Chapter 10 – Interlude: Heina’s Story
Back to the present
The two were still drinking.
Of course, it’s not as good as when they were in their 20s, when they were at their peak.
It would be safe to say that what they drank today was a fragment of their heyday.
If you are an average person, if you are a person with a very average amount of alcohol.
If this is enough, you can’t stand the drunkenness and fall asleep or have problems expressing your feelings.
If you are still able to have a conversation, your brain is no longer functioning well with the selective function of language.
And that fact was applying to them too.
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How many bottles did you drink? On one side of the table were many empty bottles.
It’s been a long time since I’ve already lost my thoughts about what I can say and what I should say with a little restraint.
And hey, I think she cares more about the fact that she’s a female student than the fact that I’m tutoring.
If you’ve just been talking about that.
“That’s not going to happen? Why is it like this today?”
I don’t know why he is doing this today. I’ve had a few occasions where I’ve been drinking and going out of my way.
It seems to be particularly severe today.
I guess I’ll have to finish it soon and go in.
At one point, Heina stretched out.
Rarely did she stretch. Unless it’s when the three of you are drinking, she’s the kind of girl who doesn’t go out of her way.
“Hey, wake up. Let’s go home.”
She is fully stretched.
Since the old days, cleanup has been my responsibility with a high probability, so I’m used to it.
“Check please.”
It was already closing time, so only the proprietress and one employee to help with the closing were left.
“Oh, it’s been a while. I haven’t seen you for 3 years, and then something happened.”
“I had some work, so I stayed in the East Coast for a while.”
The hostess didn’t ask for more, but she asked for something else.
“So how long have you been?”
“What?”
“He’s dating her girlfriend over there. They’ve been together for quite some time.”
“Ah… We’re not dating.”
The owner made a surprised expression and continued her words.
“I’m sorry for misunderstanding. It’s just that the woman over there has a slightly different atmosphere.”
“What’s different…?”
“It may be my determination, but I didn’t see it as a friend. When I first came a few years ago, I thought it was long
I feel like I’ve made up my mind today.”
When I was speechless, she spoke as if the owner needed to lighten her mood.
“I didn’t see it that way, so you were a bad boy? Whatever choice you make later, please make it clear.
Emotions will rot if they accumulate.”
With the words to enter carefully, she left her shop with her heina supported.
It was difficult for her to carry her, so she decided to carry her on her back.
It’s not the first time she’s carried it today, but after hearing that a while ago, her familiar behavior seemed strange.
The weight of another person behind my back seemed to represent my heart.
Crush? It wasn’t that there wasn’t.
Because she wasn’t the kind of person who would be ignored anywhere.
On an emotional day like today, it wasn’t something I didn’t think of.
It’s just that we were hit by each other’s lives and didn’t have time to express ourselves.
In a situation where it was difficult to conclude anything, I decided to think that it was just an illusion created by drunkenness.
Eventually she arrived at her room and woke her up.
“Did you sleep well?”
“Uh… I’m shaking inside. Where are you?”
“Your room.”
She was silent for a moment, then opened the door.
“Thank you…”
“Rest well. See you later.”
As she walked out of the building, she felt dizzy.
Even if you say you’re drunk today, if you’re serious about me later
What should I do?
Is the reaction coming now that I have devoted my life only to studying?
The hangover created more thoughts today and made people more restless.
It was a day that could not be easily concluded.
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Shortly after Edward Weiss left Heyna Torrelln’s room.
Heina, like Edward, had many thoughts.
Of course, happiness was holding the initiative in that thought.
“Hi-Hi”
Silly sounds came out of his mouth, but it didn’t matter.
It was a pleasure just to see him.
How many years have you had enough alcohol to make your nose crooked?
It was embarrassing when he suddenly took a leave of absence and went to sleep.
Because I wasn’t that kind of person.
So I wanted to ask where the hell I was and what I was doing today, but I decided to stop.
It wouldn’t be too late to return the sense of distance that had developed over the past three years to those days and then ask.
Instead, I heard he was taking private lessons recently, so I asked him about it.
To be honest, I don’t really care about tutoring, and I don’t have the confidence.
To her, he was gifted in that direction as well.
Didn’t her right now get her help.
So I asked about this and that, and when I found out that the student I was tutoring with was a female student, the taste of alcohol suddenly became bitter.
He was strict about things related to his studies, but it was something he didn’t know.
If it is said that this will never happen, why are novels with such themes published?
The heart of a woman in love broke Izzy like this.
So I tried to listen more closely. Even if you look at it strangely, you can make an excuse that you are drunk.
But he didn’t go into any more detail.
She seemed to be considerate of the girl, which made her feel sad.
The thought “Who has been watching for longer” Popped into her head, but she decided to skip it because she seemed to have a crush on that side of herself too.
However, he couldn’t help the thought mixed with hope and jealousy that only he wanted to know the feeling of being saved.
The anxiety that someone else might have had a similar experience and come to like him, as he did himself.
It was a kind of homophobia.
She was feeling a little dizzy and was leaning her head against her window.
Ed thought she was sleeping.
She tried to answer, but instinctively she decided to pretend to sleep.
Didn’t Ed take her home when she stretched out like this before?
She didn’t want to miss her little happiness.
As always, he went to checkout and she was sorry.
I decided to bet this time.
Just as I was thinking that I’d have to pay next time, I heard the store owner and Ed talking.
I felt better when I heard that we were dating. Do other people see it that way?
I was sorry to hear that he wasn’t like that. That statement is true, but it was a pity.
I was stunned to hear that my eyes have changed. It was as if a secret I didn’t want to be found out in front of so many people.
At the same time, she liked that the owner did what she had to say.
Her words after that were not heard by her.
As long as she was lost in her own thoughts, no matter what she said, she wouldn’t have heard.
She was helped out of her shop by him.
She was of average size, but she had bigger shoulders than anyone in the world to her.
Then he put her own bag on his back and carried her on his back.
In the past, she was just grateful, but now her happiness has been added to her gratitude.
In a completely different mood, she realized that this was her love.
‘The back is wide.’
She had been carried on her back a few times, but being aware of her own feelings and carrying her on her back was another matter.
His scent she had smelled several times.
If he knew, he would have asked what he was in charge of.
It didn’t matter that much to her now.
Regrets about opportunities you knew about but didn’t take.
Nevertheless, hope for the opportunity given again.
Those things were just more important to her.
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Her happy time has passed and now it’s time to let go of that happiness.
It’s a pity, but you have to send it here so you can feel the next happiness.
“Thank you…”
All I can say is thank you, you girl.
I hated the mouth that couldn’t be opened at the right time.
“Get some rest and see you next time.”
She might have said something formal to him, but even that was pleasing to her.
He then turned on his feet and headed for his room.
She was the one who realized again that her love makes a fool.
If someone knows this thought, they will say why don’t you confess your feelings if you have such anxiety.
If you don’t express your heart and don’t achieve it, isn’t it the end?
She knows too.
However, knowing and practicing are two different things.
If you accept my confession, it will be a happy day. If you are rejected, isn’t it that the relationship that was in the middle of the day is also broken.
Her insecurities were making her a coward.
She asks if it’s better to try than to disappear without even trying.
It was a situation where she didn’t think that way for her now.
Still, she wouldn’t go on like this.
Once the master’s course I’m doing this year is over, I’ll somehow convey my feelings to him.
It was her once let go, but to her real delight, her chance was given to her once more.
Her head was a jumble of all sorts of thoughts, but one thing was certain.
Today is a happy day
Chewing on her happiness, she fell into a blissful sleep.
Tragedy may have started from now.
