Chapter 176 – Chapter 176
The autumn night air already had a chilly aura.
A chill that makes the body shiver slightly.
It was obviously a change that occurred because the weather got a little bit colder as the seasons went by, but Do-gyun looked at the city far away, thinking that another reason it was cold was that he had come up to such a high place.
The night view of Seoul seen from the Namsan Tower and over the fence felt like a meticulously painted oil painting, with its tiny halos.
If you just stare at it, you’ll feel like you’re losing your mind.
A light that draws people in.
Do-gyun let out a long breath, recalling the idea that the night view of Seoul is such a light.
Hu-wook-. A clouded breath followed the exhaled breath.
Do-gyun blankly looked at the breath, then moved his gaze to the left and looked at Eun-byeol, who was taking pictures of the night view with ‘click’ and ‘click’ next to him.
“So, are you here to take pictures?”
“Yes? Oh, no.”
Kick kick. Eunbyeol smiled and turned her head toward Dokyun and spat out those words.
“Namsan Tower is the perfect date course, right? It’s the best of the best, but I think it’s right to come at least once.”
It was a bright smile.
Eunbyeol looked at Dokyun with a smile on her face, then moved her gaze again to capture the night view in her retina.
“It’s pretty, it’s really pretty.”
“Yes. Would it be a tourist attraction for nothing?”
“Aren’t you too lacking in sensitivity? I just admired it, so it’s worth bringing it.”
“I am admiring it. It’s not showing off.”
Food. A laugh escaped Dokyun’s mouth.
It’s a date When Eunbyul went out, he always dragged himself out saying such things.
“Did Eunbyeol want to be in a relationship?”
“Yes?”
“I just want to be like that. The other four personalities each had their own daily life, so I think Eunbyul is like that too.”
Eunbyeol looked at Dokyun blinking his eyes, then put the smart phone he had been holding up until the day before into his pocket and let out a drool.
“Um…”
What should I say about this?
Even though Do-kyun’s answer matched the truth, there was something slightly different about it, so Eun-byeol remembered her worries.
“Similar, but slightly different.”
“What do you mean?”
“I don’t want to be in a relationship, I want to know who I am in a relationship.”
Eunbyeol’s eyes turned to Dokyun. Seeing Do-gyun tilting her head while looking at her, Eun-byeol giggled and added her words.
“I am the person who is in love with someone that Eun-ah of those days imagined.”
Like everyone else, she grew up like common people who can be seen everywhere, the figure of Eun-ah loving someone.
She imagined it was herself.
“Actually, that’s why I have no regrets. Eun-ah already loves you, right? Because she no longer has to imagine loving someone. The moment you met Eun-ah, my lingering feelings ended.”
Do-gyun felt embarrassed at the words being handed over and looked away from Eun-byeol.
“… Are you okay with that?”
“Yes, I am satisfied. In fact, what was left was just because I wanted to play a little longer.”
Eunbyeol slightly frowned at the sudden wind, and then continued her words as she lightly brushed her hair.
“Originally, when Silver Sam went, she was going to go right away. I thought what else he would do without me, so I just blocked him and then went… Something is missing.”
Could that have been the problem?
“So I’m going to stay a little longer. I had to wait until the next time, until the next time, and I kept putting it off, so I came all the way here, right?”
Is that why I feel so sad?
“This is why I have to leave when people clap, but I’ve been around too long.”
Eunbyeol exhaled, ‘Puh-.’ Then, she raised her head toward the sky and continued.
“I really have to go now. Even if you have no regrets So, is it really a big deal?”
Shit. Eunbyul smiled after finishing his words.
What was reflected in Eunbyul’s field of vision, who turned her head again, was Dokyun, who had an uncharacteristically serious face.
Eunbyeol wondered if Dokyun, a idiot, would eventually cry again. Recalling that thought for no reason, he added his words in a cheerful tone.
“So, raise your eyebrows. For you, a smiling face is your charm point.”
“Who is that?”
“I.”
Puch. A laugh escaped Dokyun’s mouth.
“Thank you too.”
“Nothing.”
Saying that, Eunbyul closed his eyes and exhaled.
*
Looking back, it was.
A personality that was not born for a great reason like other personalities, but was born from a fleeting delusion.
Since that was me, I had no serious concerns or considerations.
I had no regrets that forced me or memories that made me suffer, so I could say that I was more free than any other person.
Even the only limitation of loving someone was part of the pieces that made up me in the end, so I wasn’t as hard as other personalities, and I was sorry to have fun alone.
Was it like that? Among the personalities, I had a desire to bully Eun-sam, who was particularly suffering, and because of that, I felt sorry for the child because of it, so I cared more.
The lingering lingering that I, who was not suffering alone, walked out on my own, that was Eunsam.
Please decorate the end with a smile, the lingering feelings that I walked away hoping for so fortunately were resolved because of you, and that unfunny guy went on like me until the end.
I had no regrets.
… I would have.
“Thank you.”
Why am I so sad
“What?”
“Just everything. Things Eunbyeol helped. You comforted me when I was digging for no reason, or cared about Eun-ah. Something like that.”
“If you’re grateful, be nice to Eun-ah.”
“Listen.”
Why do you hate to go like this?
I turned my head and looked at the person who was disturbing me like this.
Continuing to think about it, I tried to think of the cause of this feeling.
After that, the answer came out so easily that I laughed out loud.
‘Ah…’
I was under the illusion that I was free.
There is no regret that makes me It was such an illusion.
Being loved by someone. To truly achieve that, I needed someone to love me. If I receive love, I will become the loved one.
Yes, I wanted to feel loved by someone.
That is me
Even though the love you showed me wasn’t the love towards me, it reached me to some extent, so the pieces of that love were so sweet that it must be such a pity.
Food. Laughter broke out.
‘… It’s not good.’
It shouldn’t be like this. Why is my heart shaking so much?
I took a deep breath, stretched my arms outstretched, and turned to face Do-gyun.
“Babe.”
“Yeah.”
“How was I? Wasn’t it bothersome or distasteful?”
I’d rather be annoyed, I’d rather say that.
Because of you, the stress wasn’t the only one. If you say that, I think I can disappear like this even if it hurts my pride.
“Well, that was fun. Was Eunbyeol usually unusual?”
When I said this with a smile, my heart was pounding.
I held my breath for a moment, calmed my turbulent stomach, and then drew a smile on my face.
“I’m glad.”
It was bad.
‘Cause you’re so kind to the end Wouldn’t a selfish kid like me try to lean on it again?
Shall we stay a little longer?
Isn’t that what you’re trying to say?
If I say that, you who are weak will say so again.
I will use those words as a refuge and stay parasitic on this body, Sewol and Newol.
‘I can’t.’
That’s not okay.
I had to leave now for the sake of you who are so kind, and for Eun-ah, who is still in pain.
I lived so much fun, I had to stop giving this pleasure back to the owner.
Hand stretched out
My hand overlapped yours.
“What is it?”
“Handshake.”
I clasped my hands together and laughed.
“It’s Go Eun-byeol’s handshake.”
Saying that, the you at the end of my gaze was crying again.
“Really… The Marine Corps is, after all, a public good.”
“… That is demeaning to the public interest.”
“What’s wrong, no one’s listening.”
“You know how grateful I am. I will keep it a special secret.”
“Thank you so much.”
The hand we held was too warm.
Like jumping into a pit of fire.
It was that warm.
“Babe.”
“Yeah.”
“I have a favor.”
“Tell me.”
I said a little playfully, feeling the heat filling my stomach.
“Say I love you.”
Even if he refused, he said it as humorously as possible so that it could be said that it was a joke.
How are you going to react
Looking at Do-gyun for a long time with that thought, Do-gyun shuddered in surprise.
I don’t want to either
I feel like I’m going to have a good time, so let’s slightly bite our lips.
“… I love you.”
You spoke so sweetly until the end.
Thud. And I felt my heart sink.
“… Next to Eun-ah.”
In the meantime, take care of your conscience…
Feeling overwhelmed for some reason, feeling like I couldn’t stop laughing for some reason, I tightened my clasped hands tighter.
“It’s a flirt.”
“Even if you do, what will you say?”
“Thanks.”
The eyes at the end of his gaze were filled with tears. I was about to cry again.
I don’t want to see a face like that, but I still like a smiling face at the end.
He stuck his head forward.
Side.
And a short kiss followed.
I greeted you with a bright face as I saw you fluttering in surprise.
“Hi.”
End with this.
Because I did this much. That was enough.
