Chapter 172 – Memoirs of a Foolish Fool
“… Do you have no regrets in life?”
Looking at the carnival carnival that he was willing to give his life for, Choi Seong-gi sat cross-legged in front of it and asked.
Carnival Carnival also sat appropriately on the pile of his wreckage and continued his speech.
“It’s regretful.”
It’s regret
At those words, Carnival Carnival thought for a moment and said.
“If your women die, will you live in this world?”
“Doesn’t that mean anything? I don’t know if there are any children.”
“Haha. That’s right. So do i.”
It’s a resemblance.
Although there is a difference that Choi Seong-gi leads many women and Carnival carnival blindly loves only one person.
The two were quite alike in this world.
Instinct rather than reason.
Pleasure over emotion.
A world in which it is not strange to have sex in the arms of another member of the opposite sex or the same sex in front of a lover, and the lover to chat while drinking alcohol as if they were having a conversation in everyday life.
In that world, these two are similar in that they have a strangely strong desire for exclusivity.
My girl
I live by loving only my own woman to the end.
That’s what life is all about
She gives her all for her lover who brought light, joy and happiness to a life that could not have meaning to live.
“I couldn’t forgive you at first.”
Carnival Carnival told its own past.
“I wanted to take revenge on the men who trampled on my precious things without hesitation. My powers caught my wrath and burned like wildfire in a parched mountain.”
Endlessly.
Endlessly.
Hugely, fiercely, hotly, vastly.
Until everything is burned and destroyed.
“When I killed the first one, I still hesitated.”
It didn’t take long for one person to become 10 people.
“One becomes 10, 10 becomes 100, and 100 becomes 1,000. It didn’t take long until everything in the village was trampled on.”
Revenge.
Repay your enemies.
“Even if I killed everyone, my anger did not quench.”
I couldn’t stand it.
Couldn’t stop.
He hated everything that existed in the world, and hated himself for being a man like them.
I felt like going crazy.
Carnival The carnival gave itself over to its blazing madness and rampaged at will.
It’s literally like chewing up the whole world and crushing it.
“I never thought I would be so angry.”
Thousands of people can be killed ridiculously with a light wave of the hand.
It was easier to slaughter tens of thousands of people than to kill a single mosquito.
An endlessly burning rage and an ever-growing power that burns with rage.
In that vicious circle, Carnival Carnival is.
“One day, I suddenly remembered her face.”
“When I was crazy with her anger, I couldn’t remember at all, but when I remembered her face, I remembered all the memories I had with her, the food she liked, and the movie I was moved to cry over and over again. ”
“And I stopped.”
Choi Seong-gi listened to the story of the carnival carnival without words.
Maybe that’s because she could have become herself after Kim Shin-ah died.
The moment he said that the doppelganger killed Kim Shin-ah, Choi Seong-ki was seized with emotions as if the carnival carnival had spoken.
“Every time she recalled her memories with her, her anger, which burned so much, was gone. And what took over was fear.”
The terrible horror that she will have to live in a world without her.
She said, “She has no idea how hard she tried to die.”
“Since all of her enemies have been killed, now I had to kill myself for failing to protect her.”
“But I couldn’t.”
No matter how eagerly he tried to die, to die, Carnival Carnival couldn’t die.
Even though she doesn’t want to regenerate, her body regenerates on its own.
I really want to die.
I want to end my life
“I couldn’t die like that, so I just lived.”
Then one day.
“… We met.”
Her herself that day, and the two people who resemble her that day.
“Well, you were trash talking about harem.”
“Noisy.”
“She could see, though, that there was a woman she valued above all of herself.”
Resembles.
Similar, but different.
“… I had regrets.”
“Resentment?”
“Okay. Even if I wanted to die because of it, I couldn’t.”
“What kind of regret is that?”
“… I want to see you happy.”
Choi Seong-gi looked at the seminar following the gaze of the carnival carnival.
“We have a child. … The baby was to be born in two months. But in the end, the future after two months did not come to us.”
“… For a moment.”
Why do you say that while watching a seminar?
Even while thinking about that, Seong-gi Choi began to approach a certain fact that he had not thought of.
“No, wait! Then why did you come all the way to America!”
Choi Seong-gi shouted at him, and Semin covered her face with her hands to hide it.
“Is that hiding! Why didn’t you tell me!”
“… That’s it.”
“But what!”
Carnival Carnival laughed at the two shouting and fighting each other.
“… That is my regret.”
At the end of the carnival carnival, the eyes of the two gather again.
“I want to see the next two months that will never come to me.”
It’s a wish that will never come true.
Because there is no power in this world that can resurrect the dead.
You cannot turn back time with your level 1 ability.
Carnival Because Carnival put the corpse inside himself so that his wife would never be taken away by someone else.
“I always made mistakes.”
I couldn’t protect my precious person.
She even took away her chances of seeing her again.
“Even so, you continue to cause trouble to others.”
Really.
“You’re a stupid fool. … Maybe because I’m like that, I didn’t deserve to be happy from the beginning.”
He made a huge mistake that no one would make and is living and breathing shamelessly.
How many people have you killed
How many people have you eaten?
Even so, she remembered her wife and said that women don’t touch her badly. She lived a life without purpose or will, saying strange things.
“I thought a lot about what to name the child. Adrian? Jonathan? What would it be like to be a woman? Her wife’s name is cute, so she might have liked it after her.”
I lived thinking of the days that would never come again.
Lingering.
Regret.
Weird feeling.
Despair.
I could see all kinds of negative emotions weighing down the carnival carnival.
In the meantime, Carnival Carnival made a gesture as if holding a baby in its arms.
She said, “It will be difficult for her wife, but she still wants her to be born a healthy, good baby. She is the biggest, inexhaustibly healthy baby born in the hospital.”
Leave the house, it’s okay to cry.
It’s okay to be exhausted day by day with her wife because she can’t sleep properly.
Breastfeeding
Feeding baby food
Look at the teeth
A crying child calls her father and mother.
A child who couldn’t stand alone learns to turn over and crawl.
Stand up
Walking
Speak
Like that.
“…”
Carnival Carnival put down a hand that had been moving as if stroking his baby.
“I just can’t let go of this. The thoughts don’t stop. Her emotions are out of control.”
Lingering.
Carnival The lingering attachment to the whole body of the carnival oppresses him.
Stupid fool.
Carnival Carnival covered her face with her hands while helping herself.
“… Whoa.”
After compiling his mind for so long, Carnival Carnival said.
“I want you to be happy. I hope that two months later, which did not come to me, come to you.”
Without having your happiness destroyed by anyone.
You can hold hands, kiss, and share love with the person you love whenever you want.
I wish I could have that kind of happiness.
“The lingering feelings don’t go away. But, yes. When I look at you, I feel like my lingering feelings slowly disappear.”
Perhaps.
Perhaps.
A future that may have come to him.
But the future will never come again.
I want to see happy people in such a future.
Because you can’t achieve it yourself, you want to see someone else who has the happiness you want in your hands.
Choi Seong-gi understood his heart.
After understanding, I looked at the carnival carnival and asked.
“What is your real name?”
“… Abandoned No, I buried it with her.”
Carnival Carnival let out a devastated laugh.
“Perhaps even if I die, I won’t be able to go to her heaven like her. The place I am going to is the bottom of hell.”
“I guess so. Even knowing?”
“Even knowing.”
Choi Seong-gi stood up from his seat.
As he stood in front of the carnival carnival, the huge body covered the carnival carnival from the sun.
The carnival that went under the shadow created by Choi Seong-gi quietly closed its eyes.
“Thank you.”
A soft greeting.
Thank you.
Other than that, there was nothing Choi Seong-gi could say to Carnival Carnival.
Carnival Carnival said with a laugh.
“It is a promise. With this stupid idiot.”
Be happy
Choi Seong-gi, who closed his eyes and savored the will of the carnival carnival, made a blast in his hand.
A ferocious flow of energy that grinds away everything.
It carefully left Choi Seong-gi’s hand and quietly entered the carnival carnival’s chest.
Quietly, without avoiding or resisting.
Just as a patient who is tired of life collapses in despair and accepts euthanasia with a calm mind.
That’s how carnival carnival died.
And when Seong-gi Choi finally held the seminar free, in his arms.
Kurlrrrr
“Kyaaaaagh?!”
A black bolt of lightning fell from the sky and landed in front of Carnival Carnival’s corpse.
Haha!!”
And with a bad laugh.
“Nice to meet you, kid?”
The guy looked at Choi Seong-gi and smiled at him.
“This bastard.”
Choi Seong-gi immediately took a combat stance.
“Oops! I’m not here to fight today! I’m here to get the gift you gave me!”
Saying that, the doppelgänger wielded energy, and after terribly egging Carnival Carnival’s body, he began to pull it into his own body made of energy.
“Since my body cannot be stabilized without the root of a body, then I must have a body, right?”
Saying that, the doppelgänger took out not only the carnival carnival, but also the head of Zeus, who had fought fiercely with him just a moment ago, and shook it up and teased Choi Seong-gi.
“Look forward to the next time we meet? I will kill you, destroy everything you have, and Shina will be my woman again.”
Sung-ki Choi ignored the words of his doppelganger and tried to blow his energy.
“You bastard is real! It only appears at the most annoying moments every time!”
However, before he could wield the energy properly, the doppelgänger finished his words and, using technology stolen from Zeus, disappeared high into the sky like lightning rising from the ground.
“Fast… !”
The doppelganger disappears.
There was nothing left in its place.
“… Aaaaa!!! 이 개새끼가아아아아!!!”
