Chapter 111 – Chapter 111
The intertwined little fingers fell off, and Eun-seol let out a deep sigh and glared at Do-gyun and spat out the words.
“Now stop talking.”
Flinch.
Do-gyun’s body shrank at the cold gaze that pierced me.
“Sorry…”
When Do-gyun glanced at me, Eun-seol sighed and continued.
“Done. In other words, Go Eun-ah’s delusion began to take a more serious form and the problem became serious.”
“Are you talking about more?”
“Yes, because it was an incomprehensible action from Seo Han-kyung’s point of view.”
Eun-seol, who had emptied her glass before she knew it, refilled it and continued.
“The little boy who chased me all day suddenly crosses my hand. Then again, when I’m working, I stare at it with lifeless eyes. It’s scary if you don’t know.”
Lifeless eyes. I must have been referring to silver ginseng, but it was far from the silver ginseng that Do-gyun knew, so I felt a sense of separation.
The eunsam I knew had the image of a work foreman on the Nogada board.
“The more the manuscript progressed, the worse it got. In addition to the psychological pressure, there was not a single call from the original family even while it was such a hit.”
After saying that, Eun-seol took a sip of her drink and, absentmindedly, waved her glass before continuing.
“In hindsight, it was a natural thing at the time. Don’t you know At that time, the market for genre fiction was not big enough to sweep money.”
“Yes.”
Do-gyun nodded his head and answered Eun-seol’s words.
As Eun-seol said, the genre novel market grew in earnest after the spread of smartphones and the growth of the web novel market.
The same goes for the book [The Rusty Sword and the Grave of the Hummingbird], Which was considered a masterpiece among readers at the time, but if you asked if it was worth the money, that was not the case.
It was the same from an artistic point of view. This is not much different now, but fantasy novels at that time had a stronger subculture awareness than now, so few people approached them from a literary aspect.
“Kids these days don’t know. It’s an annual work, and since the writer dies and can’t promise the next one, it’s not released in the web novel market.”
In a word, it was not a book that received public recognition.
“Yeah, everyone knew that. So everyone knew it wasn’t recognized. Seo Han-kyung is the only one who doesn’t know that.”
A mocking laugh escaped from Eun-seol’s mouth.
“You will go crazy. Now the moment has come when you have to admit it even if you don’t like it.”
“Are you admitting it?”
“He said he had failed. It’s time to admit it.”
When Do-gyun saw Eun-seol laughing while leaning back on her sofa, he could feel how much she hated Seo Han-kyung.
Eun-seol, who had never shown hatred for anyone, showed bottomless hatred only for Seo Han-kyung.
“Even though I continued writing ugly, even though I stole my daughter’s story, I failed in the end.”
After finishing her words, Eun-seol drank the remaining alcohol in her glass and spoke next.
“Only one last volume of the novel was left. Seo Han-kyung thought. The moment this is over. That my failures will be exposed in detail. There are no more excuses left.”
Do-gyun listened to the words while remaining silent.
It was because I was somewhat anticipating what she would say next.
“So I hung her. Seo Han-kyung’s pride wouldn’t allow it to admit that.”
Kwak-.
Fist clenched. A story you know. A writer who committed suicide leaving one last volume behind.
“I ended my life with nothing but pride.”
“… Barely.”
“Yeah, barely. That was just the reason.”
Barely self-esteem. For that reason, I broke the young Eun-ah.
Do-gyun thought that my expression would be very stern now. It was because I couldn’t manage my facial expressions.
No one I know abuses children for that reason. For that reason, don’t ruin the child’s life.
As expected, from Do-gyun’s point of view, Seo Han-kyung was evil.
“… What happened after that?”
“Go Eun-ah found it.”
At the words he heard, Do-gyun felt his insides heat up.
“I don’t know what Go Eun-ah felt when she saw that. It’s a memory buried very deep in Go Eun-ah’s heart, so I can’t see it either.”
It was natural. If that happened, no one other than himself would be able to understand his feelings.
“That’s all I know. Go Eun-ah found it and had been looking at Seo Han-gyeong hanging from the ceiling there for three days. And from then on, Go Eun-ah’s world was completely closed.”
“Three days…”
“Because Seo Han-gyeong was not a woman with a wide range of human relationships. When it comes to meeting her, she is a woman who ends up with a man she meets at a bar and spends the night with.”
A low, subdued voice. After spitting out those words, Eun-seol took a long breath in and spoke again.
“Three days later, an employee of the publishing house who came to receive the manuscript found Seo Han-kyung and Ko Eun-ah. After that, the accident investigation began.”
Do-gyun emptied the full glass at once as he heard those words. Feeling his throat burn. It was because of that feeling that the whole inside was turned upside down.
“At her funeral, Go Eun-ah and a few attendants from her grandfather were the only ones who kept their place. All of the mourners were pitiful servants struggling in my grandfather’s eyes.”
The unpleasant feeling of burning my throat did not go away, so I drank again.
“When Go Eun-ah saw that, she realized it. She knows that she is really alone. She knows that now she has no one left for her. She knows that now she has no one to love her.”
“… Eun Ji.”
“Yeah, that’s when Eunji was created.”
On the day Do-gyun went to the amusement park, he remembered Eun-ji, who was sitting in his corner and shedding tears by herself.
As soon as the little boy saw me, I remembered the first thing he said.
Where did you go?
I just remembered those words, and I felt sick to my stomach.
“Since then… Well, nothing to say My grandfather’s attendants came to my house once in a while, made food for me and cleaned the house, and I lived like that.”
Do-kyun thought that he skipped over a lot of things.
Lived like that
The time I lived like that would have been a time that could never be roughly described.
Do-gyun’s face was filled with soreness. A heavy breath escaped from his mouth.
Eun-seol looked at him, took a small breath, and let out the words.
“I wasn’t locked in at all. Because my grandfather did the bare minimum.”
“… Action?”
Action, not reap. When he let out a laugh once again at saying such a word, Eun-seol nodded his head and continued.
“Later, I took measures to the extent that my daily life was possible. However, Go Eun-ah couldn’t follow that, so we shared external activities. In terms of schools, Eun-sam went to elementary school, and I went to middle school. High school… Eunbyeol was gone.”
Words that go on and on.
Do-gyun, who was listening to him, realized that there was a story that hadn’t been told so far and spit out a question to Eun-seol.
“When did Eunbyeol come into existence?”
The story of Eunbyeol never came out. Let him speak to such a question.
“I do not know.”
That answer came out.
“I don’t know, Eunbyul is a personality that suddenly appeared one day. It was more independent than other personalities, so I couldn’t figure it out. He didn’t even tell me that.”
When Do-gyun tilted his head at Eun-seol’s answer, Eun-seol shrugged and added an explanation.
“It wasn’t just Eunbyul, there was a personality that often came out that way. Now, the goeunchae has all been eaten.”
“Ah.”
The day he first met Eun-seol, he definitely remembered hearing those words.
Ko Eun-chae had already eaten 4 personalities.
“Well, there was a very rare time when Go Eun-ah went out for external activities. Maybe something else happened at that time and came out.”
It was a non-trivial remark, but it was a word that Do-gyun could not ignore.
Even after that childhood, it was a life that was so difficult that I had to split myself up like that.
After Eun-seol’s words, a short silence ensued. It was because Do-gyun had to catch his breath for a while and organize his thoughts.
While the sound of the drink flowing down the glass could be heard little by little, Eun-seol spat out again.
“… Until I knew you, it was.”
Do-kyun’s eyes turned to Eun-seol at the words he heard.
At the end of her gaze, Eun-seol looked at Do-gyun and then at her cup. Soon, he pursed his lips, trying to say something.
Actions that show hesitation.
Do-gyun looked at him and wondered why she was so hesitant about what she was trying to say, but soon she realized him.
“… I was instead of Hankyung Seo.”
Flinch-.
Eun-seol’s hand, which was pouring the drink, stopped, and a few drops of alcohol splattered on the table.
“If you write a story and get praised for it, you can go back to the moment when Eun-ah was the happiest. Because I can be happy, I chose me to replace Seo Han-kyung. Is that correct?”
Clearly, I’ve heard that.
He really didn’t want to, he wanted to stop. He said he liked being complimented and he wrote every day.
All the pieces came together. The truth, which had seldom shown itself in the past, was facing me in the form I was worried about.
He was a substitute for Seo Han-gyeong.
Realizing this, he asked Eun-seol a question, and Eun-seol kept his mouth shut and nodded slowly, very slowly.
“… Yes.”
When Do-gyun saw Eun-seol spitting out an answer with a face full of apologetics, he felt a chuckle break out.
A face showing an apologetic expression to the point of wondering if he was the person who had been making such an annoyed expression while talking about Seo Han-kyung until just before.
Feeling that it was somehow ridiculous, I let out a laugh, and Eun-seol saw it and raised a question.
Dokyun looked at him and spoke in a calm tone.
“I am okay. Roughly expected. I was also determined.”
“… Sorry.”
“What else is there to be sorry about, Eun-seol? Seo Han-kyung was bad. And.”
Do-gyun stretched her back, giving her a clue, and said so with all her heart that it would be nice if she didn’t feel sorry anymore.
“Alternatives are fine. Then we can start from there.”
It’s okay to say this, because there were people who cheered me on.
In addition, even if it was a substitute, it was because I was sure that all the affection Eun-ah had shown me was not a lie.
“What if it has already gotten better? I have to accept it. Wouldn’t the one you like more lose?”
Words spoken with a slightly playful tone. Do-gyun opened his eyes wide at the words I said and saw Eun-seol looking at him, and laughed again at the thought that came to his mind.
One day, she saw Eun-ah and thought she was an easy woman.
‘Easy…’
Aren’t you the one who’s really easy? Being enchanted at that moment and throwing me here and there, where else could there be a guy as easy as this?
When Do-gyun burst into laughter at the thought that came to his mind, Eun-seol, who followed suit, spoke in a low voice.
“… Sick.”
“You’re talking harshly.”
“You bastard.”
The swear words heard once again at the grunting words. When Do-gyun made a ‘yeah’ sound, Eun-seol, who saw him, sighed and drank once more.
“A real asshole.”
