Chapter 90 – Mesgaki and the Diary (Drug Abuse Beware)
“Uh, Mom…?”
I couldn’t turn my head in the sudden situation. I was definitely expecting someone to be in my house, but my mom was in my room.
Even with my panties on.
A normal man would run away from here right away, but my body strangely opened the door and confidently faced my mother.
I don’t know where the courage came from, but it probably happened someday, even if it wasn’t the courage at this time.
“What are you doing…”
“Jae-jae? Are you back already?”
When I entered the room, I hurriedly hid something behind my back and started running hurriedly to the wall.
The one I was holding in my hand earlier, are those my panties? Please say no
“Mom, what is she hiding behind it?”
“Ah… Nothing? Were there any problems at that school?”
“Don’t talk back! What is that in your hand?”
The mother must have been taken aback. Cold sweat broke out on her forehead and she began to tremble slowly. Perhaps she was nervous, tendons were sprouting from her arms, trying to cover her hands somehow.
I wanted to believe.
The fact that her mother, who has suddenly become kind, can now repent and live a normal life.
Even if she doesn’t have a father, I can be happy too.
She says they can live happily together, without drinking and smoking.
But…
But…
Why do you keep trying to destroy my happiness? I want to live a normal life too. I want to sleep comfortably while being loved by my parents.
I want my dad to cook me breakfast every morning. And her mother wanted her father and me to protect her and give her a benevolent smile.
But you know what? All of these things seemed to be taken for granted by all my friends except me.
Who wants to live a normal life, even just once?
“Isn’t it…? Say it’s not what I think, Mom.”
“…”
“Say no, damn you!”
Normally, I rarely spit out swear words, but I screamed and cursed at the sudden surge of emotion.
No, it’s not a swear word, but this discrimination that only I receive is fucking disgusting.
Why does the world give me only unhappiness after letting me be born? Why can’t I be happy?
“You… What now.”
“Fuck, fuck! Why do I have to go through this every day?”
“You must be crazy.”
He approached her mother with an angry expression, quickly removed something that was covering her, and held it in front of her mother’s eyes.
I hoped my prediction was wrong, but the correct answer seems to have not changed.
I threw the panties away from her hand and looked at her disgustedly. No, it’s not that I’m disgusted, my mother was so disgusting.
Along with disgust came doubts. Why the hell are you doing this to me?
Why are you doing this to me, my own son?
“Why me…? I am my mother’s son You shouldn’t be doing this in the first place!”
“That… That’s… He looks so much like Jaehyun…”
“Is that really all?”
“He is cuter and more handsome than Jaehyun.”
Jaehyun was the name of my biological father who divorced her mother. No, she doesn’t know exactly why she got divorced in the first place, but looking at it now, she probably had a reason with her mother.
“So Daddy is divorcing Mommy… That’s really disgusting.”
Poo!
Suddenly, I felt a burning pain in my cheek, accompanied by the sound of flesh hitting my room.
‘Did I get slapped on the cheek? Why? Is it my mother’s fault?’
She looked at her mother without saying a word, stroking her cheek with her hand. Unlike before, the flustered face had changed to a cold and calm face.
What did I do wrong?
“This ungrateful bastard. I’ve been good to you, so do you pay me back for that?”
“Crazy bitch…”
Poo!
As soon as she cursed, she was slapped once more. This time, I started to feel a burning pain on my left cheek instead of the right, as if I had been hit on the other side.
Hands caught my hair…
Match!
“Ah… Why…”
Match!
“…”
Match!
Match!
Match!
“Why the hell… Why am I the only one going through this…”
Haha… I didn’t really want to hit him in the face.”
The cheek was so painful that it was difficult to speak.
Perhaps the violence had stopped now, but my mother quietly started hugging me without saying anything. Hug after hitting?
Are you sick and giving medicine?
“Ooh…”
“What did I do… Oh, no… Jaejoon, you know that mommy loves you, right? Huh?”
He quietly hugged her and patted her back. She patted me and slowly dragged me into her bedroom.
She slowly put me on the bed and whispered something to me.
“I won’t do anything, so stay still.”
“Boo…”
“Right. Do not go to school from tomorrow. I’ll tell the school.”
At that moment, as I imagined what would happen in the future in my head, I felt the disgust and sadness slowly rising from the tip of my chest little by little.
I could feel that sadness starting to gather into crystals, rising to the top of my neck, and gradually rising to the top and gathering in my eyes.
The crystals turned into hot water and flowed down.
I hope this time passes quickly…
After that, my life began to change little by little.
***
It was hard to sleep comfortably all day, perhaps because I was slapped or whipped every day. He always beats me whenever he wants, and when I feel better, he hugs me on the bed and puts me to sleep.
Fortunately, I didn’t do anything more than that, but it was so hard with each passing day.
Will I be slapped today or will I be whipped?
When can I get out of here?
I want to be free like a bird flying in the sky.
I tried to escape or use my cell phone to call for rescue, but I couldn’t see where the phone went, and it was watching me without doing anything.
“Jaejun-ah, let’s eat.”
“…”
It was fucking disgusting to feed me while pretending to be friendly while forcibly locking me out of my room.
Even my friends would be a bit suspicious if I disappeared…
“Oh~.”
“…”
This is child abuse
He kept putting the spoon to my lips as if telling me to keep opening my mouth. I hate to eat.
No, all the food she gave me was disgusting. It was just disgusting because I thought that he did it to look good in everything he did to me in the first place.
When I didn’t eat until the end, I took it back as if I had given up.
“Sleep with Mom.”
“…”
It seemed like time passed the same way every day. Until the opportunity arises.
“What? Mistress… Okay, see you at the cafe around here.”
‘Cafe…?’
The moment she waited while her mother wasn’t home, she might have finally had a chance with me. No matter how quietly she speaks, she couldn’t imagine that I was constantly overhearing.
I pretended to sleep in my room and took the opportunity to leave.
Rattle!
Went out I think I just left with the sound of the front door closing.
The house was creating only a quiet and gloomy atmosphere as if no one was there except me.
Chin, Chin! Chuck!
My door didn’t even open before I left the front door. There was also the option of kicking or breaking the doorknob, but it seemed that my strength would not be enough.
Then…
“Gulp… Do you really have to do this?”
Go out through the window The windows are also locked, but you can easily break them by throwing something like a watch.
But the problem is…
“High.”
The villa we lived in was on the second floor. Even the second floor was a high second floor, so if you landed incorrectly, it seemed like you would die instantly.
My hands were shaking and I was scared.
If you accidentally fall here, you may be crippled.
“But… It’s better than staying here forever.”
Clink!
I broke a window with a chair. Sharp pieces of glass were scattered everywhere, so I covered the window frame with a blanket to avoid getting hurt as much as possible.
“One, two, one… Haha.”
Scary. I’m scared, I don’t want to die, I want to live a normal life too.
A number of thoughts popped into my head and began to push me more and more out the window.
There is a pipe next to the window. Is it okay if I grab it and go down? It’ll be fine… Please.
Squeak…
At least it was because my body was light, so there was no such thing as a broken pipe like in the movie. However, it took too much time to come down to the bare ground, probably because of weak power.
“Ha, ha, ha…”
I saw it now, but blood was oozing from my hands and feet.
But now wasn’t the time to care about that. A police station or no… At least stay away from this house.
Tuck, tuck…
Raindrops began to fall drop by drop from the sky, which had been dark until it came out. It’s still summer, but if you get wet in the rain, you’re sure to be cold.
Shoot ah…!
The raindrops, which had been thin and thin, could not get stronger and began to pour down from the sky. Maybe it was because I was running without shoes, so I got tired easily.
Let’s take a short break in an empty alley and then go…
“Ha ha…”
Two drops of water formed on the back of the hand. Is it raindrops?
My body temperature dropped, and my whole body started to tremble.
Cold, hungry
I am sick and want to rest.
Annoyed, tired.
I… Why do I live.
“Hey… Are you okay?”
The moment I was resting in an alley like that, a woman appeared in front of me.
A woman with her black hair in a ponytail with her hair sideways.
“Where are you hurt?”
“Ah… Save me.”
I made a sad request to this woman.
Want to live
