Chapter 10 – I Cried Because I Hated My Junior
In front of her nose was a face that could be called a truly magnificent male specimen, with a thick line on the bridge of her nose.
It’s neat, but in some ways it looks sharp, and it’s full of laughter, senior, now you have to teach me to study again. So I hurriedly put my head on the desk.
“Ah. Er, that’s right study. I have to study…”
“I don’t know where. What should I do.”
“Hey…”
I don’t know here. As he said that, he patted the back of my hand. And something, no, now I can’t pretend I didn’t know, so blatantly, so, my junior’s fingers ran down the back of my hand.
I was surprised and looked at my junior, but he was looking at the textbook as if he knew nothing.
So, the gaze is clearly looking forward, but when you use your fingers to pinch my hand, I feel itchy as if a feather has landed on the back of my hand, which is obviously just a minor contact. It’s only a single finger touch. I got all my attention on that part…
“I don’t even know here.”
“Huh… Sleep, wait a minute.”
“Huh? What?”
The juniors smiled as brightly as they did at first.
I hated that innocent face, as if I don’t know anything.
But even though I was a senior, I can’t do it? When I met her eyes, I was at a loss for words.
Is it so,
This is what I did to my juniors last night.
“Oh, no…”
When I shut my mouth like that, my junior said,
As if to brag about being quick to learn,
I started doing the same thing I did last night.
Touching the tips of the fingers, sweeping the back of the hand, gently scratching the bone protruding from the wrist…
I let go of yesterday’s anger to my heart’s content.
To say the least, it was very slow, and it was gentle enough that I wondered if I gave it strength…
For some reason, I felt more, something, something strange…
“Huh… Me, over there master.”
“Yes?”
“That, there, uhm, is something you already know.”
“So you won’t tell me?”
“…”
“Should I tell you?”
The flow of the conversation was strange.
I felt that the focus of what I was saying and what my juniors were saying was not right.
Let’s turn our confused sight and inadvertently look at the juniors,
Before I knew it, my junior was laughing mischievously.
No, you’re being teased. Now.
I suddenly came to my senses and tried to do my duty as a maid and private tutor.
Concentrate your mind and tell your juniors only to study so that they don’t get tired…
What comes to mind then is
It was my first promise.
If you take revenge on me for being angry at what I did, you will end up being the same human being as me.
Rather good It’s nothing like being touched by someone you really don’t like.
I smiled triumphantly and offered my hand as much as I could – hehe.
“… !”
“Sorry. I have nowhere to put my hands.”
Where did the idea of putting your hands on top of the tutor’s head come from?
And ssutdamsseudam, uhm, I hate it. I really hate it. I unconsciously closed my eyes, lifted my chin, and turned my head upward.
“It’s like a cat.”
“…”
Anyway, it’s like a beast. Such harsh words…
But I couldn’t argue.
Heh, with a relaxed face, he calmly accepts the gentle touch,
Even when I thought about it, I thought it was like an animal getting out of the sun.
But it’s not that I just don’t shake it because I feel good.
This is just… It’s just an act I can’t resist because I’m thirsty for someone’s praise and comfort.
Heh, hehe, it’s just because it’s the first time someone else has stroked my hair, right?
He was a very cunning guy who went after people’s weaknesses.
Even after that, the time to harass the maid under the guise of tutoring for her junior never ended.
I mean, in moderation, in moderation.
Maybe he’s studying, but he’s been close to me for over a few hours, grabbing my wrist, and yet he doesn’t touch me completely, just the tip, knock, knock, like that… No, it’s not like I want you to touch me…
Hey, this is embarrassing to say,
Actually, my body is on the sensitive side, no, it’s extremely sensitive…
I’m just messing around with my hands
To my real shame, I was impatient.
I hate you. I really hate it.
This situation where you are breathing heavily after being tormented by a person you hate to death,
I was really angry and even humiliated,
I ended up holding back tears along with a groaning sound.
At that sound, the juniors who kept their eyes only on textbooks looked at me…
I said so.
“Senior. Your face is red.”
You made this, son of a bitch.
I was wrong, but obviously I was wrong first, but I wish I had bothered you this much.
Is it so much fun to be touched by your hand and swallow your breath like a pervert?
But I couldn’t have said that.
I managed to squeeze the words of resentment that rose up to my throat,
I said
“That, eh, ah, are there any parts you still don’t know?”
“Hmm.”
“Master, you have a good head. I think I know everything now… Yes?”
“I think I know here, but… It’s full of things you don’t know yet.”
“That, you don’t have to know that part yet.”
What are you talking about with the back page of the textbook open? How.
My hand was very hot when I touched it.
I said it with the stupid thought that it might really burn if I touched it any longer.
“No more, yes? Because it’s still too early…”
“Hmm. Will you tell me next time?”
“… Yes. I’ll tell you more next time.”
“Maybe? It wasn’t long before I learned Because you’ll find out later.”
“…”
“No? Or more now…”
“Right, right, cha-cha, keep moving forward, slowly. Is it so. It’s because you know it slowly…”
Compared to me who is restless,
The juniors were still proud of their well-groomed appearance and atmosphere.
Judging by his appearance, I couldn’t believe he was the one who took advantage of this bizarre atmosphere to force me to say what I wanted to hear.
Evil, wicked person. As if it’s no longer interesting because you’ve read everything you’ve seen, or as if you don’t care anymore because yesterday’s revenge is over,
The junior’s hand mercilessly left.
I don’t even know And, although it is small, I threw away a mournful voice to the extent that anyone could see that it was regrettable.
With that sound, my junior smiled a little when he found my hand inadvertently being attached as if it were a magnet…
“Are you sorry?”
“…”
As if that smirk and words were a signal flare,
I am angry, madly angry and hateful,
I couldn’t hide my tears any longer.
“Senior?”
“… I hate you.”
“Uh?”
“Really, I hate you so much…”
I was overcome with emotions, and my true feelings leaked out without my knowledge.
The hot stuff even went down my cheeks, so I hurriedly lowered my head to cover my face.
“Uh? Uh? Uh?”
“Mmm, you arbitrarily touch the weak part. I really hate you.”
“… Are your fingers weak?”
“The fingers, the back of the hand, the wrist, and even stroking the head are all weak. Whoops. Touching a lot. As if he hadn’t done anything like that. I hate you…”
“… …”
I don’t know why I got so emotional.
It’s just that I hate my junior so much and my hands are so stupid, so I couldn’t control my emotions.
But first, before that, I had to apologize first.
“… Sorry.”
“Uh, uh, uh? Suddenly?”
“Oh, because I met you first. I did it first yesterday, getting angry and getting revenge. Because it worked so well, hehe, because I, I lost. Sorry. So please stop…”
“Am I mad? Plural? No, it’s not like that… ?”
But at this very point,
I felt the difference in height between me and my juniors once again.
Even though I show my ugly true heart like this, if I’m alone, I can’t take a step…
… No, no.
It’s not that it’s missing, it’s that it didn’t even come in in the first place.
Because the seed itself is different, because it’s a completely different world for him, because he doesn’t know how disgusting a person’s ugliness can be, he doesn’t know about such a bright and cool junior.
You don’t seem to understand, huh? Uh? The naive question that keeps resonating with me is detestable and hateful,
Why couldn’t I be born like that, what did I do wrong that I had to live to be made like this?
Knowing that it wasn’t the junior’s fault, I hated him to death and felt sorry for myself once again.
In the end, I burst into tears.
…
…
…
After a while.
In front of me, who squeezed out all the tears and runny nose, and whose face was a mess,
There was a junior who was kneeling down and apologizing over and over again.
“Sorry!”
The junior who said that looked like he was extremely flustered, so I was barely able to calm myself down.
“…”
“Mi, I’m sorry… ?”
“Sniff.”
“Oh, don’t cry any more. Senior. I’m sorry. I didn’t even know that…”
“Uh, what is that? Sniff.”
“Um, senpai’s hands are really weak?”
“… … After.”
“Oops, this isn’t it. No, I’m sorry. Senior. Not a single senior’s hand is weak. I’m not weak at all~ Senior Eve’s hands are really strong~”
“Aaaaa.”
“Sorry-?!”
Anyway, since I’ve come this far, I’m a little embarrassed.
In front of a junior younger than me, I see her snotting out tears because she touched her hand.
Tea, embarrassing. It’s incredibly embarrassing. What is this like? How…
So, at this point, I decided to forgive my junior.
No, no, of course I didn’t forget my first promise.
Forgiveness this time is limited to this case only.
“If you’re so sorry, please make me some pasta…”
“Yes?”
“Cool, I’m eating pasta and sipper.”
“… …”
“Pasta.”
“That, senior? Of course, it’s not that I don’t know how to make pasta, but I don’t have any ingredients at home right now.”
“No… ?”
“… Wait a minute. Stop crying do.”
“Du-wook…”
The junior staggered for a moment when he got up, probably because he had been on his knees for a long time.
Just like he did the other day, he ran out of the house with a thump-beating noise.
And not long ago,
I could eat delicious pasta for a late night snack and fall asleep.
