Chapter 141 – Yuna Shin’s Heart – 141
Chapter 141
A distance close enough that you can feel your exhaled breath on your skin. Marlboro Red’s tobacco flavor is strong.
“…”
It was Shin Yeon-a who always tested me with playful skinship, but when I tried to touch her first, her pupils were causing an earthquake.
“Can I do this to me? My brother’s girlfriend is sleeping in the bar?”
“You have no intention of telling Eunseo.”
Shin Yeon-ah drools as if she was hit on the right track, but she soon refutes it.
“I have no intention of hurting a dear friend like Eunseo. I think it would be better to tell the truth before the relationship gets too long.”
A twinkling smile. Shin Yuna’s mischievous laugh whenever she wants to hide her feelings.
“Well, how you act is up to you.”
He returned an ambiguous answer, neither advancing nor retreating.
“…”
Yuna Shin, who had a different reaction than expected, was silent.
Her heart beat faster and faster, felt through her pressed breasts.
“You were planning to seduce me from the beginning and make Eunseo fall away from you.”
[Status Message – Yuna Shin]
-Embarrassed / Stabbed to the point.
“…Me?
Shin Yeon-a, who barely recalled her rebuttal, opened her mouth before she could finish her words.
“I can’t do it anymore, right? It’s because I’ve become too close with Eunseo.”
“…”
-…He’s been looking through my heart since before.
[Special item – Yuna Shin.]
– Due to the influence of her cruel first love, she becomes interested in attractive women and men who are in deep relationships, and loses interest in her when men are attracted to her.
The reason why Yuna Shin is interested in a man who has a girlfriend and seduces him.
There is also a salvation mentality that says that women are a waste for men without fidelity, but…
She knows because she has been observing her status messages ever since she reunited with her.
Her essential reason is an unconscious psychological mechanism for her self-defense.
‘The principle of love class professor said. Her love begins with loving herself.’
The fat and ugly Shin Yeon-ah of the past. She was the only one who opened her heart and even got betrayed by the man she had a crush on.
Even though she debuted in the entertainment industry, she became pretty enough to be comparable to her, but Shin Yuna still doesn’t love herself.
It’s partly because she couldn’t adapt to her sudden change in appearance, and partly because, for Shin Yeon-ah, her appearance doesn’t belong to the conditions for loving herself.
That’s why she is interested in attractive women and men who are deeply involved.
By seducing others and making them fall in love with themselves.
She finds the pathetic consolation that she is a better woman than an attractive woman enough to be loved by someone.
Just like Eunseo. Just like young children.
And like me.
Shin Yuna had a small twist in her heart.
Anyway, Shin Yeon-ah cannot try to separate me from Eun-seo.
That’s why Shin Yeon-ah, aside from me, became very close with Eun-seo.
‘It’s suspiciously fast that we became close.’
Shin learned a lot about Eunseo as they quickly became friends. She also knows that Eun-seo is an overly innocent and tender child.
Therefore, she will not be able to do anything that hurts her Eun-seo.
‘What should I do with Shin Yeon-ah?’
There must be a quest, I thought, what if I started attacking Yuna Shin like this.
Should I become a trash boyfriend who sexually harasses my girlfriend’s best friend?
Or should she make Shin Yeon-a a delicate woman who is sexually harassed but doesn’t say anything because she is afraid that her friend will be hurt?
Or… Let’s make her a piece of trash sharing her affections with her best friend’s boyfriend.
[Titling. I am excited about situations where my sexual desire is aroused.]
Shin Yuna is my first partner and the first woman I am grateful for. Even for a moment, it’s the sound in her head that she doesn’t want to remain a bad boy.
I would have tolerated it even if she hadn’t continued to provoke me and show unusual emotional states.
But she piqued my curiosity. It made me want to satisfy my curiosity.
[Titling. The possessiveness begins to inflate little by little.]
‘…Because I have to create a situation where Eunseo naturally accepts other women.’
Eunseo secretly seduces Eunseo’s friend, so I feel a little sorry…
Wouldn’t it be fun to do it with Shin Yeon-a just a little while ago? It is Eun-seo who reflected her inner heart, the king of innocence, in the status message.
I rationalized that and looked at Shin Yuna.
“Eunseo really likes me. You know that, right?”
Yuna Shin didn’t answer, but her status message agreed with me.
“Even if I lose my eye for a second, it’s over if I apologize. Eunseo will never part with me. If you say that, it means that nothing other than hurting Eunseo will happen.”
I decided to give Shin Yeon-a a little illusion of her.
I know that Eunseo doesn’t care about contact with other girls, to the point that if she goes to bed with Shin, she’ll send a status message saying that she’s having fun, but Shin doesn’t know that.
“Didn’t you say earlier that you would help our relationship go unnoticed?”
Looking at the status window of Shin Yeon-ah, who was raging with worries and anguish, she opened her mouth.
Her lips look close. The pale pink lip tint is desirable.
I suddenly want to kiss you, but I hold back.
‘Because Shin Yuna loses her charm to men who push her too hard.’
There is also a desire to return Shin Yeon-ah’s actions that crossed her line in a narrow way.
Instead, she continued with her arms wrapped around Shin Yeon-ah’s waist.
“From now on, please take good care of me.”
***
Yuna Shin thought.
‘Isn’t that man crazy?’
Yunho Song. How could she do such a thing even with a pretty girlfriend like Eunseo?
It is true that when he first got to know Song Yun-ho and Eun-seo, she seduced him like her prank.
However, as she became a friend with whom she could open up to Eunseo and came up with other reasons, she stopped trying to seduce her sincerely.
‘It’s a habit, so I played around like a habit, but no matter how…’
She bit her lip. The sound of a large amp ringing your eardrums.
Wanting to feel the sound waves pounding her heart, she came to the club after a long time.
Club. To the average person, clubs are an image of open-minded people in their twenties looking for pleasure and pleasure.
It had a slightly different meaning to Shin Yuna.
Where she met a man who exchanged her first experiences with her.
It was only a one-night stand, and in fact she doesn’t even know the man’s name.
But nonetheless… When Shin Yuna came to her club, she felt a strange sense of security and strong motivation.
In a word, for Shin, the club was a recharging station for energy and a powerful motif in itself.
Of course, there are not only advantages. The eyes of countless men. She frowned in slight disgust.
Like her habit, she is Shin Yeon-ah, who unknowingly seduces men, but she doesn’t like men and has affection for them. Rather, she felt a slight revulsion when she saw certain men.
‘Things that change attitudes with one appearance.’
Among the men who approached her, some tempted her to come to her table, offering to buy her a drink while showing off her wealth, but Shin ignored them all.
Instead, she contacted the club MD.
-Mr. MD. I’m in the club Just one bottle of beer.
-Really? Why is it such a long time? Wait a minute.
Club MDs run sales with attractive women to manage the club’s water quality.
Alcohol and beverages are provided as standard, and on days when the water quality is poor, they beg to come just to catch taps.
In terms of Shin Yeon-ah’s beauty, she could get 10 or 100 bottles of beer.
While she was waiting for the MD, she went into the bathroom and fixed her makeup.
It’s not that she doesn’t look good, but obsessive maintenance of her appearance was her habit.
As she left the bathroom, the MD appeared and handed her a beer.
While drinking craft beer with a sweet fruity scent, Shin recalled what had happened at her bar a few tens of minutes ago.
Eunseo. A precious friend who doesn’t have to pretend or act because he’s innocent.
Because of her bullied past, she had no close friends and was Shin Yeon-ah, who did not open up easily, but Eun-seo strangely quickly penetrated her heart.
It is safe to say that Eun-seo was her only friend to Shin Yeon-a, who, for some reason, did not intend to enjoy college life with her college classmates, to be exact.
Eun-seo’s boyfriend, Song Yun-ho.
‘While my girlfriend was drunk and asleep, she hugged me and wrapped her hands around my waist.’
Even thinking about it now, it was an annoying and angry experience, but at the same time…
She twisted her fine brow a lot.
She didn’t feel all that bad. The fact made her feel embarrassed.
‘At first, I approached after seeing the secret book.’
From a certain moment, even just being together started to bother me.
Why do you care
Feeling the eyes of the men pouring down, Shin realized one of the reasons.
‘The gaze didn’t feel bad.’
The first impression she had of Song Yun-ho was that of an attractive woman like Eun-seo.
If I had to ask about the impact, it would be about a man who is curious because his bottom is so big.
But over time, he developed a different sense of curiosity.
Song Yunho’s attitude towards her was a bit peculiar.
It’s not that I’m not interested, but I’m not ready to attack blatantly like other men.
A halfway interest somewhere in between.
If it had been before his appearance changed, he would have thought he was a good-looking guy who cared about ordinary girls.
That’s why Yuna Shin felt strangely comfortable when she was with Yunho Song. And that feeling of hers was gradually changing into a form that she couldn’t figure out.
She remembered the reflection in her eyes whenever he looked at her.
It’s not the appearance, it’s the look inside, as if looking at something else.
To Song Yun-ho, Shin Yuna, who was more ordinary than the beautiful appearance of the current Yuna Shin… But it was because the Shin Yuna of the past, who had a shining will enough to awaken his desire for change, left a more impression on him.
She didn’t know that her first man and Yunho Song were the same person, and as Yuna Shin, she had no choice but to come up with a different idea.
‘Once upon a time at a bar. I told her not to judge people based only on her appearance, so she got angry instead.’
Perhaps Song Yun-ho did not know that she was listening.
She realized From then on, my feelings for Song Yunho started to become subtler little by little.
‘I have to go home.’
She came to the club to relieve her mood, but she just felt uneasy.
As she was leaving the club, she bumped into the MD.
“What is it, Yuna, are you leaving already?”
“Yeah.”
“Why, why don’t you play a little longer?”
She was a socially smiling MD, but Shin Yuna kept her expressionless.
“I’m tired. Ah. I don’t think I’ll be able to come in the future, so please delete my contact information.”
“Yes? Why?”
“I have no money.”
“You don’t have to spend money. If it’s Yuna-ssi, I can catch you every time you come.”
“I don’t have time.”
While answering, Yuna Shin thought to herself.
Even now, she is doing several high-paying part-time jobs with her college student as a business card, but she is somehow squeezing out time to enjoy her minimum pleasure.
But she will find it increasingly difficult to find time in the future.
‘Maybe college life…’
“Anyway, since he won’t come in the future, please delete his contact information. I’ll also block KakaoTalk.”
Yuna Shin walked towards her exit.
Again and again. Her footsteps were as emotionless as her expression.
“If you need a lot of money, can you introduce me to a part-time job? The hourly wage is very strong.”
MD’s last word stopped Shin Yeon-ah.
