Chapter 64 – 62. Secret Room
Millia’s words of help.
At first, her heart pounded as she thought that she would finally have the means to take revenge on Aris.
When I thought about it calmly, I realized that it didn’t mean much.
Because when Aris told me everything, it meant that she no longer cared about what her parents thought.
If.
If Aris’s abilities were close to normal, even if she had psychopathic tendencies, she wouldn’t have been so quick to tell everything.
Because in society, there is nothing good about cutting ties with parents.
Yes, if it were normal.
I really don’t like it though.
Looking at it objectively, the problem was that Aris was a very outstanding person.
Especially in terms of brute force, I think it has already surpassed the realm of genius.
Since he seemed to be at a level that could beat even the capital’s knights, it was obvious that a turbulent life would await him after graduating from the academy.
Reality is extremely meritocratic.
Aris probably realized that too, and she revealed everything to me.
When she lived in a small town, she would have been content to fill her self-esteem by pretending to love me.
Now that her exact position in the academy is known, using me, unlike before, would not have been enough to satisfy her dirty desires.
Aris thought that I was just a disabled person without parents, so it was obvious that Aris felt that spending time with me was a waste since she could date people from famous families.
In other words, Aris felt that there was no risk in abandoning me.
I was upset about that.
Because in reality, I couldn’t do anything.
There was nothing ahead of Aris.
Because, from start to finish, I am a human being at the bottom of the food chain who cannot find anything better.
Let’s give up.
Someone like me takes revenge?
If I mess with Aris’ temper for no reason, I might end up having a more painful time than dying since she knows me well.
“Thank you for offering to help me, but I will decline. “I’m sorry to say this, but I don’t think it will be of any help.”
“What do you mean? Still, I am Aris’ mother, so if I speak directly…”
Perhaps my story was too sudden, as expected, and Milia was greatly mistaken.
She had the illusion that she could control Aris.
“Ha. I’ll tell you why it’s no use.”
Fortunately, my words quickly dispelled Millia’s illusions.
I heard that if Aris had any intention of paying attention to her parents, she couldn’t explain what she did to me.
Because Millia also seemed to understand what kind of mindset Aris was feeling right now.
“Or, as a mother, how about using her force?”
Was there a lack of communication to this extent?
Now I was on the verge of laughing.
Since she said that she defeated Aris with force, it was clear that Milia knew Aris as her silver plate adventurer.
She actually got beat up before she left town.
Right now, I’m in a position where Millia can’t even dare to look.
“Right now, Aris is, in my opinion, a ‘knight’ level. It will probably be impossible for Millia to win.”
“Is that so.?”
“Yes. So please don’t do anything. But she ran away because Aris said she was using me as a sex plaything and as her punching bag. I don’t even want to imagine what would happen to her if she was found out that she was here.”
“Arthur.”
Milia realized she couldn’t be of any help, and she gave me an apologetic look.
Because I didn’t really have high expectations from Millia.
Since she wanted to be alone for a while, she left for her original home, telling him not to come visit her.
…
When she was very young, she lived at Milia’s house, so she often went to Hilia secretly and ate her bread.
She didn’t know it at the time, but she probably liked being with Hilya, who gave me great affection, rather than bread.
Because it seemed like she had a mother.
But while I was being held captive by the Inquisitors in the city, Hylia died.
Later, I heard that Hilia had a chronic illness and that she hid it from me because she didn’t want to worry me.
Even thinking about it now, I still don’t understand.
You probably know it in your head.
I can’t understand it at all with my heart.
It felt that way to me at the time.
It was also the reason why I ended up like Payne for a while.
So now, if you ask me what is the reason for telling this story,
Because when I entered the house, I saw Hilia disappear like dust.
Because of this, I held onto her chest and shed tears.
Because the price of escaping reality came in the form of the pain of loss and broke her heart again.
Actually, you already knew everything.
That everything is an illusion.
I just pretended not to know and buried it.
With no one to rely on, the only thing left for me was Hilia in her memories.
For me, right after being betrayed, believing in that illusion was the best I could do at the time.
Even if I make a mistake by following the Hilia I created, I also have the extreme idea that if she dies, that’s it.
It was a mistake.
There is no paradise where you run away.
As a side effect, a reality that felt even more terrible came upon me, and I felt my spirit slowly collapsing.
I sat down on the floor, stared into space and thought.
There’s nothing left in the house now.
Hilia, whom I love.
The warmth of the bakery.
Memories we had together.
All that remains is the cold wooden floor and cobwebs. And there is only the ugly me.
There was no one left who loved me anymore.
Since I had been away from home for a long time, I lay on the dusty bed, looked at the ceiling, and thought.
-Hilia will also hope that you don’t die.
Know. I know too.
I came here to commit suicide, but when I actually came, I was afraid.
I’m afraid that Hylia, whom I met after death, will be sad to see me.
I was so scared of it.
I want to be with you even if I die.
No one wants me to live anymore.
There really is no reason to live anymore.
-I will be your reason. I will live my whole life for you, Arthur.
It hurts.
It hurt so much that a suppressed moan came out of my mouth.
The fact that even the most precious memories where lies was painful, like daggers flying at me and cutting into my heart at every moment.
Today is the day I want to die.
Still, I’ll have to endure it.
If I die like this, Hylia might hate me.
When you eat a lot of delicious food and do what you want with the money you have left at home, you feel perfect.
Let’s die then.
It won’t take long.
Because there isn’t much I want to do.
At most, it will be over in about 3 days.
So how should I spend tonight?
When I remembered what I wanted to do, I headed to the kitchen and took out a cleanly stored kitchen knife.
He roughly sat down on a chair and moved his hands, recalling an experience he had had before.
Square.
I want to die.
Square.
I don’t want to die.
Square.
I am alive.
Hot blood flows and wets the body and the floor.
“Haaaaa”
The more red the floor becomes.
The more patterns that resemble roses on my clothes, the more.
I felt like I was dying, and I felt happy.
I feel so happy just by harming myself.
How happy I would be if I died.
I was very tempted to just die now, but I knew I had to endure it.
I decided to settle for leaving more scars on my left arm instead.
Square.
…
It wasn’t until the morning sun shone in my eyes that I realized that I had been harming myself all night.
I don’t know if it’s because I didn’t get any sleep, or because I lost too much blood.
I gathered my dizzy mind from the dizziness I felt, roughly wrapped the wound with the cloth I had left at home, and went out of the house.
The destination is Hylia’s tomb.
When I actually arrived, I was happy but also awkward.
Compared to before coming to the academy, I stopped by whenever I was bored.
It’s been half a year since I came this time.
“It’s been a long time.”
With the equipment I had prepared, I continued talking to myself as I cut down the grass that had grown thick on the grave.
“What should I do?”
Of course, Hylia didn’t have to answer, but I didn’t stop talking.
“I thought about it a lot this time, and I think it would be better to just sell bread in the village. Well, bread made with one hand can’t be delicious, so business won’t be good.”
The grass is now neatly organized.
I put away my equipment and grabbed a planting shovel.
Pook-
The ground next to the grave was carefully dug up with a seedling shovel.
“Now that I think about it, I might not even be able to do business. Even if I do, there’s no way I can do it safely because of Aris.”
I was able to take out a small wooden box from a hole that had not been dug very far.
“Why? I made a big mistake to Aris. From what I heard, it sounds like she made a mistake in being born, but I think she probably didn’t like the idea of coming to her house.”
Clutter.
When the black wooden box was opened, it contained several gold coins and a black key.
“Well, it doesn’t matter anymore. “I don’t plan on living long.”
Arthur put the items he took out of the wooden box into his pocket and stood up.
“I’ll be back soon. “Hilia.”
After returning home, I put everything I brought on the desk and checked its status.
“Come to think of it. “What is this black key?”
It was an item whose identity was completely unknown.
I’ve never seen Hilia use it in her lifetime.
Because I’ve never heard anything related to keys.
Still, since she was an item left behind by Hylia, she kept it, thinking it might have some important use.
“I don’t think it’s a key I use at home…”
Its purpose was too unclear.
After looking at the key for a while, I was able to find something unusual about it.
“What does this mean?”
It’s just the sound.
Even when I held the key in the past, it was a sound I had never heard before.
I don’t know why, but I could hear it clearly now.
It’s small, but there’s some regular sound.
The meaning of the sound was unknown.
Not only is it not the language I learned, but it stimulates my senses.
Because it was that kind of sound.
“Direction.?”
And it didn’t take long to notice that the key was signaling me to point in a certain direction through sound and stimulation.
It’s hard to explain, but it’s like an instinct.
Because I was able to understand it through the feeling that comes naturally.
“This is… Hilia’s room?”
As I continued heading towards where the key pointed, I found myself in front of Hylia’s door.
I went in without hesitation, picked up the key, moved around, and tried to find the exact location indicated.
I finally figured out that the key was towards the back of the closet next to the bed.
“Keuung.!”
Perhaps because it hasn’t moved for a long time, it wasn’t easy to move it to the side.
After pushing everything away, I looked at the wall where the closet was.
After reading the signal of the key vibrating in my hand, I inserted the key into the wall.
Crash.
It was amazing that the key went through the wall, and a sound was heard as if a locked door was opening.
“!”
I saw a door forming in the wall where there was nothing.
When I got here, no matter how much I was, I couldn’t help but become interested, and the moment I opened the door with trembling hands.
“This is…?”
I could see the interior, which seemed to be a mixture of a laboratory and a study.
The room was clean and free of dust, to the point where it made you think there had been no one there just a moment ago.
I picked up the paper on the desk that caught my eye first and slowly read its contents.
I didn’t know that
I was able to know the whole truth about myself.
