## Chapter 92 – Size (30)
“Ah♡ St, stooop♡♡”
What is that sound? Is that my voice? No way.
My vision has been sparkling and bouncing since a while ago, and my head isn’t working properly.
What is it? What was I doing just now? I was definitely stealing a fruit from the lab…
No, Im Chan-woo… Huh? Why is my… body… Oh, right. Definitely…
“Aaaaaah!♡♡ Stop, I’m really gonna dieee!!♡”
Writhing in agony as if my head is burning, I grab Im Chan-woo’s thick forearm.
And I could see myself clinging to him and begging.
“P, please… stoop..♡ Please let me gooo…♡♡”
What? No, I’m not that kind of vulgar person…
I’m different from other people, get a grip.
I can’t let these monsters have their way…
“…Hmm, you’ve become a bit more honest. Then I should give you a reward, right?”
“Haah!!♡ Th, thank youuu♡”
I feel a bit dazed, and an unknown joy fills me at his words.
The blue light in front of me, the abnormal sight of it connecting to my body.
But my head was already numb with pleasure to notice it and feel that it was strange.
Finally, finally I can go♡ Quickly, quickly…♡
I raise my hand like a puppy and show my belly to Im Chan-woo,
Spreading my legs and showing my pussy so it’s easy for him to put his fingers inside.
Seeing my appearance, he smiles slightly and brings his finger to my pussy.
Quickly, put it in quickly, please…♡
“Okay, go then.”
“Ah♡”
The finger that came in instantly pressed something inside me,
And at that moment, as if pressing a button, my body starts to jump.
My vision blurs and sparkles even more than before.
And no sound came into my ears,
But instead of being scary, a comfortable feeling wraps around my whole body.
“…Ooh…♡ Goood…♡”
When I came to my senses, I was looking at the ceiling, enjoying the faint pleasure remaining in my head.
Why…? Why did I show my belly to those monsters and do such shameful things…?
As the desires that filled my head poured out,
I finally found myself in my mind that started to clear as if being washed away.
“Y, you…! What are you doing again…!!”
“I think your body knows better than you.”
“…”
I recall my body being taken over by something inside me like before.
That wasn’t me, probably another ‘me’ who was affected by something Im Chan-woo did.
As soon as Im Chan-woo says something, I shudder at the powerlessness of not being myself.
“Why?”
I glare at him.
I hate him, I feel disgusted.
I’m angry at myself for being manipulated by monsters who aren’t even human.
The humiliation of looking up at pitiful beings who weren’t even properly born constricts me.
No, no. Am I going to give in like this in such an unsightly way?
I press down on the blanket tightly, pulling it towards me to cover my chest.
In one corner of my heart, I still hate and loathe him, I’m sure that’s what I’m thinking.
While glaring at him, I grab my face and chest that are getting hotter and hotter.
This isn’t really me, it’s a fake emotion created by Im Chan-woo with that strange ability.
“…Your heart is pounding strangely, right?”
“What…?”
“This is fake, it’s fake caused by Im Chan-woo doing something to me.
Are you really thinking that?”
“…How did you know that…”
Im Chan-woo smiles and takes a step closer to me.
I pull the blanket he stepped on and step back a little.
The cold wall touched my back.
He read my mind.
“How did I know that? Well, I didn’t expect this to happen even without using the blue petals.
I guess the power of the fruit is greater than the petals.”
The fruit? Is he talking about that thing inside me? Then Im Chan-woo’s power also comes from the fruit…
No, if he gained that power by eating the fruit, then what about me? I don’t have any power.
If he ate the same kind of fruit as I did and gained the power to read my mind,
Why couldn’t I read his mind?
“…That’s simple.”
“You, you read my mind again… Ugh?!”
From across the wall I’m leaning on, a small, soft but tough vine snatches both of my hands.
Because of that, I let go of the blanket I was holding, and my chest is exposed defenselessly.
Im Chan-woo, who came in a flash, grabs my chin and matches his eyes with my eyes.
“You and I both ate the fruit, so is it strange that only I have power?
It’s easy if you think that I’m unilaterally putting a ‘bridge’ to you.”
“Putting a bridge…? What are you talking about? Speak so I can understand.”
“…The fruit inside you has already become one with you.
That fruit has become one with your body, mind, memory, everything inside you, understand?”
“…”
I nod slightly at Im Chan-woo’s words.
Because I understood that the fruit was no ordinary object,
Now, the news of the fruit merging with my body wasn’t that surprising.
But the next story was something I didn’t expect at all.
“I’m unilaterally putting a bridge to the fruit that has become you itself,
I wonder if you can understand what this means?”
“…”
I sink into thought for a moment.
The bite of the fruit that I ate is connected to everything about me.
It’s connected to my body, mind, memory, everything, and Im Chan-woo is connecting that fruit to the fruit.
Thoughts begin to organize in my head.
“…What will happen if that happens?”
My eyes turn again to the strange lights that have been visible since a while ago.
The light emanating from me is being swallowed by Im Chan-woo’s blue light as it is.
Bad thoughts keep flashing through my mind, and I shake my head alone, denying that it’s not.
I wanted to think that my thoughts were wrong, that I was wrong this time.
“You’re right.”
“…What?”
“You’re right, if you lose all the light like this, you…”
“…I, nothing will be left…”
Nothing will be left.
This is not a double meaning, but a literal expression.
If I lose all the light of the fruit connected to everything about me,
What will happen to me? Will I just disappear?
If that happens, what will happen to my remaining body?
“…Hahaha!!”
Im Chan-woo suddenly starts laughing.
“…What’s so funny…?!”
“…Don’t worry about that, I’ll take good care of your body that’s left after you disappear.”
Im Chan-woo reads my mind again and mocks me.
I clench my teeth and glare at him, pulling the vine that’s holding my hands with all my might.
But it, which is gently wrapping my hands, didn’t break easily.
“…Shit!!!”
“…Say everything you want to say. It’s the last time, so I can listen to that much.”
I feel a sense of pity in his voice full of composure.
Is he mistaking that for mercy? Just pretending to be human.
“…Ha, haha… Do you think you’re superior and great by doing that…?
Playing above people’s heads, playing with them as you please.
Unfortunately, you can never be a better being than humans by doing that.
And becoming human is even more impossible, unfortunately… die quickly and aim for the next life.”
“…Hmm, good words, but you know.”
“Ugh?!”
Im Chan-woo violently snatches my hair.
“I don’t know how this will sound, but I don’t know if I’m human or what.”
“…Ugh?!”
Between me and Im Chan-woo, two colors of light are shaking like crazy.
From among the shaking lights, the emotions inside him are rushing in.
“As you said, I’m probably not human, but that’s too difficult for me.
I have parents and siblings too. I cherish my family like all humans do.
And I’ve been in love too. When I was in high school, I confessed to the first girl I liked.
Of course, it didn’t last long and we broke up.”
“…Ugh…!! Ugh…!!”
Complex emotions, confusion rushes in from him.
I frown at the headache-like pain, and cold sweat flows from my forehead.
I feel a sadness for some reason in the words he’s spitting out.
“I lived like these ordinary people. But one day, I accidentally met that flower.
I borrowed the power of those petals and ruined the lives of several people, and I felt guilty at first.
But I feel that it’s getting duller and duller as I go on.”
I can’t breathe.
“So that’s a little scary, I’m afraid that I won’t feel anything in the end?
Even if I look at my family, even if I look at the people I love, I’m afraid that I won’t feel anything.
So I need to ask that person inside you.
Whether I’m a human, or a monster, or what the hell I am.”
Even though he looks confident on the outside, his inside is full of confusion.
I looked into his chaotic inner mind that I read in the intense emotions earlier.
A nauseous feeling flows through my head.
“…I know how you feel.”
If I think I’m special, he’s afraid that he’s not ordinary.
It’s the opposite situation, but I could understand his thoughts.
That fear started when I first entered university.
Not from meeting the petals and changing himself, but from when he was human.
The anxiety that he might not be a big deal has grown bigger and bigger and has become what it is now.
He needed a way to wash away that anxiety.
Games, exercise, hobbies, something like that.
“…So, you brought in other women to erase your anxiety…?”
“…”
Im Chan-woo seems to be shaking.
…Okay, it’s working.
If I shake him up a little more like this, I can find a gap and run away.
I know that he was originally human, and I know that he looks a little pitiful.
But I don’t want to become this bastard’s doll as it is.
Even if he was human before, a monster is a monster in the end.
I feel disgusted by the way he expresses emotions like a person.
I feel a little sorry for trying to use the gap in emotions,
But I hope you don’t resent me too much.
Because I, a human, am too precious to be eaten by monsters.
“…If it was that hard, you should have gone to your family or something.”
“…”
“…Okay, then for now… Ugh?!”
“…You’re smart, you were so confident. You don’t know about people, do you?”
Im Chan-woo suddenly covers my mouth with one hand.
He instantly erases that sad look from earlier and glares at me.
“Trying to gain profit by using emotions… even monsters don’t do that.”
“Ugh?!! Ugh!”
“Let me tell you one thing you’re mistaken about? You’re not a genius.
You’re just a pitiful drunkard who’s intoxicated with his own talent.”
“…Ugh…?!”
“I can’t become a better being than humans as you said, and I don’t intend to.
But… you’re now becoming a toy for that monster who’s worse than a human.”
Blue light emanates from Im Chan-woo’s hand, who is showing the smile of an ordinary man.
Im Chan-woo raises it and brings it to my eyes.
I don’t want to… I don’t want to! Don’t do th-
