Chapter 211 – Episode 211. A Second First Experience That Cannot Exist
I can’t remember what happened when I was drunk.
He took medicine because he wanted to forget everything, and he took pleasure in all the troubles that surrounded him and made fun of himself by using himself.
But back then, the feeling wasn’t that severe.
Even with less money to buy medicine, the memory of the first time he sold himself in the slums was clearly emerging.
‘Did I say I was an academy student?’
He was not a slum dweller.
I don’t know the details, but it was probably a rich aristocrat or an aristocrat.
The scene where students who had gone mad after being weeded out and drugged into the slums was the best place to obtain the chastity of a young wife like himself.
‘From what I’ve heard, I know she’s a virgin, but can I check it out?’
‘…’
‘… What are you doing? Should I spread my legs?’
‘Yes, yes. Sorry… Do.’
For the first time in my life, the moment when I showed a part that I had never seen before, and that to a man, not a woman.
‘Yes, you are definitely a virgin. This could be a good time today.’
The smile drawn on the lips of those who watched it still lingers in my mind.
Even after becoming a witch, she never forgot…
A very nasty and sadistic smile that she wanted to forget even after becoming a witch.
‘Sir, I don’t like it. Like this…’
‘What are you doing by coming all the way here? Come this way.’
‘Kyaaak! Stop… I hate this. Please stop because I did everything wrong. I’ll give you the money back too, so please…’
‘Because this bitch takes good care of me!’
The moment the swinging hand jjigeom hit the ball.
Just as he felt his drugged spirit grow hot with the pain, his rough, greasy hands began to tighten his neck.
‘A foolish inferior student who sold his body because he was crazy about drugs, are you going to just run away now? Then no. I came all the way to this dirty corner to fuck a bitch like you… !’
‘That, stop. Please stop…’
‘Keuhehe, crying makes me even more disgusted. You’re bad, because you’re so hot… !’
‘Ah, haha… Ah, ugh!!’
The moment when the whole body shakes as if paralyzed by the sensation of the object stuck in the body.
The pain was not great because the senses were dulled by the medicine, but the psychological discomfort was not forgotten even with that.
– Creak, creak.
The old bed swayed to match the swaying of the body.
The shaking stimulated a sense of fear as if it were an earthquake, but even so, the man who was stabbing himself showed no signs of stopping.
No matter how much he cried and ran wild, the treatment did not change. At the point where his stuff was already embedded, he was nothing more than a meat jar to deal with his sexual desire.
‘I’m sorry.’
He climbed onto the body of such a man and all he could do was shake his waist.
Even while crying out with a bruised face from consecutive violence, I just adapt to the situation while enduring the discomfort I feel in my body.
‘Sorry, please stop hitting me. I’ll do as you ask, so stop… Sorry, sorry…’
An awkward waistline with no skill whatsoever.
It was all just putting in and taking out, but was it because it was considered imaginary to do my best?
Or did her virgin, who did not know her man, revel in her sense of immorality, being ruined by her own hands?
‘I took care of you a little more in return for making you feel better. This money should be enough for my school expenses until I graduate from the academy.’
Soon, when the act was over, the reward, which was several times the original amount, fell in front of me, and he left the seat with a very satisfied face, leaving himself alone.
It seems that he is trying to give himself a chance to recover even a little because he sympathizes with himself who has fallen here. The last one was in a voice that felt benevolent.
‘… Eww.’
But even though she was paid that much, Madoka never thought of going back to the academy.
Because I knew it wasn’t a problem that could be solved just by having money. She has already been weeded out by her classmates, and even if she goes back, she will be treated as an inferior student, and even if she goes back to her hometown, she will only face the disappointed faces of her parents.
What’s more, didn’t she lose her chastity in her body that was ruined by her medicine?
No matter how past it was, the mucus and drops of blood flowing between my legs proved the miserable reality that I was in.
‘Heh, heh… Haha.’
Because I don’t even know where I went wrong or where I need to correct it.
As she repeated so far, she only expected the moment when she would turn the money in her hand into medicine and shove it into her body.
Just sticking a needle into your body will make the pain go away.
If I sold my body even for a short while, the chances of forgetting the pain would increase.
‘… Good mood.’
Even if the process is to build more memories to forget.
Even if her body wears out the more she repeats that act… Because that’s the only way left for her.
***
Yes, that was her first experience that she remembers.
The misery that signaled the beginning of the downhill path of my life, unable to find the sweetness I had imagined when I was a girl.
I wanted to forget that, so I stuffed so many medicines into my body, and I couldn’t bear to borrow a hand from my family, so I sold my body to buy the medicine…
Why did he do the act of wanting to distance himself even to the point of giving up on humans at this moment?
“Ha, uh. Ha…”
If she wanted to push, she could always push.
My friend also only proposed at first, and she was only swayed, but if she said she didn’t like it, she would have stopped anytime.
The same goes for the man in front of me.
While caressing him, he showed consideration for himself several times, and at this moment, even while moving his waist, he was trying to hit himself.
“Aren’t you sick?”
At first, it hit me so hard.
A subject as excited as the man who took his first, why was the act so soft unlike then?
“Uh, okay. Haa♥”
Feeling the distance between him, Madoka felt only his warmth and moaned.
I could feel the sticky heat from the sigh that leaked out of his mouth, but only disapproval remained on his face even in the heightened atmosphere.
“… You are speechless.”
“Ah!”
Dave hugged her body and buried his face between her puffy breasts.
Then, as his tongue, shaking his waist roughly, licked the hardened nipples, the stimulation of the sensitive nerves began to penetrate his whole body.
“Eup, huh~♥”
The moment when the passionate kiss that took place at the end of it even choked the breath.
Even so, Dave, who looked down at Madoka with her eyes tightly closed, began to move her waist again while holding her body from behind.
“Whoa, uh… Ah…♡”
“Are you feeling well?”
More than just stinging.
Overlapping her stimulation, such as gripping her clitoris with my fingers.
“Are you feeling well?”
“Ugh, ugh… ♥ Ah, ah, ah… ♡”
A moaning sound of timidity.
It is clear that she is engulfed in her pleasure at this moment, but even so, the reason why the expression is sog-like is not because she does not feel the action with him.
‘Oh, it’s not like that.’
Not out of displeasure, out of fear.
I was wary of being drawn into a completely different relationship from the painful first experience I wanted to forget, feeling so unfamiliar.
‘All I remember is this…’
Like this
There was no way a relationship with a man could be so kind and pleasant.
I’ve always thought that way and decided that way.
“Sorry.”
A faint voice leaked out at the end of such fear.
Dave, who was holding her back, stopped her for a moment and started asking her questions at her.
“Sorry, what is it?”
“… Nothing.”
If he made a mistake or a mistake, he might get a slap from him.
For Madoka, who had been hit in the stomach or had her head slammed into the floor with just one such mistake, she couldn’t help but feel uneasy about the act that was not accompanied by service.
“You’re considerate of me, but I can’t do anything, just being still, that’s all…”
But she became a witch because she doesn’t want to go back to those days, how could she ever repeat what she did back then?
Dave, who smiled wryly at Madoka’s nervous words, hugged her body from her back and whispered in a low voice.
“You don’t have to do anything. The more you do that, the more you depend on me.”
“Depend on.”
“You allowed your body to come this far because you trusted me, didn’t you?”
Waist ready to move again.
But the century is not sudden.
“So you don’t have to worry about anything. Right now, I just want to enjoy my actions with you.”
Slowly.
Just like giving yourself time to prepare your mind.
“Have confidence, Madoka. Because now you are more beautiful than anyone in this world.”
Even so, the man who whispered in his ear while stroking his face, as if trying to reassure himself of his trembling body.
“You are a charming woman. To the extent that I would like to make her my lover if allowed.”
It’s not a lie.
It was only her suggestion, not her compulsion, but if she wished, she herself was willing to take her as her own wife, like her lovers.
Anyone who loves oneself, whether they are villains or have unfortunate pasts, can be included in the product.
“… Really.”
The moment I felt my heart being drawn to that voice. As the action continued, while feeling that his heart was gradually opening up, Madoka hugged him and began to look into her eyes.
“Really, do you think so?”
I know it’s not a lie.
That this man hugging himself wasn’t just sympathy. Leaning on that kindness and choosing to stay in his arms could be a choice.
“Yes, really…”
“If you are really attractive.”
But before that, there was something she wanted to check.
Really, sincerely.
If her actions with him can comfort her wounded life.
If this pleasure engraved in the body can be changed to the meaning of pure pleasure, not escape…
“Can you sow your seed in me?”
Furthermore, the inside that has already been defiled as it is defiled.
Because I thought that even the memory of that miserable first experience could be purified with the seed of this kind man.
“…”
“… Please, I will give it to you.”
Madoka soon settled on top of him.
The resistance to the movement of shaking the waist on top of it disappeared, and it gradually began to change skillfully.
While dealing with various men in the past, he made use of the skills he had cultivated.
“Ah, heh… Oops… ♥”
To make the man underneath me innocently happy by gritting my teeth and enduring the rejection I felt deep inside my body.
“Ah, uh, ah… Ha ha, ugh~♥”
The moment the moans leaking out of his mouth grew thicker. Feeling that honesty, Dave started to close his eyes quietly with a wry smile.
Desperately, she fulfills her wish to enjoy the current act, and is determined to take responsibility for whatever results await.
“Uh, so~♥”
A body that convulses with a climax at its end.
The inside of her tightened up with him, and the liquid burst out of the stimulated object, and the warmth began to spread deep inside her body.
“Eww… Oh shit, oh… ♥”
Feeling that sensation, Madoka knocks her body down as it is while being enveloped in climax. Dave, who received her body from above, whispered in her ear and carefully asked how she was doing.
“Are you okay?”
“… Eww.”
Moans coming out of the mouth.
At first, I thought it was due to the afterglow of the climax, but even that was soon swallowed up by sobs.
“Huh, ugh.”
Yes, she was crying at this moment.
A completely unexpected reaction from Dave.
Dave, feeling that something was wrong with her momentarily, hugged her body in embarrassment.
“Madoka-san, there must be something wrong…”
“… Like this.”
Conversely, Madoka grabs Dave’s shoulder and starts to bury her face in her arms.
“Like this, it feels good…”
What leaked out at the end was a complaint that honestly expressed the feelings she had been suppressing all along.
“This is such a valuable experience, why am I… Insignificantly…”
Further, with medicine and faith.
And she is only now facing her memories that she hoped would only be forgotten until she gave up on being human.
The moment she made him feel regret.
“…Ms. Madoka.”
“Sorry.”
Yeah, erasing it couldn’t have been possible.
Youth and chastity, the one-time moment has already been ruined, and the time to restore it has long since passed.
No matter how different he is, what happened happened, and that can’t be undone by anything.
“Sorry. Purely, because I’m a weak woman who doesn’t enjoy spending time with you.”
See even now
Even at this moment, while being held in the arms of a man who thinks of her.
Isn’t she making herself miserable by endlessly comparing her unpleasant first experience with him?
“I, too, cannot accept your favor. If I can’t even love myself, there’s no way I can truly love someone, right?”
“… I understand.”
“I’m sorry for not being honest with myself. After running away like that, I tried to run away even from you… Really sorry.”
“I understand everything. Because I had the same period as you.”
A voice too sad to be merely polite.
Feeling sympathy from him, Madoka finally couldn’t stand her rising feelings, so she buried her face in his arms and started to cry.
“Because I couldn’t revive your heart for caring for such a pathetic woman… I’m really, really sorry.”
The apology that still continues is to deal with self-torture, at least as a sense of guilt toward the other person.
Dave, who also wanted to understand, listened to her cries and quietly embraced her body.
The consolation she needed at this moment wasn’t her love between a man and a woman.
Just assuming that she listens to her accumulated feelings and comforts her back until she calms down.
