Chapter 125 – Friday, May 2nd 2 PM (3)
Soeurang: But it’s really like that.
Soeurang: I was excited alone and clung to my master
Soeurang: In the end, I wondered what to do if I fell down.
Soeurang: Honestly, it’s a bit scary… Lol
Me: Do you know that you don’t listen to me too?
Sourang: Why?
Me: I’m not saying I’m rebelling haha
Me: Saying the same thing over and over again
Me: I don’t think I’m listening
With Soeu: ?
Me: I wish I was going to lose my temper just because I was like that
Me: Why did you put so much time and effort into it?
Me: Do you think I am educating you?
Me: Would you do this to a girl you play with for a while?
Sourang: I don’t know
Me: I’m not such a leisurely person either.
Soeurang: I know.
Soeurang: For some reason, it seems that the owner is always reluctant.
Soeurang: I feel like I’m the only one begging
Me: why is that again haha
Soeurang: The decision to call me oppa
Soeurang: That’s what I asked you to do.
Me: No, if I really didn’t like it, I wouldn’t have allowed it.
Me: As I always say, I am a person with strong likes and dislikes.
Me: I hate what I hate, even if I die haha
Soeurang: Master, I know you’re that kind of person.
Sourang: Well
Soeurang: I just don’t know haha
Soeurang: It’s the first time I’ve ever had a conversation with a guy like this.
So Eurang: How far should I take it seriously?
Soeurang: To be honest, I can’t tell the difference… Lol
Me: I just want to accept it
Soeurang: Yes, you can’t cross the line.
Soeurang: Even the owner will be bothered
Me: But Seo Yoon-ah
Me: let me ask you something
Sourang: Bruises?
Me: Do you have any memories of being miserably dumped by a guy before?
Soeurang: What kind of man is a man haha
Soeurang: It’s the first time that I’ve talked to the owner properly.
Soeurang: I didn’t really know anyone.
Me: No, rather than just a lover
Me: Rather than that, doesn’t it usually talk about your father there?
Soeurang: I don’t even want to talk about my family
Soeurang: You know it when you see it in the first place
Sou: I don’t get along very well
Me: ok
Me: I won’t dig deep
Soeurang: haha
Sourang: But why is that?
Soeurang: Knowing that I’m a mortal
Me: There’s no particular reason
Me: For some reason, in each line
Me: Should I call it such an experience?
Me: I hope something like trauma comes out
Sourang: Well
Me: I thought I’d ask before
Me: Is it a bit like being abandoned?
Me: Losing hands?
Me: This is a bit strange
Me: anyway
Me: About the topic of breaking relationships
Me: They reacted very sensitively
Soeurang: Isn’t everyone like that?
Me: I have nothing to say
Soeurang: With the person I’ve been close with so far
Soeulang: One day, we suddenly lost contact
Soeurang: If you think we’ll never see each other again
Soeurang: It’s very scary… Lol
Soeurang: Is it just me?
Me: well
Sourang: Indeed
Soeurang: I don’t think the owner would care much.
Soeurang: Whoever loses hands haha
Me: No, it’s not that I don’t care
Me: Wouldn’t the reason be more important than who it was?
Me: Not to mention losing money because I was wrong
Me: Fighting with each other and becoming awkward isn’t common
Me: To cut ties with people
Me: You think there must be a reason for that?
Soeurang: What if I did something wrong?
Me: I have to apologize
Soeurang: Then what if the opponent did something wrong?
Me: Well, wouldn’t that depend on the situation?
Me: Even in mistakes, there are mistakes that cannot be forgiven
Me: There are mistakes you can tolerate to some extent
Sourang: That’s right
Sourang: But
Soeurang: I think the owner already knows haha
Soeurang: Should I say that I am subtly blind?
Soeurang: Once you get to know each other, you’re very biased, right?
Sourang: I don’t know if this is the right expression.
Soeulang: Anyway, I took a side very unilaterally
Soeurang: Even if you know that person did something wrong
Soeurang: I want to embrace you unconditionally
Me: It’s not coy, it’s fucking openly biased
Sourang: Right?
Me: I can understand just by looking at what you do to me.
Soeurang: Even the owner
Sourang: yes
Sourang: For me
Soeurang: Anyway, that’s why
Soeurang: haha
Me: Don’t you hate talking badly about people close to you?
Soeurang: yes
Me: First of all, I don’t like the situation itself
Me: Do you want to cover up whatever it is, regardless of whether it’s right or wrong?
Sourang: It was always like that
Soeurang: It’s correct this time too
With Soeu: haha
Me: Should I say that loyalty is strong?
Soeurang: Loyalty… I’m not sure
Soeurang: Anyway, that’s why
Soeurang: Deep down, I want my opponent to do the same to me.
Soeurang: Because of that, we talked a lot.
Soeulang: Mainly to the bad side… Lol
Me: That’s how people are
Soeurang: But people around me don’t seem to see it that way.
Soeurang: Of course, I know this side is wrong.
Soeurang: Don’t you have to protect your friend?
Sourang: Of course it should be.
Soeulang: Why are you arguing and driving me to be a strange person?
Soeurang: I really really really don’t know
Me: um
Soeurang: But the person who did the wrong thing
Soeurang: I went over with an apology.
Soeurang: Why do I keep hearing bad bitches?
Soeurang: Everyone treats me as a strange person
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Seriously, why do you keep looking only at me?
Me: Seo Yoon-ah?
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: okay, you can stop
Me: I roughly understood
Soeurang: Didn’t you want to hear it?
Me: I didn’t mean to ask.
Me: I don’t need to take it off.
Me: I know what happened
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: Master is always like that.
Soeurang: Since we talked about it first
Soeurang: If you don’t like it, you don’t have to
Sourang: I’m not really curious
Soeurang: What are you saying?
Me: If it’s fun to hear, I won’t say things like this
Me: But these things are uncomfortable with each other
Me: Even if I forcefully ask, I feel embarrassed
Me: You’ll feel bad just like you
Soeurang: Is it friendly or indifferent?
Soeurang: I don’t know if it’s annoying or not… ;;;
Me: Maybe three?
Soeurang: Personally, I wish I had pushed harder.
Me: I still write
Soeurang: The owner is just haha
Soeurang: Seeing me and saying that I am his woman
Soeurang: Only at times like this, be considerate and respectful
With Soeu: haha
Me: You should speak straight, Seo Yoon-ah
Me: When did I do that haha
Soeurang: You did it while doing something naughty this time
Me: I don’t really remember
Me: It probably didn’t mean what you think
Me: Couldn’t you have said you were my girl?
Me: I haven’t heard any answer yet haha
Me: I’m not the kind of person who brags like that.
Soeurang: Why are you so resolute only at times like this ㅠㅠ
Soeurang: The owner keeps saying that
Soeurang: It feels like your mouth is closed.
Me: Yeah well, let’s say it’s still then
Soeurang: I wish the owner had pushed harder.
Soeurang: You must have already been rubbing next to the owner.
Soeurang: I still need more preparation every day, so
Soeurang: I wonder if you have no interest in me.
Me: Didn’t you say that I wasn’t ready enough?
Soeurang: The owner can do it for me.
Me: haha
Me: yes
Me: that too
Soeurang: I want to be tamed by my master as soon as possible.
Soeurang: I keep needing to prepare something, so
Soeurang: I don’t know what to do now.
Me: how do you do what do you do
Me: I’m really happy if it’s good
Me: If you don’t like it, clearly express your opinion
Me: You can just do that in front of me
Me: I don’t want anything else haha
Soeurang: Because the owner keeps accepting it like that
Soeurang: Do you know that I feel more and more like a real pet?
Soeurang: I want to be loved more by my master
Soeurang: I hope you liked it haha
Soeurang: A little
Soeurang: That
Soeurang: Dirty things… Lol
Soeurang: I have to say that I’ve become quite interested in it recently.
Soeurang: I know I shouldn’t be like this.
Soeurang: When I’m with the owner, I only think of erotic things.
Soeulang: I’m looking forward to when the next play will be.
Soeurang: If you keep thinking about that
Me: yes
Soeurang: I feel like I can’t do it without my master
Me: Yeah well, it’s faster than I thought
Me: Guys like you are like that
Me: Should I say dependent?
Me: I’m looking for peace there
Soeurang: But that’s how scary it is.
Soeurang: If we go further from here
Soeurang: I wonder what will happen
Soeulang: I really don’t have the courage.
With Soeu: haha
Me: You don’t have to be brave
Me: I don’t even want that
Me: Just do what you do haha
Me: honestly
Me: Don’t tell lies
Me: If you want to do something dirty, beg for obscene things
Me: Then I’ll figure it out and make it cute
Me: That’s the most beautiful way for you
Soeurang: But I don’t know if the owner knows.
Soeurang: More and more, I’m not a human being.
Soeurang: Do you know that you are treating me like a puppy?
Soeurang: haha
Me: Was it always like that?
Sourang: No, that’s not it
Soeurang: Not a dog-like woman
Soeurang: Just a puppy haha
Soeulang : A dumb pet
Me: yes
Me: I always did
Soeurang: Didn’t I see you as a person?
With Soeu: haha
Me: You said you felt like a pet too
Me: If mutual understanding was in accord
Me: Can’t we skip the small things?
Sourang: That… By the way haha
Me: tell me if you don’t like it
Sourang: I don’t hate it
Sourang: By the way
Sourang: Well
Soeurang: It’s true that I want to serve you as my master
Soeurang: Being loved by the owner
Soeurang: Being happy is right, right?
Me: yes
Soeurang: But can it be like this… I want to
Soeurang: It’s a little bit, but I’m worried
With Soeu: haha
Soeurang: To be honest, these days
Soeurang: too
Soeurang: I think I’m falling for the owner
Soeurang: I wonder if it’s dangerous.
Me: hmm
Soeurang: I try not to think about it.
Me: no
It’s not me
Me: It’s better to keep thinking like that
Me: Whether the answer comes out or not
Me: So you know what the exact problem is
Soeurang: What do you think it is in the eyes of the owner?
Me you?
Soeurang: yes
Me: There may be a number of complex reasons.
Me: First of all, the biggest stem
Me: um
Me: It must be a sense of discord
Me: Anyway, this is normal… It’s a bit hard to say
Me: It’s not a normal, ordinary relationship, is it?
Sourang: What is that?
Me: But Seoyoon isn’t particularly open-minded.
Me: I think I’m rather conservative.
Me: To put it simply, you can say that you are fighting against reason and common sense.
Me: In my heart, I want to follow the master and receive affection
Me: You know in your head that it’s an emergency
Me: That’s why I keep putting the brakes on saying it’s always wrong
Sourang: That… It seems like
Me: That’s why we have to distinguish between daily life and play.
Me: clearly divided into on / off
Me: This is just a deviation
Me: I have to convince myself that my desires are satisfied.
Me: You think the switch is broken
Soeurang: Uh
Me: I meet friends and have a part-time job
Me: We go shopping together and chat at cafes
Me: I should have a healthy daily life like that
Me: Because I don’t have a life like that at all
Me: um
Me: You can think of a seesaw or a scale
Me: You are weighing on only one side right now
Me: So, of course, it will sit down endlessly, right?
Sourang: But it’s not that I don’t like it.
Soeurang: That’s why I’m more confused
Soeurang: What do I want to do?
Me: what do you want to do?
Sourang: At first
Soeurang: I like being together in a very simple way
Soeurang: Because the owner treats me kindly
Soeurang: I said I wanted to be tamed
Sourang: now
Sourang: Well
Me: Have you changed your mind?
Soeurang: Direction… I think this has changed
Me: explain
Sourang: That’s it
Soeurang: It’s true that I want to be tamed.
Soeurang: To the extent that it is similar to that
Soeurang: I want to serve the master
Me: You said you wanted to serve
Sourang: yes
Me: Yeah well, the heart is unique
Me: You don’t even know exactly what to do
Me: haha
Sourang: just
Sourang: Well
Soeurang: I want to please my master
Soeurang: As much as you love me
Sourang: No, that’s why
Soeurang: I’m not thinking of repaying you.
Soeurang: I just wish the owner smiled while looking at me
Soeurang: I know it sounds very cheeky haha
Soeurang: I want to do something for the owner
Me: nothing rude
Soeurang: Anyway, I can’t explain it well… Lol
Soeurang: Actually, if you’re going to be cute
Soeurang: It’s okay even if you’re not the owner.
Me: yes
Me: A lot of other guys
Soeurang: But more and more
Soeurang: I think it would be impossible if it wasn’t for the owner.
Soeurang: Because I’m starting to feel that way
Soeurang: I want to be raised by my master
Soeurang: I think so… ㅠㅠ
Me: Did you think about that all day yesterday?
Me: Are you more talkative than usual?
Soeurang: Something really strange
Soeurang: On the contrary, since I can’t meet you, I think of you more.
With Soeu: haha
Soeurang: So I thought a lot about this and that.
Soeurang: What do you want to do in the future?
Me: So that’s the conclusion?
Me: You want to be raised by me?
Soeurang: Yes, my master.
Me: haha
It’s me
Me: Yoona Seo
Me: do you know?
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Is it the same as if you already answered that?
Sourang: I know
Me: are you okay?
Soeurang: So this is the advance payment… With the same feeling haha
Me: What’s the player’s money?
Soeurang: To be honest, I still feel anxious.
Soeurang: I’m not sure if I’ll be able to do it properly.
Soeurang: But I don’t think I’ll change my mind.
Sourang: I’m telling you in advance
Me: I can’t do that haha
Me: I’m giving you time to change your mind
Soeurang: It will happen sooner or later, anyway.
Me: Now I’m completely sure
Soeurang: I think it will be difficult to get out of cancer alone
Soeurang: And I don’t really want to do that.
Soeurang: I was tied too tightly… Lol
Me: Is that enough?
Soeurang: The owner made it like this
Sourang: Why do you have to ask?
With Soeu: haha
Me: Check progress?
Soeurang: haha
Sourang: Honestly
Soeurang: I’m afraid that I won’t be able to do it later.
Soeurang: I want to block the escape route.
Soeurang: You won’t allow that, will you?
Me: yes
Me: of course not
Soeurang: That’s why I’m telling you now.
Soeurang: Just in case I change my mind haha
Soeurang: The owner knows too.
It’s me
Me: I think this rather blocked my retreat.
Me: haha
Me: I’ve heard this
Me: How come there are no other options
With Soeu: haha
Me: Yeah well, I got it for now
Me: But Seo Yoon-ah
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Seeing that you’re still thinking about it, you’re not sure, right?
Me: I wonder if it’s really okay
Me: I don’t know if I’m a person I can trust
Me: I’m scared of what will happen if I get a real assistant
Soeurang: No, it’s not that I don’t believe in Master.
Me: yes
Me: I understand what you mean
Me: Because this is physiological anxiety
Me: I have no idea what to say
Sourang: Yes…
Me: So what Seoyoon just said
B: For later contracts in writing
Me: I’ll remember it like a verbal promise
Soeurang: Do you have a contract?
Me: Didn’t I explain?
Soeurang: Slave contract… Are they the same?
