Chapter 524 – Week 7 Saturday (9)
“Unlike me, he is a very strong person. You can live well enough without me. No, because he would be a happier person without me. I’m afraid. When I opened my eyes, I saw a letter from Lee Ha-woon. No, Lee Ha-woon would leave without a word. And after a very long time has passed, he suddenly appears and says hello. I still have those nightmares.”
Merande was saying that it would be impossible without Lee Ha-woon. However, Lee Ha-woon said that he must not be confident for Mrande. He said he had to let her go if he wasn’t going to live with her forever.
But will Merende be able to let go of Lee Ha-woon?
At the same time, however, he wasn’t sure if Lee Ha-woon could let Merende go.
The two of them were so lacking. And they were looking for that deficiency in each other. Even though deep loneliness and cruel sadness leaked out because they couldn’t completely fill it, they were filling each other’s lack.
So, unfortunately, Marey asked me without even knowing.
“Mrende… What would you do if you could still be with Lee Ha-woon?”
“Happy… It’s a happy imagination. Hajihan is fine. Such a delusion makes you dream of false hopes.”
“Unless it is delusional. What if you could?”
“Well… If that’s possible, if Lee Ha-woon doesn’t hate me… Which…”
-Well, could you order an extra drink? Other guests keep coming… I’m sorry, but…
A clerk came to ask for my understanding, as if I had been sitting for too long during the weekend, when many people were coming and going. It was a very harsh and realistic sound that seemed to separate reality from delusion.
As if waking up from her dream, in a weak voice, Merande looked at the clerk and sent it out, asking for her recommended menu. She laughed. She laughed a little as if she was pathetic. Then, covering her face with her hands, she let out a long sigh.
“It was a good dream. Yes, it’s just a delusion, but I’m embarrassed to tell others.”
“No, really, really, if we could be together…”
“Marey.”
Merande called the boy by name, as if she didn’t want to talk anymore. She covered her face and said nothing for a while.
“I am getting ready.”
And after removing the very heavy silence, Merande vomited her story again. Like a confession. No, it was like a confession, so Marey couldn’t respond in any way to her words.
“Lee Ha-woon is here because of me. She has to look good. So she’s trying, but it’s not working. Originally, she wanted to be a kid until she graduated from school… Right now, I just want to send Lee Ha-woon away as soon as possible. So that I can clear my mind in Valter.”
“Suddenly?”
Merandene nodded her head. Her blonde hair gleams, reflecting the sun’s light to and fro.
“Because I have friends, because I think I can do well for some reason. I knew too. I mean, you can’t just stay like this. I was scared though One more day, one more day. That’s how I’ve been putting off every day. He’s a bad kid.”
Merendet bit on the straw that hung over her empty glass and chewed.
“Yes, Marey. Thanks to you thank you. And I’m sorry. It’s because I’m not good at it. Because I’m an idiot who can’t do anything right. Sending Lee Ha-woon away, making friends with her, and trying to appear bright, none of that matters. The way I am now, isn’t it strange? Until recently, I was just laughing and chatting, and I was distracted, but now it’s so strange…”
“It’s not strange.”
Even though Marai knew she had to listen to Merende’s story, she cut her off.
“It’s not strange to work hard or show a tired image like this. It’s great to see you working hard. When I see you tired like this, I want to cheer you up. So it’s okay. Really.”
Merande’s red eyes slowly widened and closed slowly. Golden eyelashes trembled. I saw her smiling at her. No, she seemed to be correct in saying that she laughed. The clumsy blonde vampire girl takes a deep breath.
Marei felt a strange prickly sensation in her long, straightened waist and straight eyes, along with her breath that was so long that it was frustrating for the viewer.
“Marey de Parwen. You are dangerous.”
“Yes… ?”
“There is something inside me.”
Merande’s eyes were colder than ever. Contrary to her mischievous content, she looked very serious. Her red eyes, looking at her, were not the soft eyes she was used to, but the illusion of a predator.
“I know better than anyone how strange it sounds, so I never told anyone. Even for Lee Ha-woon. If it were him, he might be guessing.”
Merende laughed. No, the one in the form of her mrende was laughing. She was very strange, but she was strangely familiar. The look she reminds me of someone. Her piercing red eyes seemed to cut her like a razor blade.
“I want to believe in you. But I’m afraid to believe. Trusting someone means I have to put you in me. I will have to put you in me and watch you grow up and always take care of yourself carefully so that I don’t get hurt.”
Philia came to mind. From the blonde vampire girl, she remembered the silver haired vampire princess. Could this be Merande’s true form? No, she was in front of herself from the start. It was just two.
“Funny story, I wish I had someone by my side. Lonely. Even though I say that, I get scared and push away people who approach me. And she keeps hanging around hoping for attention. He has a troublesome and irritating personality.”
It was like a confession. No, it was like confession. Marey continued to listen to Merande’s story. She could respond to cruel self-criticism, but she couldn’t even criticize realistic poetry.
“Heaven is like that. At best, it’s cowardice, at worst, it’s a mental illness. I’m not too surprised.”
“I am very surprised.”
“You seem to be listening seriously, but I couldn’t have imagined such a reaction…”
Merande let out a sigh.
“Were you guessing?”
“Just… There were times when I felt like a different person. Sometimes it feels too far, sometimes it feels too close. As if you were someone else.”
“Contrary to what it looks like, you’re quick-witted.”
It’s too much. Merande laughed at Marey’s answer.
“I honestly don’t know, I don’t know which one is me. There are times when I want to act like a child, like the days when I didn’t know anything. But there are times when I get mad like crazy, and there are times when I want to laugh strangely. Can’t control myself Does it look crazy to you?”
It seemed to ask for consent. No, it seemed to be begging him to deny it. She couldn’t understand her feelings in those red eyes, but she could feel them.
“…No. I think it’s just clumsy. There are definitely things she doesn’t want to show to others. If you show your sincerity, people will feel uncomfortable.”
Merande smiled as if she had heard some comforting words.
“Me too. There are times when I want to play a fool for my mother or other people. At that time, I act like a fool. She’s not even a child, but just like a child, she’s going in droves.”
When she wanted to fool around in a foreign country, she would hold Ravela tightly, thrust her penis into her, and fall asleep. It has become a habit for her lately, so to borrow the words of Idrien, it has changed to being given as a reward to those who persevere until the end with “I put my cock in a cock case and fall asleep”…
“When I’m angry, I hold back and don’t say anything, but when the opportunity arises, I take out my anger.”
There were times when I hesitated at the appearance of toilet pets playing mischievous pranks, then committed offenses and struggled to get revenge until I begged for forgiveness.
“Depending on the situation, there are times when I can’t control myself.”
To borrow an expression from Illien, she said ‘when you open your eyes as a male’. She also knew Marey well. She was so different from herself and her usual self when she was raping Ravela and the like on the bed.
“We are just clumsy. Me too, Merande too. It’s just that you’re more clumsy than others. So even Merande… Me too… I don’t think it’s different.”
Of course, this was due to the natural education (?) Of the females around her, but it was unavoidable because it was going on too secretly for Marey to notice…
“I really can’t stand it… They only whisper good things into my ear, so I don’t want to refute them. It’s exhausting.”
Merande, who hadn’t even touched the new drink, tapped her glass with her fingertips. Her pleasant echo was repeated several times.
“But, it is not like that. Different. It’s so different.”
“…Are you two on good terms?”
“What? Are you talking about me?”
Marey nodded her head. Merande covered her lips and chuckled.
“Did you say Marei lives with her mother?”
“Yes.”
“How is she with her mother?”
“Very good. Much more than others.”
I don’t know since when did the word “Getting along with my mother” Leave a handprint on her buttocks saying that in an orgy where the word copulation suits her, she says that it’s a preparation for pregnancy, pours semen into her vagina, can’t overcome her excitement, and tightens it up so that she can accept everything inside her womb during ejaculation. . Merande, not knowing her circumstances, lightly nodded her head.
“It’s an ugly story. I am… No, I think we still need some time to tell this story. I’m sorry, please don’t look at me like that. It’s because you’re a coward.”
Merendet took a step back. Marey forcibly did not take a step towards her. The girl in front of her was more like a cat than Lee Ha-un. A cat with a lot of vigilance. And yet, it was like a cat that couldn’t disappear far away because of a mixture of curiosity and affection.
“I don’t know yet. I want to trust you So I think I should believe it, but it doesn’t work out. I think I’ll believe it, but when I look back, I realize that I can’t even trust myself. It’s so hard for me to trust anyone like this. So afraid It means that there seems to be something inside me. Maybe I’m acting to protect myself. But I’m mustering up courage now. I don’t know if you know it, but I’m more courageous than when I told my father I was coming to Walter.”
I saw Merende. Her hands were shaking. Since when was she shaking?
“I believe, if Merende says so, I believe.”
“Can I trust you? Yeah, I don’t even know what a friend is. I’m the one who didn’t have that. When I see you, I get strangely nervous and nervous. But I want to be by your side Scared, yet happy. Yeah, so I don’t know what to do.”
Merendet laughed self-deprecatingly. The way she curled up was like her frightened cattle.
“I think Lee Ha-woon is waiting for you. Did I interrupt you?”
“…No.”
She saw red eyes. Did she know everything? Or are you thinking differently? Now I didn’t know The emotion contained in the red eyes smiling at him was so straight that he could not read it.
