Chapter 342 – 342. Destiny (7)
“… “He’s not coming.”
“Not even receiving calls?”
“Uh.”
In just a little while, midnight will come.
I can’t contact them.
I sent several messages to Hinami and Seo Ji-ah, but there was no response.
She would have done so if she had told me that it would be difficult to come to her secretly, but since there is no news at all, I feel anxious for no reason.
They must have all gone back to their hotel rooms a while ago, and it’s not like they’re being watched by anyone.
“Isn’t there something wrong? Even if you can’t come, there’s no reason you can’t contact me.”
“I think so, but there has to be a way to confirm.”
I knew which room they were each staying in.
However, I was reluctant to go to the room myself.
When they come to this room, Ha-eun can open the door, but when I go there, they have to open the door themselves.
Because they were too famous to simply say it was paranoia.
… In the first place, I was so tired of worrying about this that I wanted to go far away right away.
“I’ll wait a little longer and if you don’t hear from me, I’ll come and see you.”
“… Yes.”
“Don’t worry too much. Well, I guess we’re having a meeting because of tomorrow’s schedule. Or maybe I fell asleep because I was so tired.”
“Uh.”
It was so unpleasant that I couldn’t stand up for them.
If someone was using physical violence, I would have stopped them with force.
No matter how grandly I promised to be a shield or to be scolded in return, I felt helpless to the point of despair because there was nothing I could do with my own hands.
… To be honest, it sucks that I have to worry about what other people think even after I got to this point.
I even briefly imagined that if I just threw away my cell phone, it wouldn’t be okay to ignore those stares.
Funny enough, I only realized once again that if I didn’t have this cell phone, I couldn’t even contact them.
“… Save your face. On the contrary, if something serious had happened, they would have contacted us.”
“… Okay.”
I am,
Do you want to enjoy the public’s attention?
… Or do you want to be forgotten by the public?
When I interacted with them, the violent nature of wanting to look down on others boiled over,
When we couldn’t meet each other so easily, I sometimes wanted to be forgotten.
No matter what kind of criticism I received on the Internet, I wasn’t impressed,
It felt terrible to think that they would be looked upon coldly in real life as well.
It didn’t matter how I was treated.
Thinking that my children would hear bad things, I couldn’t calm down at all.
… Even that would be my karma.
**
On the way back to the hotel after the schedule,
I was kidnapped by the director in the parking lot.
… A very grim expression.
Like,
It was similar to the face I saw the last time a drug scandal broke out.
“Hey, do you fucking have a brain or not?”
“… “I’m sorry.”
After sending the manager away, the director put us in his car, took us to a reasonably dark place, and dragged us out.
… Yes, yesterday, where we had a relationship with him, he showed us a picture.
A photo of a woman wearing a hat tightly running into a man’s house.
The opponent…, He seemed to be a handsome baseball player.
… Of course, the house in the photo was not Kang Joo-hyuk’s home.
Since he lives in the same building as me, we don’t have to wear hats.
Fortunately, another member’s photo.
Unfortunately, there was no way to make an excuse.
“Your eldest sister became like that not long ago. Can’t you control yourself a little? Are you crazy?”
“…”
“Did you just decide to leave because the no-dating clause was omitted in the contract? You told me so faithfully not to get caught. But what if this happens as soon as I return?”
“… “I’m sorry.”
“I really want to kill them all…”
The director, whose patience had been shattered since last time, no longer hid his anger and started screaming in front of us, who had changed from a group of five to a group of four.
However, the sister who received all that anger only apologized with her mouth and did not look particularly sorry.
… That’s because he was dating a man and didn’t want to be criticized in the same way if a scandal broke out, so it was the director who caught him because of the circumstances.
Of course, I’m not saying she was good at anything, but I understood her emotionally.
… I am in a similar situation-
No,
It’s a much more serious condition.
Likewise, the director could understand.
You probably want to kill them all.
The products you worked so hard to save are losing their value when they break down on their own.
“… How the fuck, I’ll try to prevent the news from breaking until this year. Please be careful. Huh?”
“…”
“Not just you. You guys too. Huh?”
“Yes?”
“Yes, you, fuck. Hinami. You. You’re meeting a guy too. No?”
“Oh, that’s…”
“… Don’t get caught. Please.”
Although it was impossible to determine for sure how much the director, who was very knowledgeable, knew, he never seemed to know everything.
If he had known all the facts, he would have done whatever it took to kick us out right away when we said we were going to leave.
… Because Hinami and I were dangerous bombs that even made her drug scandal ‘at best’.
It’s probably a guess based on experience.
There’s no way a girl like Hinami wouldn’t meet a guy, well, that’s the feeling.
I guess that’s why you don’t have to scold me.
It’s me, if it weren’t for Kang Joo-hyuk, he would never have met a man.
“… I’m tired of being angry, so let’s act professionally. You guys whined so much that I reduced your contract. Is it that difficult to just work hard for one year and call it a day? Do you think you were the only ones who tried? “How many people do you think worked hard to get you here?”
“…”
“Please… Please, let’s end things neatly. Aren’t you embarrassed by the fans who support you?”
“… “I’m sorry.”
The director’s voice telling us not to embarrass the fans with his appealing voice did not really touch my heart.
… My fan?
As soon as Seoyoung’s sister’s scandal broke, the fan started to criticize her and cut her off?
Or the fan who wrote a strange novel with me and Hinami Lez as a couple?
Or a fan who takes pictures of my fancam and jerks off while looking at my cleavage and thighs?
Of course… I don’t think that’s a bad thing.
… It’s just that you are the one who ripped off money from those so-called fans by doing all sorts of tricks.
Bring girls with good voices and pretty faces,
It must have been the director who put on makeup, put on a wig, created a personality that didn’t exist before, created a song just by picking a tone, and committed both legal and illegal nonsense in the name of marketing.
Is it more shameful for an idol to meet a man than that?
I don’t know anymore.
Where does the line go?
“… Get back on. Let’s talk about the rest tomorrow, then everyone goes in and sleep right away. “Don’t mess up your schedule.”
“”””Yes.””””
If loving is a sin, is it okay because I don’t love him?
If being in a relationship is a sin, is it okay if she just enjoys a romantic relationship with her boyfriend?
Maybe the job of being an idol itself is a sin.
It’s a job where you lie that you love people who can never return your love.
It was definitely a dream I longed for when I was young,
… Now I couldn’t figure out what was what.
Probably him too,
I can’t give you the answer to this much.
Just,
It just lets you lean on it.
**
“… Slowly, I confirmed—”
Burrr.
As soon as the hour, second, and minute hands all pointed to 12 o’clock, the cell phone, which had not responded, started shaking.
A short sentence, ‘Please open.’
Ha-eun, who was trying to visit on her own, took a peek at my cell phone, took off the outer clothes she was wearing, and approached the door wearing a tank top.
“… Why are you so late?”
“Sorry, sister.”
“You’ve waited a long time. Oh, what about Hinami?”
“… Behind me.”
“…”
The look of these girls looking downcast.
… Even though I wasn’t sure what happened, I could guess.
Even the fact that you probably don’t want to say that.
“Sit down first. … “We were tired of waiting, so we washed first, so you should wash too.”
“Yes.”
“…”
Ha-eun put them in her bathroom, which smelled slightly of sweat, and she came back to me where she was sitting on the bed, rested her thighs, and let out a long sigh.
“… Hinami, isn’t he caught? “You don’t look good.”
“If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have come here.”
“Well, if he was really caught, he would have been imprisoned like last time.”
“That’s a bit…” I don’t want to imagine.”
“… Yeah, I don’t like that either.”
… I didn’t want to imagine what the consequences would be if things really escalated.
If I were at their agency, it would have been obvious without me having to think about what kind of ‘decision’ I would ‘force’.
Because I could clearly see what kind of criticism I would receive if I refused.
Even so…,
I wanted to hug them.
Because I am the one who eliminated all corners for them to lean on.
… Now, if it’s not me, there’s no one else to lean on.
“But, is it okay to do it with Hinami? Still early days―”
“Of course not. … I’ll just give you a hug. “For a while.”
“… “What about Yeeun?”
“He…, Because I’m not even sure yet.”
Even though I couldn’t be a shield, I wanted to be a tree.
I wanted to understand what I was hearing, even if I didn’t have to say it.
Anyway, this twisted and broken relationship,
Because no one understands but us.
… The only people who can pet each other are,
There was only one another.
