## Chapter 56 – Hong Su-A
“…Huh? Wait, what are you… what are you saying…?”
“…”
Suho didn’t say anything, just kept his head down. I tried to hide the trembling in my voice, but the sudden, incomprehensible words made my tongue tie itself in knots.
Whether he heard me or not, he took off his jacket and put it around me.
“What a mess you are. What have you been doing?”
“No, that’s not the point. Say something. What does that mean?”
“…Just what it sounds like. I don’t want you showing up in front of us anymore.”
“…Huh…?”
My legs felt weak, but I forced myself to stand and grabbed Suho’s shoulder, who had his head down. My sister’s miserable face was revealed.
What is happening right now?
Suho is looking at me with an expression I’ve never seen before. He looks angry, consumed by sadness, like he’s about to burst into tears.
Regret and disgust,
His eyes, filled with so many emotions, made my grip on my sister’s shoulder weaken until I had to let go.
Why are you looking at me like that? You’re the last person who should look at me that way.
“…There should be money in the inside pocket of your bag. That should be enough to get a small room right away. It’s the last thing Dad’s giving you, so use it wisely.”
Dad said that? Why? Why all of a sudden?
“…I’ll talk to him myself. Where is Dad right now? I’ll go…!”
If I talk to him, everything will be resolved. I don’t know what he’s misunderstanding, but it’s a misunderstanding, so if I just meet him, I can clear it up. He always said he was on my side.
“Just stop it.”
I tried to walk past Suho and out of the phone booth, but he grabbed my arm and shoved me back into the cramped space.
For the first time, I was overpowered. It was heavy and scary.
“Suho, whatever you’re thinking, it’s a misunderstanding. Something’s wrong. Me, no, us. We can fix it.”
“A misunderstanding? What the hell is a misunderstanding? What’s real and what’s a lie? Fix it? Do you even know what the hell you’ve done?”
It hurts, it hurts. Please don’t do this to me. Are you only looking for family when you need something? I’m sorry, I’ll apologize for everything. So, please, please don’t look at me like that…
A splitting headache crawls up from the back of my head. I try to cover my temples with both hands, but the sounds of people in the street and Suho’s voice driving me into a corner make me scream without realizing it.
“…Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!! What did I do so wrong? Huh?! You said we were family. Is this what family is? I never wanted this kind of family!! I abandoned you first? No, no. Dad abandoned me first. Dad, you, Mom…!!”
“…You poor thing.”
“…What?”
Suho cut me off with just one word, stopping my words that were burning like a lit fuse. He’s looking at me with genuine pity.
“Was it a few weeks ago? The day you beat up Lim Chan-woo real bad. That day, you told me. You called me a hypocrite, asked if I could sell Mom and Dad to make myself comfortable. Said I was lucky to be able to live so simply.”
“…Huh?”
Suho ran a hand over his forehead, sighed, and continued.
“And I don’t care if you like guys or girls…”
“…How do you know that…!!”
“But liking your younger sibling’s girlfriend, isn’t that something you shouldn’t do, logically speaking? And the funny thing is, why is it my fault that I broke up with Chaeyoon? Do I have to move the way you want me to and spoon-feed you?”
“No, wait, Suho…!”
“…Why do I have to do this much for your love?”
Suho looks miserable, like he’s about to cry. His eyes are gradually filling with tears.
No, no, no. Something’s wrong. I can still fix it.
“I’m sorry, okay? Suho, let’s go home first…”
“Let go, damn it…”
Suho violently shakes off my hand. He wipes his eyes with his sleeve, straightens his tearful voice, and answers the phone.
“Yes, Dad. No, I met her. We were just talking… Yes… You want to talk to her?”
“Dad?!”
Realizing who was on the other end of the line, I snatched the phone from Suho’s hand and answered quickly.
This is it. I can fix everything now.
“Dad! It’s me.”
‘…’
“Dad, Dad?”
‘…I’m listening.’
“Dad, I’ll go home and explain everything. I can explain it all. You’re misunderstanding right now. Suho and I are sorry for everything so far. Just trust me this one time…”
‘No, it’s okay.’
“…Yes?”
‘I’ve already heard everything from your own mouth. What more do I need to hear?’
…Heard everything from my own mouth? What does that…
“What does that mean…”
‘The day you hit me and went out with Lim Chan-woo… haven’t you remembered anything from that day for a week?’
“…Huh? A week…?”
I took the phone away from my ear and looked at the date. The number on the screen showed that exactly seven days had passed since the date I remembered.
“…How…”
‘You said it all yourself…!! Clearly in your voice, in a panting voice…!!’
The bitterness in his voice is conveyed even through the phone.
Hearing Dad’s voice in a situation I don’t understand, various scenes come to mind.
‘Ah♡ There, right there, it feels so good♡♡ Thrust harder♡’
‘Ehehe, Hong Su-a is a lesbian but also a pervert who likes to get fucked by dicks♡’
‘Good, good…♡’
‘You’ll make me remember everything when I come to my senses later, right? Good♡ I don’t care, put it in here♡’
“Ah, ah…!! Aaaah!!! Ugh…!! Ughwaaaah…!!”
What? What is this memory… A week? I was in that motel room for a week…
I was filled with disgust and collapsed to the floor, vomiting.
No, when? When did this happen? Why? Why would I do this? No, I’m still me. I’m Hong Su-a. I’m Hong Su-a? Am I still me?
‘…Why? I want to hear it, thinking it’s the last time. Why did you make that call to me?’
“…Gueeeck…!! No, no, Dad… It’s all Lim Chan-woo… that bastard… he manipulated me…! Please believe me… please…”
‘…In the end, you won’t tell us. That’s enough. I was really happy to see you born and grow up. I thought that even if you wandered, you would find your way someday. Thank you so much for being born as my daughter. But, I don’t want to see you in the next life.’
“No, don’t hang up, believe me. I’m telling the truth!! Don’t leave me alone! Please….”
Now all I can hear is a cold mechanical sound. I can’t hear his voice anymore.
“…Take care.”
Suho looks at the wound on my foot, takes off his shoes, and leaves.
“…Don’t, go…”
I reach out weakly, but my hand can’t reach his.
….
…
..
.
“…Heh, heh…”
No one needs me. Why am I alive? I’m just sitting on the street, laughing.
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why was I born if this is how it would be? Why? Why? Why?
“…No one, no one believes me… No one looks at me…”
My head feels light. I feel like I’ve been left all alone. I don’t care about anything, anything at all.
“Hehehe, kyaahaha…”
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“…You really found her?”
“Didn’t you believe me?”
The human who became the host of the blue petals and my ability, no matter how far away they are, I can sense the host’s presence if I try to find them. I came to find Su-a, who had run away following that, but…
“…Hehehe…”
Her condition seems worse than I thought. Maybe her mind, driven to its limit, thought that her family, whom she had blindly believed in as her last support, had abandoned her, so she collapsed easily like a Jenga tower with only one block left.
But thankfully, she still has her sanity. If she had been completely broken by this, everything I’ve done so far would have been in vain. I roll up my sleeves, sit down on the street, and approach Su-a, who is laughing hysterically. I secretly take her to an empty alley, put my hand on her head, and concentrate my mind on my fingertips.
The parasite and Hong Su-a’s brain are almost completely fused. I’m curious to see what kind of changes will occur in the personality of the human I’ve driven this far.
My consciousness is connected to Hong Su-a’s through my fingertips. I passively end the fusion with the parasite.
“I need you. So become mine.”
“…I…”
Hong Su-a’s expression, which had been dyed with a mad laugh, falls into a trance. Although it is not visible, the existence of the human being called Hong Su-a is gradually weakening, and I can feel something else being born.
As if to prove it, Hong Su-a’s body repeats violent and short convulsions, and she lets out strange moans, ‘Ah…eugeut? Clothes…?’
About a minute has passed since then. The convulsions have subsided.
Now, all I can feel is that what’s inside this body is no longer Hong Su-a.
“…Hong Su-a?”
“…”
“Is something wrong?”
“That can’t be…eup?!”
I turned around to answer Chaeyoon, who was asking if I had failed because of the strange atmosphere, but in an instant, Hong Su-a knocked me down and kissed me fiercely.
“Chururup♡ Puhah…♡”
“Puhwak! What?”
Before I could figure out what was going on, Hong Su-a hugged me with tremendous force, enough to crush my bones and kill me if I were human.
Hong Su-a is definitely not human anymore.
After a long hug, Hong Su-a finally lifted her head and looked at my face. It was definitely her face, but her expression was very different.
Her cheeks were flushed, her breath was rough, and her eyes had lost something.
“I love you, I love you, because I love you. Don’t abandon me. I’ll do anything you want. I’ll do anything, I can do anything for you. Love me, love me…”
Su-a, muttering to herself like a crazy person, stripped off my pants with force and lovingly licked and sucked on my still embarrassed and not even erect dick, rolling her tongue.
“Haeup..♡ Like thith….
I’ll do anything for you…thoo don’t abandon me♡”
Su-a, who is desperately showing her interest in me, is only looking at me without paying attention to anything around her.
Like a young child begging her parents for love.
