Chapter 83 – Heretic Saint, Forbidden Nun (16)
11. Heretic Saint, Forbidden Nun (16)
It’s dark. And I was alone.
‘As for the limbs?’
It moves. And it didn’t hurt.
‘What about Bestia?’
I can’t see it. I remember until the longest fear came up with the name of a skill called ‘Fear Manifestation’.
‘A manifestation of fear? It’s like a fucking second grade.’
It’s not like I, who gave the main character Hendrik the Terrorhunter the name… Fear bastard, maybe you’re the same as me?
It was a fucking stupid idea. Unbeknownst to me, I was thinking of fear as a human being.
[It is everywhere and nowhere, so it can be anything. There is nothing that can’t be a person.]
‘It’s a fucking surprise.’
[Usually, I lose my temper and go crazy before I can convey my thoughts like this. Even now, it is already half eaten.]
‘No matter how much the voyeurism-horror-phobic bird talks about it. Whisper a hundred times a thousand times from afar for the rest of your life. It works.’
[Number of priests and experienced warriors who thought you were great couldn’t stand it. Do you know that you are different?]
‘Not different. You don’t know that well either. Why. Scared?’
[Do typhoons scare humans? Are floods afraid of humans? Are earthquakes afraid of humans? Your question is like that.]
‘I think they want to say that they are a natural disaster class, but at least they don’t have the will. It is just a natural phenomenon, not an object of worship. I have to compare the fucking comparisons. You stupid bastard.’
[It is the same in that it cannot be avoided and cannot be overcome.]
‘I admit that humans can’t do anything with nature, but it’s not fear? Can you avoid it? Can I overcome it?’
[Do you think it’s the end just because you succeeded in resisting once? That was just the beginning.]
‘Are you saying that you didn’t show off your skills after being beaten? And. That bastard from earlier suddenly feels so fucking pitiful. Seriously worshiping this bastard.’
Okay. As long as there’s no such thing as pain, it’s not as difficult as opening your mouth. Don’t ignore the keyboard warriors.
‘If you have something to show, show it, if you have something to say, talk, and quickly turn it off, right? It was said to be a manifestation of fear, so it appeared grandiosely, but it seems that some old man smells like a old man.’
[It’s crazy. That’s why I’m mortal.]
‘What are you talking about? Someday, when I’m a mortal, I’ll be damned to accept the basic fear.’
No voice was heard for a while. I was proud. Well, it may not seem like a great achievement, but I managed to get one win.
‘… Uh?’
As always, change came suddenly.
‘What.’
When I closed my eyes and opened them, the world had changed. It was a prison called the house where I lived as a child. A familiar room size, a familiar floor, a familiar corner of a room, a familiar door.
I reflexively shrank and looked around.
Fuck-foot.
Trauma George.
‘A fantasy again?’
To say it was a fantasy, it felt different from the illusions I had seen in the passageways of the single road before. At that time, I still had the awareness that I was an observer of fantasy. I must say that it felt like watching a very realistic movie.
But now it was different. It was different from a nightmare.
Okay. I wondered if this would be the case with a very sophisticated VR game.
‘What kind of trick is this again! You still don’t know that this doesn’t work? Are you so incapable of learning?’
I felt like a frightened, barking dog. There was something inevitably shrinking just because this space protruded. I couldn’t stand this fucking feeling. I wanted to get out of this space right away. So I took a visit.
‘…’
It was such a common doorknob that you could grab it, lower it, and pull it. But it didn’t open.
‘Fuck… Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!’
No, it wasn’t that it wouldn’t open. My hands were shaking. The stigma that you shouldn’t open this door was deeply engraved in your body and mind. I thought it was erased, blurred, covered.
Even beyond time and space, the stigma was still holding me back.
‘Fuck nonsense. It’s ridiculous!’
It doesn’t make sense that I moved to that place at that time. I know it’s a lie But my body reacted. I was reacting to the presence on the other side of the door.
It was horror.
‘I? How many more decades have passed? The me who fell into the game out of nowhere and broke up with people? Are you just afraid of her?’
Head and body played separately. There was no such thing as an idiot. There was a sense of resistance. I was angry.
So, with force, I almost tore off the doorknob and opened the door.
“You…”
There, the first monster in my life, unchanged from then, was pointing a finger at me.
“Who told you to come out? Uh?”
“…”
“Aren’t you going to answer me?”
Now I was looking down at the monster that had made me feel so big and ferocious as a child. Is the top of the head at most about the collarbone or below the chin?
It’s so unexpected to see it this way, and when I’m at a loss for words over another kind of shit, the monster comes up to me and stabs me with his index finger for nothing.
When I was young, being stabbed in the chest hurt my body and mind, but now… It looked like it could be broken with a bit of force. It didn’t hurt at all. It may have been blunted.
“Han Yujin. Don’t you answer? Aren’t your words already the same as your mother’s words? Am I funny?”
‘Uh. It’s fucking funny.’
At this point, I really waved my hand at the timing when I wondered if I would throw a fight.
“Uh… ?”
I wasn’t who I was then. The first monster in my life was too weak. There was no reason to be right. After grabbing the wrist, the other hand brought the monster’s fingers into contact with the back of the hand.
“Aaaaa!!!”
‘It’s noisy.’
I grabbed my right hand and pulled out the screaming monster’s left hand. I did the same as my right hand in case my left hand would be upset. Twice the pain, rag your fingers. A good-looking decalcomani has been completed.
‘Than you think… It’s actually better than I thought.’
Rather, the moment I opened the door was much more terrifying. Like drinking ice water in the middle of winter, my mind became clearer. I wanted to say that if I thought that the first and longest fear I experienced was the greatest fear and had it ‘manifested’ in me, that would be a really big mistake.
“Uh, uh, how!!!”
‘I just need to hold my finger and push it with force. Be easy.’
It was an unlikely conversation. It was strange. The monster sees me and reacts and talks to me, but I still can’t speak.
I wanted to get out of this fucking place. It’s a horror Since it’s not fun, can’t we just stop the manifestation of fear? Ah. There’s such a thing as saving face, so should I pretend to be scared?
I rolled my head to break this phenomenon. In the meantime, I thought about the intention behind the appearance of this monster.
‘No way. Is defeating the thing that appeared in fear a condition of destruction?’
I looked down at the still sobbing monster. While both fingers were actively shouting for freedom of movement, I inadvertently kicked the monster in the back.
“Ah! Oops, aaagh!”
Once, twice, three times.
Even though I knew it was a lie, it was so real that I couldn’t stop the attack once started. My punches and kicks were directed exactly where I was usually hit.
In other words, it was the whole body except the face.
Biological parent?
No.
This woman was a monster.
If only this woman had been a little more daring. She said if this woman was a psychopath.
I must have died
A real mother who beats her child to death is not a real mother, but a monster.
Therefore, my actions now are extremely justified. As a hero against fear, the only thing left to do is defeat the monster that appeared in fear. There was no reason to delay.
It was not enough. It was frustrating. Something was lacking in taste. It was only then that I realized that this was the first time I had ever attacked a person in combat.
‘Ax… I’m much more familiar with the axe.’
Then, like a lie, an ax was clutched in his right hand. Originally, the atmosphere should have been broken here, but it made me feel better, as if someone was scratching an itch that I couldn’t reach.
“That, stop, stop…”
‘Did you ever quit when I asked you to stop? When I, who had never done anything wrong, asked for forgiveness because I did something wrong, did you ever hesitate even a little bit? If you’re going to say that being born is a sin, you’d rather have an abortion! Or maybe throw it away like an orphanage! Either that or just dump it in the street and leave it to rummage! Fuck vaguely bad!’
Fuhuaaaaak-!
“Quaaaaa!!!”
‘I’ll cut off those damn hands and feet. What has been painful for years, let’s get over it. What are you doing? There are still three places left.’
“Please please…”
‘Please? Ah. Do you want me to start with your feet, not your hands this time? That’s good.’
“Aaaaa!!! Please please… !”
‘Yes, yes. Because you don’t see I’ll make it symmetrical this time too. You’re bleeding, so stay still. Then I don’t know if I stray and kneel?’
“Please, come to your senses…”
‘The mind went out the fuck that way. I just…’
Uh?
“It’s not too late yet… Not yet…”
Uh?
The monster coughed up blood. I cut off my wrist and one of my ankles, but why is the blood from that side all gone and the upper body is stained with blood?
And why, the voice.
“Hen, Mr. Drick…”
Hen, Drick? I am Han Yujin.
Why did Cestia’s voice come from the monster’s mouth…
‘Cestia’s voice… ?’
Tangrang-!
The sound of an ax hitting the floor was deafening. It was never the sound of hitting the apartment floor.
And the woman with her upper body stained with blood lying on her face as if someone was covering her.
It was Cestia, not a monster.
“Cestia… ?”
“What a relief. Totally, it’s not too late… Whooping…”
[Horror Manifestation]
[The fear of — temporarily emitted through the Holy Maiden of Fear drives all the warriors crazy.]
[Shay Mentality –24]
[Kaya mentality -20]
[Eugene mentality -20]
[Sestia Mentality -20]
[All warriors are inflicted with a status ailment called ‘Mind and Physical Weakness’ (1 turn).]
[All warriors are inflicted with ‘Confusion’ (1 turn).]
[All warriors are inflicted with ‘Despair’ (1 turn).]
I ignored the message.
Leading her creaking body, I approached Sestia. Beneath her were Kaya and Shay…
[Confused Shay attacks Kaya.]
[Sestia blocks Kaya’s way.]
[Shay did 5 damage to Cestia.]
[Remaining HP 15/24]
[The shock of being attacked by her fellow colleague becomes a dagger in the hero’s heart.]
[Cestia mentality -10]
[Confused Eugene attacks Kaya.]
[Sestia blocks Kaya’s way.]
[Eugene did 8 damage to Cestia.]
[Remaining HP 7/24]
[The shock of being attacked by the same colleague becomes a dagger in the hero’s heart.]
[Cestia mentality -10]
The different scars deeply engraved on her back and abdomen and the messages clearly revealing the reasons overlapped with what I had done…
Haha… Haha!!!”
[Inescapable Horror]
“Ah! Everything you are feeling right now! That’s horror! It’s horror!! Do you know!!!”
[The High Priest of Terror, Findlier, dealt 2 damage to Shay.]
[Shay’s remaining HP 12/20]
[The High Priest of Terror, Findlier, inflicted 5 damage to Kaya.]
[Kaya remaining HP 6/16]
[The high priest of terror, Findlier, inflicted 4 damage to Eugene.]
[Eugene remaining health 9/17]
[The High Priest of Terror, Findlier, dealt 4 damage to Sestia.]
[Sestia remaining HP 3/24]
“No…”
[The fear emitted by the spirits who were ground alive cuts through not only the bodies of the warriors, but also their souls.]
[Shay Mentality – 19]
[Kaya Mentality – 16]
[Eugene Mentality – 13]
[Cestia Mentality – 13]
After falling here, for the first time in a real sense.
I felt pure ‘fear’.
