Chapter 173 – District 3 (2)
21. District 3 (2)
‘Fuck fuck fuck… !’
Couldn’t admit it.
Of course, when I was young, it was a fact that I was so damn afraid of my birth mother. Now that I’m stronger mentally and physically, I’m talking about bitches, but before that, even thinking about them was taboo.
Still, I thought I had escaped a lot from that shadow while escaping that damn house and coming here. I did.
The emotions I felt then.
The malice lurking behind it.
The cumulative fear of death buried deep inside, which I hadn’t even remembered, poured out like a tidal wave.
It was brutal violence.
‘Ah. Ah. Ah.’
Did I almost die that many times?
So you still die like that?
Even if I survive here, will I die soon?
Maybe my brain deliberately volatilized memories of very traumatic moments, I didn’t even know. If it hadn’t been so, wouldn’t it have been impossible to hold on and die, commit suicide, or be taken to a psychiatric ward?
Somehow, unlike Shay, I was able to quickly recover even after wandering between death and death, maybe it was because I had already wandered over 60 times.
I don’t know. It was scary. It didn’t matter how many lies I saw. I was already feeling the fear. Memories that my brain instinctively blocked out suppressed my intention to come to my senses.
Where are you struggling so ugly to survive?
It was you who hastened death.
After 66 times between death and death, it’s time to really die.
The different possibilities of death that had been terribly strangling me whispered to me to give up, to close my eyes and be comfortable.
‘Ah…’
Death clothed in darkness is an eternal rest.
I couldn’t see or feel anything, but I maintained the consciousness that I was opening my eyes, but that consciousness was gradually disintegrating.
Is there any point in enduring like this? Wouldn’t that be too greedy? Except for a few moments, the life that has been shit since I was born, wouldn’t it be okay to end it here…
Wouldn’t it be great just to have lived so far? What the heck did I do wrong exhausted I want to rest. It’s easy to give up. Close your eyes. Stop thinking comfortably. Take a rest If you die, you don’t have to face the risk of dying anymore…
Just when I was about to put everything down and close my eyes for real, I heard a voice I couldn’t hear.
Fate.
– My destiny is the captain’s destiny. I will always be with you until the end wherever you are.
Vow.
– My goal is to wipe out the dungeon. I will be with the captain.
Wish.
– I want to weave my own, and our own, unprecedented story.
Friendship.
– Friend… Hendrick is a friend. My first friend.
Promise.
– Promise me that you will definitely come back safely. If everything goes well, then please come see me and the child. Call my child, who will be born later, by the name you chose. I promise you so.
Memories derived from precious relationships created over 66 deaths rose up. Those small and precious memories were weighed down heavily by the horrors that wandered through life and death. However, those brightly shining memories did not give up.
Live.
Don’t you want to grow these memories more alive?
My life and my existence are not mine alone.
Are you going to leave those who are deeply entangled in my fate alone?
Live. Hold on. Live. Hold on. Live. Hold on.
Show your faith to your colleagues who will believe in me and hold on.
Don’t forget
I am.
Is Kaya.
Shay is.
Illumina.
They are warriors in the face of fear.
I haven’t even seen true fear yet, but it’s not really dying, but it makes sense to be afraid and try to die because of the memories and emotions of almost dying.
Any longer than this will only make it funnier.
Open your eyes
And be a beacon to your fellows.
Unless it’s going to stop here forever.
‘I-I was scared? Did I try to give up? After telling my co-workers to come to their senses, I tried to calm them down? It’s fucking embarrassing!!!’
“This fucking voyeur, perverted, fearless bastard!!!”
I opened my eyes with swearing.
**
[Faced the fear of death.]
[The will of the warriors who have experienced countless deaths is broken and their bodies collapse.]
[Shay Mentality -44]
[Kaya Mentality -36]
[Eugene mentality -50]
[Illumina mentality -55]
[I have overcome the fear of death because of the presence of my fellow warriors.]
[Eugene’s mentality is restored in proportion to the relationship.]
[Kaya – 6]
[Eugene mentality +12]
[Shay – 5]
[Eugene mentality +10]
[Illumina – 4]
[Eugene mentality +8]
“Crazy…”
As soon as I got out of the fear of death, what greeted me was a twisting sensation throughout my body and a fucking message saying that I had suffered tremendous mental damage. But the next message opened my eyes wide.
‘No, the relationship diagram appears here?’
Relationships were virtually forgotten. I guessed that it was a number that only indicated that it had an impact on Kayana Shay’s positive traits and how close she was to her peers. At first, she was in a relationship with Kaya, and when her relationship was revealed, she thought, ‘Oh, this must have some hidden function.’ .
As I read the message and grasped the situation, my still-dark vision slowly began to return to normal. No, to be precise, the appearances of his colleagues appeared in the order in which the voices disappeared.
“La Ella, look over her foolish daughter, lest she go astray.”
Kaya was on her knees offering her prayers. So much of her blood flowed from her lips that her chin, her neck, and her armor were stained red.
“Hendrick… I hope Eugene can overcome death safely. Eugene, if it’s you, you can overcome it. If you are pioneering a path that no one challenges. There are three people who are willing to follow you down that path. Eugene. You are our light. It is a lighthouse. I want to follow you to the end. Please, be safe. To overcome. And lead as always.”
Kaya didn’t even know that I had appeared right next to her, and was absorbed in prayer. I don’t know how much fear she went through, but… Most of her prayers were for me. Something seemed to rise in her chest.
“… Kaya.”
“… Eugene!”
She tried to get up and quickly caught Kaya who was about to fall in front of her. Her face was full of relief. She seemed relieved not because she was safe, but because anyone could see that I was safe.
‘Then I just have to worry about Kaya.’
“I’m glad you’re safe, Kaya.”
“I thought you would be okay, Captain… Ugh!”
Kaya’s blood filled her mouth. She couldn’t stand it, although her lips looked a little sore.
[A fellow warrior has overcome the fear of death because of the captain’s presence.]
[The fellow warrior’s mentality is restored in proportion to the relationship.]
[Kaya – 6]
[Kaya mentality +17]
While sharing a passionate reunion kiss with Kaya, Shay appeared with a message that her mentality was also restored. She was still with her eyes closed in her posture with her claymore planted on her floor and her hands resting on it. She even looked like she was sleeping very comfortably, just by looking at her expression. Her figure was rather vague, but at the same time, she looked holy, so even though I parted her lips a long time ago, I couldn’t easily call her name.
“… Lol.”
“Shay!”
“What a relief.”
However, the atmosphere was destroyed by a wild laugh. Shay, who was looking at us with her golden eyes open, was smiling all over her face.
[A fellow warrior has overcome the fear of death because of the captain’s presence.]
[The fellow warrior’s mentality is restored in proportion to the relationship.]
[Shay – 5]
[Shay mentality +18]
What if the atmosphere is ruined? It was important that she was safe. We hugged Shay and kissed her wildly. She was worried because she was Shay who received a lot of mental attacks when she was the boss of District 2, but her mind seems to have become more solid as the ground hardens after rain. Of course, her fear itself must have been powerful, although Shay’s face and her throat were full of cold sweat… It held up very well. Now the problem was Illumina.
‘According to the pattern, Illumina should have finished and come out by now.’
The faces of the three of us, who had been laughing at the fact that we had safely escaped the fear of death, hardened.
Gulp-
My mouth was dry. According to the message, Illumina was not dead. The fact that it didn’t appear even though his mentality was reduced would mean that he still couldn’t overcome the fear of death.
“Illumina…”
In the place where Illumina was standing, only her bag was left on her back.
‘Let’s believe.’
‘Cause I’m a light As long as I stand firm, Illumina will not wander in her path.
Kaya Langshey prayed for her, and I also earnestly prayed for Illumina to overcome.
Feelings after about 30 minutes.
Our wish came true.
Dump-
“Illumina!”
“Illumina sister!!”
[The fellow warrior has incompletely overcome the fear of death.]
[Your mentality will neither deteriorate nor recover.]
About half.
Even if Illumina fell into a panic and hurt herself, her body was deeply dug up, and she was tired of her tears, sweat, and excrement. She was in a very miserable state. We hurriedly took out water and towels for her, forgetting that this was not a resting place, and wiped her entire body of Illumina and treated her.
“Ah…”
“Illumina! Are you out of your mind?!”
“Huh, uhh…”
“Captain! One more bottle of water, please!”
“A towel, please!”
“Okay!”
“Abbrrrr!”
“Wait, wait, Illumina unnie! Ouch! Don’t bite!”
“Aaaaa… !”
“Shay! Squeeze tighter!”
“All right! Illumina sister, I’m sorry!”
Illumina seemed to be conscious but didn’t recognize us. In addition, he struggled so hard that Shay had to suppress it.
Fear of death.
Kaya, who lived through a pitiful childhood and decades of uneven life as a nun. Shay, who went through a hellish experiment life. Including what she doesn’t remember, she almost killed me 66 times.
Compared to us, Illumina had no such experience, and she wondered if her mind had been driven out by the horrors she had experienced for the first time.
‘Fuck, is it outside 3-0?’
In the midst of this, we are now standing on the aisle from 3-0 to 3-1. Shay only took one step!
[The malice flowing from the depths causes fear.]
[Shay Mentality -0]
[Kaya mentality -3]
[Eugene mentality -5]
[Illumina mentality -6]
[Mentality]
Shay: -26
Kaya: -26
Eugene: -30
Illumina: -67
‘Wow, that’s fucking, that’s fucking.’
I definitely felt that it was District 3. The sudden relationship was also low because there was a recovery bonus. The crazy thing was, we were now down 3-0. It was possible to carry the Illumina on my back, but I was in a state where I couldn’t communicate properly, let alone fight.
“Leader.”
“Kaya.”
“At a time like this… What should I do?”
“…”
“Commands.”
I don’t know either… ?
The words welled up in his throat, then he finally let them out with a sigh.
“Under…”
It’s not a curse, just seeing the world’s deepest sigh come out… It was also District 3.
