## Chapter 5 – Crushing the School Idol, Yujin’s Pride (1)
I barely managed to suppress the rage that wanted to make me leap out of the dresser and pounce on Yujin. Now was the time for patience. I’d been patient for over a decade. What was a little more?
But the grip on the kitchen knife in my hand wouldn’t loosen.
So I repeatedly told myself that my patience wouldn’t last long, and I’d taste the reward for my endurance before the night was over.
Thump, thump, thump. Footsteps again. Yujin’s footsteps faded into the distance until they disappeared completely. I opened the dresser door and cautiously poked my head out.
She was gone. No one was there.
I climbed out of the dresser. After carefully surveying the surroundings again, I went out into the hallway. I desperately wanted to follow Yujin and attack her, but I couldn’t.
I had to stay calm. I couldn’t lose my mind. Only the most level-headed could succeed in the most brutal revenge.
If I recklessly assaulted Yujin, and her screams leaked out of the room, someone would report me. If I was caught by the police who responded to the call, my revenge would end there.
Even if I got out of prison and prepared again to take revenge, it wouldn’t mean much. By then, I’d be a convicted rapist with no room for excuses, not just an falsely accused sexual harasser.
Getting my innocence recognized by the world was as important as getting revenge on them. I had to achieve both. Achieving only one was meaningless.
If my only goal was to drag those bitches down, I wouldn’t even need to be doing this.
Based on my future memories, I could slowly gather strength and attack them when I was stronger.
I carefully slipped out of the kitchen and into the hallway. I looked towards the room at the end of the hall where Yujin’s footsteps had disappeared. I’d heard the sound of a door closing, so Yujin was probably in that room.
Yujin probably hadn’t locked the door. If she was that cautious, she wouldn’t have been walking around outside the room in wet panties.
It wasn’t for nothing that I’d targeted Yujin first. She acted all tough and gained popularity that way during her idol days, but in reality, Yujin was the most careless and mentally weak of the four.
My stiffly erect member pointed towards Yujin’s room.
Go!
Run!
Go tear that bitch’s clothes off, rip apart her jiggly tits!
The fierce voice of desire echoed within me like crashing waves. My anger and lust mixed together with the surging of the waves. Because of that, I was confused whether I was excited because of my desire for revenge on Yujin, or because of the lewd smell of her pussy.
But I bent my painfully hard cock downwards. Stay calm.
Violently raping those bitches, over and over, like a moron filled with lust, was something I could do anytime. I even did it in my past life.
I was going to make those bitches beg me to violate them.
Make them get on their hands and knees naked in front of me, feeling the worst humiliation and servility of their lives!
One bitch sucking my cock, another licking my toes, sometimes lifting their asses and spreading their pussies, begging for the master’s grace to be bestowed there!
Only then could I say my revenge was complete.
For that, I endured again and turned my steps elsewhere.
I listened at every door, checking if anyone was inside. If I didn’t hear any sound, I carefully opened the door to see if anyone was there.
I planned to use Yujin’s house like my own later, so it was better to memorize the layout in advance.
After confirming that there was no one in the house besides Yujin and me, I returned to the kitchen.
I picked up the water bottle Yujin had left and drank some water. There would be saliva left, but it didn’t matter. Soon, something much stickier than the saliva left on this water bottle would remain in this house.
I went back out of the kitchen and carefully walked down the hallway, finally standing in front of Yujin’s room. I put my ear to the door. Focusing on the sound, I eventually heard a small breathing sound.
I took out cable ties and duct tape from the bag I’d brought. The preparations were simple and the plan was straightforward, so improvisation was important. But no further preparation was needed. It was something I’d already thought about thousands of times in my head.
I carefully placed my hand on the doorknob. And I turned my wrist to open the door. Through the crack in the door, I saw Yujin, unaware of what was about to happen.
I watched for a long time as her breasts, not quite as large as Yujeong’s but still enough to be called cow udders, swelled up and down with each breath she took. Then I slowly went inside.
The moment of revenge was approaching.
I carefully closed the door. Then I pressed the lock button. It was a dark and quiet night, so the sound of the lock clicking shut was especially loud.
Startled, I looked at Yujin. Fortunately, Yujin seemed to have heard nothing and was still sound asleep.
I glanced at the window where the curtains weren’t drawn.
The sun would be rising soon. Time was running out to finish everything I had to do and get back. I had to hurry.
“Ugh… Mom?”
Yujin woke up, sensing my presence as I took a step closer. It was sudden, but I wasn’t flustered at all. Even this had been experienced countless times in my imaginary revenge fantasies.
It seemed like she was just mumbling in her sleep, so she wasn’t fully awake yet. I could just hide for a while and then leave.
But instead of stepping back and waiting, I took the pillow Yujin was lying on and pressed it against her face. Then I took the kitchen knife out of my bag and put it to her neck.
I wouldn’t make excuses that it was an impulsive act, remembering the look in Yujin’s eyes as she looked down at me with disgust right before I died.
I chose this path with my own hands.
I would go all the way.
The kitchen knife wasn’t even sharpened, but it was sharp enough to cut through Yujin’s white and clear skin. Yujin seemed to feel the sharpness on her neck, stopping her resistance and freezing like ice.
“Shut your mouth.”
I said, slightly lowering the pillow that was pressing on Yujin’s face.
Yujin’s pupils trembled incessantly as she suddenly faced a life-threatening situation while sleeping soundly.
My sadistic desire was slightly fulfilled by Yujin’s frightened appearance. The boiling anger also subsided a little.
Of course, it was meaningless. It was like dropping a few drops of water on a raging fire.
Because of that, I had to exert all the patience I had to overcome the urge to press down on the kitchen knife aimed at Yujin’s neck, like a guillotine.
Yujin seemed to feel my homicidal urges. Judging by the way she was screaming.
“Ughhhh! Ughhhh! Ughhhh!”
It was a small voice muffled by the pillow, but it was a desperate scream that would easily reach people’s ears.
Still, this level of voice wasn’t a problem. It wasn’t loud enough to leak outside the house.
As my right hand holding the kitchen knife was forcibly raised upwards, the reaction caused my left hand holding the pillow to gradually lower.
“Ughhhhhhhh! Ugh… Ugh… Ugh…”
Yujin’s screams gradually subsided as her face was pressed into the pillow, sinking the bed.
Now, Yujin’s room had regained its original silence. But my anger only grew in inverse proportion.
I put the kitchen knife down by Yujin’s head. And as if I was going to suffocate her with the pillow without using the kitchen knife, I straddled Yujin’s pelvis and pressed down on the pillow with both hands.
The anger that arose from Yujin’s gaze, which glared at me like I was a disgusting bug whenever we ran into each other at school after she falsely accused me of sexual harassment,
The days when I couldn’t do anything other than day labor because of the sex offender label after getting out of prison, barely making enough to eat,
When I felt like I was going to commit suicide living like that and ventured out for fun for the first time in a while, the hatred I felt when I encountered Yujin’s image filling the huge screen in the wide plaza, and the people staring up at Yujin in awe,
When Yujin’s extreme fans smashed my mother’s clothing store, the helplessness I felt when I saw my mother standing blankly on the street, unable to enter the clothing store filled with broken glass doors, shattered mannequins, and torn clothes, all burst out at once.
“……”
Yujin, who had been struggling, became completely still. If I pressed the pillow down for just one more minute, I could end Yujin’s brilliant life miserably on this bed.
Of course, I couldn’t do that.
It wasn’t just because it would be too happy of a death for Yujin.
It was because everything I just thought of happened to me before my regression, not in this world.
If I killed Yujin with a crime she didn’t commit, I would become the same as Yujin. I couldn’t stand that. I couldn’t stand it more than enduring killing Yujin like this.
I am different from those bitches.
I lifted the pillow.
“Huff… Hick! Hiiiiick! Hiiiick! Hick- Hick- Hi- Hiiiick.”
Yujin gasped for air as soon as I released the pillow.
I made eye contact with Yujin, whose eyes were red and slightly teary.
Yujin must have remembered the saying that if you see the face of a kidnapper or robber, the criminal can’t let the victim live, and quickly closed her eyes.
“It’s okay. Open your eyes. You saw it all anyway. Who I am.”
I said in a calm voice, suppressing my anger.
I wasn’t a kidnapper or a robber, so it was okay for Yujin to see my face. No, she had to see it. Who I was. And Yujin had to understand why I was doing this.
But Yujin kept her eyes tightly shut and was still pretending not to know. So I stood up and pressed the pillow against her face again, then clenched my fist and punched her huge tits hard!
Thwack!
“Ugh!”
Yujin cried out in pain. The scream was weak. It wasn’t enough. One more hit!
Thwack!
“Ughhhhh!”
I unfolded my fist. And I lowered the pillow that was pressing on Yujin’s face to just cover her eyes.
“Open your eyes.”
Yujin shook her head.
I raised my fist again. And this time, instead of Yujin’s tits, which were full of fat and wouldn’t hurt as much, I punched her lower abdomen, which was smooth but strangely protruding.
“Oof!”
“Open your eyes. I won’t say it three times. You know my voice anyway.”
“I, I don’t know. I don’t know. I didn’t see anything. I didn’t hear anything.”
I didn’t say anything more. I hit the spot I just punched again.
Yujin let out an “Aaaah!” but I didn’t stop and hit the spot I just hit again. And after hitting it one last time according to the rule of three, I unfolded my fist.
Yujin’s legs, which had been struggling, went limp. If I hit her one more time, she would probably pee. I didn’t want to smell Yujin’s piss, so I unfolded my fist. And I finished what I was going to say.
“Why do you think I’m here?”
“……”
Yujin was silent. I could feel Yujin’s body trembling under the pillow. She wasn’t not hearing me. She was pretending to be dead again.
So I lowered the pillow to Yujin’s eye level again and raised my fist. Yujin’s body, which was peeking at me with her eyes slightly open, trembled.
“Answer me.”
“……”
“Answer.”
“……”
I raised my fist up.
“Ughhhh!”
Yujin opened her eyes and nodded as if she was going to answer properly now. Still, I brought my fist down.
“Ugh-!”
Yujin was crying.
I raised my fist again. Then Yujin desperately shook her head, tears streaming down her face. This seemed to be enough.
I lowered my fist. Yujin gasped for air, relieved. But she realized that I lowered my fist to pick up the kitchen knife that was placed next to her head, and she was terrified again.
“Who am I?”
I asked Yujin, slowly lowering the pillow under Yujin’s face as if telling her to scream if she wanted to.
“My name.”
“I, I don’t know.”
“You don’t know?”
Did she suddenly have short-term memory loss? How could she not know when we met this afternoon?
I thought Yujin wasn’t fully aware of the situation yet, so I raised my fist again.
But Yujin desperately rolled her eyes, shouting at me that it wasn’t that.
“N, not that!”
“Shut your mouth. Speak quietly.”
Yujin, intimidated by my murderous words, quietly continued.
“Name. I don’t know what your name is.”
I could understand it in my head. There was no reason for Yujin, who was still the school’s idol and would become this country’s idol in the near future, to memorize the name of someone far below her.
But I felt like I was falling into the abyss at Yujin’s words.
It’s been over two months since we’ve been in the same class, even though I’m a transfer student. And Yujin even falsely accused me of sexual harassment. And she still doesn’t know my name?
I could understand it in my head this time too.
When we encounter a disgusting and repulsive bug, do we turn on our phones and search for the bug’s name? Or do we just step on it and move on?
Of course, we just step on it and move on. Or we don’t even pay attention to it. That’s the attitude someone standing much higher than a bug takes.
But I felt an anger beyond anger at the fact that the bitches who completely ruined my life didn’t even know my name.
A hollow laugh escaped my lips in dismay.
I realized today that unrequited love isn’t the only thing that exists, but there’s also unrequited revenge.
I gave up on the thought of biting off Yujin’s earlobe and shouting my name with all my might to burst her eardrums.
Because from now on, I was going to make her find out and memorize my name on her own, and soon make her desperately call my name.
