[Code Geass] Irregular 149

Chapter 149 – 148. Each One’s Circumstances

It was the first time I had seen C.C with such a painful expression. It was not the image of a witch, but the image of a wounded girl.

Is that C.C’s real face?

“Are you lonely?”
“You’re a loner. In hundreds of years, everyone who’s known you is dead. Die old, die in an accident, or be murdered.”
“Shut up!”
“As soon as I opened my eyes, I was alone. I didn’t know anyone. Naomi? Euphemia? Biretta? Lirina? Everything I knew from a year ago. Everyone I knew when I was young is not in this world.”
“With just such a thing!”
“Something like that? It’s not like that. You don’t understand me?”

As I said that, I shrugged my shoulders like a habit. I’m not a loner now, but when I first fell into this world, I was definitely a loner. I obviously didn’t want to go, but if I really didn’t want to go, I wouldn’t have clicked on the message that appeared in front of me. I would have ignored it so that it would disappear naturally.

I must have been in my heart, excited to be able to leave for the world of animation.

“I wish you could see my memories.”

After saying that, I lowered my head and looked at the ground. The first person to talk about my inner feelings is the one who betrayed me. Haha! I feel bad.

“What is your real identity?”
“Me? Hmm… A stranger would be the most appropriate?”
“Gentile?”
“Yeah. I don’t want to tell you more than that. It’s not a problem, but C.C. I really almost died because of your betrayal?
“…”
“That’s why I don’t want to tell you. I won’t tell anyone, but I especially don’t want to tell you. You’re not on my side. I’m a small person, so I want to take care of only those who are important to me. Even if I have some spare time, I am a person who wants to spend that spare time on someone important to me. I am a person.”

I said so and stood up. I felt like I wouldn’t be able to control my emotions if I talked about it any longer.

“You were called a witch by others, right? A witch? To me, you’re not a witch. You’re a woman who doesn’t like to be alone.”
“You don’t like me being alone?”
“Yes. Loneliness is not a big deal to a loner. It’s a loner anyway. If loneliness is what you feel every day, it’s worth noting it.”
“…”
“So you’re a loner. Isn’t the solitude promised in the continuation of time painful?”

I’m exhausted as I explain. It wasn’t hard on the body, it was hard on the mind. This is what it feels like to use your heart.

“If you put it that way, I and I are completely different. I am no longer alone. C.C., Who should be alone soon?”

I said that and moved on to leave. C.C didn’t hold me and stood there, staring at the ground. C.C is a woman who had Gears, loved by everyone. She is a foolish woman who misunderstood that she only felt true love from a nun who was not affected by her Gears. In the end, she is an immortal witch who fell into the nun’s scheme and got the code of the world of C.

What is the difference between Mao and C.C.

Is that why C.C felt sorry for Mao? Did she get away from Mao? She may have projected herself from Mao. I killed Mao, so he must hate me.

Now that I think about it, I can understand why C.C hates me. I killed Mao under the judgment that the plan would be disrupted. It’s also very cruel. She didn’t die herself, but she did and left it, so if she dies, it’s my fault.

The taste was very bitter. This was the most fucked up part of living in this world. There is no grave without an excuse, no one without a story, and since we know the future of this world and the characters’ inside stories, it’s not easy to hate them. My resentment toward C.C is still burning, so it shouldn’t matter, but I hope C.C doesn’t apologize to me for the resentment that will continue to burn. I hope you don’t apologize. Even if you experience death dozens, hundreds, or thousands of times, you can survive by automatically loading ‘perfect C.C’ in the world of C. In order to die, the ‘code’ must be discarded, but the code can be taken over but cannot be discarded.

In addition, the person who can take over is the person who ‘Gears has grown beyond control’. When I thought that far, it felt like lightning had passed through my head. He realized why he hadn’t handed over the code to Mao and why he had run away, leaving Mao alone. Oh fuck

C.C didn’t want to present Mao with a future that would be like him.

C.C believed and followed only the nun who gave Gears, and Mao believed and followed only C.C who gave Gears.

He projected himself onto Mao and realized it was the wrong choice.

I feel bad.

I’m kaak twi! After spitting, I headed to my house where they were waiting for me. It feels like a thump in a corner of my heart. It seemed like I was talking to C.C. The original purpose was to break C.C’s mentality and throw it away.

Fuck.

Witch? Fucking a witch. But why the fuck did you do that to me?
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[C.C., Who should be lonely soon?]

Woojin’s bitter sarcastic remark rang in his head. Even though C.C didn’t want to think about it, he was in pain from the scene from before that kept rewinding.

How was he right? Immortality. Mind that does not reach. No I was crazy no. Didn’t go crazy. Is not it? Am I crazy now?

I heard all the different thoughts of the stars. The last was guilt. Why did I betray a man named Woojin? Want to die? Do I really want to die? Why do you want to die

Is it right to throw someone else into hellfire for my own happiness? What about Mao? Why didn’t he hand over the code to Mao? Because of some guilt? Is your situation similar to mine?

Then what about Woojin?

“Ooh… Ooh…”

Obite was about to come out. C.C. He now realizes what he did to Woo-jin. I wonder if he knew what Woojin’s identity was or what he was trying to do. To kill? Want to experiment? Are you that great? No.

“Ha…”

C.C. Sighed. What do I want to do Do you really want to die? Or not…

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“Long time no see.”
“Oh yeah.”

I met Lelouch. I haven’t seen him once since the recapture operation, but I feel at ease seeing him now. Lelouch’s help is desperately needed to become the world I want. Lelouch, who had regained his mental state by now, was smiling the same as before. A sinister laugh as if he was plotting something.

“Roro?”
“I let you go before.”
“You released him?”
“Okay.”

Lelouch nodded his head. Why did you release it? That guy is a very dangerous person. Gears that specializes in assassination. No, should he be called Gears, who specializes in killing people even if he isn’t assassinating?

“How did you release them?”
“Even if my memory came back, I told you that the time I spent with you wasn’t a lie.”
“And?”
“You let me go, saying you were my little brother. You were very confused.”
“Hmm…”

It seems to flow similarly to the story, but is there really such a thing as compulsion? I didn’t do my best to change the story, but I changed it every time the shit broke out, but it keeps going the same way.

Still, if Yuffie was alive, it would have been fine, right?

“So? Thinking of using it?”
“Yes. Because I have to find Nanari. Do you dare to play my younger brother? I will use it until I die and then throw it away.”

As soon as Nana-ri spoke, Lelouch made an expression that looked like a savagery. Her younger sister’s foolish temperament burst out thinking of Nanari, who had gone missing. Nanari is probably in Britannia. Governor Carales has searched for nothing this time, so he’ll come to Area 11 in a little while.

“Yes. I hope you find Nana-ri well.”
“Hmm? Are you saying you won’t cooperate?”
“I can cooperate with you personally, but not C.C that woman.”
“Why?”

I explained in detail to Lelouch what I was being arrested and what happened when Lelouch lost his memory. Lelouch made an interesting expression when talking about the persecution that Yuffie and Biretta had been through.

“Huh? Biretta, who would have thought that such a woman would be?”
“I didn’t know what. I thought he was a citizen who had lost his memory. I thought he was a knight.”
“But it’s disrespectful to say that the Black Knights did that when I wasn’t around.”
“I should have done a little better internal crackdown.”

It’s hard now to pretend like I don’t know. But you have to. Because it doesn’t make sense that I know.

“So? Are you planning on continuing to operate Sword Breaker?”
“Of course, it’s an organization I’ve devoted my heart and soul to raising? We can’t go to war because we don’t have enough people, but we’re going to make specialists in battle.”
“Are you sure you don’t intend to work with the Black Knights?”
“Because I’m not there? But maybe sooner or later we’ll be working together.”
“What does that mean?”

At my meaningful words, Lelouch put on a puzzled expression. You haven’t heard about the story with Princess Kaguya yet. I smiled and patted Lelouch on the shoulder. You have a lot of trouble

“Wouldn’t it be possible to find out sooner or later? Just wait. A gift you receive without knowing is better than a gift you know.”
“A gift? Then expect it.”
“Perhaps? A present?”

I said that and parted ways with Lelouch. Is the gift right? Probably not…