Chapter 509 – Childhood Friend (3)
All kinds of emotions are swirling beneath the deeply shadowed face.
Jealousy, envy, resentment, self-blame, regret, etc.
All the dark emotions that sicken the human heart.
Maturity that is not appropriate for one’s age that has always been shown.
Her true appearance, hidden behind it, looked dangerous, as if it could be distorted at any moment.
A lot of that too.
“It’s so amazing.”
Yoon Si-hoo and Jin Ha-rin.
Two people who have grown up together since childhood stimulate curiosity with different feelings.
How did that young guy become so stubborn?
Also, how did this young junior come to harbor such poisonous emotions inside?
It’s surprising that two people who seem as polar opposites as light and darkness have remained close until now.
At this rate, I don’t think it would be strange if we started getting angry at each other at some point.
“Hmm.”
I am lost in thought for a moment while holding the doorknob in my hand.
Is it right to open the door and leave like this?
If it’s something you’ve been hiding so closely, you probably don’t want anyone to see it.
The situation has already become a bit awkward since the last rejection, so I wonder if this could be the final blow.
After thinking for a moment, I make a small move.
“Yoon Si-hoo!”
“Yes, senior!”
Intentionally raise your voice louder than usual.
So that she can hear clearly from her outside.
“I didn’t collapse today, so I can go home alone, right?”
“Of course! “I’ll clean up after everything, so you can go in first!”
The guy who answers in a louder voice as if he doesn’t want to lose.
That kid must have boiled and ate a train barrel when he was young.
It was right then.
Jin Ha-rin, who was startled by the sound of a voice coming from the slightly open door, came to her senses and started running quickly to the other side of the hallway.
Tap, tap, tap!
“Phew.”
I think my choice was the correct one.
If you see him running around like that, he probably doesn’t want to show his current self to others.
No matter how much a family-like guild is your dream, you have to protect what you protect each other.
“Well, I’m glad.”
Today, I succeeded in protecting the privacy of my future colleague.
* * *
Run and run again.
“Haha… !”
Even though she is a wizard, she is a hunter.
Looking at his physical strength alone, he is breathing heavily even though he is absolutely out of breath.
Get away from them.
After running around, we arrived at an empty classroom at the Faculty of Magic.
Jin Harin calmly catches her breath in the silence that has descended with the chill that hasn’t gone away.
Rough breathing gradually recovers, and the fog-like confusion in my mind gradually clears.
“…”
Eventually, she regained her original appearance and remembered the story of the two people she had heard outside her training ground a little while ago.
-“So I will become an S-class hunter.”
It is no exaggeration to say that he is currently receiving the most attention in Korea, and indeed in the world.
My childhood friend did not feel intimidated in front of him and confidently expressed his aspirations.
-“So that no more victims are unfairly driven out.”
An ambition that can only be described as a pipe dream.
“I feel stupid.”
Young.
It’s like a child who falls in love with a movie where a hero plays an active role and writes down ‘hero’ as his future hope.
But isn’t Yoon Si-hoo an adult well past that age?
So it wouldn’t be too much of a stretch to call him an idiot.
Actually, it wasn’t that big of a deal.
Because his sense of justice has been special since ancient times.
-“Grandma, I will listen to you!”
From helping her grandmother carry a heavy load in the opposite direction.
-“It’s okay, my brother will save you!”
The biggest thing is going to the scene of a sudden fire and rescuing a child.
Other people praise it for being great, but I don’t know.
Every time she watched this, she had to try hard to hide the irritation rising inside her.
Why are you setting this up for the benefit of others when you can’t even do your job properly?
“Tsk…”
She clicks her tongue and frowns.
It’s because it suddenly occurred to me.
It is said that his skills have grown rapidly and are now not much lower than his own.
At the same time, until the moment when he coldly refused to teach me.
“Why on earth is he and I…?” !”
It was unfair.
Why does Yoon Si-hoo work, and she doesn’t?
Is it simply because his efforts look amazing?
That’s funny.
When it comes to her efforts, she doesn’t lose.
“I am trying my best… !”
Everyone is mistaken.
She is a genius who can understand ten things by teaching her one thing.
So, as a rule of thumb, she is ten times more efficient and doesn’t have to work as hard as others.
Every time I hear that, I feel nauseous.
Because I feel like my efforts are being belittled by their words?
That’s true, but the real thing is yourself.
Even though she knows that hearing those words is not a good thing, she strives for just that one word.
I shed blood and sweat to inflate the one thing I’ve learned into ten, and the actions of trying to boost my humble self and fill my lack of self-esteem after hearing people say I’m a genius without putting in any effort are extremely foolish.
I feel even more stupid and stupid for not being able to let go even though I know it is a foolish action.
“Why on earth only to me… !”
I don’t like it.
I don’t want to catch up with him.
I feel like I won’t be able to maintain my current life if even the one thing I have is caught up to him.
That’s why I feel sorry for Kim Do-jin.
I hate him for wasting his time teaching Yoon Si-hoo and rejecting me.
At the same time, I was desperate.
I think he can completely relieve this anxiety I have.
She managed to control her emotions and headed straight home.
And the next day.
After finishing training as always, she went straight to Kim Do-jin.
“Senior.”
“Uh, why?”
“Talk to me for a moment.”
She was sure to get the hang of it.
Someone who will give me giant wings that will allow me to fly farther and longer.
* * *
I go into an empty clubroom, turn on the light, and make coffee.
Coffee is the best.
Give her a cup of coffee made with perfect water control.
“Now, drink.”
“Thank you.”
Jin Ha-rin takes a sip of coffee as soon as she receives it and smiles pleasantly for a moment.
It’s so amazing.
It seems like they are picky and picky about what they eat, but when you look at them, they eat just about anything.
She felt puzzled by my gaze and asked.
“Why do you look at me like that… ?”
“No…, I suddenly thought that unlike you, you aren’t a picky eater like you appear to be.”
Wow.
Is this rude?
“Ahaha… “Sometimes people misunderstand.”
Fortunately, he doesn’t seem to be too offended.
“Actually, it makes no sense.”
She smiles sadly.
“There is no way I can be a picky eater given my circumstances.”
“Ah…”
Because she looked so sophisticated, I forgot about her for a moment.
The fact that she is living at the house of her childhood friend Yoon Si-hoo.
“Oh, don’t misunderstand! Both of Sihun’s parents are kind to me.”
Just when her mood was about to become solemn, she hurriedly waved her hand and said,
What…, I expected that to happen.
Because the chances of someone with a personality like Yoon Si-hoo being born from parents who are in the same class are very small.
Both of you must be people of character.
That’s probably why she took over her son’s childhood friend, who suddenly lost his parents and became an orphan.
But.
“I understand that feeling. No matter how good you are, you can’t help but be noticed.”
“Ah…”
The junior looked dumbfounded, as if he didn’t expect me to sympathize in that way.
Well, how many people can understand that feeling?
“It was like that. Senior too…”
“Yes, that’s right.”
At least I know well.
What is the sadness that an orphan experiences?
You can’t just be grateful to someone who treats you well, and you can’t receive that feeling.
Everything given to me feels like an illusion, like a mirage, and I feel anxious every day.
“It’s my first time.”
“What?”
“It’s about having a conversation with someone who understands exactly how I feel and sympathizes with me.”
“What…, Compared to the past, there are more orphans, but there are fewer children than children with parents. “No one wants to show off that they are orphans.”
When he answered in a sour manner, Jin Ha-rin’s eyes widened slightly.
“For that matter, senior…, You’re not particularly shy… ?”
The question is strange.
“… Why should I be ashamed of that?”
“That is.”
“Even though I had a hard time growing up without my parents, I grew up like this, so I should feel proud.”
“…”
It’s not wrong.
However, this is a realization that I gained after a lot of time had passed, and my mind had grown.
“Actually, I said that, but in the past, I was also ashamed and resentful of being an orphan.”
I was like that too when I was young.
What on earth are our parents doing that made them abandon their children at an orphanage?
What on earth did I do so wrong that I couldn’t grow up like others and had to grow up in such a sad way?
Because of this sense of victimization, my interpersonal relationships were not very good, and my personality continued to become dirty.
“But what can I do? “It’s not like we want to live like this.”
“Okay… “Yes.”
Jin Harin nods her head with a more depressed expression and agrees with my words.
But for some reason, the depressed expression looks more lively.
“Hey, senior.”
“Yes.”
“Actually…, I heard a conversation between you and Sihu yesterday.”
What is it?
Why are you confessing that all of a sudden?
Open your eyes slightly wide and raise your voice.
“Well, did you? I had no idea. “I guess you came to the training ground at night?”
“Yes… “I had to study at the library, so I stayed there and was worried that I might collapse again.”
“Okay. That’s possible.”
She continues her words.
“That’s what Sihu said back then. I want to change the world by becoming an S-class hunter…”
“It was like that.”
“What do you think, senior?”
There is a deep look of anticipation on her face as she asks that question.
It looks like I have the answer you want.
Eyes filled with even stronger desire turn towards me.
“Please be honest. “What did you think when you heard that?”
“Uh…, Well.”
What were you thinking?
Without thinking much, I express the thoughts that came to my mind at that time.
“I was still young and didn’t know much about the world, but I thought I didn’t know much… “De?”
Then she laughs.
She was like someone who wandered through the desert with a burning thirst and found an oasis.
Very bright.
