Chapter 593 – Her Decision (2)
From her childhood she learned that.
You must always be cool-headed.
A successful life can only be achieved by realizing maximum benefit and minimum loss among the countless choices given in life.
It was indeed so.
Rational and cool-headed judgment made her life more enriched.
What I lost was always small, and what I gained was several times or dozens of times more.
Then, has there not been a single moment when she made a choice under the control of emotion rather than reason?
It wasn’t.
No matter how cool-headed and rational you try to judge, she is ultimately a human being.
The emotions that cannot be erased sometimes hide beneath reason and seep into her choices.
Twice like that.
She once decided the direction of my future with emotions, not reason.
The first is marriage.
Despite her family’s dissuasion, she pushed through with her marriage.
Now anyway, the result wasn’t bad.
She loved and was loved so much, and she had a beautiful daughter for whom it was worth sacrificing her life.
The second was joining hands with Hexagram.
As it is now, at that time she was at the height of her disillusionment with the world.
No matter how good a thing you did, criticism followed.
If 90 out of 100 people were saved, why couldn’t the remaining 10 be saved?
When I shorten the 30-minute distance to 10 minutes and arrive, I wonder why I couldn’t come sooner.
When an incident occurs, why couldn’t it be prevented sooner?
I hated it so much.
Before I knew it, I felt like there was no point in saving people.
If you’re going to be criticized the same way anyway, wouldn’t it be a better choice to preserve your strength and get criticized rather than trying hard and getting criticized?
So she sat down in the magic tower.
She was caught up in all kinds of events and focused on her personal goals, ignoring the people who were screaming at her.
Numerous items poured out of the Magic Tower?
It was only a part of creating a tool to increase her influence and help her achieve her goal, and it did not contain the slightest consideration for people.
The hexagram showed sufficient power.
But if she were her usual self, she wouldn’t have paid attention to that alone.
Nevertheless, the reason I chose to join hands with them was because my feelings whispered.
‘Only this path can save him and Seoyeon from her death.’
A husband who forcibly moves his lifeless body to move forward.
She is a daughter who tries to follow suit.
No matter how hard you try to stop them, they just won’t stop.
The most precious treasure in my life.
‘Let them rest in peace.’
And.
‘Let me tell the people who insulted my precious people.’
What a great happiness the world they have lived in so far has been.
To later understand and regret how heavy and valuable the sacrifices of those who protected us were.
This is her true feelings that she has never revealed to anyone.
There was one reason why she revealed her feelings to Kim Do-jin, which she had hidden from both her husband and her daughter.
For the third choice.
Not by reason, but by emotion.
She was sure.
Kim Do-jin in front of me is clearly connected to her husband in some way by a deep bond of fate.
So I confessed it.
‘If he helps.’
She calmly watched Hexagram’s operation from behind.
Their choice was excellent and produced good results.
But it wasn’t enough.
While things are going smoothly, there is just one thing.
I thought it wasn’t enough to be considered a decisive blow.
Han Ju-hee found that one room in Kim Do-jin.
What if the person who has blocked our path at every turn as an enemy becomes our ally?
‘The obstructionist disappears, and an allay emerges.’
He is a talent who goes beyond ordinary allies and will become the core of our strength.
Of course I know.
The fact that the emotional gap between the organization and Kim Do-jin is incredibly deep.
But that can be adjusted as much as you want.
If the organization truly wants to complete the big picture, if Kim Do-jin does not ignore Son Si-woo.
It is possible to just take a step back from each other in front of a common goal.
That’s why she appealed to sincerity, not reason or compensation.
“Kim Do-jin, I have just revealed the truth that I have never told anyone. If you’re smart, you’ll understand. “What does this mean?”
Kim Do-jin, lost in thought, raises his head with a serious expression.
Eye contact.
She puts her last words in her mouth with an earnest expression.
“It’s your last chance. Hexagram and…, No, if you can’t be with them, then join hands with me.”
* * *
That was the reason.
After Son Si-woo’s body was taken away, he inhabited this body until now.
A long period of time that can completely change the landscape.
That’s the end of the feeling of hearing the answer to the question I’ve been curious about for over 10 years.
Even I was surprised.
I thought I would get emotional in one way or another when I heard the story, but what is this?
I am so cold now.
Maybe it’s because so much time has passed.
The time when I loved her passionately has already passed.
How many times have you been disappointed by unknown actions?
In addition, it is difficult to understand that all of this is done for me.
I even have that thought.
Maybe I’m just an excuse?
I wonder if it’s just a means to clearly reveal one’s goals and desires.
Her words continue.
With an unknown expression on her face, she spits out the waste-like breath that was left in her body and asks me.
“I told my truth. So, please let me know.”
My breathing is a little tight.
What was it that made her so curious that she revealed the truth that she had not revealed to her husband or her daughter?
If he found out about what happened between me and him, how much did he know?
The moment when the tension tightened all the way down to the throat.
“My husband… “Are you your biological father?”
“… ?”
No, wait a minute.
Suddenly, he is my biological father.
What is that…, Ah.
I roughly understood it.
How did the current misunderstanding arise?
“My biological father…”
He trails off and lowers his head.
And organize your thoughts quickly.
She probably saw in me the way she spoke and her habits that she saw in her husband.
There are many people who imitate celebrities.
It’s not uncommon to watch someone you admire for a long time and become like him.
But what if it’s the same beyond the level of imitation?
Then your mind will become complicated.
Why does he behave, talk, and have the same habits as my husband?
Even if I get there, I can’t imagine that my body will have changed.
That’s absolutely ridiculous bullshit.
So what is the most plausible method?
Yes, bastard.
Han Joo-hee is now suspecting that I may be Son Si-woo’s illegitimate child.
So, he deliberately brought out his true feelings.
The reason is that…, Perhaps he wants to include me as an ally in his plans.
If I were Son Si-woo’s illegitimate son, I would have believed that I would participate in the work for him.
Okay, okay.
I’m done thinking.
Raise your head.
He admits with a slightly bitter expression and a self-mocking smile on his lips.
“… “You finally found out.”
Her face rots away in no time.
“Also…, My prediction was right.”
You probably hoped not.
If, as I said, everything I do now is for me, then it becomes proof that I betrayed myself.
It was a betrayal at a time when we were passionately in love.
She asks in a weak voice.
“I wonder what happened… “Have you heard anything?”
Think quickly.
There is no need to be specific.
Very roughly, but without her falling into complete despair.
“No. I haven’t heard anything in particular. Just… “Except it was a mistake overnight.”
“Okay… “I see.”
It’s quite fun to see the expression getting darker by the minute.
“So… “You asked me those questions.”
Question?
What question?
Oh, you mean the question I asked in the lab.
Amazing.
I never thought the angler would fit so well like this.
“With him…, When did you first meet?”
“It wasn’t that long ago.”
“Is it your sabbatical year?”
“Yes.”
Her gaze changes as she looks this way.
A slight warmth appears in her once cold eyes.
Even though he is an illegitimate child, is it because I think he is my husband’s bloodline?
“It’s not your fault, so don’t be too sorry.”
“… Thank you.”
It’s not.
I’m not sorry at all.
She asks carefully.
“Perhaps he…, Do you blame her father?”
I shake my head.
“It used to be like that…, Not now. “Even though I’m all grown up, I still taught him various things and even received a sincere apology.”
“Is that so. “Thank goodness.”
Her face feels much more relaxed.
Anyway, I guess so.
If you’re going to ask me to hold your hand, there should at least be no resentment or hatred.
Soon, as if she had made up her mind, she opened her mouth with a solemn look on her face.
“Mr. Kim Do-jin.”
“Please speak.”
“I have now revealed my true feelings, which I have never revealed to anyone. If you’re smart, you’ll understand. “What does this mean?”
Her words continue.
“It’s your last chance. Hexagram and…, No, if you can’t be with them, then join hands with me.”
There is a pretty tempting offer.
If you don’t like the hexagram, are you asking me to trust you and hold my hand?
I can feel her determination in those words.
What’s important to her is not moving forward with the hexagram.
All you really want is your own purpose.
The attitude that it doesn’t matter whether it’s a hexagram or anything else, as long as it can be achieved.
Maybe we can use this.
“If Hunter Han Joo-hee’s sincerity is true, then there is no reason for me not to join hands. But…”
“But… ?”
“Hexagram and I have already crossed the irreversible river.”
“In that case, I will coordinate…”
“No.”
Shake your head and interrupt her.
“I have no intention of living under the same sky as them.”
“Ah…”
By the time her face was colored with sadness.
I suggest it implicitly.
“So, how about the two of us join hands and beat the hexagram?”
“What is that…”
“As long as Hunter Joohee Han coordinates, I will obediently follow their plan for now.”
With her intervention, it is possible for her to step down even in this situation.
No, it’s not impossible to hold hands, even on the surface.
But that is only a temporary truce.
“First, we help them achieve the plan, and then we stab them in the back.”
Her eyes gradually become sharper.
“… Do you think that is possible?”
This is not a question to blame me.
She is sincerely asking me about that possibility.
It’s not that I don’t like that sharp expression, it’s that I’m considering the chances.
“Wouldn’t it be possible to pull people from the organization toward us one by one while we proceed with the plan?”
Quite a fascinating story.
But as she said earlier, she has no reason to do so.
Either me or the hexagram.
It doesn’t matter who you are as long as you can achieve your goal.
So, add one condition here.
“The offer you gave me…, The plan is not perfect enough to trust them 100% yet.”
There is plenty of potential, but it feels like something is lacking.
The reason she reached out to me was probably to erase that feeling of inadequacy.
“I’ll give you plenty of support for your plan. You don’t have to help me. Instead… “Please ensure mediation between the organization and me.”
You just need to do that.
Then, the Hexagram guys will be much easier to catch than now, and…
“If you do that, I will definitely achieve Hunter Joohee Han’s goal.”
Because even your ridiculous ambitions can be put to rest.
Her face began to shake up and down little by little.
