Chapter 157 – Chapter 157. Now Only You…
“Coming to think of it, I heard that Ymir doesn’t get along very well with Celica…”
I’m not the only one who noticed something wrong with Ymir’s behavior.
Soon, Verdia approached me, and she began to whisper carefully in my ear.
“Are you trying to improve your relationship by taking advantage of the loss of your memory?”
“… Well.”
Well, that’s probably not something very improbable either.
But why does it look so sinister when he buries Celica in her chest and caresses the back of her head?
“Then, can I call you Ymir unnie from now on?”
“Yeah~ You listen to my younger brother~ Will you listen to your older sister well from now on?”
“Uh… Yes I will. There’s something very familiar about her older sister…”
“Yes, yes~ My little sister who listens to you well is very commendable~”
Ymir pats Celica’s head with a fishy smile.
Just by looking at it, she felt that the thoughts she wanted to have become clearer.
In short, even if she lost her memory, she must be trying to instill the fact that you are my stick from the beginning.
To prevent her from not being able to crave as usual because she lost her memory… Ugh, then you are.
“Me too…!”
But did he accept Ymir’s appearance differently?
Heira, who suddenly ran out, immediately hugged Celica and began to cling to her body.
“I also want to be with Celica…”
There was a hint of fear in the voice that followed.
An attitude that makes me feel the urgency of not leaving my side again.
“Uh-uh…Wait a minute. It’s because the clothes are pulled… Um?”
She seemed taken aback by such an action, but soon Celica’s eyes looked down at Heira and began to open wide.
As if I had noticed something about Heira in her arms.
“…Selica?”
“Hey, wait a minute.”
Afterwards, Heira looked up at herself, and Celica stared at her face.
Seeing that gaze, Heira felt her doubt and tilted her head, and Celica swallowed her saliva and asked her question.
“What is your name?”
“Name?”
“Yes, your name.”
“Ugh… Call me Heira.”
“Yes, yes. Mr. Heira… Excuse me… Can I ask you a favor?”
Shaking hands and constricting pupils.
While anyone could see the tension at the abnormal appearance, Celica raised her straight finger and said,
“Ha, just once… Can I touch your cheek just once?”
“…Cheek?”
“Yes, just once… Just once.”
“…”
Heira silently blinks her eyes.
Seeing this, Celica was even breaking out in a cold sweat from her nervousness, and soon, Heira held out her left cheek to Celica.
The silence that follows must mean affirmation.
“Ahhh…!”
As she put her hand on Heira’s cheek, an exclamation began to flow from Celica’s mouth as she moved her fingers.
Oh yeah, that’s what happened.
“What, what is this creature…? It has a very soft body. It smells good too!”
“Oops, even though I don’t have memories, it seems my instincts are still the same.”
Like me, Ymir burst out laughing as if he noticed Celica’s condition.
The only one who couldn’t figure out the situation was Verdia, who didn’t see the meeting between Heira and Celica.
“Can I… Leave it alone?”
“Yeah, it’ll be fine.”
In fact, it was a nuisance at her first meeting, but even after that, Heira never refused a single occasional skinship.
It is still the same today.
Rather, as if she felt nostalgia from touching her cheeks, a heartwarming smile was drawn on Heira’s lips.
“So you’re saying this cute kid is hanging out with me from now on? Really?”
“Yeah, just like you and I, he’s like you and her older sister, so get along well~”
“Uh, sister? Me?”
Celica looked back at Heira in disbelief.
Even at that moment, Heira put her hands on the back of her hand and closed her eyes, as if enjoying Celica’s touch on her cheek.
“… Yes. I called Celica her older sister.”
No matter how much the memory is lost, the hand that caresses itself.
As she reminds herself that it belongs to someone she remembers.
“Even though I don’t remember… Can I still call you that?”
At the end, she opened her eyes and asked in a low voice, and Celica’s arms immediately began to overlap Heira’s body.
She is very bold, as if she is freeing what she has been holding back.
“Yes, yes, of course! From now on, I will treat Heira like her sister…!!”
“…Selica-nee, I’m sick.”
“Ah, ah. Mi-sorry!
She finally released her power, but is it because she still feels regret?
Celica, who untied her arms from her embrace and touched her cheeks, laughed lightly, and Yumir, who was watching from her side, started laughing at her.
“Oh, how did the kid change? I feel like an idiot for nervously coming in… What do you think?”
“It’s still too early to make a judgment, so we need to be careful, but… Yes, Ymir, it’s as you said. It might not be bad to maintain this atmosphere for a while.”
Verdia, too, did not stop Sekira and just watched from a distance.
From the bitter smile drawn on her lips, it was quite evident that the tension she had felt before had disappeared.
It was as if he realized that no matter how much his memory was lost, it would not lead to the extinction of the existence of Celica.
“Dave. You shouldn’t stand there and come over here to say hello, right?”
Yeah, she just lost her memory. The Celica we know is still by our side.
If she’s broken, she’ll build it up again, if she’s lost, just find it again… It’s just a matter of that much.
“…Dave?”
As I approached, realizing that, Celica, who had released her Heira, began moving her gaze towards me.
With my eyes wide open, just like when I was facing the two of them.
Of course I don’t remember it, but I’m sure I’ll feel a sense of déjà vu.
“Yes, Celica. I…”
The moment she was about to introduce me, convinced of that.
“…Don’t.”
A trembling voice spewed out of his mouth.
When I read her emotions drawn in her eyes as she flinched right after her, I stopped her steps as she was about to approach her.
“…Selica?”
“Don’t come any closer!!”
The moment when the footsteps were cut off with a shout that was spit out right after.
While the faces of the three who were aware of the commotion were also embarrassed, Celica got up from her bed and began to walk backwards toward the wall of her room.
In the process, the furniture and props that hit the body collapsed with a bang…
But she didn’t pay attention to the things she broke.
From the moment I recognized my existence, that gaze was fixed only on me.
“Serica, why…”
The moment when anxiety creeps up in an unknown situation.
With cold sweat running down her face, Celica opened her trembling mouth and started talking to me.
“Also…”
Towards me
The mouth that whispered her love to me.
“Are you trying to do something bad to me like that time again…?”
Towards me who is not yet ready.
While revealing the emotions that have bloomed in vague memories.
***
From the moment she came to her senses, she was aware of a haze like a fog in her head.
There are things that come up sparsely between them, but there is nothing that can be said clearly.
Where my hometown was, who I was hanging out with, what I was doing, and only those bits and pieces were entangled and creating confusion.
In such a situation, at least as a sense of déjà vu, it was fortunate that she felt welcomed by the people she hung out with.
I thought that would also apply to the man in front of me, but for some reason, what Celica felt for him was a feeling close to disgust and utter contempt.
The reason soon became apparent.
It wasn’t detailed enough, but it had a form that could be called a memory.
‘Who said you could call me by my first name?’
‘From now on, when you call me, call me ‘Master’.’
With self-aggrandizing remarks.
A man who did not even care about sadistic violence, such as slapping me on the cheek.
‘Then I, who is your master from now on, will give you the first command. Take off everything you are wearing and stand in front of me.’
After that, I did not hesitate to carry out shameful instructions, and reached out to myself and did things I had never experienced before without hesitation.
At the end, after laying my body on the bed…
A dirty and obscene act that could not be said to have been accompanied by my will.
‘It’s a pity. I would have hoped that my first experience would be on a cozy honeymoon with the man I love.’
“Ooh… Ooh…!!”
The moment when nausea rises from within.
But she was asleep all the time, and there was no way anything of her could come out of her.
Just spewing out the liquid that makes me sick with the momentum to empty my stomach, and even then, I finally run out of it, and only retching is repeated.
“Uwueek! Ugh, ugh!! Coke!”
“Serica, Celica!!”
As the momentum continued, as if she were going to vomit her organs, Verdia hurriedly ran over and began to comfort Celica’s back.
“Serica, calm down. Take a deep breath…!”
“…Damn, I thought it was going well, but why is this happening all of a sudden?”
“Serica…”
The warmth of divine power radiating from your hands.
Since then, the burden on the body due to the mental burden has eased, but in the end, it was only temporary.
“Seri, Ka…”
As the three of them were surrounded by their worries, a faint voice was heard.
The moment I recognized the owner of the voice, the eyes revealed between the fingers that covered my face began to tremble.
“Dirty…”
Just the sound of that voice piercing my ears gave me goosebumps all over my body.
“Don’t call my name with your filthy mouth.”
To give an analogy, it was like maggots eating my brain.
Because he is convinced that the voice that seems to be worried about him at this moment is just a pretense, a mouthful of lies to appease him.
“It’s enough if you’ve bullied me until now… Why the hell are you doing this to me!!”
“Selica, calm down and tell me my story…”
“Shut up and get out of here!!
Celica, unable to withstand such confusion, bursts into tears.
At that moment, as she sat on the floor clutching her head at the headache that overtook her, she started screaming.
“Ahhh…!!”
No, was it really a scream?
Even if she tried to scream, her throat tightened and her breath was blocked, so the hoarse voice that came out at the end did not have the same strength as before.
The moment when the emotions that surged like a flood of such weakness began to penetrate the heart.
What remained at the end was not aversion and hatred towards the other person, but what I would call a scream stemming from fear.
“…Mi… I’m sorry.”
At the end of that scream, a word of apology, disgusting with power.
“I’m sorry, I was wrong…!!”
“Serica, why all of a sudden…”
“Ha, I’ll listen to you. I’ll do everything you say, so please, please don’t mess with my head anymore!!”
Unable to withstand the intense pain in her head, she grabbed her hair and began to press her forehead to the floor.
Thump, thump. The moment the noise starts to get louder.
Eventually, the skin on her forehead cracked and blood leaked out, but the action showed no sign of stopping.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”
“Serica. Celica!!”
After a while, Verdia reached out her hand to stop Celica.
It was too late to realize the seriousness of the sudden change in posture, but it wouldn’t be too late now.
Soon after, Verdia tried to calm her Celica, but she grabbed him by the shoulder and started screaming at her urgently.
“Calm down Celica. As you know, you’re in an unstable state right now! Calm down your mind. Calm down for now!!”
It is said that wounds can be treated with a miracle of God, but the spirit is different.
If she can’t calm down, she will repeat self-harm again and again, and the physical wounds will lead to agitation that further confuses her mind.
At the end of such a vicious cycle, only destruction will come.
If you can’t suppress such destruction alone, you must control it as much as possible around you.
“Dave! Where are you going all of a sudden!!”
However, the person who created the beginning of such confusion could not endure the reality he faced at this moment and left his seat.
As Ymir ran after him, Heira, who remained in the empty seat, looked back at Celica and cautiously opened her mouth.
“Selica-nee, it’s okay…”
“…Day, bro?”
But Celica didn’t listen to that voice.
She embraced her body and wanted to make friends with her.
“Dave…”
Soon after, she lifted her bloody face up, looked up at her ceiling with her dazed eyes, and began to draw a smile on her lips.
Slowly, as if stretching her thin cheese.
“Dave, where did you suddenly disappear to…?”
Verdia and Heira’s faces turned pale the moment they met the expressions created at the end, but Celica’s attention had already been taken away from the two of them.
There is only one thing she is preoccupied with.
I just want to embody the remnants of memories that pop up in my head at this moment in a slightly more distinct form.
“I… How long have I been looking for you… Why are you leaving me again?”
As the shape gradually hardened and the words came out of her mouth, a landscape gradually began to be drawn in her mind.
Above the bloody plateau spread under the dark red sky.
The image of herself dragging her sword in the field of corpses spread out above it, wandering in search of the protagonist whose name she had put in her mouth.
“Please, come back Dave.”
Are they really her own memories? Or is it the result of misassembled broken memories?
No, either way it was fine.
One important thing.
It’s just that his desire for him is his only driving force to navigate that harsh world.
“Just now…”
When she recalled that, her mouth parted.
Soon, murmurs of joy began to resonate quietly in the room.
“Now I can kill you, so why…?”
A life destined for tragedy from birth.
Complaining that was considered the only salvation.
