Chapter 310 – Merry-Go-Round (4)
Ferris wheel.
Hearing his daughter’s inner thoughts in a small, slowly rotating barrel.
There is no way to stop it, and at the same time, doubts remain.
Is my daughter really estranged from me just for that reason?
I don’t think so.
There are parts that are a bit unclear to understand all the moments with just that one.
For example, Han Joo-hee.
Even though she unintentionally gave her daughter a hard time, she didn’t get along like me.
No, to be precise, like me, I was thoroughly shunned, but I recovered my relationship a little bit.
At least I didn’t avoid dining out as an excuse or live without even making eye contact.
Just because she’s the same woman?
Well.
That doesn’t sound like a very valid reason.
Rather, the thought behind this makes more sense.
There’s more to it than that.
Why did you have to stay away from me
If so, what is it?
As long as he has already started to reveal his true intentions, wouldn’t he know that too?
“Is that all?”
“Uh… ?”
I asked with high hopes.
“The reason I moved away from my father… , I think there may be more that haven’t been said yet, isn’t it?”
I was convinced by the look on the guy’s face that hardened as soon as he finished his words.
There must be some other reason.
Then, Seoyeon threw a question at me.
“… Do you have any reason to think so?”
“That.”
I can’t answer with the feelings or impressions I felt as a father.
A reasonable answer… , Ah.
“Because of the senior’s expression.”
“My expression… ?”
“Usually, when people tell their true feelings, they put on a slightly relieved expression… , I’m not a senior.”
I feel relieved just by revealing my stuffy inner thoughts.
But the boy’s expression is still suppressed by something.
“So there are more things I can’t tell you… , I guessed that, didn’t I?”
An answer that seems far-fetched, but seems plausible at first glance.
Hearing this, a small smile spreads across Son Seo-yeon’s lips.
“It looks like a ghost.”
A guy who’s just plain pissed off.
“You’re right. Actually there is one more. What made her stay away from her father. The beginning is as I told you, but maybe this reason is a bigger stumbling block to recovering the relationship so far.”
Seeing the bitter smile on his face makes me even more curious.
What could be the bigger stumbling block than that reason?
Did I do something that would seriously hurt him without me realizing it?
I looked at him expecting that he would also reveal another reason behind it.
“But I can’t tell you this.”
The boy shook his head with a firm expression and declared a secret.
A naturally distorted face.
How many bigger reasons do you have to keep your mouth shut so resolutely?
I thought I wanted to poke the side a little bit, but.
“If it is difficult to confide in someone, there is no need to tell it.”
“Thank you for understanding.”
The guy who answers with a smile.
After thinking about it, I chose to pretend to understand.
Seeing his resolute expression, I thought he would never say anything to the point of stabbing his side.
And again…
“Ah, it’s over now.”
The ferris wheel that made the boy’s heart soft fell to the ground after taking a picture of the high sky.
“Let’s get off.”
With a slightly reddened face, I follow the guy walking ahead and step out into the small barrel.
“…”
“…”
A little awkward atmosphere.
Seoyeon, who hesitated while looking around without even looking this way, opened her mouth belatedly.
“Slowly… , Should I go?”
“Closing time is quickly approaching… , Shouldn’t it be?”
I played for a really long time.
She didn’t expect to meet early in the morning and be there until closing time.
The guy looked at the surroundings with regretful eyes, and then spoke again as if something had come to mind.
“That… , I’m sorry, but can I ride one more?”
It looks like there are still rides left that haven’t been ridden yet.
I was tired and wanted to go home.
“Is it so.”
I couldn’t bear to refuse.
As he said, if today is to recall old memories… , I thought I knew what ride to ride next.
“Let’s go.”
I followed slowly behind her as she walked ahead with light steps.
Eventually we arrived at the merry-go-round.
Perhaps because all the children who might have liked this had gone home, Seoyeon and I climbed on top of a wooden horse after passing through an empty queue.
As the wooden horse begins to turn slowly, the boy smiles even more brightly.
As if going back to the old days.
“Even in the old days, I rode the merry-go-round at the end.”
Okay.
It was.
It seems that back then it was similar to today.
Even though I was confident in my stamina, I was tired from staying at an amusement park all day.
So, I was getting ready to go back, and Seo-yeon begged me with her eyes shining as she saw the merry-go-round that just caught her eye, maybe.
“At that time, I sat on my dad’s lap and rode it…”
It was because he was too small to ride alone.
There’s a reason why growth was slow at the time, and the wooden horses in Luna Land are all rather big.
Watching them so happy just by recalling old memories makes me curious.
What is the other reason that blocks even those feelings?
But she soon decided not to think about it.
“… Too late, now.”
Even knowing the reason, she was no longer able to do anything for her as her father.
In such a situation, there would be no need to pry on skewers.
Didn’t you at least know that my daughter was having a hard time because of me?
That’s enough.
To some extent, to soothe the hardened heart towards him.
After a brief moment of happiness, we got off the wooden horse and stood on the ground again.
[Did you have a good time?]
[Sorry, but the time to say goodbye has come.]
Just in time, an announcement announcing the closing is played.
As if trying to capture memories that can’t be returned, the guy slowly looks around and turns away with a strange smile.
“Let’s go now.”
Still doesn’t look relieved
But… , It seems to have succeeded in relieving the stuffy mind to some extent.
Caught among the returning crowds, he escapes Lunaland.
Then I go straight to the parking lot and drive the parked car to the front of the guy’s house.
Near the house we arrived soon after.
“Thank you so much for today. Are you tired because of me?”
I shake my head at the question mixed with half gratitude and half worry.
“Although I was tired… , I also enjoyed it.”
It wasn’t so much a lie.
Just as he recalled his memories, I felt good for a while as I recalled my old memories.
I also came to know that my daughter did not stay away from me for nothing.
“I’m glad you enjoyed it.”
Seoyeon is relieved at my words.
I have something I want to say to him.
“Here you go, old man.”
“Why… ?”
“As of today, I bury the memories of the past in my heart, and now I live only looking ahead.”
Lastly, what I want to say as a father.
“I don’t know what the rest of the story is… , Senior is all grown up now, and she can’t go back to her childhood.”
Even if I stayed on as a father, we can’t go back anymore.
Even if you managed to restore a torn relationship, it’s the same.
Unlike back then, he has grown up.
No matter how much you try to treat them the same, there will always be unavoidable differences.
“Rather than thinking about wanting to go back, I want to think about how she progresses.”
I sincerely hope.
May Seoyeon be happy.
May you no longer suffer from the bonds of mom and dad.
“That is the only way to stand tall as a person named Son Seo-yeon.”
If Seo-yeon decides to run for that goal, she will be able to help enough from her current position, even if she is not a father.
The guy who was listening to my story silently opens his mouth and asks me.
“Do-jin, you… , Will you help me?”
“Anything I can help with.”
Seo-yeon, who seemed to be pondering for a while, finally smiled and nodded her head.
“I will try hard. If Dojin can help you… , I think it is possible.”
Seoyeon put her hand on my heart and quietly closed her eyes.
“This heavy heart… , She might be able to put it down.”
Guy… , It’s such a big story that they even call it a heavy heart.
Soon after, he opened his eyes and continued her words with a slightly more cheerful smile.
“Me… , There are many things missing. She’s not good at talking to people, and she’s sloppy as a hunter… , Anyway, it’s not enough.”
I like how well her self-objectification is done.
If you understand the problem, you can fix it, but if you don’t even know that, there really is no answer.
In that sense, my daughter is at least standing in front of the starting line.
“So you help me. I’m going to ask you all these things, so don’t be bothered and answer them all.”
“Yes, I will.”
If it was like before, I might not have responded because I was annoyed, but it’s okay now.
At least I want to help him stand on his own.
This was the bare minimum.
The least responsibility I can do for giving up on going back to my father.
The guy who was laughing with a smile that made even the viewer feel good continued.
“And this is from a slightly distant future…”
“What is it?”
“Therefore… , When I can stand alone as a single hunter and as a human…”
“What if?”
“Then would you like to go to the amusement park with me one more time… ?”
What is this bewildering question?
I was trembling because I thought I was going to do something very difficult.
“Is it so. That’s about it, it’s not that difficult.”
If you can stand alone, that’s no big deal.
I readily promised
Then he confirms with me with a meaningful smile.
“I promised… ?”
“Yes, promise.”
It wasn’t until after I hooked my little finger that he believed me and withdrew his hand.
Yes, daughter
Promises and contracts need to be thoroughly checked twice or three times.
You’re doing great.
“… Hit.”
The guy who laughs out loud at what’s so good.
It seems that his bright future is already looming in his eyes.
“Haha.”
I laughed along too.
