Chapter 405 – Chapter 405. What’s Inside Her -4
By the time Ji-eun had almost climbed the stairs to her rooftop, she felt it was worth coming early.
She was because the lights were on on the rooftop.
It seemed that Yoon-kyung and Jin-hyeok weren’t sleeping yet.
I wanted to have a drink.
‘Did I do well to come early?’
Meeting Hyeon-joo had a little bit of anticipation.
She wondered if maybe she could apologize to Hyeonju.
She said let’s do it again, and if she did she might have gotten back together.
Ji-eun still had feelings for Hyeon-joo.
She was also nice to be with.
She said that if Hyeon-joo would arrange her arrangements for additional women she met, she held out her phone to Ji-eun and showed her organizing and deleting her contact information. .
However, Hyeon-joo, in a way, was a bit unilaterally sticking to her own stance, and she had spoken to Ji-eun quite lightly, so Ji-eun was only angry with her.
Ji-Eun had some regrets about Hyeon-joo’s attitude, but she accepted it.
It was because life was not so easy to pay much attention to such things.
When it comes to weekdays, I have to go to work again every day, and I have to work.
In such a daily life, I thought that it would be better to reduce what can be seen as emotional consumption as much as possible and spend more meaningfully the remaining time, which is better than going to another job, but still limited.
Jieun climbed up the roof and looked around her.
Okay. Although rooftops have many drawbacks, she felt a little more satisfied with the fact that, like a veranda, the space she could use almost alone was a bit wider.
She said that if she hadn’t passed the civil service exam, she might not have been able to live here.
It’s because she can’t live a consuming life here forever.
Still, she did have a sense of relief about being able to survive because she passed.
Unfortunately, it could literally just mean survival.
I didn’t know how long this life of going out to work every day would last.
She knew she would be so happy when she got to work.
Before passing, I thought that if I passed, the whole world would truly be mine.
But that was a mistake.
After passing the exam, it was the real beginning.
You can see that you start your life from the bottom up, but that time goes by really slowly.
Once there are superiors in anything, the discomfort can be proportional to the number and proportion of those superiors.
When they retire, the successor will come in and it will be more comfortable.
However, since they are civil servants, the superiors can be seen as almost iron rice bowls until retirement, but if you put it that way, everyone still has a long way to go.
You have to work under them for decades.
It is correct to work while belonging to the country, but from a microscopic point of view, in the end, it is to work together with ‘people’ who work together.
There was no special friction or anything.
However, the idea that the routine of being worked by the superiors for decades without end would be waiting indefinitely was hard to find so pleasant.
‘If I were the daughter of a wealthy family. No, it might have been better if I was the daughter of a family that was only a wealthy family.’
Ji-eun came up to the roof.
In this gosichon, street lamps were erected sparsely here and there, and the bright lights on them illuminated the residential area to some extent.
I went to the railing for a while and looked at the residential area and thought.
Suddenly, the lights of the streetlights placed one by one in the darkness of the night were like the ‘salary’ that this world gives.
A light that doesn’t shine enough to illuminate the whole world like the sun, but just enough to barely walk on.
If you look further outside after passing there, there are bars, and there are quite a few entertainment facilities such as PC rooms, multi rooms, and comic rooms.
The dazzling neon signs in such places are a little brighter.
It’s light enough to play, not barely enough to walk.
I wanted a life like the light of a neon sign, but the reality is the light of a street lamp.
During my school days, no adult told me that fighting for survival was such a difficult task.
If someone had told her that, Jieun wondered, maybe she would have studied like crazy, so she could have gone to a better university and entered a better professional job.
The 9th grade civil service exam was much more difficult than her university entrance exam, in Ji-eun’s perception.
And Jieun was the one who attached it.
She knows that if she could turn back time, she wouldn’t make it all the way to SKY, though, honestly.
That’s because people who really have an incomparable will to learn will go.
Even so, even if you don’t become a social leader who leads this society after graduating from a top-notch university, I think it’s worth trying for a tolerable professional job.
That’s how I see it in the world.
Even 9th grade civil servants were treated tremendously in an era when employment was not as good as these days.
Passing the civil service exam was almost like throwing a big party.
Everyone around me actively congratulated here and there as if they had heard that our country had won the World Cup.
I was happy.
Becoming a civil servant was such a joy.
First of all, there is an element that is psychologically relative.
I always lived the same life as other high school students in the goshichon, but now it’s different.
In the case of unpopular serial local positions, there are places where the competition rate is about 30 to 1, but Jieun challenged the popular series of national positions, which approached around 160 to 1, and achieved it.
Ji-eun was very happy that she no longer had to live the life of a high school student she had lived before passing the exam.
It was a dream job.
Besides the psychological factor, my life has changed quite a bit in reality as well.
Work to build a career, earn money and do whatever you want to do.
I couldn’t do it when I was a high school student, but after getting a job, I can go out to eat delicious food with my parents or friends once in a while like everyone else does, and that was nice.
In addition, since I got a job, the job of being a civil servant is a much preferred job these days, so it was also popular in the dating market.
Even now, a lot of introductions come in from around me, and men are standing in line.
If you put your mind to it, you may have the option of marrying a rich man, but Ji-eun thought it would be better to become rich herself rather than going to a rich person.
Even if it is a good job to be a public servant to become rich, it is not easy, and there are thoughts that it would have been better if I had entered a professional job.
So what I am thinking about and putting into action now is preparation for the 7th grade civil servant.
I have been preparing for the 7th grade civil service exam for several months.
If you pass the 9th grade civil service exam, you will work for decades until you retire… Well, depending on the case, it’s not that there aren’t cases where you have a secretary because you’re outstanding, but it’s not easy.
In other words, you have to become a grandmother and retire before you seize power.
However, it is different if you pass as a 7th grade civil servant.
Starting at a higher rank means that you can quit after you have risen to a higher rank.
So, when Ji-eun was preparing for the civil service exam, she had heard the saying, ‘Level 9 is for commoners, Level 7 is for nobles, and Level 5 is for royalty’.
When preparing for an interview, everyone said, “I love volunteering, and I’m happy and happy to serve all the people.” I’d say that, but there really aren’t that many people like that.
In Jieun’s case, she likes to take care of the people she likes and the people around her, just like she took care of Jinhyeok once in a while.
However, while working, she encounters the truth once in a while.
It is impossible not to have such a truth when doing things that collide with many people.
As more and more of those things arise, they pile up.
At first it’s fine.
When I look at people, like I said during the interview, volunteering was fun to that extent, and even if it wasn’t to that extent, I felt good about it.
If you help someone and that person has a grateful heart, I am also grateful.
However, the world was not a place where only a virtuous circle could return.
Some people don’t have a grateful heart and have a heart of Gap.
He unleashes the bundle of dissatisfaction he has accumulated somewhere to his heart’s content, and unleashes his anger as if he were a king.
Why should I be the one who has to receive it intact?
While biting my lips tightly inside the mask, the eyes outside the mask smile, and my heart gradually closes.
The girl who loved the world is diluted, and the trauma expands little by little due to madmen who visit once in a while.
It was for that reason that I prepared separately for the 7th grade exam.
Rank is power.
There are good things about power.
That’s where the shield comes in.
The shield of rank means that the people who should have been above me will be placed under me, and I will not be able to give them the stress that they would if they were above me.
Also, when you are in the 9th grade, you have to face the truth, but when you reach the 7th grade, you get promoted further and become the 6th grade, and when you reach the 5th grade, the number of subordinates increases.
So there are two
Co-worker stress and civil servant stress can be significantly reduced by having a higher rank.
Not just this one, but all the others as well.
The reason why anyone wants to rise higher in their field may be the desire for achievement by social status, but there will be a reduction in stress due to power accompanying it.
I didn’t know before doing it.
If I had known, I would have prepared for a higher place earlier.
Perhaps this could also be greed.
Until I got accepted, I really thought, please, if I just get accepted, this world will be my world, please, let’s get into it.
It was not to strike someone down, but to have a shield.
That, too, was Jieun’s idea.
Even if he isn’t, he’s the type of person who has a lot of worries, but with the added worry of being attacked by people, Jieun had her own set of difficulties.
Lately, my mind has been floating a bit, but I thought that I should try harder again like when I was preparing for the 9th grade exam.
As Jieun thought about those things, she became more hungry for alcohol.
But when I was about to open the door to the rooftop room, I suddenly had a thought.
It was according to what Hyeonju said.
Hyeon-joo said that he trudged back home with a lonely heart as if he had lost her lover after seeing him sleeping with Yoon-gyeong.
It came to her mind, and Ji-eun wondered what it would be like to see herself through her window.
I had no idea.
She just wanted to see Yoon-kyung and Jin-hyeok before entering the house.
And when she saw the inside of her rooftop room through her window, Ji-eun was startled.
‘Oh, my God…’
Through the tightly closed window on the side of the house, the curtain drawn over the window, and the gap between the middle of the curtain, Ji-eun witnessed Yoon-gyeong and Jin-hyeok driving.
Ji-eun was blank for a moment, and she looked at him.
Jin-hyeok was inserting the huge object he had been driving into Yoon-gyeong.
Yoon-kyung lies flat on the bed, naked.
Jinhyeok, who climbed on top of Yoon-kyung and fell on her, mercilessly massaged Yoon-kyung’s two breasts and sucked her neck.
Every time Jinhyeok’s lower body moved like a wave, it was inserted into Yoongyeong’s secret place.
Seeing this, Ji-eun spontaneously opened her mouth slightly.
She was too beautiful for her.
Jin-hyeok, a respectable man with a well-groomed muscular body, moves his body, and Yoon-kyung makes a cute distorted expression in pain from joy as the object on his lower body gets stuck in Yun-kyung… Even the two peaks of Yoon-gyeong’s huge upper body being crushed by Jin-hyeok’s hands…
