Chapter 61 – I Only Think of You at This Moment (1)
What is love?
It may come as a somewhat philosophical question, but Arya kept it simple.
Thinking of others, worrying about them, and wishing them well.
She thought it was love.
I don’t know what kind of emotion it is, but especially love is a fundamental emotion that can hardly be defined.
I am angry because that feeling exists.
I’m glad that feeling exists.
It’s sad that that feeling exists.
It is indescribable.
That’s why people might refer to that ambiguous feeling as love.
Because of the variety of
Because it’s different.
So Arya was at a loss.
To make love
‘How did I become unable to even raise my own voice?’
There were some parts of what Einstein said was right, but there must have been some irrational parts.
I couldn’t resist his words.
I couldn’t get any protest out.
In the past, I couldn’t be so frustrated when I saw idiots who couldn’t get their words out.
Can’t you just be a human and talk about a complaint?
You’re a coward who can’t even call irrationality unreasonable.
Not even Hong Gil-dong.
But look.
Isn’t that the way you look right now?
A person’s personality, personality can be ruined to this extent.
But what can I do?
That I have already become this kind of person.
That I already loved him more than anyone else.
What do I mean
Arya had never seen Einstein so angry.
So I had a lot of mixed feelings.
Because I worried about him.
Because I gave a similar wound to the person who lost my sister.
Didn’t he even hear the painful story himself?
Knowing!
How could he have followed Leon even after knowing that fact!
You want to be honest with him?
Do you have an inferiority complex that you are insignificant compared to the warrior you thought was perfect?
Contrary to my intention, it became an act that I could not be proud of at all.
Her feelings of inferiority towards herself intensified.
Whatever it is, it turns negative.
It’s not Midas’ hand that turns to gold the moment you touch it.
Einstein’s distressed expression persists in his head.
I thought I had grown accustomed to any kind of pain and had become numb.
I thought I was fine.
It feels like a hot iron skewer is stabbing deep into the chest.
Hot and stuffy
Out of breath
I think I might just suffocate and die.
It is an aria that jumps in joy at one word of Einstein.
It was too difficult to fully handle the intense emotions he vomited.
“Sister.”
A girl with dark red hair like a rose.
Azazel sings an aria.
“Yes, Azazel.”
“Oops. Don’t make a sad face.”
She touched the dead Arya’s hair.
“I did something stupid.”
“Is that sound again? Thanks to your sister’s choice, that prince was also able to protect his knight.”
“But, you made Ain worry.”
Azazel’s fine brow furrowed.
“What a big deal.”
It was a big deal for Arya.
She looked at Azazel with a dejected look on her face.
“He’s disappointed in me.”
“Everyone lives in disappointment.”
“I didn’t want to be hated by Ain.”
“If you’re really sorry, you can just apologize. I’m sorry I acted on my own.”
“Would Einstein accept it?”
Azazel pointed to Arya’s chest and replied.
“If it’s her sister’s big breasts, she’ll accept it even if she doesn’t like it?”
“… It’s not big breasts.”
“That’s Arya’s idea. Does your chest hurt when you run? I don’t know because I don’t have a heart like that.”
“It doesn’t hurt much because Seongbok held me…”
“You mean it hurts without it? After all, you have big breasts. Are her shoulders too stiff?”
Azazel stretches out her body and asks questions.
Arya took a step back, embarrassed.
“… No, that’s not what I’m talking about.”
“I’m sharing stupid stories that match the level of my sister who only talks about stupid things. What’s the problem?”
It was Azazel, sticking out her tongue and crossing her arms behind her head.
“Yes?”
“You can just say it. ‘Ain, your words were harsh. Apologize to me You idiot.’ Is that difficult?”
“I was wrong…”
“Oh wow, it’s frustrating! How could you say only your sister was wrong? Her palms have to touch to make a sound!”
It was Azazel who clapped her hands proudly.
Will it be okay?
And what if she gets hated even more?
What if Ain turns away from himself?
Arya didn’t know she might die.
No, she will definitely die.
“How much do she shave her sister’s pride?
As Azazel, unaware of what Arya was subjected to in her Order, all she could do was assume that Astein’s violence had crippled her.
So she was, though she was Azazel, who cursed Einstein.
At least she should have done where Arya wasn’t listening.
Arya’s eyes lit up.
She caught her breath for a moment, then pounced on Azazel.
Azazel, who did not think that the small-minded Aria would take her counterattack, was subdued in vain.
Aria, holding her Azazel tightly, smiled at her.
That smile was as hard and cold as arctic frost.
Her Azazel looks up at her, sensing a sign of something out of the ordinary in her.
“Uh, sister?”
“A younger brother who only speaks mean things will tickle you.”
“Now, wait a minute? Ugh, Gan, Ganji! Ji, it really tickles me!”
It was Aria who relentlessly aimed at sensitive areas such as her armpits, the nape of her neck, and her sides.
Azazel twisted her body at the movement of her hands and caught her rough breath.
“Euhuhgak, that, haha!”
“Did you find it funny because you made fun of me?”
“So, honestly, it’s fun, hehe, stop!”
By the time Einstein returns, she is a jaded Azazel.
Azazel glared at him with sharp, cat-like eyes.
“Heh, heh, make a room… Come on, you dumbfounder?”
Azazel, exhaling her excited breath, was strangely snarky.
Einstein shut his mouth and lowered his head.
“… I don’t know what it is, but I’m sorry.”
Azazel shook her leg and held out her hand.
“Whoops, whoops. I’m tired, so I’m going to sleep. Give me the key.”
“Yes. We are here.”
After grabbing the key, Azazel glanced behind her.
Arya was smiling brightly.
She is overly clear and even looks clear.
‘… Let’s not tease her sister too much. In front of her sister, avoid swearing at Einstein if possible.’
Azazel entered the room first with that thought in mind.
Einstein looked at Arya with her blank face.
“What did you do to Azazel?”
“I did some light stretching.”
“… Light?”
Thanks to Einstein’s monster hunting campaign, Azazel, who is one of the most physically fit wizards, is gasping for breath like that.
The question was left only as a question.
Arya looked at Einstein and asked.
“Do I have no keys?”
“I had something to say, so I got him in the same room as me. If you don’t like it, I’ll get another one in another room.”
Arya shook her head.
I can’t hate being with you.
“Okay, I am.”
* * *
I’m in no position to explain what the room looks like.
All I can see is that there is only one huge bed.
I sat down on the bed with a more nervous gesture than usual.
Even the fluffy cushioning couldn’t calm me down.
Do you know why?
Because you are by my side
Ain.
Just looking at you makes my heart thump.
It’s buzzing like a market board.
It didn’t feel as sweet as usual.
The reason must be that I made a mistake.
It’s embarrassing to have your chest tight.
It was better to be beaten first, so I decided to apologize.
A sincere apology would ease his anger a little.
“Aria.”
“Ain.”
We called each other by name without even a slight error.
Did you say that this is heartbreaking?
We averted our eyes as if we were confused.
It’s awkward.
I gulped and looked at you.
“Ain, please tell me first.”
His expression was not smooth.
I wondered if the anger hadn’t subsided yet.
But that was my wrong misunderstanding.
“Sorry.”
It was an apology.
I was puzzled and tilted my head.
Because I couldn’t figure out why you were apologizing.
“… Yes?”
“I’m sorry for speaking harshly.”
You seem to have taken to heart what I said earlier.
Like me, who regrets helping Prince Leon.
“Oh, no. Well, it wasn’t too bad. It was something I could relate to, and I thought that Ain said it because I was that precious to him…”
He was adamant.
“I hope you don’t think so.”
“Yes?”
“It was my fault.”
“Okay, that’s wrong. The mistake I made…”
“I spoke recklessly to you, whom I value more than anything else. I made a blemish in your heart.”
Above all, it is important.
At those words, the accumulated resentment melts like snow, and a sense of happiness rises.
How can negative emotions be relieved so easily?
It’s ridiculous even if I think about it.
You keep talking.
“Is it because I lost it once? I never wanted to lose again. I didn’t want to let it out of my hands. I thought I knew how to protect it now. I thought it was okay to hold it in my hand and not let go. But… Yes, as Azazel said, self-righteous and narrow-minded thinking. You are not a thing.”
He squeezed my hand.
I could feel the warmth in my rough, hard hands.
Einstein’s black eyes stare at me.
“I know I said harsh things to you. Make no excuses. So, Arya, do whatever you want until you get angry. It’s okay to hit me, kick me, or curse me.”
“Me, how can I do that to Ain?”
“I want you to be patient and not hold it in and get angry.”
Tuesday?
The anger has already been released.
That’s what makes me so excited.
Because your anger is that you wanted me very much.
It’s like I’m telling you that I’m the existence you can’t be without.
I’m glad you’re obsessed with it.
“… I-I am already very happy.”
“I am very sorry for you.”
It’s a caring sound.
It’s your kind voice that I really like.
I burst into tears at that tone.
It’s all because of you that I shed tears so easily.
Because you shake me
By making me a stupid, simple woman.
“You’re pretty when you cry, but I don’t want you to cry.”
You’re so ashamed to say it.
Are you spanish?
I suppressed my voice and said.
“Then do this. I made a mistake, and Ain thinks it was also a mistake, so I’m making this a thing that never happened.”
“You can’t make things that have already happened…”
I covered your lips with my index finger.
It’s a mean move, but you’ll forgive it.
I continued with a slow but captivating tone.
“If you can’t do something that didn’t exist, you overwrite it with something else that makes you happy. Like, hey, something dirty.”
It would have been perfect if he hadn’t stuttered at the end.
His eyes drew thin arcs.
Suddenly, his hand is wrapped around his waist.
He and I face each other.
Lips and lips touch.
It’s a long time.
Tongues get entangled.
A thread-like saliva was visible between the tongue and the tongue.
It’s very naughty.
His hand gently touches my chest.
It’s a painstaking, careful touch.
My gaze was directed down his abdomen.
You must have been very excited.
I asked him
“Can we stop kissing?”
Ain shook his head at my question.
“Five more seconds.”
Okay.
That much isn’t much of a problem.
I hug you and kiss you.
“OK.”
Ain’s right hand wrapped around the back of my head.
He and I are closer.
His breath touches the nape of my neck.
“I like you. Love.”
Candy coated right in front of your ears.
It’s not strange even if it melts.
“Me too, I like it. I love you too.”
Like a parrot, I repeat Ain’s words.
And yet you smile like you’re in a good mood.
I laugh too.
The belly whines.
I think you’re saying that you’re ready to accept him.
“Ain.”
“It hasn’t even been five seconds.”
You insist on kissing
It’s wild, Ain.
You are a bad liar
5 seconds passed a long time ago.
