Chapter 227 – Will It Be Okay?
“Uh… , Huh? Uh, what, the result?”
My throat choked with embarrassment and I continued to speak in stutters.
What if Natalya found out I was fake? If he found out that I had cheated on him, would Natalia forgive me?
Will you hate me
Natalia, me… ? If Natalya’s sea-blue eyes, which always show me only kindness and affection, are stained with hostility towards me… Can I afford it?
My breath stopped when I thought of Natalya who was hostile to me.
I can’t handle the truth
Natalia smiled.
“Um… It may not be surprising, but rather a natural result.”
“Everything, of course?”
“Yeah, I’m such an idiot too.”
Of course, what are you talking about? Had Natalya noticed? No, there hasn’t been anything like that so far.
Even if it was discovered that the sperm belonged to an ordinary human being, that would not prove that I was not a death reaper.
The Shinigami’s equipment I had was like that, and I’ve been doing mysterious things, such as controlling crows and using magic to energize.
Enough to be fooled
Cheating on Natalia. As soon as I had that thought, I felt a twist in my stomach.
He raised his head and bit his lower lip at the power of scratching his insides.
“A strong magical response was detected in the sperm. It was a strong aura of death. If I use it as medicine, I can strengthen my skeletons. I didn’t expect that much energy to come out of sperm.”
“Uh, uh… ?”
“Hanseong is sweating profusely? Where is it not good?”
“Uh, no… Are you okay. Huh…”
The old man next to me wiped the cold sweat from my forehead with the back of his hand.
“Natalie, you mean mana was detected in my sperm?”
“Yes.”
“…”
It was only now that Natalya’s smile was familiar, clear and clean.
Fortunately, you don’t have to cheat on Natalia. With that thought in mind, as soon as the reluctance disappeared, the swaying mana calmed down as if a rat had died.
As much as she felt relieved, her mind became confused.
At first, it was the Shinigami’s equipment. Feeling the thick aura of death emanating from the mask, robe, and scythe, Natalya mistook me for a death reaper.
Before long, she began to use powers that even I didn’t know what, like controlling crows, absorbing blood, and converting mana into vitality.
He looked at her palms and then opened and closed her fists. This is definitely my body. However, the magical power dwelling in my body is clearly not mine.
What the hell is it? Why do I have magic in my body? Why are you trying to control me by scratching your insides every time you have a bad thought?
I was terrified. Right now, I’m only shaking and upset when I think negative thoughts, but if… What if that goes too far? What if I turn my insides upside down from time to time? What if my body is being manipulated by an unknown will?
What on earth is in my body?
“Hansong? Where are you bad? Complexion…”
“Uh?”
When I looked up, I saw Natalya and Roin looking at me with concern. In my mind, I want to tell you everything.
I’m an ordinary person, I want to ask what is the mana in my body.
However, the truth cannot be revealed. The tower of trust between my girls and me is as unstable as a pile of sand, and if you dig out even a little bit of the truth, everything will come crashing down.
And I can’t afford it
The trust built on a false identity is so shallow… It’s frustrating…
‘My life must have gone wrong.’
Hergel, the reason why he regretted his life was a little bit touching.
As a result of trying to embrace his family by turning his eyes away from the tower he had built by his own sins, he died under his own sins.
It might be better to knock it down quickly while the Tower of Sin isn’t high yet. But, but… I can’t afford it. Neither Natalia nor Roin… It has already entered too deeply into my heart. If the two people who came to the depths of my heart and abandoned me came to hate me, my heart would be torn apart.
That is more terrifying than losing control of one’s body to this unknown mana.
I’m a coward So the truth cannot be told. Rather, it might be solved if Natalia learns how to control this mana flowing in her body. That’s a million times better than telling the truth.
“Hey, um… Natalie, I want to ask you something.”
“Yes? Which one?”
“Lately, I feel a strange sense of heterogeneity in my body.”
“A sense of heterogeneity?”
At my words, Natalia tilted her head.
“Yeah, Mana, I think… This is kinda weird…”
“Why Mana?”
“What should I say… Should I say that there are times when I move unrelated to my doctor… Should I say that I suddenly feel like my heart is pounding in my chest and twisting my insides…”
“It has nothing to do with Hansung’s doctor?”
“Huh.”
Natalia’s expression hardened.
“Are you doing that all the time?”
“No… That’s not right… How to say… Whenever I think a little negative…”
“Negative thoughts?”
“Um… Therefore… Specifically, it’s like being hated by Natalya or Roin… Thinking like that makes my stomach twist…”
“Isn’t that just twisting your stomach from stress?”
Roin, who was listening to the story next to her, tilted her head.
“No, it definitely feels different from that. I can feel the magic moving, the swaying.”
“Um… Maybe I should learn how to control mana.”
“Do you control mana?”
“Yes. Wizards basically learn how to control the mana in their bodies. Only then can the energy of the god outside be processed into the desired form. Perhaps, it might have something to do with Hanseong-nim losing his memory.”
“Memory…”
In fact, I haven’t lost anything of my memory. I smiled a little bitterly, thinking that it was right that I was cheating on Natalya.
Natalya spoke to me with a friendly expression and tone, whether or not she knew how I felt.
“Because he descended instability in many ways. I have mana, but I don’t know how to handle it, so it may be that mana fluctuates freely. I’ll teach you how to control her, because if you misplace it, she might be dangerous because of her backflow of mana.”
“Oh, now?”
“Yes, it is not that difficult.”
“… Okay?”
“Yes, it’s a method I learned naturally by self-taught at the age of eight. It’s super easy.”
“Uh…”
I wondered if it was because Natalya was a genius, but she immediately shut her mouth at Natalya’s warm eyes.
“Huh… That would be better.”
“It is important to stay comfortable. Would you like to sit on the sofa?”
“Huh.”
I sat down on the sofa as Natalya instructed, and Natalya sat down next to me and held my hand.
Soft, kind… It was a warm hand.
“Close your eyes and relax your body.”
“Huh…”
“I’m going to pour some of my magic into it, so don’t be surprised and feel it naturally.”
“…”
Following Natalya’s guidance, I relaxed completely and buried myself in the chair.
She felt something cool and soft rise up her wrists and arms from her clasped right hands.
Like a snake, the energy that climbed up the forearm passed through the clavicle and headed for the pit of the stomach.
“Can you feel it going to Myongchi?”
“Huh…”
“Now this… This… ?”
Natalya, who had been speaking softly, shut her mouth. Natalya’s mana, which entered her stomach and touched the mass of her magical power that had been staying in her chest, instantly drained out of her body as if the tide was falling.
Something didn’t seem to be what Natalya was trying to do, so she opened her eyes and looked at Natalya.
“Is it Natalie?”
“This… What the heck is this… ?”
Natalia looked at me with a puzzled expression.
“Hmm… Hanseong-nim, I’ll try again.”
“Huh…”
Once again, Natalya’s magical energy began to flow into my body through our clasped hands. Without rejecting it, he led me toward Myung Chi.
Receiving the feeling of entering more easily than before, I helped him reach the magical power crouching in his chest.
Natalya’s magical power gently touched the coiled magic inside my body.
“Hey Natalie. Is there something strange?”
“Um… No… The energy of death oozes from the mana itself in Hansung’s body.”
“From the mana in my body?”
“Yes. It’s absolutely not a magical power that ordinary humans can have. Also… Maybe it’s because he’s an incarnation… ?”
“…”
Slowly starting to get scared. All I had was the Shinigami equipment. Why do I have the magical power of a god of death in my body… ?
“That mana, back in the day, it was definitely the size of a fist. But it grew quickly.”
“Hanseong-nim, like the battle in the ant nest, there have been times where you have converted the blood of other life forms into magical power with a scythe and sucked them in. Could it be that it has accumulated in the body?”
“Vitality…”
Certainly, as Natalya said, there were times like that. Does that mean that this is the cause of this accumulation of mana in my body…? ? However, during the time of the Spider Queen, all her mana was volatilized and flew away while calling the crows. Even when he caught man-eating bears, his mana quickly evaporated and flew away. It did not accumulate in my body.
How the hell did this happen? Obviously, in the beginning, only Shinigami’s equipment was a horse shield that I could claim to be someone who reaps death.
However, before I knew it, I was able to use the same power as a god, and the mana that can prove that I am a god is accumulating in my body.
I started to feel unfamiliar and afraid of the unknown changes taking place in my body.
