Chapter 341 – 341. Destiny (6)
In my life, I have heard various things about the complexity of relationships with women, but I have never heard that they are unfaithful.
That’s because she chose a job where she couldn’t survive unless she struggled.
Of course, I gave up baseball, but there was no way the habits I had built up over half a lifetime would disappear.
So, I decided that although I might not be a good person for the rest of my life, I would never be as irresponsible as an irresponsible man.
But…,
To be honest, the working hours were very burdensome.
… I felt sorry for each minute and second that passed by.
My body was too weak to take responsibility for both work and love.
More than anything,
They kept tempting me with their sweet voices, asking me to choose this side.
No matter how hard I searched, I couldn’t find a good reason to reject that temptation.
“… You sing well. Yeeun.”
A university festival where Hinami and Seo Ji-ah shine.
But the person next to me was not an idol, but my housemate.
Well, it goes without saying that I am not a producer, a sound manager, or a manager.
“Yeah, but isn’t that lip-syncing?”
“Even taking that into account. … The tone is perfect. I also have the same genes, so why can’t I call it that?”
“What… Instead, you play the guitar well.”
“If you learn that, you can play at that level. What…, Now I’m not so jealous.”
Even though it was my first date outside with Ha-eun in a long time, it didn’t feel particularly romantic.
It would be true if watching your sister-in-law perform could be called a date.
Still, I didn’t see any dissatisfaction on Ha-eun’s face.
… Her boyfriend said he was going to quit his job, but instead of saying anything, she just smiled and was happy.
“Actually, there’s nothing special about coming all the way here just to see my brother’s face. “Isn’t it enough to sing one or two more songs?”
“Because they weren’t the only ones who called.”
“But. “Are those people with cameras over there going to leave their seats when they come down?”
“Maybe? “I heard they were all rappers and people like that.”
“There were all kinds of talk about it being a failure or something. Looks like it’s still popular.”
“Well, just because one person leaves, it doesn’t ruin it that much. Normal.”
“… What if two more people leave here?”
“That…, I don’t even know.”
Even as she and Ha-eun chatted about various things, her mind was complicated.
It was also important to find someone to sell the gym to.
I had to think about where I would take them on a trip.
Because her relationship required attention no matter what she did, she didn’t want to be a burden anymore.
Right away, there were a lot of cameras trying to film them at a university festival that wasn’t that great.
I couldn’t leave him to deal with it here.
… To be honest, I couldn’t handle it either.
“… Anyway, maybe it’s because it’s fall, but the clothes look pretty good. “If you look at what they wear in the summer, it looks really slutty.”
“It’s cold these days if you wear shorts.”
“… “I’m wearing shorts?”
“You’re wearing stockings.”
“Do you not understand what they are saying, or are you pretending not to understand?”
“… Ah. “I’m sorry.”
He was so overloaded that he didn’t even notice Ha-eun stroking his forearm.
Still, she was able to hold on for as long as she could, but even after the girls were full, she didn’t think she would be able to hold on at all.
Even if you feel more comfortable physically than you are now, you will be several times more tired mentally.
Moreover, the thing that was the most burdensome was.
“Calm down. … Don’t just make mistakes out there.”
“… Okay.”
… I couldn’t even reveal it to anyone.
They are probably several times more desperate and in a pinch than I am.
I couldn’t possibly show it.
Because it was so obvious that the moment I collapsed, everything would fall to pieces.
So I had to hold on, and so far it was worth holding on.
“Does this make you feel better?”
“… Uh. “A lot.”
… Because I had a companion who would wrap his arms around me no matter what happened.
To say that I can’t eat because I’m tired and tired…,
Honestly, I was being treated too undeservedly.
So I didn’t want to collapse even more.
The moment it collapses,
Because everything I’ve done so far will seem so foolish.
**
An incredibly expensive hotel room.
There is only one reason to stay here, which is not that far from home.
… For Joo Hyuk.
To invite someone.
I managed to find a room at the hotel where my brother and his friend were staying.
Breaking into their room is a good idea, but…,
Anyway, it’s a bit weird to fit four people in a single room instead of two.
… The probability of being caught is too high.
“This hotel is really nice. Wow, the bathtub here is also huge. Joo-hyuk, can we swim here?”
“I paid that money to come in, so it should be like this.”
I tried to cheer up the mood by making a lot of fuss, but my master didn’t seem particularly excited.
… If you think about the person coming soon, they will understand if you jump around on the bed.
Well, from Joo-hyuk’s perspective, he’s probably gotten used to it.
Besides, I am no longer in a position to simply enjoy it.
It’s no wonder my shoulders feel heavy.
“Stop drooping your tired eyes and come first. “I’ll massage your shoulders.”
“Thank you.”
While massaging my stiff shoulders, I look at the clock ticking on the wall.
I didn’t set an appointment time, but what is certain is that it was a bit of an anxious time to come.
Anyway, I have to come secretly.
So until they came, I had to deal with him alone.
… Besides the sexual meaning.
In many ways.
“Is it cool?”
“Uh. It’s very cool.”
“… Are you comfortable?”
“… Yes.”
“There is a slight delay in the answer. “It’s really comfortable, right?”
“It’s very comfortable and nice. The bed is also soft and fluffy.”
“What about my heart?”
“… It’s also fluffy.”
When I heard that they were going to close the gym, I was honestly so happy.
Anyway, I made more money by posting short videos and a few photos, and they didn’t even have anything to say.
When I think back on how much I had to stay home alone because of work, I almost wanted to buy her a cake.
However, I also knew why Joo-hyuk had been running that gym for so long.
… It must have been because the moment the master relied on us financially, his own prestige was hurt.
“… If I quit my job, I will be able to sleep on this soft pillow forever. Right?”
But I couldn’t afford to worry about that kind of pride anymore.
On the outside, Joo-hyuk seems like a very well-planned and thorough person, but…, It’s actually a little different.
The style of committing something first and fixing it somehow.
His strength is that he has a tremendous sense of responsibility, so he can really fix things somehow, but to put it the other way, it means that he is trying to stop something that cannot be fixed.
It’s still like that right now.
… Does it make sense to get two idols pregnant, hide it all, and still work calmly and diligently?
In the meantime, he’s trying to get me pregnant.
It was very funny to see him try to deal with something he couldn’t handle,
That’s probably why I fell in love with him.
The same goes for them.
“Sleeping with a pillow isn’t a good idea, let’s sleep with a hug.”
“That’s still happening every night anyway… No. Yes, I hug and sleep every day.”
But I had something different from them.
I have been by his side all along,
I have been watching him pretend to be strong and try not to look weak.
… So I was able to comfort him.
He’s a man who tries hard not to show his weakness to me, even if he can’t do it openly.
By stroking this rough head, I was able to soothe my mind.
“… Is it coming soon? Kids.”
“It will take a while. “If not until midnight, wouldn’t we have to wait 30 more minutes?”
“…”
“… So, don’t lose your strength and stay calm. When you come, let’s wash together.”
… The drowsy face that only appears at times like this.
I was able to enjoy it alone.
A privilege that not even great idols can enjoy.
Even if they close the store and give us more time.
Only I can see this expression.
“… Ha-eun.”
“Yes.”
“If you go on a trip, do you think Europe or America would be good?”
“Hmm… “Isn’t Europe a little safer?”
“It varies from country to country, but that’s usually the case.”
“… There will be fewer Koreans in Europe.”
“… Instead, racism may be a bit more severe.”
“I wouldn’t be able to do something like that in front of you unless I went crazy, right?”
He has a physique that makes him look like he could swat a bear, and when he walks around, he has an expression that makes even passers-by scared, and he looks like he’s worrying about such unnecessary things.
Because they only show it to me.
… So I wanted to lighten my shoulders a little.
The reason he ended up like this was because it was my fault.
“… Okay. Anywhere in Europe, even Spain. Germany, England… I left out the rice because it didn’t look tasty. “Let’s stay in a suitable place for half a year and then come back.”
“Yes.”
“And they…, When that day comes. I heard that Hinami has already found a hospital in Japan. Stay there for a while.”
“… Okay, I’ll follow along.”
In the end, I was the one who didn’t let him choose only me.
I could have been obsessed with picking only me, but I didn’t.
… I couldn’t do it at the time because I was scared,
Even if I go back now, I think I’ll make the same choice.
“… “I’m sorry.”
“No. I think it’ll be fun, huh?”
In the end, love is something you cannot measure on your own, no matter how much you receive.
If it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t have known how precious this was.
… Because they were there.
I could see how much he cherished me.
So…,
Even if you do something a little bit bad, they will forgive you.
It’s like my master kissing another woman,
Just having sex, it’s all trivial.
… Even after doing such a thing,
Because your love for me is sincere.
It’s okay.
Even if I do something bad.
I will understand everything.
… Lifelong.
As long as you don’t abandon me.
