Chapter 40 – Loss, and Filling (2)
Redefine.
What is left for the man and woman who confirmed each other’s feelings?
If it’s in a positive direction, it means their union, and if it’s in a negative direction, it probably means their separation.
Looking at that aspect, what we have left is closer to the positive side.
Somewhere incomplete, but I believed that it was building up step by step.
So far.
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I felt like floating.
It’s not that I haven’t tried it, but it felt a little different from the previous ones.
If the first one was that of happiness, should we say that this time it is that of compensation for loss?
Maybe I was being tricked again knowingly.
It was a future that could be repeated, but humans always seek the comfort in front of their eyes.
Could I have been one of those people too?
Maybe it’s a predestined destruction, but now we leave each other’s bodies to each other.
After a long, long encounter, we were silently watching each other.
It was time to get back to reality.
It was a choice that may have been impulsive.
The reality that was to come could be cruel.
Accusation of having such a relationship with the teaching disciple.
Parents who can say that they seduced their daughter whom they trusted and entrusted to them.
All sorts of imaginary people were accusing me.
It was Miss Seria who pulled my hand away from those thoughts.
“You seem very worried.”
“It’s okay. I’ll do something.”
It was a strange situation for me to hear this from someone who would have eaten less than a few hundred times.
It was a very strange feeling where strange shame and strange reassurance coexisted.
“By the way,”
“What do you mean you won’t repeat what happened before?”
After hearing her words, something was embarrassing.
It seemed like I was saying something useless.
Where else in the world can I find such an uncool and gibberish confession?
She desperately showed her heart, but the answer was only this.
“Um…I’m sorry, Miss Seria.”
What to say ended up being an apology.
She was looking at me as if she was displeased.
“You’ve done everything you can, but calling is still the same?”
“I’ve done everything…”
It was a very good word to misunderstand.
She covered my mouth with her finger.
“Three. Lee. Ah.”
She nodded.
“So you have to do what you’ve been doing.”
She sat on her face for a while and didn’t do anything, and then said her words as if she was trying to come to her senses.
“You have to tutor, sir.”
“Or did you want to do something else?”
She was more like an adult than me.
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A few days ago, this was probably natural, but starting from today, she felt that something had changed.
He did not escape
She didn’t deny it, she accepted herself.
The moment she realized that her efforts so far were not meaningless, she was so happy that she would fly to the sky.
How hard was it for this day.
The first was quite difficult, but the second seemed to be easily solved.
‘So who asked me to look over mine?’
If Edward had heard of it, she was frightened and had done something that would cause her mind to collapse.
Fortunately, he couldn’t read minds.
It was clear that if he knew all of this, the present happiness would be gone.
Beside her, her own teacher was teaching herself diligently, but it didn’t really matter to her.
No one knew, but she already knew everything she needed to learn.
Even so, the reason for maintaining this tutoring will be known even if you do not speak.
When she started this tutoring, her words she said had become reality without anyone noticing.
To borrow the expression of her father, Hilbert, it was already complete.
It was she who had been studying all day, confined to her room during the period when he was not around.
Still, if he found out he knew everything, there was a good chance he would leave, but that too was a thing of the past.
Of course, there was no way Edward knew all this either.
In her mind was a plan she had been working on since the day of disgrace.
Phase one of the plan was roughly finished, and now it was time to move on to phase two.
If step 1 was to ‘clean’ the obstructions around him,
The second step was to change the current line of mind into a chain.
He needed a chain of mind to keep him from leaving even if he knew the whole truth.
Even so, if you leave, then up to step 3 to use a little ‘severe’ method.
Of course she didn’t want to do that to her teacher, so she was the one who wanted it to end in step 2 if possible.
She still had a lot of work to do on her own.
To dig into his heart little by little and keep him from looking elsewhere.
As I thought about this and that, I suddenly remembered the female I had most recently tried to ‘persuade’.
Fortunately, she was persuaded, but for some reason she remembered what it had said.
Maybe I lost my mind during the persuasion process, so I guess I was unconsciously saying nonsense.
‘Crazy bitch…’
How crazy is she?
She’s just being sincere with him.
Her madness was she who thought that it was madness to dare to cross her own.
It was she who stopped her thoughts for a moment and looked at the man next to her.
She was just like him asking if there was something she didn’t know if he was looking at her too.
I wanted to know more about your story, but I managed to hold it in.
Isn’t there still a lot of time given to them?
She said she was oblivious to the obscure parts that he couldn’t notice.
I liked how he explained things in detail but in an easy to understand way.
She had heard that he was a good student, but she had recently become good at it, and even to her, he was a different person.
That’s why his father must have been surprised to see the thesis.
Come to think of it, I was actually really lucky recently.
He was confused by the breakup, and in the end, his memory was partially damaged by the shock, so he didn’t feel a sense of discomfort.
Had he been sober, he would have known everything and left blaming himself.
Goosebumps ran through my body at the thought of the horrific possibilities I didn’t want to imagine.
I ask if he is cold.
Actually, it wasn’t very cold, but he said it was a bit cold because he liked the attention.
I hope this interest continues.
Right now, it’s just a relationship, but I couldn’t help but laugh like an idiot when I imagined a future that would lead to engagement and marriage.
And next to him he will tell the whole world that he is his and he is his.
To do that, I had the confidence to do anything.
Wasn’t he the one who made it possible for him to be himself?
Shouldn’t he himself have to repay him?
If you love
If the place he wanted to go was the end of hell, he would gladly follow.
Because I love you.
The only thing stopping her wild thoughts was herself.
This is because she put a restraint on her saying that she still has a lot to do in the part of governing the opposite sex.
Today was a happy day anyway, so I just had to be more careful and thorough from next time.
It was a day when the flowers that bloomed once bloomed even more splendidly.
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Toxic today, the time of 3 hours was considered short.
Was it because Seria was by her side?
It must have been a very emotional day.
It felt like Seria had somehow managed to hold on to my spirit, which was almost broken in the morning.
Now I don’t want to lose again.
The inevitable parting was unavoidable, but the parting that was not was a specification.
It felt like the doubts she had about her in her head had been lifted a little.
In fact, it was more like a delusion than an unfounded suspicion, but
At that time, if I didn’t even think about it, I made an excuse that it was inevitable because I was concentrated enough to consider any choice.
Even so, she can’t help but feel sorry for her.
Obviously I was wrong, so I was right.
One day I will tell the truth and ask for forgiveness.
Someday.
As I thought about it, the forgotten reality reared its head again.
The first question is, if this relationship is revealed, what should be explained to the head of the Feroz family, that is, Seria’s father?
The second problem is now a derivative of the first, but if you meet the objection,
What am I supposed to do
Happy, but realizing the complex reality, he goes back to his room.
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“It happened.”
She was recounting her progress over the years to her own collaborator, in other words her own father.
The reason he looked like Eul, despite all the money, places, and other things he offered, was because she was probably the surest way.
I wanted to suggest the surest way, but I also had an external reputation, and the most important thing was whether or not he would agree.
Of course, there was no way I couldn’t do it if I borrowed the power of drunkenness.
“Yeah…Seems to be going well.”
After answering that, he left.
