## Chapter 11 – 11. Return
#11. Return
The human mind is more fragile than one thinks.
Even if it seems sturdy, it often crumbles due to a very trivial trigger, and at that moment, one is forced to choose between two options.
Becoming a shut-in, or depending on something.
It seems that overseas, people often depend on drugs made from the blood and flesh of monsters, but in Korea, where such things are hard to come by, it’s common to depend on things like games, the internet, or religion.
The earlier stage is still relatively better. With proper counseling and medication, one can recover quickly.
But if the mind becomes ill and festers again, things get complicated.
“Hyun-woo, you won’t leave me behind, will you? Right?”
“…”
[13:24]
‘I need to go soon, though?’
Even someone who lacks awareness will become perceptive when their life is in danger.
Survival instinct is usually like that.
Iris, holding my wrists tightly with both hands and looking up at me quietly, was insanely beautiful.
Since the height difference between Iris and me was about one head, I naturally ended up looking down at her.
Perhaps thanks to that, even though she was wearing a dress with little exposure, the valley of her mammatong, clearly visible, was driving me crazy. If I stayed like this, I felt like my lower body would get excited and cause a setting collapse by bringing a mortar into this other world.
Of course, even though it was troublesome, it was definitely a situation that any man would laugh at. However, my back was soaked with cold sweat.
My instincts had been screaming at me to run away from here since a while ago.
‘…This is driving me nuts.’
I repeat, I am a mage.
Although I’m just a measly 1st Circle mage, thanks to that, I can feel the mana of nature and the magic power of others.
In other words, it also meant that I had awakened what people commonly call the sixth sense.
Being able to feel what ordinary people can’t meant that I was no longer an ordinary person, and to put it nicely, if I went back to Earth and continued to grow like this, I could seize wealth and fame that others couldn’t obtain even with a lifetime of effort.
However, if you ask if this is all good, I can say NO! definitively in the current situation.
The distance between Iris and me was close enough that I didn’t even need to reach out.
Thanks to that, I could admire and experience her incredibly beautiful face, touch her chest, and even smell her fragrant scent from a VIP seat, but conversely, Iris’s magic power, which I had been feeling since a while ago, was ominous.
Iris’s magic power was fluctuating like an active volcano about to erupt at any moment.
It was fluctuating so strongly that my skin, which was close to her, was tingling as if needles were pricking it, and the afterglow of the magic power flowing out was making my brain ache.
‘That’s her magic power suppressed…?’
It’s really out of the blue, but it’s time to review what I learned earlier.
Basically, a mage accepts the mana of nature, goes through a self-conversion process, and converts it into magic power.
The magic power converted in that way gathers in the heart, which is like a fuel tank, and becomes the fuel for using magic.
Perhaps because of the special nature of gathering in the heart, magic power is quite directly affected by the mage’s emotions.
Sadness, regret, hatred, resentment, self-blame, jealousy, anger.
The stronger the negative emotions, the stronger the magic power fluctuates.
Just as a sea with strong waves is more threatening than a calm lake, there is a merit that the output of magic power becomes stronger as negative emotions become stronger, but since there are problems of rapid magic power consumption and the risk of the opponent deciphering the magic, mages take it as the basis of the basics to maintain an unwavering mind at all times.
This was something Iris had emphasized several times during class.
“Hyun-woo, what are you thinking about?”
Iris was dangerous right now.
It meant that an 8th Circle Archmage was so immersed in negative emotions that she had forgotten the basics of the basics.
In a situation like this, it wouldn’t be strange if anything happened.
“Nothing in particular…”
“Liar, your voice subtly drops when you’re in trouble or want to avoid the subject.”
Her green eyes, shining as clearly as if a light were turned on even in the dark cave, turned to me.
Her gaze swept from head to toe, as if my mind was being completely exposed.
Then, Iris’s left hand brushed past my cheek.
“Just like now.”
My feelings right now were very concise and simple.
‘…I think I’m going to shit myself.’
If I were an ordinary person, I wouldn’t be trembling like this right now. At most, my legs would be shaking a little?
All of this was because of the mana circle, which allowed me to feel magic power.
To me, who can feel magic power, Iris right now was like an 8-ton truck with a broken engine.
It meant that I didn’t know when she would crash into me.
Of course, Iris wouldn’t take such drastic action, but… you never know in this world.
‘This, I’m sure she’s misunderstanding something…’
It was a problem that could be solved with a proper explanation.
I don’t know what she’s misunderstanding, but her condition has been getting worse since I said I was going back, so I think I’m probably right.
It’s definitely a difficult situation right now, but if you think about it the other way around?
It can be interpreted that Iris doesn’t like the situation of me going back.
‘…I shouldn’t laugh.’
The corners of my mouth keep trying to go up.
Still, if I laughed in a serious situation like this, the atmosphere could really go to hell.
Even if I’m oblivious, I had that much awareness.
“Iris, that’s not it—”
“It’s okay, you don’t have to say anything.”
I had decided to explain the situation properly and break this thin ice, but what came back was a slender index finger pressing down on my lips.
“I understand. Hyun-woo also has his own life, and I can’t just be stubborn.”
At that moment, the magic power that had been fluctuating in her body became as calm as if it had fallen asleep.
“Instead.”
Iris came closer, pushing her face, which was flushed red and looked like it would burst at any moment.
“…Kiss me.”
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According to a post I saw on a community site a while ago, the first kiss feels like hot pollack roe entering.
To be honest, my impression was that I didn’t understand what they were talking about at all.
Hot pollack roe? I’ve never even eaten regular pollack roe, let alone hot pollack roe.
The metaphor was so strange that it seemed like it was written by a science nerd.
The reason why I’m suddenly thinking about this is.
“…”
It’s because I think I’m going to have that first kiss.
Iris, with her face flushed red as if it would burst at any moment, closing her eyes tightly and sticking out her lips towards me, comes into view.
I don’t like repeating myself, but this is real.
‘She’s so pretty…’
When I was in high school, there was a guy in my class who was so obsessed with idols that he skipped classes to follow them to concerts, autograph sessions, and even their schedules.
At the time, I thought he was crazy, but now I think I understand a little.
I guarantee that no ordinary idol can dare to stand next to Iris.
Just like a slightly pretty squid doesn’t become a fairy just by standing next to one.
“Will you…?”
There was no particular answer, but not avoiding it was enough of an answer.
‘…Just a moment.’
Haa, haa. After secretly checking if I had bad breath, I was relieved to find that I didn’t.
Just when I thought everything was ready, another worry suddenly crossed my mind.
‘…But how far is this allowed?’
First of all, I know for sure that you can’t just go for a deep kiss like in porn.
Then, the most basic bird kiss?
But considering that Iris had even allowed me to touch her chest, wouldn’t a bird kiss be too childish for us?
No, solving a more fundamental question was the priority.
Is it okay to put my tongue in, or not?
‘Iris asked me to kiss her first, so wouldn’t it be okay to put my tongue in?’
That thought was dominant, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that a woman’s heart isn’t that simple.
Just like there’s a saying that ‘a word can make all the difference,’ there’s a saying that you should never blindly believe and follow a woman’s words and actions.
‘…Let’s not take risks.’
It’s a shame, but let’s not ruin things by being impatient.
Because time is on my side anyway.
Rather, if I suddenly put my tongue in and started sucking, there seemed to be no answer other than an ending where I would have to drown myself in the water.
“Hoo…”
Twitch! Iris reacted excessively to the sigh I let out slightly due to nervousness.
As you can tell from her flushed face, Iris was incredibly nervous.
Iris, who seemed to be about 170cm tall, was shorter than me, who was about 190cm tall, so I had to bend my waist slightly to match her eye level.
I could see Iris biting her lip at the lowered eye level.
‘Her eyelashes… are really long.’
Thump, thump, thump.
That’s strange.
I’m sure my heart didn’t beat this wildly even when I touched Iris’s chest.
Right now, it was pounding so hard that it wouldn’t be strange if my mana circle burst out at any moment.
As our distance became close enough for each other’s breaths to touch, I carefully grabbed her chin with my hand.
Soon, I felt like my nose was going to be paralyzed by the fragrant scent coming from her, and at the same time, I.
*Chu.*
Lost my mind.
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“Sluurp, smooch, haa… Hyun, Hyun-woo…”
Red flesh intertwines.
Sticky saliva that hasn’t been fully swallowed stretches out like a thread and then breaks.
It was like a honeypot that didn’t dry up even when swallowed greedily.
It was actually sweet.
I felt like my head was foggy, as if it was filled with mist.
The trivial worries from earlier had long been forgotten.
Squeeze!
“Haa…?! Hyun, Hyun-woo??”
When I grabbed her butt, Iris seemed to be surprised with a shrill voice.
But she didn’t shake my hand off.
“…Smooch.”
Her focusing on the kiss again without any particular restraint felt like tacit consent to me.
Even while mixing tongues mindlessly, my hands didn’t know how to rest, and they were groping and teasing her buttocks. Her firm and soft butt was really big.
It was impossible to grab with one hand, and the skin beyond the thin dress was very stimulating, just like when I touched her chest.
“Heua, heung, euup…”
As time passed, my touch became more and more unrestrained.
Not only did I simply grope her butt, but I also stroked her waist like a lover, or intentionally gathered the area commonly called the underbutt to feel the jelly-like, bouncy texture.
Every time that happened, Iris would twitch, but she still didn’t stop me. Rather, she would stick to me more tightly, as if asking me to do more.
Then, suddenly, I became greedy.
No matter how thin it is, wouldn’t it be much softer and more pleasant to touch bare skin directly than to touch it over clothes?
The 고민 was short, and the action was quick.
While stroking her thighs, I slowly stroked up the dress as well.
The dress, which had been blocking exposure, rolled up, and starting with the exposure of her snow-white ankles, her shins, knees, and fair thighs appeared to the world.
“Hyun, Hyun-woo, that’s…”
Iris, who seemed like she would stay still no matter what I did, called me with a slightly trembling voice.
I understood. Her dress had already become like a miniskirt.
If I went up a little further from here, the entrance to the secret garden that a woman should never show to anyone would be revealed.
‘Tch… is this the end?’
It was a shame, but I felt a little bad about forcing someone who said they didn’t like it.
No, I would have just pushed it with another woman, but Iris’s innocent eyes stimulated the triangle of my conscience, which had already been worn out.
Perhaps because of Iris’s voice that caught me, I felt the atmosphere, which had been hot, cool down.
It wasn’t just me, Iris’s expression reminded me of that.
“I’m… sorry…”
“No, it’s okay!”
I bowed my head briefly.
Just like when I touched her chest, I suddenly went for a deep kiss and even touched her butt as I pleased.
It was a clear mistake.
“…Please raise your head. I really don’t mind at all.”
Her forgiving me generously for my mistake even made me feel a strange déjà vu.
As I was making eye contact with the kind Iris, my lower body, which had been swollen to the point of pain since a while ago, started to throb.
“Then can I touch you again?”
“N, not now…!”
Tch, what a waste.
Still, the fact that she said not now means that she’ll allow it later, so can I see it as a somewhat positive reaction?
Just when I was lost in a delusional fantasy of joy, I suddenly remembered the time limit and hurriedly took out my phone.
[00:03]
“Ah.”
[00:02]
I’m sure I didn’t do anything other than kiss and a little skinship, but I ended up burning more than 10 minutes with that.
[00:01]
“In, instead, next time, I’ll g, g… go all the w…!”
[00:00]
[Returning to Earth]
Just like the power of the monitor, which had been showing a colorful screen, was cut off, the moment the timer reached 0 seconds, I was back in my room.
“…I didn’t say goodbye.”
I’ll be able to see her again soon, but I was still a little sad that I didn’t say goodbye properly.
