Chapter 17 – Seeds
Lunch hour.
It’s time for everyone to put down their work for a while and go eat their own meals.
At a restaurant near the school, we’ve been dating for two months now.
Edward Weiss and Heina Torlern were eating.
“What happened yesterday?”
It was Heina who noticed that Ed’s expression was not very good.
As if she hadn’t seen her for 10 years for no reason, she was the one who asked me to speak quickly.
“I met the head of the house yesterday.”
“At first, I just ignored it, but then I heard that I was graduating from the academy and attending college in the last semester.
He said he had no intention of working under him.”
“It can be, but when I actually experienced it, it was different again.”
“Is that why you cut it?”
“It didn’t cut.”
It is a very happy thing to be able to laugh and chat with the person you love.
While I was running looking forward, I was finally able to look to the side.
Why did I look around now?
The person I could spend the future with was right next to me.
When will I be able to look back?
Temporary happiness always comes and goes quietly.
I hope this happiness can last a long time.
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It seems like yesterday that the new moon started
A month has already passed.
She’s been busy with her graduate school
As Miss Seria’s midterms neared, I also
The days I couldn’t see gradually increased.
Of course, as much as I can’t see it, I spend the weekend a little more compressed.
It’s not that we don’t see each other on weekdays, but we have each other’s circumstances.
They are usually meeting after a long time since the night started.
She seems to be overdoing it. She says there is no need to overdo it.
He says he must meet.
How many people in the world do not feel love for such a lover?
No, do they exist?
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Fought
Did you say that love lasts for 3 months?
We couldn’t get out of that sentence either.
This wasn’t the first time I’d fought her
Fighting as lovers and fighting as friends were two completely different things.
It must have been because we thought of each other that we fought because our emotions were intensified.
There is a possibility that this relationship may not last forever.
Under the guise of loving, didn’t we paradoxically hurt each other?
Wounds will disappear, but scars will remain.
It was an obvious mistake on my part to say that we should break up in a fit of anger.
I think I should apologize.
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The midterm exam is over.
She has gotten better grades than expected.
Fortunately, I didn’t have two wishes granted.
Compared to the past, it has achieved remarkable growth.
“Did you do well on the test?”
I already knew the result, but out of courtesy, I decided to ask one more time.
“I think I saw it well thanks to the teacher.”
Someone expresses gratitude that things went well because of me
How many people would hate it?
Seeing her happy made me feel better too.
She looks at me with that happy face, but there’s something strange about her eyes.
It’s like…The feeling of looking at the leader in a pseudo-religion…
Something frightened me, so I decided to say something else.
“Ms. Seria? But I can’t stop teaching, so I’ll make progress.”
“Teacher.”
Why do those words feel so pressured today?
“You were supposed to call me by name.”
“Yes, Seria.”
“Please let go of the words. Something is awkward.”
It was logically correct, but there was still a social good.
I decided to do that only in a place where it was just the two of us.
Of course, the only place where there are only two of them will be right here.
Reputation is more important than you think.
Regardless of whether that reputation is based on truth or rumor,
It’s important to draw the right line if you don’t want to be influenced.
“Yes, Seria.”
Contrary to my worries, nothing has happened since then.
She seems to show me that she won’t cross the line
She didn’t do anything
On the first day, I felt ashamed for nothing because I thought I was overreacting on my own after hearing the wife of the householder.
Instead, she started telling me what had happened at her academy.
After getting better grades, the way you treat yourself has changed a bit.
There has been an increase in talking about or doing things that have happened.
It’s not that we’re talking about taking time out of tutoring, we’re just finishing it earlier than scheduled
I decided not to worry about it.
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Today, as always, I had just arrived at the restaurant to eat with Heina.
But today, there was one more.
“Hello teacher.”
Why is this voice heard here and now?
“Hello. Seria… Miss.”
For some reason, I felt like I had to add the amount.
“You decided to call me Seria, sir.”
“Is this the tutoring kid?”
It was Heina’s voice that was slightly sharp.
Did she get the feeling that she was disturbed?
“Uh.”
Obviously, the person I was dating was Heina, so she had to draw a line.
“Are you here to eat?”
“I’m sorry, sir. When we’re alone, you affectionately call me Seria.”
She was the one who added useless words.
“That’s right. But there are too many people, so there are no seats. Can I sit together?”
If you look at the situation without anything, it was correct to politely decline.
However, seeing the beauty standing next to the table instead of sitting down drew the attention of the people around her.
Started dragging
Hey I feel bad as if this situation doesn’t like her but
She couldn’t help but agree.
“Sit down please.”
“Then excuse me.”
Before her awkward silence settled in, she hit her head.
“Is this the lover you mentioned?”
“You’re right.”
She only said one word, “I’m stiff,” And soon she seemed like it didn’t matter.
They started asking about our relationship.
I wondered if he was such an active person.
When I glanced at Heina, she kept her mouth shut as if she didn’t want to say anything.
The questions continued until the meal was served.
How long has it been since we met
Who made the confession
The first time I saw him, he was a completely different person.
Still Heina didn’t say a word,
Seria noticed that she didn’t care, as if she wasn’t a person without Heina.
“So what do you like about the teacher?”
It was clearly a question aimed at Heina.
It was as if everything I had said earlier was an appetizer.
Hey I was silent for a moment, then she opened her mouth.
“Oh sorry, I’m a bit tired.”
It was a bonus that someone living somewhere wouldn’t let me sleep at night.
“Oh, I didn’t know that. I’m sorry.”
The atmosphere became increasingly stuffy.
There was nothing I could do.
What ended this atmosphere was the meal brought by the waiter.
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The atmosphere of the dining room, which should have been enjoyable, was destroyed.
There was no conversation until after the meal.
“See you next week, sir.”
After causing a storm, she disappeared.
Hey me and I stood still for a moment and then started moving her steps toward her room.
I felt like I had to say something.
“Sorry.”
The answer that came out of my mouth was sorry.
“I’ll tell you not to do that next time I see you.”
She was, in fact, Seria, who only said what she could say out of courtesy.
Heina didn’t seem to accept it that way.
“Ed.”
“Huh.”
“Hug me.”
It started to get dark, but the sun was still up and it was on the side of the street where a lot of people went, so it seemed like it would draw a lot of attention.
I decided not to care about that.
“Can we stop tutoring?”
She seemed to hate Seria.
At first, if you couldn’t quit easily just thinking of the professor who introduced you,
Now that the main source of income for college students whose only thing they know how to do is study, even that was ambiguous.
“I think it will be difficult.”
It was an unavoidable choice.
Studying was what I was good at, and the money came from that.
“I think I have to keep doing this and that and going around with you.”
“So please understand me a little bit. I won’t worry about you.”
Use reality as an excuse to force understanding.
Reality always forces you to choose against your heart.
“Sorry.”
The expression is not good.
It was an expression of understanding but not understanding.
“Let’s go.”
Neither of us said a word as we went to her room.
It wasn’t that I couldn’t think of anything to say.
I thought it would sound like an excuse, so I decided not to.
At the end of the walk, where only silence remained, there was her room.
“Ed.”
She called me
“Do not go today.”
She was holding my clothes tight as if she didn’t want to let go.
“Huh.”
“Let’s go in.”
Since the weather was cold, I decided to go inside.
Surprisingly, it was a simple room, a room where it would be difficult to distinguish the owner’s gender if you look at just a few.
It wasn’t the first time I came to the room, but it was very different from the last time I came.
Be it books or clothes.
“You can leave your clothes and luggage there.”
With that said, she went into the bathroom.
Why did she say that on the spot today?
On the face of it, these were seemingly harmless questions, but
Looking at Heina’s bad mood, there’s something I don’t know
It must have offended her.
I wonder if I stood there for a while, thinking of an answer that didn’t come out
She called me from behind.
“Ed.”
Looking back, she was wearing nothing.
“Do you love me?”
“Huh.”
Hearing her words, she grabbed me by the neck and pulled me in front of her.
It was a rough kiss, like a longing for love.
What made her anxious?
Pushed me towards her bed and knocked me over.
I could have resisted if I had resisted
It didn’t.
It seemed like it shouldn’t.
That night was somehow rough.
