Chapter 31 – Episode 31. Yoon So-Young’s Story (1)
[Yoon So-young’s past perspective]
A few days after taking the CSAT, I told my dad.
“Dad. I am not going to college.”
There was no university or department that I was aiming for anyway.
I didn’t study hard, and I didn’t hang out with the kids in groups, I just lived my senior year of high school.
After finishing the college entrance exam, the idea of college completely disappeared.
“Okay! You don’t have to go to college. My daughter is so smart, she will do anything.”
‘I’m completely foolish, Dad.’
The expression on the father’s face comforting his daughter was somewhat lonely.
I quickly left the house and headed to the cafe where my aunt was.
It’s winter and it’s windy
I feel like I’m crying because of the hot wind.
Bread!
I’m almost at the cafe and I’m about to cross the crosswalk, but a car from afar whizzes by.
Crosswalks here are inconvenient because there are no traffic lights.
‘I came first. It’s too much for people to walk past me.’
I grumbled and entered the cafe.
“Is Soyoung here?”
My aunt, who was brewing coffee, welcomed me.
I am working part-time at a cafe run by my aunt after taking the college entrance exam.
“Sorry I’m late. I was talking to my dad.”
“Are you okay. There aren’t many guests anyway.”
It’s not lunchtime yet, so it’s a quiet cafe.
I took off the coat I was wearing and put on an apron for the cafe.
“I told my dad I wasn’t going to college.”
“Ah…”
My aunt was silent for a moment, then she just smiled.
“Good job. What is college like these days? You just have to find out what you want to do.”
“Huh. But all my friends are going to college. Dad seems a little disappointed too.”
“Are you okay! You’re still so young, so what? My aunt is going out for a while, so drink something warm.”
“Huh. Come on, aunt.”
I warmed up the milk with steam.
‘Coffee is too bitter.’
It’s still a baby’s taste, so milk is good.
A sip of warm milk melts even the depressed mood.
‘It’s morning, but there aren’t too many customers.’
My aunt’s cafe is mostly office workers, so it’s busy during lunchtime.
It’s mostly quiet in the morning hours.
Even now, a man in his early twenties was working on a laptop alone by the window, but there were no other customers.
‘Shall I make some whipped cream?’
As I was opening the refrigerator, a customer who was sitting there suddenly rushed outside.
‘What?’
At the place where the man ran, there was a grandfather who seemed to have trouble walking.
The man helped his grandfather and crossed the crosswalk together while stopping oncoming cars.
Looking out the window, I think I ran after seeing my grandfather who couldn’t cross the crosswalk.
After crossing completely, the man came back to the cafe and worked hard on his laptop as if nothing had happened.
‘Stylish…’
This is the day I first met my brother.
This is the day when the unrequited love of a high school girl who graduated from an all-girls middle school began.
* * *
After that day, the man didn’t show up at the cafe again.
The next time I came, I thought I would talk to him while taking out cookies as an excuse for service.
It’s not a frequent visitor, but I wonder if it’s just a once in a while.
‘I should have asked for your number.’
Regret it
It was only once, but the short and intense meeting continued to linger in my head.
I think of him all day long.
Even while traveling on the bus, the man’s face comes to mind the whole time.
He had a face that looked like a hedgehog, but the expression he smiled at his grandfather was really kind and cool.
I had to look at that expression.
Many people pass by through the window.
The same-aged guys who showed off their coolness just because the college entrance exam was over.
College student sister wearing heavy makeup and wearing a short skirt even in winter.
A man with a goofy face.
‘…A face like a Hogu?’
That’s the guy
Nonsense.
Apparently the man I saw at the cafe was walking alone across the street.
“Mr. Knight!! Get off me!”
The bus, which was about to leave with guests on board, stopped again at my shout.
As soon as the door opened I ran like crazy.
‘It’s about here. Where did you go? Please please…’
I looked around for a while.
Then, from afar, I see a face that looks like a tiger walking by.
‘Found!’
A man walked past me indifferently.
Of course you wouldn’t recognize me.
I’m sorry for some reason
I kept following him.
The man headed towards the main gate of the university.
‘Xx University? You were a college student You seem to be doing well in your studies.’
But isn’t it vacation now?
University students seem to have to go to school even during vacation.
I continued to follow the man.
I was wondering if I could go in even though I am not a student at this school, but since no one said anything, I guess it’s okay.
The man entered the building with the administrative office and asked the man who appeared to be a security guard.
“I want to apply for reinstatement, can I go in here?”
You are recovering.
I decided to ask for the number when the man comes back.
‘Will it take a while? Let’s go to the bathroom quickly!’
After a while.
I waited in front of the building for a long time, but the man did not come out.
Have you already left?
“Mister. Did the man who just entered here leave by any chance?”
“Ah. That hunk-looking student? He’s been gone for a while.”
No, what are you applying for?
End this soon?
While I went to the bathroom, the man disappeared again.
I looked around the school, but the man was nowhere to be seen.
‘Fool. I missed it again.’
Still, is it a harvest to find out even if you go to school?
I caught my spirit and looked around, and the scenery of the campus came into my eyes.
I felt strange.
Walking alone on campus, I felt like I was a college student.
The scenery of the university that I came across by chance strangely captured my heart.
I came home and told my dad.
“Dad. Can I try again?”
“Huh? Unlucky?”
“Uh. I want to go to college Sorry to change my words, but I want to go to college. If you ask me, I will work hard.”
Dad happily agreed, and that day I started studying for the CSAT again.
* * *
My own room that will be independent from today.
I got my father’s consent to independence.
I heard what the re-students were doing.
My dad passed on when he said that he was aiming for xx university and that he would be more motivated if he lived in front of the school.
Because I wanted to live alone after graduation from before.
I unpacked everything and cleaned up.
It’s a small studio, but I feel like a real adult when I’m lying alone.
Chiying.
An alarm sounds.
Time to go to work.
I also found a part-time job at a convenience store near my house.
Since it was not very busy, I immediately agreed to the working condition that I could study separately or read a book when I was alone.
The boss is a cute person with fluffy hair.
He seemed like a nice guy.
With my daughter
“Welcome.”
A guest has arrived.
I put down the book I was reading and looked at the guest.
“One Marlboro x Red.”
…Oh my god.
He is that guy
This really makes no sense.
How is this man in front of me now?
I feel his face heat up.
I tried to hide my emotions as much as possible, so I didn’t even look at the man and spoke expressionlessly.
“4,500 won.”
I guess I was too nervous.
His hands are shaking
I gave him a cigarette and then dropped it.
‘Ahhh… It’s really stupid.’
The man walked out of the store indifferently.
‘No! I have to ask for the number!’
I was going to run out, but I couldn’t because the next guest came in.
Unfortunately.
Will you come again tomorrow?
‘Please come again.’
Next day.
The man came back to buy cigarettes.
“One Marlboro x Red.”
Nice!
Seeing you come back, you must live nearby.
‘Then I’ll be able to see you often from now on, right?’
I still can’t make eye contact with men properly.
Still, I feel good in the hope that I will continue to see you in the future.
Took.
I missed a cigarette again.
The man’s expression is not good.
‘Uh… I didn’t throw it. What do we do.’
I’m shaking so I can’t speak.
I say strange things to lighten the mood somehow.
“What type is this? Are you seeing it for the first time?”
Try talking to a man with a phone that has a unique look.
Would you have hated talking to me all of a sudden?
Put on a puzzled expression
“Thermatophon? Ahahaha! What is it. Totally spoiled.”
It’s me who got burned.
At the words I threw out while looking at my eyes, the man was still expressionless.
I’m the only one with a forced smile.
‘I’m embarrassed…’
Why do you care so much about this man?
No matter how easy it is to fall in love.
Am I a gold digger?
No.
It was so intense for me from the first meeting.
And the coincidences keep overlapping like this.
Maybe it’s fate
After that day, I only thought of this man even more.
* * *
Dream
I was sucking the cock of the guy I liked.
The place of a man I’ve never seen before.
It looked like this.
It’s kind of creepy.
But why am I sucking on such disgusting things?
In any case, the man looks in a good mood.
The man I like looks satisfied with my actions.
I want to please a man more.
Does this make you feel good?
Use your tongue to suck harder on the object that enters your mouth.
Jjiik!
‘Ahh! What’s this!’
A thick, fishy-smelling liquid enters the mouth.
Guts come out
‘Ugh… I’m going to spit it out.’
But somehow I feel like I don’t want to spit it out.
It doesn’t matter because it’s a dream anyway.
I swallowed the white, cloudy liquid.
I awoke from my dream when I felt sick inside.
‘Wow… I had a very erotic dream.’
A woman’s moans can be heard from the next room.
Did you even bring her girlfriend?
It’s very noisy.
My room is not well soundproofed.
That noise has been going on for a few days.
‘That sound is what makes me have these dirty dreams. I’ll have to protest next time we meet.’
I just fell asleep again.
* * *
After part time work, I came back home.
I feel like my fatigue disappears when I turn the milk in the microwave and drink it warm.
Now I have to wash up and study.
Then something black and large passed quickly in front of my eyes.
“Mush!!”
That’s a bar teacher!
I was so surprised that I covered the bar teacher with the paper cup I was holding.
Instinctive movement.
Did I catch this?
Be proud of yourself
But maybe it’s good now.
I can’t afford to move that thing.
I called the landlord.
“Oh my! The female students must have been very surprised. If you go next door, there’s a man who looks good at catching cockroaches, so ask him! I’ll tell you.”
Next door
I was going to protest because of the moaning, but it just worked out.
When I pressed the doorbell, a man came out from next door.
…Isn’t that you?
‘!!!’
The guy I like is standing in front of me.
It’s really nonsense.
If coincidences continue to overlap like this, I have no choice but to believe in destiny.
My heart feels like it’s going to fall out.
Did I come out too roughly?
Wouldn’t it be funny?
I hid my expression as much as possible and spoke with courage.
“Get rid of the bugs in my room.”
The man, in a bad mood, closed the door and tried to enter.
Oh my gosh.
I feel like bursting into tears.
If I go in like that, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to speak to her again.
Let’s be brave.
I grabbed his arm.
I looked at him holding back the tears that seemed like they would come out any moment.
The man sighed and looked at me and said.
“Ha… Guide me then.”
The uneasy mind is relieved by his words.
For the first time, I smiled broadly in front of this man.
“Yes! Thank you. Really.”
