except for the first one that appeared.
It is a trap that tries to shake the mental by intentionally making them taste the experience of failure.
If you think rationally, it’s a part where you can doubt while communicating.
If this happens in a state where the brain is pickled with self-abasement, the obsessive feeling that I failed because I made a mistake pours out.
Then, if you can’t even attack properly, additional self-deprecation will be pushed out.
“Yeah, I can’t either.
“Eunha…!?”
“Ugh!”
Since then, as the situation of failing to operate the device continued, Eunha, whose self-esteem had fallen to the bottom, began to riot while harming herself.
I don’t know who actually thought of this trap, but I think the combination is very vicious.
After I healed Eunha, I began to persuade her again by hugging her tightly.
“Eunha. I said it before, but we are one. If you feel that I did something wrong, then I did something wrong, and if you think I did something well, then you did well too.”
“Ah…”
“Look at me. Do I look like I’m messing up the strategy a lot?”
“No…”
“Then you’re doing well enough right now. The two of us are one. We’re the same person. So don’t think that you’re causing problems with the strategy.”
“Huh.”
So far, things are moving in the expected range.
And to be honest, the fact that it was solved with such a simple conversation was that the situation was not serious.
If this crazy dungeon was that simple, there’s no way so many people would have died.
This time, the difficulty was raised a little, so it was a place where you had to solve puzzles with different difficulty levels instead of just timing them.
If you’ve been eating candy with lies until now, this time it’s a trap with the intention of diverging opinions by making the difficulty level different from each other.
If this is the case, the self-reproach of the person who got hit by the difficult puzzle will inevitably be severe.
‘But whether it’s easy or difficult, the first thing I’ll do is…’
As soon as I entered the puzzle, I manipulated it randomly and entered the wrong answer.
Eunha wouldn’t have been able to manipulate the panel, so Eunha would have been convinced that I was wrong.
First of all, we dealt with the most urgent regenerated monsters, and started by asking what happened to the galaxy.
“Ah, it seems like a simple problem, so I must have made a mistake trying to solve it quickly. I’ve been bothered by the fact that I’ve made mistakes and failed before… I’m sorry.”
“Is it something that can be solved just because you’re sorry now!?”
‘Done.’
The reaction I was looking for came out, and as soon as Eunha had just uttered the words, she was stunned with an expression of disbelief.
He must have thought that it made no sense to say such a thing to Park Eun-hyuk and not to anyone else.
Rather, it may have been that he hated himself for a moment, not me.
However, the more Eunha blames herself and hates herself, the more her feelings spread towards me.
Because Eun-ha now recognizes Park Eun-hyuk as herself.
For this reason, I have been inducing the galaxy to think that way since before.
“Mi-sorry. What did I say… It’s all my fault.”
“Eunha, don’t keep making you the bad person. Just now, it’s true that I did something wrong. If you insist on arguing, since we are one, we did it together.”
“Together…”
From now on, I have to empty the logic as much as possible in the words I persuade the galaxy and make it easy to refute.
Only then will Eun-ha doubt this and develop self-reproach.
Of course, it’s not Eunha’s self-reproach, but from now on, it’s self-blame against ‘us’.
“Well, what if you fail at all that. You just have to catch it again. What’s wrong with clearing the dungeon slowly? I don’t think it’s too difficult, but let’s go comfortably. Huh?”
“That, that’s… But right now we’re running out of time. Seola as soon as possible…”
“Seol-ah? Why is Seol-ah suddenly appearing here?”
What is he talking about all of a sudden?
Did Eunha have an appointment with Seolah, but suddenly came in?
Then it might have been that I suggested making an oath of womb today for no reason.
‘Oh, damn it. This is a kind of self-reproach.’
I hurriedly erased the memory of what had just happened and smiled as if nothing had happened to Eunha.
And I started pouring out again the story that ‘we’, which I had just been doing, was doing well in dungeon raiding.
Eun-ha had many things she wanted to point out, so she kept trying to tackle them, but…
“Uh, come to think of it, if we get out of here, should we go eat macarons? I heard there’s a delicious cafe nearby.”
“That, it’s not that…”
He cut off the conversation itself by turning back to a very unnutritious story.
As this situation continued, Eunha eventually gave up refuting my words.
Perhaps from now on, the bad feelings towards ‘us’ will start to grow in the galaxy.
“Kuh…!”
And what appeared next was a form in which two other bosses were connected to each other and had to be defeated at the same time.
The difficulty level is different, and even the toughness is different, so it is very difficult to match the timing of death.
However, even the appearance is the same, so when you experience it for the first time, you just think it’s the same boss.
It was a very vicious form, as if it wasn’t named the mid-boss for nothing.
It even has the option to survive even if killed at the same time in the first few times, adding to the confusion.
In fact, it can be regarded as a combined level of the two previous devices.
‘It’s definitely a bit difficult.’
And aside from that characteristic, looking at the boss itself, the difficulty level was quite high.
I’m throwing up since I set the condition that I have to catch this fucking number of times.
Even making people mistakenly believe that it is caused by a mistake.
It’s a fucking dungeon.
“Heh, heh…”
Naturally, Eunha and I had a great deal of trouble dealing with this boss.
In particular, even though Eunha had captured the low-difficulty boss, Eunha was not in a combat position in the first place, so it was a situation where she could not help but get tired after a long one-on-one battle with the boss.
Even in the midst of that, Eun-ha seemed to be trying to bring up a story of self-deprecation right now.
But I’m going to be the first one this time too?
“Hey, we were perfect, right?”
“…What?”
“Didn’t we do really well? Of course, there were a lot of times, but honestly, we can’t communicate well, so it’s not easy to match our stamina. We finished this quickly. Did we do well?”
“…What are you talking about. If it was even a little late, it would have been dangerous.”
“It would have been good if he hadn’t died. Aren’t we shining a little today?”
It pours out words that are completely opposite to what Eunha thinks, containing only information that does not create trust.
No matter how much she thinks, she will think that what I say is wrong.
‘Park Eun-hyuk’, who thought he was shining, pushes it until he thinks that he doesn’t actually shine.
Of course, due to Eunha’s personality, it’s normal for her to say that she shines without yielding to me no matter what I say.
Right now, the dungeon is pushing a lot of negative feelings about myself.
So, it would be enough to get angry at the appearance of ‘self’ that suddenly loses its light.
It is not that he hates Park Eun-hyuk, but that he comes to think that even Park Eun-hyuk is a disgusting part of himself.
That was the emotion that Eunha had induced me to feel until now.
It was only by now that it was nearing completion.
“No. We just got weird. Were they dangerous?”
“Ah, what are you talking about. At this rate, it would be an easy dungeon victory. Let’s go when the mana is restored. I’ll wake up soon.”
“No, no, Seo Eun-ha!”
Eunha screamed and, as if in a seizure, swung at me the sword that had stabbed the boss until now.
I accepted the attack without any resistance.
Of course, astonishment appeared on Eunha’s face as she swung the sword.
The red blood that splattered on her face trickled down like her tears.
