Chapter 262 – Dog XX (4)
Shin Yoo-jung knelt down in front of me.
“Sorry.”
Even a sincere apology.
If it was usual, ‘Mi… , You madman! You were wrong!’ I should have broken the drift.
After collecting the key keywords of the words he threw today, I understand the current situation.
The improvement and knotting of relationships she said.
It must have meant that you wanted to definitely straighten out the relationship that was out of sync from the start.
Asked the guy.
“What are you so sorry about?”
“… What I hated about you in high school Being bullied by bastards like Kim Jung-hoon because of me.”
It’s what the guy said.
Shin Yoo-jung is me… No, I hated the original owner of this body.
A lot of it too.
So if you ask me if I bullied you… , Well.
That part can be seen as a bit ambiguous.
“That’s why every time I saw you, I acted harshly and stared at you while showing off my dislike.”
Most of what Shin Yoo-jung did to this body was like that.
It should be said that she expressed the rejection that occurs when she sees a person she dislikes.
The issue here is whether or not such behavior falls under the category of bullying.
“Surely… , I was wrong then.”
When she saw it from a third person’s point of view, Shin Yoo-jung’s behavior at the time was wrong.
No matter how much she hates her.
She shouldn’t be glaring at her just for bumping into her in the hallway, kicking her tongue when she doesn’t like her, and cursing at her in front of her and telling her to get out of the way, right?
“Huh… , It’s my fault.”
Shin Yoo-jeong lowered her head while gently shaking her body.
Her earnestness that she does not want to be hated only by me radiates from her whole body.
Should I say that I regret my mistakes after seeing this, or do I want to be loved more by me?
It’s not something she experienced herself, so it doesn’t matter either way…
“Tell me, then.”
I just didn’t want to accept the apology with a light heart.
To be precise, it was a desire to correct his chronic habit.
“What did you do then and what did you do now?”
The downside of Shin Yoo-jung, which has been going on since then.
If this is clear to you… , At least you will be able to stand on the starting line.
“My… , The fault.”
Numerous emotions come and go in the faces of repeated worries.
Worry, anxiety, nervousness, etc.
Instinctively, he seems to have recognized that what he is saying now is more important than anything else.
“…”
She kept her mouth shut and waited with her calm mind as she repeated her thoughts.
The time to reflect on the original self is inevitably long.
Because human beings are basically made to be more tolerant of me than others.
After enough time had passed, he began to speak, parting his trembling lips.
“… You acted too stupid. My attitude changes rapidly depending on my mood.”
Each time the trembling voice brings out the correct answer one by one, the corner of the mouth rises.
He tried to erase his smile and asked in a blunt voice.
“So?”
“Because of my attitude, others may be hurt… , Neglected.”
Look at him
“Is it okay to ignore it? You didn’t know?”
“Oh, I missed you.”
This is Shin Yoo-jung’s strengths and weaknesses.
“It’s worse to ignore than not to know… , You know?”
“… Know.”
Even if the child is honest, he is too honest.
At times like this, you can just say that you didn’t know about it in moderation, but you honestly confess that you ignored it even though you were guessing to some extent.
In terms of self-reflection, this honesty is truly the best thing, but when it turns out as an attitude towards people you don’t like, there’s nothing more terrifying.
In this part, the desperation he felt now was revealed.
It must mean that I can’t afford to scrape it all the way to the bottom and confess my mistakes.
“Yoojung.”
Calling his name, get down on one knee and meet him at eye level.
“… Uh.”
I ask, placing my hand lightly on her shoulder as she nods as she looks this way like someone possessed by something in her.
“Do you know what the greatest apology a person can do is?”
“Mole… La.”
The greatest apology of those who have done wrong is neither kneeling in prayer nor sufficient compensation.
“It’s just invisible.”
“…”
What goes unnoticed by those who do wrong.
This does not mean that they should disappear from sight, but that they should not appear in their lives at all.
Either by eye or by ear.
To make them not recall the nightmare memories of that time in any form.
Could that be the best apology?
Is that why you’re telling Shin Yoo-jung to get out of sight?
No
What is this… , Just a kind of scare.
Is whipping and then pacifying it with a carrot is one of the time-honored and effective methods of discipline?
“But if I had wanted that from you, I wouldn’t have brought up the subject of threesomes or anything.”
A shallow hope blooms in one corner of the guy’s face, which is becoming increasingly discolored with despair.
“I really want to be with you.”
In many ways, it is certain that Shin Yoo-jung is a woman that is hard to miss.
As a hunter, it has potential for growth in the future, and as a woman, it should be said that I am more attracted to her because she is a unique type that I have never seen before.
“But if we act like we are now, we probably won’t last long.”
If you want to be a really good hunter.
And she must cultivate her selflessness if she wants to be by my side.
It would be nice if you could get ahead with just one tough competitive spirit, but this society is not so easy.
Now that all dungeon raids are being done on a party basis, unity is the shortcut to getting ahead of others as a hunter.
“I don’t tell everyone to be nice. To be honest, I don’t want to either.”
Don’t ask for much
No, my sincerity is that I wish it hadn’t gone that far.
I’ve already realized that even if I do it for everyone, it will only make my life more difficult.
“Even within a very small fence, you have to be different.”
She questioned my words.
“How far is the small fence… ?”
“For now… , Our party.”
More will be added one by one in the future, but let’s start from there.
The goal is to the extent that even mother-daughter rice bowls can be tolerated… ?
It’s going to be a bit of a rough road, but… , I think even that would not be impossible with the current attitude.
“I am not asking you to fix everything. But… , Don’t feel bad because you don’t like it, and don’t show that bad feeling with your attitude.”
What I want is to be better than now, not to overhaul.
Personally, I like Shin Yoo-jung’s wild horse-like temperament.
However, I hope that I will be wary of the reactions that I sometimes see to others, including myself.
Like a wild horse that has not been tamed by humans, but knows how to make sense of things?
Having said that, it’s very difficult, that.
“… I’ll try.”
Shin Yoo-jung nods her head at the end of her troubles.
Her face shows a strong will, as if she didn’t answer in vain.
That’s it.
I don’t know about anything else, but I’m a kid who has an outstanding temperament, so I’ll struggle to change somehow.
“Let’s put an end to our bad relationship at that time. You really have changed, and when you think about it, then you move forward.”
“That… , No, okay.”
There was a faint dissatisfaction on the face of the nodding boy.
But again, realizing that he was not in a position to say anything else, he quickly closed his mouth.
Seeing that the guy who would have rushed at him closed his mouth, did he already start turning around?
“I have a question for you.”
“What?”
“Me… , Can I treat you as usual?”
“It should be, of course.”
It’s nice to be compliant like now, but he suits you best when you’re a little cocky.
“Oh, one more.”
The guy who showed one finger, added one more question.
“That… , Later on, our relationship is then dating, right?”
Do you want to be my girlfriend like that?
I can do that much, but… , If you give a definite answer right away, you might be arrogant.
“Once I saw what you were doing.”
Choose to pull one more time.
Then the guy pouted his lips.
“… Can I get up now?”
“Uh.”
Only then did Shin Yoo-jung, who got up on her knees, glanced at my face and asked cautiously.
“Can I ask for just one?”
“What.”
“… Please point out if I’m doing anything wrong. Because there may be actions that I skip because I don’t know.”
“Hmm, that’s not difficult…”
I had a good idea.
“Then let’s do this.”
“… How?”
“For the part you went over without knowing, I can punish you as much as I pointed out.”
“Punishment? What punishment?”
“That’s right, it will be different from time to time, right?”
As I answered and smiled, the guy frowned.
“… I want to make you do something more perverted.”
Uh.
How did know.
At the same time as pointing out the mistake, I tried to do this and that as punishment.
“Ha… , Ok, fine.”
“Oh! Really?”
I’m surprised
I thought you’d say no
“Anyway, what is it… , If you don’t get pointed out, you won’t be punished, right?”
“That’s right.”
But can you really not be criticized?
I think I could find ten of them in a day.
“Anyway… , I’ll try to fix it.”
“Yes, do your best.”
When I clenched my fist at him, he smiled and turned his back.
“Going down.”
After that, the guy quickly went down the stairs and disappeared without looking back.
* * *
My face is hot.
Things I do for the first time in my life are infinitely unfamiliar and awkward.
Even the drunkenness that had been filled with it a little while ago had disappeared.
“Whoa…”
She let out a small sigh.
I was realizing it little by little.
If I don’t change, I’ll be in trouble in many ways.
It’s just that I didn’t like having to hide myself for the sake of others.
However, it was because of Kim Do-jin that I decided to fix it.
‘I hate being far away as much as dying.’
It’s better to fix it than to die, to get away from him.
‘It was altruism…’
In the end, it means to think a little more about others.
Being aware of how the other person will feel when you say something harsh or offensive and restrain yourself.
Since she has lived her life without going through the process of her filtering so far, her rough process is expected.
Knock!
As I entered the house, worrying over and over again, Seo Jung-hee’s nagging sound came straight away.
“Shin Yu-jeong! You didn’t even answer your mother’s phone call. Where did you go? Come now! If it’s late, you have to call to say you’re late. Do you really want to see the burning inside your mother?”
Shin Yoo-jung thought at her affectionate nagging.
‘What did I usually answer at times like this?’
I can’t remember exactly when I said what I thought of at the time, but I think most of it was like, ‘I’m an adult now, what the hell are you so worried about?’
‘… I can’t.’
She shouldn’t have said that to her mother, who didn’t even call and was worried about her late daughter.
“That… , Sorry. If I think I’ll be late in the future, I’ll call in advance.”
“Eh.”
Suddenly, Seo Jeong-hee’s expression twisted bizarrely.
“My daughter obediently apologized… ? No, that’s nonsense.”
Seeing her mother’s face with her eyes, nose, and mouth wide open as if greatly shocked, Shin Yoo-jung quietly lowered her head.
‘I must have lived the wrong way.’
Another reflection followed.
