Chapter 79 – Episode 79. Things You Shouldn’t Show to Others (1)
100 years.
It is a time that humans cannot reach even if they spend their entire lives.
Even if there are people who live that long, the memory of that life is mostly oblivion… Everything you feel in the present will be filled with pain.
However, elves are a race in which aging does not occur in the first place.
For them, memory is not about being forgotten as time goes by, but rather about fading its meaning as they build up their future lives.
Since it is a being that has lived for thousands of years, it does not place meaning on the past.
‘… Good.’
In a way, it may be a natural fate to pursue even a little greater stimulation in order to give meaning to a life that is gradually becoming empty.
One time with the thrill and tension of survival in the wild, another time with war, and another time with being subjugated to another race…
‘Okay, so, so good…’
But now, all of that is regarded as the way of our savage ancestors.
The culture and discipline built around the world tree made them closed, but in return made them successful in achieving a peaceful life away from stimuli.
It is said that they live their whole lives in the great forest, but because of that, they were able to be reborn as the most noble race by not being influenced by the outside world.
‘I want to feel more.’
On the contrary, born in the Great Forest and unable to live…
For example, if you are an elf who has been separated from the elf group for some reason and raised ‘in the hands of a race other than elves’, you will have no choice but to be faithful to your instincts imprinted in your blood without receiving such benefits.
Moreover, because no one will ever teach you that you are wrong.
‘Dave…’
Yes, that’s what an ignorant and neat existence is.
If there is no guiding being, in the end, they have no choice but to be swayed by their instincts in order to adapt to the environment.
At the point of choosing pleasure as a means of moving such an existence at will, it can be said that it is inevitable to develop an obsession towards the person who gave it.
‘I can feel Dave’s warmth that I felt at that time becoming clearer as time goes by.’
Even if the beginning was just a coincidence, it felt sweet and warm enough to bring color to an empty life.
Even if she has no memory, the aftertaste in her body stimulates her instincts.
It made me feel the fate for the person I met at the end.
‘So, a little more.’
I hope that a wedge will be driven into the imprint engraved like that.
No matter how violent and painful it is, in the end it is just a momentary stimulus in my life.
On the contrary, if such stimulation served as a means for remembering the man who had embraced her, she could strengthen her resolve to accept any pain or suffering that would follow.
“… Hey.”
The man who fills that emptiness, stopped his sadistic behavior before he knew it and began to call himself sitting on his knees.
Unlike before, he speaks in a kind voice towards himself.
“Do you like me?”
His own master, stroking my hair with his outstretched hand. The fateful companion you want to be with.
The warmth of that touch was strangely felt, but Heira decided not to question it.
“…Joa.”
He is the master and he is the slave.
Because the current relationship is enough for that.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, master…”
If you can be with the man who gave you a new encounter and the warmth of the beginning, you can endure all the sadism he presents with joy.
“I like you. Because I like you, I want to continue to be with you…”
Just by touching his hand, his tired lungs are revitalized, and a heavy breath bursts out with his tongue sticking out.
It was so hot that even the saliva in your mouth evaporated. Sensing it from the front, the man’s hand flowed down like a tom from her hair, and the girl began to rub her cheek against hers, as if trying to get absorbed in her sensations.
Like a dog craving affection.
“It’s so good, because…”
As if they were afraid to go further and get hurt.
“So, please, don’t throw it away.”
So, hadn’t he already lost his family before he met him?
For a girl who had buried that sense of loss over the years, the meeting now, the stigma of pleasure engraved for the first time in her life, could not help but be considered even more special.
“Go, together… Please stay I’ll work hard. I’ll do whatever the Master tells me to do…”
So I just want you to stay by my side.
He says that is all he wants, and desperately whispers again.
“… Now, please don’t leave me alone.”
The tears of the girl who finally burst into tears began to wet the hand that stroked my cheek.
Innate senses, even a lifespan dozens of times that of humans.
Just as the words that led to the choice of ‘heresy’ rather than the choice of the entire race teach us that Lee Da-ji is miserable and clumsy.
“…Don’t worry.”
Seeing a girl born with such a pitiful fate, the man felt the cruelty of fate.
Each person has their own circumstances, and if they collide in one place, only tragedy will exist in the future of those who cannot find a compromise in the process.
“As long as you wish, I will not abandon you with my own hands.”
Yes, that’s why a man can’t take a girl who claims to be a slave lightly.
The hero and the archmage…
People like them will eventually have to fight the Demon King’s army, so they themselves will have to risk their lives, but this girl has no obligation to face such a fate.
I risked my life to be with them, but there was no need for this girl to join them on such a journey.
“I-I really… Are you?”
“Yes, if you continue to accept everything, at least I won’t throw you away with my own hands.”
So, for yourself and for the sake of this girl, you have to make yourself give up.
That you don’t have to sacrifice your body and mind for this crap.
“I-I will work hard. If that’s what the Master wants…”
“Then wash yourself and put on your clothes right away.”
Dave, who left behind the order implied with such determination, soon began to put on his clothes one by one that were scattered on the floor.
I don’t care about Heira staring blankly behind me.
“… Yes?”
Looking at Dave like that, Heira asked in a daze.
That was not the attitude one would take to disobey his orders.
Conversely, an action taken because he did not understand the order he gave. In order to carry out the order properly, he needed to bridge the gap he felt at this moment.
“Memories, are you not erasing them?”
Didn’t he usually erase his memory as soon as he finished training, and join the party casually as if he had never done that?
Each time, the afterglow left in my body stirred up my memory-lost mind, but in the end, he only thought that he was attracted to this man.
Dave knew that too, so he let it go until now, but now that she knows the nature she has, her story will be different.
“Looking at your current state, I don’t think that’s necessary.”
“That’s right, there’s no need…”
“Anyway, since you’ve already decided to wear a dog collar yourself, there’s no need to go through the trouble of erasing your memory.”
If that’s the case, you’ll just have to attack in a different direction.
Dave, thinking of her, lifted the tools she had removed from her and prepared to carry out her conceived plan.
“… Hey though”
The task was to push this girl to the point where she herself begged to have her memories erased.
“As expected, you don’t want to show your ugly side to others, right?”
How much the plan for it will drive yourself.
A girl who simply accepted her pleasure would not dare to imagine.
****
After that, the time around sunset.
The warrior party, led by Celica, prepared to leave the village as soon as Dave and Heira returned from the market.
Since the monsters attacked the stable and couldn’t get on the carriage, it was necessary to leave this evening in order to reach the next destination by tomorrow.
“Dave, didn’t you buy a little too much?”
“I can’t help it. Even if it’s just for one night, it’s enough for four people, so wouldn’t it be good to buy this much?”
“That’s true, but it would be too much of a burden to carry it alone…”
“You don’t have to worry, Celica. I’m used to working hard, and above all, this is my role at this party.”
Dave unreservedly carries a backpack full of luggage.
Ymir, who was watching the backpack that was taller than his head, exclaimed in admiration, and started tapping Dave’s backpack with his hand.
“Hey, Dave this guy. I thought he was only good at cooking and cleaning, but he was stronger than he looked~ How about giving him a shield and putting him in the avant-garde?”
“… Mr Ymir. Don’t try to force Dave to overdo it. And what are you going to do if you fall down while hitting it like that?”
“Sell your worries. If you think you’re going to fall, can’t I just hold you like this?”
“Aww! Don’t pull your ears with telekinesis!”
The two start bickering again.
Watching him, Dave smiled vaguely, and suddenly his gaze turned to Heira, who had just exited the village.
“Heira, why are you there?”
“… It’s okay.”
Heira shrinks nervously at Dave’s call. Then, with the hood of her cloak draped over her head, she lowered herself and began slowly following her party.
As if hiding my trembling steps, I covered my lower body with a cloak.
“… Heira?”
Only then did the two of them notice Heira’s ideal and look back.
While Heira, who was nervous, shrank her body even more, the two began to approach Heira with questions.
“What’s wrong, Heira?”
“Where are you sick?”
A voice that sounds like you’re worried about yourself.
Even though she knew it was sincere, Heira couldn’t bear to answer them right away.
-Wheein!
Even at this moment, the patches attached under her clothes were vibrating and stimulating my senses.
