Chapter 148 – Aftermath (2)
17. Aftermath (2)*
“You want me to stay calm?”
“Also… That’s not going to work…”
Justitia wondered why he was suddenly like this, but immediately remembered her body and shook her head.
“Aye. Don’t you think she wouldn’t even suggest this if it was impossible or she didn’t like it in the first place?”
“But…”
“I’m suggesting you because you’re pretty, because I care about you, because I’m proud of you, but why are you so sullen all of a sudden? Straighten her shoulders You are my proud sword and the reliable shield of your comrades. If it wasn’t for you, I would have died this time. Have confidence.”
“Goddess… !”
Shay, who was thrilled with her, grabbed Justitia’s hand without realizing it. She seemed to have no awareness of putting her hand on the body of a goddess. Eustitia tried to free her hand, but it ended.
‘If you want to descend anyway, you’ll have to get used to me… No, but why are you placating this child?’
Until Shay lowered her head in amazement, Eustitia examined Shay’s mind and body once more. Seeing her up close, she wanted to be breathtaking in many ways.
‘Even if this kid doesn’t have to beg so much, she’d better do it ASAP. What matters is how quickly she overcomes the wounds she has inflicted on her psyche.’
Eustitia gave her a few words of encouragement and then disappeared. Shay felt a sharp sense of emptiness. All of her joy, respect, love, trust, and longing disappeared all at once, and her pain and loneliness flooded in.
When Hendrick was hit by a red light from what he called an eye monster, and when he faced an unidentified mass.
She remembered the tremendous pain she felt then. I want to forget, but how can I? If it had been when I was very young, I would have only remembered that it was very painful, but I couldn’t because it was something I experienced after growing up to a certain extent. As he went through the life of a crusader, the dirty memories that had barely sunk to the surface while belonging to the warrior squad were stirred up by the eye monster, and his mind became muddy.
Had it been before, she would have endured her pain and prayed for it to subside again. She would swing her sword until exhaustion. She must have gone to kill monsters or heretics until her body was stained with blood and flesh.
Because the dirty memories of her did not rule her mind and body as long as the moment she committed an act close to self-abuse. As if her body was suffering, her thoughts would lessen, because the pain caused by herself, not the pain caused by others, was not accompanied by ‘mental’ pain.
If it was before
‘Captain…’
Not now. Not alone.
– It’s me. It’s your boss. Here it is. It’s in front of you don’t go anywhere I’m with you. I’m behind you. I’m by your side.
There was someone in her who she loved and loved her.
– Sorry. It was hard. I was lonely. You’ve held up well. You did a good job. Shay, I’m so glad you’re here. Because of you, we can stand like this.
There was someone who embraced and was grateful for his pain without belittling it.
– Nothing can break you. The Shay I know is that kind of woman. Look at me look me straight You’re not just a girl who’s going to give in to that snowy monster. Because Shay is strong.
There was a person who affirmed her own existence and supported her.
Kaya and Illumina, as well as her older sister, were good people, but Hendrick was the one who had the biggest presence in Shay’s heart.
“Ah.”
I opened my eyes.
At this moment, I wanted to see Hendrick like crazy. I wanted to hear Hendrick’s voice. I wanted to be in Hendrick’s arms and smell him. I wanted to enjoy his existence itself.
“You said you would be in front of me, next to me, behind me…”
Ki-Ik-
The night the crescent moon rose high, Shay got out of bed.
**
Chuup, Chuup, Chuup-
“Ugh…”
Chun, tsuk, chue-eup-
“What are you talking about…”
She had been sleeping well, but was awakened by the sound of something sucking. It wasn’t a dream. The sound in her ears and the damp feel and weight were so vivid.
‘For a moment. Wetness? No, why is it so heavy…’
I opened my eyes. I almost screamed at the bottom of my heart.
Shay in her thin nightgown was sitting on top of me and sucking on my throat!
“Shay!”
“Hmm, uhm.”
“Hey, hey!”
Instead of answering, she moved her lips. She slides up and munches her ear, sticks her tongue inside her earlobe… She was frightened by her terrifying feelings, but she managed to shake it off when she realized that she was her patient.
“I’m the captain.”
“That, yes. Shay.”
“Captain… It’s right that you’re always by my side… ?”
“Yes. No way.”
“However… Why weren’t you with me… ?”
“Uh…”
I heard you’re going to pass out for at least a day or two? Cestia won’t do that. So?
Neither was an appropriate answer.
“Sorry…”
“Liar…”
“Evil!”
Shay bit my lower lip. As I screamed, I gently rubbed her bite with her tongue.
“Shay. Are you okay? I didn’t expect to wake up so soon. Oh sure, it’s good to wake up early.”
“It’s not okay.”
“Uh?”
“I need a captain.”
My shirt ripped with a booming sound. Before I could react, Shay pressed her face against my bare chest and took a deep breath.
“Sup- ha ha… !”
“She-Shey?”
“Captain, it was… That you will be by my side And I’m a strong woman, no one can break me…”
“Oh, that, it was.”
“But maybe it’s good? I’m in so much pain right now I think it’s going to break because it’s painful. When I woke up, it hurt more because the captain wasn’t there. Yes? What should I do?”
“…”
“The memories that made me suffer haunted me. Until just now But like this, because I was skin-to-skin with the captain… Because I smell the captain… Things are getting better now… ?”
“Kuk.”
Shay bit my chest.
“Me… I have a request for you, Captain…”
“Boo, please? Just talk.”
“Please bully me.”
“… What?”
“And allow me to harass you too, Captain.”
“Wait, wait.”
“Let me erase these memories that taint my mind like filth and put them on top. If you are the captain, I think you can accept anything. And the captain… Please accept everything. I hope so.”
He met Shay’s eyes. Her gaze was terrifying. I wondered if the eyes of a beast looking down on its prey were like this.
“Still, your condition.”
“Captain. I don’t like it. Just answer that.”
“That…”
“If you say no, I don’t know what will happen.”
“I don’t like it! How could you not like it?”
“I knew you would answer that. I’m glad, Captain.”
Saying that, Shay tore my pajamas too. At this point, Kayana and Shay were so powerful that she wondered if she always forgot the existence of buttons at night.
Her big breasts swayed and revealed, and she must have sweated a little, and the slightly muggy scent tickled my nose.
Gulp-
She sat on top of me for a while, looking down at me. She then came down from me and she lay down next to me.
“Captain first… Please bother me.”
“…”
“Only the captain can destroy me. Except for the captain, so that it will never be broken…”
“…”
“Me… Destroy it thoroughly.”
“…”
“Dye me completely with you, Eugene. Hyaang!”
He gripped Shay’s chest rather violently. Her breasts had a coexistence of softness, firmness, and roughness.
‘… It seems that the mental shock has accumulated.’
Bit her lip. The way Shay asked was not normal to anyone. When she just joined the corps of warriors, Shay was different now. The relationship with me and her going to the dungeon changed her core. The crusader, who only saw heresy and shouted the name of Justitia-sama, hurling abusive words, was only looking for me.
It wasn’t even a normal expression of affection.
Only I can break it, so ask me to break it myself. Asking me to torment you in order to forget the painful past… It was the start of a vicious cycle. It will get worse later on. Dependence becomes obsession, and the level of stimulation will become more and more intense.
But I couldn’t stay away.
I felt both her responsibility that Shay became like this because of me and her affection that she was still my beautiful woman.
So let’s accept it.
What we are doing right now is not a fundamental treatment, but symptomatic treatment, but… Whatever happens to Shay, she’s my girl.
It was my karma, my responsibility, and my hope.
“Aang! More, harder!”
“Good? Do you like this?”
“Yes… More… Anything is fine with you!”
He gently rolled her nipples and pinched them. As if asking for bullying were not empty words, she wished for a harder pinch. So she rather stroked it more gently.
“Huh… ?”
“You want me to bother you. Does it bother you if you do what you want? Isn’t it?”
“Ah… Huh, yeah, yeah…”
Shay said nothing and twisted her body. With one hand she held her neck and pinned it. Then she took off her bottoms. A much warmer air spread out than when she took off her top. Not to mention the smell.
The wet underwear was the answer.
“I’m sleeping, but you come in and tell me to harass you, and you’re so wet like this? Shay, you are so perverted.”
“I am not pervert…”
Stab-
“Ugh… !”
He grabbed Shay’s thighs and inhaled through her underwear. The collaboration between the thick but soft pussy meat and the underwear that completely lost a bit of roughness in the lewd smell and the soggy pussy water was fantastic. She put it in her mouth, bit it lightly, licked it with her entire tongue, and poked it with the tip of her tongue. Every time that happened, Shay’s thighs trembled and twitched.
The underwear has completely lost its function.
“That, that’s not…”
“Who asked you to harass you?”
“Stop that, that, that…”
“That?”
Shay averted her gaze. Grabbing her cheeks with her hands, she forcibly met her eyes.
“What is that?”
“… Ji.”
“I can not hear you. Say it out loud.”
“… Sleep.”
“What?”
“Sleep! Yes, your cock! That big thick dick! Stop harassing me with your mouth, now harass me with your cock!”
Shay whispered lewd words, and her blood-soaked cock trembled. In particular, when Shay, who always used her honorific words, said such words in casual language, her destructive power doubled. I don’t know why she had a change of heart, but for some reason she wanted to be more anxious.
“Why? I said earlier. If you do what you want, does that bother you?”
“Ugh…”
“Tell me again.”
“What, what?”
“Very politely, tell me what you want.”
Shay, who opened her mouth in a daze at my words, closed her eyes tightly and shouted.
“Poke me as usual with your ignorant cock!”
“I should have told you to be polite.”
“Pooh, poke me…”
“Nope.”
“To.”
Zubeup-
“Ahhh…”
Staring at Shay’s dazed expression on her face as if she really didn’t know how to say no, she began to shove her cock in very slowly.
“Whether you stab me quickly or slowly, insert it softly or stab it roughly, I’ll do whatever I want, so you just have to get hit. Okay?”
“Ahhh… !”
The mental therapy, which had been distorted somewhere, was just the beginning.
