Chapter 238 – 238. In Fact, Nobody Wanted to Lose (3)
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Eventually, Rostar hurried her steps to bring ‘it’ requested by El Cid.
She rises above the world tree.
As she climbed higher and higher, she became invisible.
After confirming that Rostar was gone, El looked at her restoration with a sad expression on her face. As if she couldn’t leave him on the cold floor, El put her Yushin head on her lap.
“Why did you go so desperately to save me, Mr. Gilead? I’m not a woman worth risking your life for. It’s infinitely selfish and cowardly. You forced Ardena, whom you love, to sacrifice for her, and she even inflicted permanent scars for the rest of her life….”
Why am I like this
Why is a woman who is nothing but a nuisance?
Why is this insignificant woman who is only narrow-minded and selfish and incorrigible….
“You called me irresponsible. That’s right. I am nothing more than a woman who is irresponsible, cowardly, and turns her head away, ignoring the truth.”
I bit her lip hard.
As she slowly stroked her face with her hands on her lap, she revealed her own contradiction.
Did it start to rain? Drops of water dripped down her dry face.
Water droplets containing hot warmth.
Drops of water began to fall on Yushin’s face and flowed from El’s eyes. As soon as her tears started to fall, she started to cry.
“At first, I was going to die after her sister. Because she didn’t think it was worth living in a world without her sister. Her sister was everything to me. Because she is the only blood relative in the world and at the same time the only reason for me to live in this world.”
Why?
Everyone I love becomes unhappy.
Her older sister sacrificed herself for her compatriots, and her disciple, Ardena, made misfortune with her own hands. Besides, this time she almost killed Ardena’s lover.
I am the cause of all unhappiness.
I made everyone unhappy.
“As it is, if I die… Will you feel at ease? If you end this life you desperately tried to save… Can we have a rest without any more pain, without suffering? Teach me, what should I do now?”
Even a pledge who has lived a life close to eternity is no different from an ordinary person in becoming an idiot when he or she reaches a state of mental panic.
El Cid is a force comparable to the Sword Saint Reinhilder. Her actual strength may even surpass Grid.
But mentally, she was infinitely weaker than her other pledgers.
Deep in her affection, but also weak,
Clinging to the heart and being infinitely afraid,
This is because they harbor the loneliness of lack of affection blindly clinging to receiving affection from someone.
“Thank you, I was able to save my life thanks to you protecting me. But I… I don’t know what to do now.”
L let out a self-deprecating sigh and smiled with a hint of loneliness and bitterness.
She cut her ties with Ardena.
She even drove her compatriots to limb.
I was the one who summoned the beast of lust and the demons under his command to this sanctuary.
Do I really have a reason to live?
Will there be someone who will love me like this?
Is there anyone in the world who will love me to the end, who is infinitely selfish, intolerant, and just a coward trembling in fear?
“Mr. Gilead, if you weren’t Ardena’s lover… If you had met me for the first time, would you have loved even such an incorrigible woman… ?”
She slowly caressed Yushin’s eyes and left behind a muttering of remorse.
Know.
That Yushin risked his life to protect himself from the tyrant Vortigan for the sake of Ardena.
It’s not because you love me. Because I was Ardena’s teacher. Even though El knew that her emotions, which began to swirl in her heart, were only a mirage that would only end in her inaction, she hinted at Yushin, who had protected her from Vulcan’s tyranny, and conveyed her feelings.
“Is there anyone else who will love me?”
The elf with her pale purple hair said, containing her bitter feelings.
And she said that regret,
After many twists and turns, the high elf woman who finally arrived at her destination answered.
“Yes, I am.”
It was a familiar voice.
It was also a voice I missed.
Hearing her voice from behind, El turned her head. And at the place where she turned her head, there stood the person she had longed for and missed endlessly.
“Master.”
“Ah… , Ardena? How do you….”
“Because Master’s side is where I will be.”
I thought we would never see each other again.
From the moment I spoke of isolation,
She had thought that she was parting forever with her pupil.
But Ardena appeared.
As usual, with a determined look.
She was the complete opposite of herself, with her sorrowful appearance she was nothing but a lousy figure. El felt ashamed and ashamed of the conflicting situation.
Because she realized once again that she was an infinitely ugly person.
“And I’m going to tell Master what I couldn’t say back then, my true heart.”
Was there a trigger for something?
El felt embarrassed for a moment at Ardena’s markedly changed appearance.
Ardena, who has completely shaken off her sadness and despair, she is determined to move on. Sitting down in the sadness of the past, she only cried endlessly. She was the exact opposite of herself, close to the utopia of a hero.
“… You’ve grown wonderfully, Ardena. I am very proud of your growth. I wonder what made you so strong… For now, Mr. Gilead’s comfort comes first. Come see Mr. Gilead.”
El gave Ardena the role of caring for Yushin, who had fallen unconscious.
Because Yushin’s lover was Ardena,
Ardena took it for granted that she would take care of her Yushin, so she struggled to endure the mysterious throbbing pain in her chest.
“Yu, Yushin… ! Arm… Pa, arm!”
Seeing his empty porridge, Ardena exclaimed with an expression of her astonishment.
Her arm was cut off.
It must have been severed by something.
Until now, Yushin had gone through countless adversities, but this was the first time he had fallen so mercilessly. Ardena reacted with exasperation as well as her shock at the loss of one of her most important arms to her prosecutor.
She resembled Allen, who had vented his fury on Vortigan.
“First, recover Mr. Gilead’s arm… No, replacing a new arm is an urgent priority. As time goes on, the wound will heal. If the wound on the left arm is completely healed, you won’t even be able to wear a prosthetic hand… !”
“You mean the prosthetic arm, I’ll hurry up and get it somehow.”
“No, first of all, the Rostar warrior chief decided to bring the prosthetic arm, so let’s wait.”
As soon as El’s words were finished, Rostar, who had headed to the top of the World Tree, appeared.
She jumped from her high top floor.
Stepping on the branches of the World Tree, which stretched vertically, she slid down.
Eventually, Rostar, who succeeded in landing on both legs, took a deep breath and confirmed that he was barely late. At that, Rosta let out a sigh of relief and she quickly approached.
“Senior Ardena… ! Ah, Sir El Cid! I saved you just as you said!”
“Thanks.”
Rosta held out her hand.
Elle then handed over the thing that was in her hands at her Rosta.
The object she was handed over was a tree branch.
It was so small and shabby that it did not seem to be part of the World Tree, which only had branches that stretched out to cover the sky.
However, as a part of the world tree with vast life force, there was a vitality within that small branch that could never be ignored.
“Uh, uh… Hmm….”
After a few whimpers,
Yushin opened his eyes with the sound of tossing and turning.
At that, Ardena vigorously embraced her Yushin with both of her arms. As she lay there like a cold corpse, Ardena’s joy was immeasurable.
Yushin finally opened her eyes.
El, who had finally come to her senses and looked at her Yushin figure and her Ardena figure alternately, gave her a smile of relief and nodded her head.
“Ardena… ? When did you come?”
“Why do you volunteer for the group every time, Yushin! Did she do something reckless this time to cut off her precious arm…? ! Then what am I to do!”
Whoop whoop whoop.
Ardena began shaking her Yushin’s shoulders violently.
“What a fool! How reckless! Why do you always choose reckless things!!”
Ardena shed tears.
Tears stemming from the pain of the pain he must have suffered and the relief that he had woken up safely.
As if trying to wash away my worries,
She rejoiced that Yushin was alive with her radical actions.
Yoo-shin couldn’t even reply to that vehement greeting, and he had to watch Ardena’s face get closer and then she moved away.
“Mister Gilead.”
When Ardena was having a radical reunion while shaking her Yushin’s shoulders,
Elle opened her mouth as she bent her knees.
In her hand was a branch of the World Tree that Rosta had desperately brought.
“Do you remember that I, along with the first priest, smelted the divine objects used by the Ardena and Rosta warrior commanders?”
“… Hey, I do remember.”
Yushin felt an unknown ominous feeling at the appearance of El, who seemed to have prepared her trumpeting determination.
What are you going to do?
Fear preceded her resolute appearance.
But she nodded her head, saying that El could not have harmed herself, so she remembered the story she had told her before.
“From now on, I am going to use this branch and the power of the holy relics gathered here to make a prosthetic arm for Mr. Gilead. But right now it’s just the branches of the World Tree, so precise adjustments and smelting are impossible… , I’m going to use a rather rough method because I have to urgently attach the prosthetic hand before all the left arm limbs are regenerated.”
“Yes?”
No, with my body.
It’s that I’m using rough methods on my body.
Yushin understands El’s desire to attach a prosthetic arm to her before she loses her permanent arm, but
She was horrified by the ‘rather rough way’ she referred to.
If the oath of the elves were to the extent of saying that it was a rather rough method, how high-risk would it be? In Yushin’s eyes, El Cid began to look like a mad scientist.
