Chapter 146 – Date With Eun-Je
Eunje and I found a restaurant inside the amusement park and went in together to start eating.
At first, she worried a lot about what to eat among Western, Korean, Japanese, and Chinese foods. In the end, I ended up choosing the Japanese restaurant that was closest and seemed reasonably priced.
I started eating Gyudon Eunje, choosing the shoyu ramen with broth.
“It’s good!”
“The ramen is also delicious…”
I haven’t eaten a lot of Japanese food, but unexpectedly, the meat was soft and the seasoning was well absorbed into the rice, so it was quite delicious.
Eun-je, who was eating ramen in front of me, was delicious, so after pulling her hair slightly above her ears, she ate the ramen without stopping her hands and mouth.
‘But what does shoyu ramen taste like?’
She knows the taste of Korean-style ramen because she often eats it, but she has never eaten Japanese-style ramen, so I was curious about the taste of the ramen she was eating.
The moment I picked up the noodles with my chopsticks, I threw myself away like a tiger and took the food away.
“What are you doing!”
“Mum mum, it just looks delicious.”
When the chopsticks came off with force, there was a lot of my saliva on them.
“But the ramen is delicious after all… Is it because it’s an authentic dish?”
“If you say you want to eat, just say… More chopsticks…?”
“Hmm?”
Without saying a word, he drank the Coke without a word as he put his chopsticks into the bowl of ramen. I looked at him wondering if there was something wrong, and he quietly and naturally ate his drink.
‘Is it because ramen is a waste? Should I share some of what I ate?’
Thinking about it from Eun-je’s point of view, I felt a little annoyed. Wouldn’t you be angry if you were eating a delicious meal and suddenly ran in front of you and took it out?
I scooped up her gyudon I was eating and brought it to her.
“Hmm?”
“I took a bite, so you take a bite too!”
Eun-je’s pupils briefly widened and then narrowed as she began to focus on my spoon. The moment I tried to clean it up in front of my eyes, wondering if it was because the spoon was dirty.
Bang!
As soon as I looked away, I bit into a spoon and took a bite of the gyudon I gave you.
“Mmm, it’s delicious.”
“Isn’t it? Then I should eat quickly too.”
I quickly put the spoon I pulled out of Eun-je’s mouth into the rice and cooked it.
“Spoon…”
“Hmm?”
“Oh, nothing…”
The suddenly awkward atmosphere continued until we finished eating. After eating our full meal, we walked down the street together to take a walk after dinner and see the amusement park at night.
It was probably time for students to go home, so men and women presumed to be adults began to fill her streets. She was probably holding her hand, so she was pretty sure they were a couple.
While looking at Eun-je, who was walking beside her, she sent a proposal.
“Would you like to walk hand in hand?”
“Hand? Didn’t you hold it before walking?”
It seemed like I was referring to the time when I was dragging Eun-je. However, the holding hands I propose is different from the way I held hands before.
He stole Eunje’s hand, which was still holding the handbag, and held it tight with mine. I could feel the warm yet soft fingers seeping through them.
“Like this.”
“Uh, uh…! Is this… Okay?”
“Is there anything that doesn’t work between us? It’s a bit chilly at night, so let’s stay like this.”
Eun-je, who blushed once again, couldn’t say anything and just squeezed my hand with a little more force. I could feel a little bit of sweat dripping from my bare hands.
Still, I didn’t let go… It’s not a bad feeling, it’s cozy and it makes me feel good.
It’s not that I like skinship, but it just felt good to be like this.
“Doesn’t this make you feel good? It’s kind of warm and reassuring.”
“Yes…”
“My mother used to catch me this many times… And this isn’t bad either.”
“Me too.”
The two hands that were facing each other were kept as they were without thinking that they would fall apart. As we slowly walked down the street together, a splendid performance was being held in front of me.
Mascot dolls and employees greet the huge object with colorful lights.
It seemed all the more beautiful because it matched so much with this dark night. It seemed like it could be called the sunlight that blooms at night.
Many people were drawn to the light and gathered like moths to a fire.
“Really pretty…”
“Huh.”
Eun-je, who was watching the performance together, was distracted by the colorful lights. Wasn’t it a lie when you said you wanted to go to an amusement park with a guy?
I looked up at Eun-je while holding my hands together.
“It’s silver.”
“Why?”
Tight.
The hand went into Eun-jae’s bosom with strength as it was. He cupped her waist with one hand and tucked her head into her chest.
“Sah, boss?!”
“Thank you always… For helping me with my broadcasts, and sexual harassment a lot, but thank you for always editing hard and helping me without saying anything.”
“Uh… Yeah… Well, it wasn’t particularly difficult…”
I let go of my hands and hugged her waist with both hands. The warmth and softness doubled, perhaps because their bodies were closer than before.
It was cozy, yet so warm that it felt good.
Since we were holding each other without saying anything, Eunjee put her hand on my back and hugged me tightly.
The splendid performances have already disappeared, but we have been closer to each other in search of each other’s warmth.
“Boss… No, Jaejoon.”
I called my real name after a long time, not my usual honorific.
“Why?”
“Do you know why I helped Jaejun?”
“Huh?”
If you ask me why I helped you, maybe… Maybe he helped because he was a fan and a little selfish? Because no one is willing to do the manager job and the editor job that doesn’t even pay.
“I… I’m actually scared, and I’m afraid I’ll get farther away, so I’m not good at saying things like this… But I think I can say it now, so I’ll say it.”
“Huh…”
Eun-je’s voice resonated in her ears as she hugged me, and a chilling sensation seemed to run up her waist.
“I like you… No, I don’t like you as a fan, I like you as a woman.”
Without saying a word, I hugged her by the waist with all my might.
“Editing is hard, and I dragged it out every day… I did it because I wanted you to see it. It’s women who want attention from the person they love.”
“…”
Editor with no income. Chatting full of sexual harassment and aggro all the time.
It was something normal people would never do.
“Now, even saying this… I just didn’t think there would be an opportunity like this… I was afraid that another woman would dump you, so I was afraid that it would end more than ten thousand times… I just wanted you to know how I feel.”
“Huh…”
“I like you… No, I love you, can I say I like you even just once?”
I don’t know since when, but hot tears were slowly dripping down from Eun-je’s reddened face.
Tears ran down my jawline and dripped down my face.
“Sah, I knew the truth… You, Jaehee and Jaeyeon noona… I knew everyone liked me…”
I knew.
I knew what the women who always helped me for doing strange broadcasts were doing.
He put up with the hard work, and he always knew that he was helping me to get my attention.
Jae-hee waited for me every day because she wanted to see me one more time, and Jae-yeon noona liked me so she let me stay at her house for a few days.
Other than that, I knew that all the help they gave me was because they liked me.
“But… It was rather difficult knowing those feelings… All I could do was give my body or something like that, but it felt like I was receiving too much love.”
“Aside from that, I had a hate disorder from being sexually harassed in the past… I was afraid I would be abandoned because of that, so I couldn’t express it at all?”
“Huh…”
There’s nothing I can do for girls who like me, but I felt guilty for seeing them approach me while liking them.
No, I liked the women around me, not the people.
I was always confused by this contradiction and always treated it harshly.
“But do you like me like this…? There’s nothing I can do for you? There are even a lot of women around me.”
“No, it doesn’t matter. I’m satisfied with just being like this.”
Side… ♡
After that, I lifted my heel and put my mouth on Eun-je’s mouth.
Feeling her warm and fragrant scent gently tickling my face, I brought her body closer to her.
It wasn’t a deep or hot kiss, but it felt good to feel each other’s warmth.
Eun-je felt the touch of my lips and closed her eyes and waited quietly.
Like Eunje, Jaehee and Jaeyeon noona… I actually didn’t hate them.
“Sorry, this is the only thing I can do for you.”
Eun-je, who was looking at me, kissed me again instead of answering. This time, I could feel her soft tongue moving into my mouth, not just her lips.
It felt like I was going to lose my mind more and more at the feeling of being warm and pushing me into a fantasy.
