Chapter 221 – Chapter 221. Dave’s Mama (2)
It’s a common story.
A girl who was protected by her parents as if she was imprisoned in her cage, falls in love with her intense heart, which she encounters as soon as she comes out into the world.
While wandering around the city without knowing anything, the moment the bad guys they encountered stretched out their demonic powers, a man accidentally passed by helped them and managed to protect themselves.
And at that encounter, she felt her heart pounding. Is it the afterglow of fear, or is it because of excitement?
She couldn’t forget those sullen eyes looking down at her, and from that day on, she continued to search for him.
And when she met him at the end, he didn’t push her away, so she circled around him and courted her over and over again.
His whim of granting her his access lasted a little longer, until it soon came to fruition.
“I should have said it was love at first sight.”
In the past, before Dave was born.
Miriam, who told me about the fruits of his birth, smiled bitterly while sitting on the ledge of his rock.
She hid her face in the shadow of the hat she was wearing, to the extent that even the light of the night sky in this space could not shine through.
“At first I just wanted to know. What emotions did I feel when I met him? It didn’t take me long to find out that it was what the world calls love.”
“… Did you really like it?”
“Yeah, I thought the first time was that intense, so I thought meeting him would determine my whole life.”
Miriam smiles brightly at Heira’s careful question. However, even that began to grow bitter as the retrospective continued.
“But the first night that heart came to fruition, he said while having sex with me. She doesn’t have much life left.”
Life span.
Anyone who knew about the existence of the ancient tribe would find it strange.
Because they are beings who live a much longer time than long-lived species.
“I didn’t know at the time that it was a lie to keep me apart. Because he was a very blunt person. He’s never properly expressed his feelings, so even now I can’t imagine what he’s feeling inside.”
I knew from then on that I wasn’t human.
The relationship progressed to the point where they had sex with each other, but even the exchanges they shared in the process were just one-sided expressions on their side.
He, who only accepts his courtship, did not try to take the lead in his relationship with himself.
So, at the time, I was even surprised. It was the first time he had talked about his situation and revealed his intention to drop himself.
Yes, even though I couldn’t read the inside, I understood that he wanted to distance himself for the first time.
“Because I still loved him.”
Still, it was not forced, so she insisted on continuing her relationship with him.
“I told you my answer, assuming that you were serious about meeting me.”
Continue talking until there.
Miriam lowered her head with her mouth firmly shut. There was only silence in the space, whether it was because he couldn’t continue his retrospective until halfway, or because he was speechless.
Heira just waited for Miriam’s words to come back.
Until a very, very long time had passed, enough to clearly feel the tilt of the moon in the night sky.
“Then I will remember you.”
At the end of such a wait, a faint voice leaked out, resonating softly in the space.
“You, who do not know love, taught me love. It wasn’t love at the beginning, but I’ll teach everyone that meeting you was love.”
Maybe it was just a whim that the non-human had a relationship with him.
Seeing her passionate courtship toward her, it might have been nothing more than a lighthearted match, considering it suitable for the final play of her life.
But isn’t the first time an intense law?
Even though the relationship was one-sided, he did not push himself away.
He accepted his heart, and as long as he didn’t leave, he stayed by my side until the end and maintained that attitude consistently.
As he himself said, until the day when the last moment of a long life comes to an end.
“And, at the last moment, he closed his eyes and said.”
“… What.”
Just that moment.
Heira asked quietly at her Miriam, hoping the silence wouldn’t be too long.
Than humans.
An unknown being who lived a much longer life than an elf, what words he conveyed to the mortal being who spent his last days with him when his life came to an end.
“What did you say?”
The witch answered that question.
She answered as a woman who loved a being who lived in a different time than herself.
“I hope this feeling I feel for you is the feeling you have been talking about all along.”
She whispered, remembering the man who left before her. As if he still left that memory as a happy memory, he smiled at the corners of his wet mouth.
“…”
“… Ashes.”
And the mouth continued to move without stopping.
“It started to scatter and disappear in front of me, as if not wanting to leave even that body in the world.”
As if responding to those words, the stars floating in the sky form a line and scatter. Just as everything that exists in this space represents her feelings.
“Once those traces disappeared, I felt all the time I spent with him float away like a dream. Sooner or later, all of that may be forgotten with the passage of time.”
Was it because she didn’t even want to see the body grieved by looking at the remains?
It may not be, but I hope it is. Even if you don’t, I want to remember you that way.
“… But it stayed in my stomach. The fruit of his relationship.”
Her heart, which might have faded, began to bloom again with her hand on her stomach.
“You can hear it when you close your eyes. The child’s movements, the child’s breath and heartbeat. The power that stirs life…”
The stems of plants that slowly begin to grow around them grow into thick trees.
Just as it teaches the moment when life itself is born. She even leaned her own weary body against the tree, as if she had gained strength from it.
“I wanted to protect it. Memories left behind by the person who gave me the beginning that I will never forget for the rest of my life, and the traces of his existence that will take root in this land…”
Whisper so much regret
Because I know what the end of the retrospective that follows will lead to.
“But, the world doesn’t even grant such a simple wish.”
– Hurray.
Gradually, the heat that started from the roots travels through the cracks in the tree and spreads to the branches and starts to burn the leaves.
Dududuk, the falling fire scatters along with the leaves and scatters them around.
She destroys the world she wanted to continue through a new life.
“… I wanted to believe it was love.”
Even though it was so horribly ruined.
With her back to the tree where she still stands, she whispers her own pain and repeats.
“I wanted to believe that this feeling I was feeling was not possessed by the devil. Even if it started with the last play of the man I love, I wanted to believe that the wish I heard at the end was sincere.”
To the disgrace of such a wind, cracks are gradually applied to the trees.
“That’s why I had to protect it, I thought…”
The figure of the child he loves so much begins to be revealed behind the tree that can’t stand the heat and breaks down.
It is only at that time that the gaze begins to move gradually.
The moment I saw the crouched back seen through the split trees, the water reflected from the flames filled all around began to highlight its presence.
“… That child born of my selfishness was only hurt by my selfish consideration until the very end.”
Seeing myself being violated, I wake up to sex for the first time.
A poor child who continues to suffer from him to this day.
“How much…”
How painful and painful the nightmares that started after that day were.
Even at this moment, she was definitely feeling it.
“How long have you endured the pain alone?”
Even though it’s not the person himself, it’s just a lingering lingering feeling, but even with that lingering feeling, he can express the emotions felt by the being who passed on his memories to him.
Even though I only inherited a fragment of his desire, I was able to read the emotions accumulated by sharing the memories and emotions he felt.
“A child who didn’t know anything… He’s a kid who doesn’t even know what’s happened to him.
What is the most important thing for such a child…
To worry about him, the problem was that all his life he had gone through was covered with scars.
To the extent that he thought that if he was delayed even a little longer, the wounds would increase, and he might even break himself before long.
“Even so, rather than counting the pain of that child, I have no choice but to insist on accepting that pain.”
Yes, he himself is only a by-product of someone’s emotions after all.
An existence that has an ego, but is nothing more than a specter that has no choice but to act according to lingering lingering desires.
“Aren’t you pathetic? To think that I, who should fill the void left by her mother, should highlight this child’s pain for this child’s sake.”
Even though I was struck by such self-torture.
At this moment, love could be felt on her face as she approached the child.
As deep as the sea, as vast as the sky.
“This is a mother’s love… Can’t you?”
That’s why the pitiful love that can’t even care for one human being.
Because it’s so huge, just expressing that feeling might cripple the delicate target you want to protect…
Even so, if you want to protect him, you have to do it, so the heart that is not in the watermelon that is headed for catastrophe is trying to reach him at this moment.
“… So do i.”
She became a girl determined to keep him ahead of her.
At this moment, she began to open her mouth to stop her demon from approaching him.
“Because the first time is important.”
Footsteps stopped by repeated emphasis.
Through that silence, the girl speaks.
The fruit of her love she left behind, what kind of meeting she had after she disappeared.
“The first meeting I had was intense… I don’t want to forget that in the future, so I want to make memories with Dave.”
It wasn’t just a life full of pain and unhappiness.
Even though the beginning may have gone awry, by now, he also has an opportunity to love someone and lead a happy life to pursue a future with him.
“…I want to know more about Dave.”
The girl who puts it in her mouth thinks over the stories she has heard so far.
“I want to learn more about the world with Dave and make memories with everyone he will meet.”
That this person is their future.
She has always missed the one who left first, but she has always kept her heart for him through what he left behind, realizing that she does.
“Me too… I want to protect Dave. Like you.”
Such kinship is inherited.
It was leading to the decision to take over her will by borrowing this moment.
It has no form, even if it’s not me.
It was because I could see the transparency of the love that person had radiated, even if it was a mass of obscene lingering feelings and desires that had no choice but to commit things based on emotions.
“… Yeah, like me, you mean?”
The ghost of the past who felt that such a moment had arrived. She then looked back at Heira quietly, retiring the clutches she was about to reach for her son.
After hearing her own story, she is facing herself with a more mature look than before…
A girl with a far greater generosity than this space.
“Even so, your body is shaking.”
However, no matter how much you grow, you are still immature.
Because he himself knows that, he must be unable to hide his trembling.
“Are you worried about whether you can do well?”
“… Huh.”
Of course, if you’re immature, you’ll stop when you grow up.
This heartless world won’t even give you that opportunity, and will accuse them of being sadistic.
“Because I am dull and know nothing. I’m afraid that Dave will be far away while I’m figuring things out.”
When she thought she was ready.
I am afraid that all the people I love will disappear from my side.
Even though I was determined, I couldn’t erase the anxiety that that resolution would be crushed by regret caused by recklessness.
“… Don’t worry. From now on you won’t be alone.”
The specter who read such a mind soon laid her girl’s body on top of her as she moved away from the one she loved.
Even the traces of lingering lingering were crumbled.
“I just trust you, who gave me faith, and take a step back. I will always be watching over Dave.”
Her disappearing voice echoed in the space, and Heira, who felt her presence, stretched out her hand in the air and began to accept her presence.
It is like a mass of innumerable wills remaining in this world.
-So, please, take courage from my presence… Why don’t you stand by Dave’s side and give him courage?
Taking this moment of hers, she put aside her lingering feelings, melted into her world, and made her feel only her own existence.
Makes you feel only her presence.
As if it stops the trembling of a girl who is gradually growing up by endlessly recollecting the determination that was quietly strengthened in this moment.
“… Mom.”
And, feeling its presence, a man who gradually begins to stand up.
“I, now… It’s really limiting. I don’t think I should forget it, but the more I do, the more I keep thinking of that time.”
He loosened his crouched body and began to approach him with a voice wet with wailing.
I was so overcome with pain that I drifted away, but I followed the figure shimmering in front of me, albeit with bloody eyes.
“I’m sorry, Mom. He is a weak son…”
Heira faced him as he gradually narrowed the distance. She smiled quietly and began to spread her hands toward him.
“… Are you okay. Dave. Because I am already ready.”
Wounds, weaknesses, nightmares, and pain, I will embrace them all with these hands.
It was something he had been preparing for ever since the moment he saved himself.
At this moment, as he faced the future he was aiming for, his determination was further solidified.
“Come, Dave.”
Because he is responsible for his eternity.
The mindset that I will do my best even for this brief moment.
