Carb Sears (R) 43

Chapter 43 – Deception.

“He? But I.”

Sif was confused. Did he say that? To say that she was special, there were many people in the upper ranks who had experienced similar situations or unfortunate events. No, almost everyone has been through something like that at least once, so Sif came naturally to them, and she felt comfortable with them. So she thought she, too, was just one of those saved by him.

“I knew your circumstances.”
“Did you hear that too?”

Until I heard that from Donnar.

“Well, he said he was self-indulgent and he thought you’d hate him.”

It was enough to see what Donnar was doing. He must have hesitated even to talk to the heavy-mouthed Donnar. Even then, she must have been worried about Sif, so she reluctantly said it. Because the person she knew was like that. He felt like an idiot for thinking he wasn’t special to him just a moment ago.

“…Still, I don’t hate him.”

Looking back, her father considered her as her own daughter, who did not even receive the love of her mother. Though she didn’t realize it then, she learned from him and was able to imagine her existence as her father, which she hadn’t even imagined of her. She was just giving up. She says there is no reason to care about her because there are a lot of people saved by her and what she seeks. Only now, when she was far away, did she realize what a clumsy father he was.

“But it’s also nasty.”

Her tears flowed down the coachman’s seat floor.

“Wait! Ooh, are you crying?”

Even in Donard’s panicked voice, she couldn’t stop her tears. The reason she fell in love with Donard was, in a way, simple. Sif’s life in a place where circumstances were not special was comfortable even if not perfect, and he filled the emptiness she thought would never be filled. Then there was someone special. Donard was kind to her whenever he happened to run into her, and when she had a difficult time, he helped her before anyone else, and when she had a problem, he listened to her in silence. The reason Sif fell in love with Donard was, in a way, simple.

It wasn’t that the others were unkind to her, but her poison, Donar, did her Sif a great favor. Wasn’t it because he had no reason to favor her more than that, and she felt his favor more special, and he had special feelings for her? I was looking forward to it. Eventually when she took it for granted that he would be present in her daily life. She made him special. But when she realized that all of Donard’s goodwill and kindness was due to his behest, she was ashamed of herself. But because she is, she is determined.

“Are you okay?”

Without asking why Sif was crying, she stood up, saying that it was just a misunderstanding in her heart pounding at the handkerchief handed over to him.

“Sif?”

The handkerchief he handed over was not accepted. His questioning of hers made her hesitate, but his youthful gaze ate her heart.

“There’s something I want to show you.”

Saying that, Sif took him to the front of a carriage.

“Isn’t it Truth’s carriage?”

Yes, according to the man’s orders, Sif would have had to induce no one to pay attention or come to this place until morning, but it was fine now. Even orders seemed weak unless the man was directly watching them.

“Why are you here?”

She did not directly answer Donard’s question. It is time for the sun to rise slowly. The man wouldn’t expect her to disobey the order herself. She opened the carriage door, and the smell of sweat and fishy fish that had filled the carriage, mixed with the incense of sleeping and spicy herbs that had always been smoking lately, came out. The strong smell made her laugh at her man, thinking that he had been having quite a bit of fun, not knowing that he would betray him.

“What does this smell… Ha?”

Donard followed her in, and what she saw was a sight she would not have believed unless she had seen it herself. The patients sleeping on the bed looked the same as usual. However, in one of them, there was a man and a girl who could not but stand out. A naked man with no clothes on, lying on his stomach, sleeping, Truss, and the naked girl he is crushing on. The mysteriously colored red hair that flowed down like blood from under him told me who the girl underneath Truth was.

The sun rises and a strong wind blows in the morning. People who must have been busy for a long time to prepare a meal gathered in quiet silence. The only voices heard from time to time are the whispers of those who are dissatisfied with or puzzled by this situation and atmosphere. Meanwhile, the old man’s stern voice rang out.

“Truth, is it true what Sif said and what Donard saw?”

In the center of the crowd was Truss, his head bowed, tied tightly to a rope. People looked at him in different ways. A look of disbelief, contempt, or fear. If there is one thing in common, it is that everyone was looking at him as a sinner. Early in the morning, the news that was delivered to the people was truly shocking. The news that Truth this time raped one of the children accompanying them while she was sleeping. Even outsiders, there is no one who doesn’t know what the sin means in their hometown.

“I asked if it was really true!”
“…”

Truss did not answer. A heavy, stuffy silence fell between the people. He said that the crime had not yet been confirmed, and although he was an old man who held a brief trial, Donar, who was trusted by the people as a witness and reporter, and Schiff, whom he regarded as his daughter even if everyone did not say a word. In addition, the crime he was arrested is that he raped a young girl accompanying the guild while he was asleep. Since the number of women and children is high, the look at the truss tied in the center is all the more fierce.

“Tell me something!”
“…”

Is it just because of the silent appearance of Truss? Even though the old man’s screams flew in, there was no answer from him. That’s how the trial was at a time when people’s voiceless complaints about him who didn’t even speak without progress in silence were growing.

“Old man, there are witnesses and the circumstances are clear. Why are you procrastinating so much?”

A man’s voice full of dissatisfaction intervened among the people. The owner of the voice was Phan, one of the patients sleeping in Truss’ carriage. Not all of them have recovered yet, but seeing how they walk and behave, they seem to be almost recovered.

“Board.”

Seeing him, the old man frowned and glared at him. He was like a ticking time bomb that didn’t know where to explode. This time, I don’t know what kind of action he will take to disrupt the trial that should be fair. He is usually a man who gets into gossip because of his conduct, but this time, people were agreeing with him. Truth didn’t talk, so the trial didn’t go ahead. Even if not for children, being in such a heavy atmosphere for a long time was not a pleasant problem for adults. Since it was time to eat soon, people were very dissatisfied.

“There are plenty of traces of having a good time, I saw Donard Schiff, and I didn’t say I checked the old man once. Aren’t you sure already?”

The old man felt the wrinkles deepen in his words. Yes, the circumstances and witnesses were too sure. Since the person concerned does not say anything, time only increases, and the more this happens, the more the dissatisfaction and antipathy of the people gathered over this issue grow.

“I’ve been able to eat and move properly for the first time in a long time. I want to eat quickly.”
“Tsk.”

The old man finally clicked his tongue. Again, Pan was not good at this in many ways.

“It can’t be helped. The trial will be postponed until after dinner tonight.”

People were not overtly delighted by the old man’s words, but cheered inwardly and began to prepare the meal. The old man watched the people like that and saw the plate. Looking back now, it’s hard to believe, but Pan wasn’t that kind of guy from the beginning. If he had had that kind of personality from the start, he wouldn’t have been able to accompany him to this guild. He had a sincere personality in his own way, and even if he acted slightly problematic, most of them would end up as jokes. The problem was from which day. His words and actions no longer ended up as jokes, and he was offended.

Fighting with others increased, and quarrels with Donnar were now a daily occurrence. At least, it was nice to be quiet recently due to an injury. I know it’s not good to think like this, but I’m hoping it won’t happen, at least not until we get to Lantua.

“How the hell did it happen?”

The old man sighed and saw Truth being dragged away by Donar.

By the time Truss is taken away and tried by the old man. Sif was washing the girl’s body.

“You’ve done too much.”

The pure white body of the girl, who was amazed just by looking at it, was full of traces of the night that could not be hidden. The red-hot traces were enough to tell how much the man had bullied the girl while she was asleep. I wanted to take a full bath of water and at least give him a bath, but water is very precious, so wiping my body with a towel soaked in water was the limit. It wouldn’t be a problem if she didn’t do it herself and had others do it, but Sif dared to do it herself. She muttered as she carefully wiped the body of the girl, who still did not think of waking up.

“If I hadn’t been selfish, even you, who had nothing to do with it, wouldn’t have become like this.”

He knew of the man’s tricks because he had been beaten. After putting the girl to sleep in this way, secretly rape her, seize the opportunity and deliberately wake her up, or rape her while she is awake, isolating her mentally and seizing the initiative. Sif had already been obsessed with this trick for a long time. Sif first thought he had started on the day he woke up, but he found out that he had been unknowingly defiled by him for a long time. It would have been the first time that it had been directly committed. How distressed was he when he found out?

I’m afraid the fact will be known to Donnar. She was afraid A selfish thought to the point where you feel terrible for yourself. Because of her guilt, she did this herself.

“I’m sorry. I…”

As this girl is an outsider, he must have thought that the task was easier. Also, she tried to turn away from this girl because she was an outsider. Even this was only possible after Donarra let go of her weakness. If she couldn’t let go of Donar, she probably would. That was the moment.

“Are you okay.”

The girl’s sweet voice answered the words she chanted to herself, thinking that they would not reach the sleeping girl.

“Ah?”

Sif suddenly turned his head in surprise and looked at the girl’s face. Her girl, who was apparently asleep, opened her eyes and was staring at her distinctly with her glaring golden light. The girl with her face uncovered by her mask was arguably more beautiful than any she had ever seen. She could understand why she had to hide behind a mask.

“Awake, are you awake? Since when?”
“Ever since you blamed yourself.”

She just thought she might be sleeping, so all she was saying was to herself. Did she hear it all? For a moment, she was embarrassed.

“You know why I said that, and you say that?”

Sif lowered her head, assuming the girl was comforting her, because she didn’t know why she was doing this. Then her girl rubbed her own belly.

“Perhaps because of this feeling.”
“…Did you know?”
“Because I’ve been through it before. This time I just didn’t know who did it.”

She couldn’t say anything at Belka’s words. When the guy said this girl wasn’t her virginity. She expected it to be like that, but she seemed to be okay with Belka, who spoke so calmly, so why did she feel more sad?

“Who is the culprit?”
“I’ve already caught it. Now the sophomore will decide on the punishment.”
“Didn’t he lay his hands on Usher?”

Following the girl’s gaze, I saw the boy who had just laid down on the empty bed. It may be obvious, but he was fine. He hadn’t been beaten or hurt, although the man seemed to be offended by Usher, who hung out with Belka.

“I don’t think he ever did.”
“That’s all right.”

At her words, Belka said with a relieved expression. He acted as if he had heard a story that had nothing to do with his own story.

“So that’s it… Is that really the end?”

Sif couldn’t help but put on a dumbfounded expression.

“It’s okay. But don’t tell Usher.”

I might blame myself again. As Belka added that, Sif stared blankly at her. Sif remembered clearly. He felt the despair, disgust, fear, and sorrow he felt when he had suffered such a thing. She couldn’t be any different than this girl. How could she care about the boy who was by her side first?

“Because what this child means to you.”
“My everything.”

Sif was at a loss for words this time when Belka returned without hesitation. She was a mere lover, and the children’s relationship, which was too strange to explain, gave her many questions, but she did not dare to ask. While Sif stared blankly at her Belka, her girl got up from her seat and looked down at her own body, full of the remnants of her night, but as if she had lost interest, she asked Sif.

“What about my clothes?”
“Ah! It’s here.”

Sif, who had come to her senses at Belka’s question, was looking at her girl, but she casually went out wearing her clothes one by one, starting with her underwear. Her girl’s clothes were simple, so it didn’t take too long. Finally dressed in all her clothes, Belka briefly touched her own hair and then looked at her Sif.

“Can you tie your hair?”

Sif seemed bewitched and took two hair ties from the girl. Her Belka figure has the power to make it even remoter from reality, so Sif, unable to ask any questions, sits her girl in her arms and tries to tie her hair up, only to find herself combing her hair first. . Sif admired as only the quiet rustling of her hair filled her carriage.

“Your hair is really soft.”

The girl’s red hair was a little frizzy, but with every stroke of her hand, water ran through her fingers, and it didn’t feel so tangled that it would be a waste of effort to comb it.

“Can she possibly know how to manage it?”

She had heard that she liked her hair too, but she was not as good as the girl, so she forgot what she had just asked.

“I never did anything that could be called maintenance, although Usher brushed it from time to time.”
“Then she should ask Usher.”

Even as she talked about it with the girl, her Sif laughed bitterly.

‘What am I even talking about?’

She realized that she had involuntarily slipped into her other thoughts. For some reason, I thought that was what this girl meant.

“How do I tie it up?”

She asked as she looked down at the girl’s tiny head, not sure what she was thinking.

“Tie them on both sides.”
“You like to tie it like that.”
“Because Usher likes it.”

It’s rare to find someone who can digest her hair like that. As her girl wished, she tied her hair in a braid, and it looked just as good as it was meant for her. When she let her hair loose, she could tell that the girl who gave off a mature air had a distinctly childish look. Still, she couldn’t hide her girlish beauty and unique atmosphere. A breathtaking and mysterious atmosphere like a mirage that seems to disappear and will not disappear. That must have made him a target. When Sif thinks of it again and is depressed.

“You don’t have to blame yourself for it.”

As if reading her thoughts, the girl’s voice came.

“It’s the person who did it that’s bad. It’s not you.”
“But I am!”

Shif shouted and looked at her Belka, and she ran into the girl’s golden light, which turned around before she knew it. Because she faces the gold directly. Even though she’s only a girl younger than herself, it doesn’t feel like she’s dealing with a girl that’s younger than her. I felt cautious even when I spoke.

“…I turned away from you. I’m just afraid that the person I like will find out that I’m dirty. I’m afraid everyone will think I’m dirty.”

It was a confession. I wanted to tell this girl everything. She hoped that she would know what she had done and that she would punish her herself. Sif felt that if he didn’t, he’d never be able to forgive himself.

“It’s as if I gave you to that man because of my selfishness.”

So please curse yourself and look at Belka, begging her to punish you. The girl’s golden light was still calm, and she quietly raised her hand with a nonchalant expression, as if it contained everything or nothing. Sif closed his eyes, thinking the girl would slap him on the cheek, but the expected pain never came. What came instead was a small hand patting her head.

“I already told you. It’s okay.”

The golden light of the girl who opened her eyes and looked at it still seemed nonchalant, but her voice contained benevolence. The eyes and sweet voice that can’t really be thought of as belonging to a young girl. Was it really the same person?

“Because human beings are inherently that way. No one can carelessly insult you. Excessiveness is not good, but forcing you not to be selfish would be too harsh.”

At the touch of her kindness, Sif eventually burst into tears.