Chapter 118 – Atonement (2)
Hyunwoo knew full well that she did not have the courage or ability to quit her current relationship, so he increased the level of pressure on her.
“That was before I went in to wash up. Don’t think about passing it on haphazardly. I don’t feel like playing with you, and I don’t want to. What do I believe in? “I’m sure I’ll be asked if I’m in love again.”
“Huh, no. Not really. Really, I’ll never do that again. Please, please, master.”
“I can’t say anything with words. I won’t do that, I’ll do my best. But you probably said it earlier? I think it would be hard for me to believe in you, Hyeji. “How can I trust you when you trust a woman you meet for the first time instead of a man who wants to marry you?”
Her heart, which had been broken once, was broken again. He subtly hints that her today’s mistakes cannot be forgiven through her words alone, and drives her into her corner one by one.
Looking at her condition, it seemed like the moment she had imagined leaving the bathroom was right now.
“Huh, how… Then what should I do…”
“Ha, my heart hurts too. “I feel like I can’t live without myself, so I want to trust myself again, but it’s so hard.”
“Ugh, black…”
“What if I trust again and am betrayed again? What if even the person who said he would understand and love me for the rest of his life doubts my feelings, turns away from me, and leaves?”
Hyun-woo emphasized how hurt he was and how difficult it was, highlighting that he was a victim.
Today, he had to become a man whose innocence was betrayed, and she had to become a traitor who trampled on his innocence.
Only then could the betrayer ask for atonement, and the betrayed person could be given the mercy of forgiveness.
“I really, really won’t. Please believe me. I went crazy for a moment and lost my mind. Please…”
“Everyone talks. My dad, who abandoned me and my mom and started a life with another woman, was very talkative. Words aren’t enough. “I won’t believe anything anymore.”
“Ugh, then… What should I do… What should I do? I’ll do everything. I can do it all. Furthermore, I feel like I’m going to die. If my master doesn’t forgive me, I really think I’m going to die.”
When Hyeji showed no signs of forgiveness, she twisted her body in pain.
My brother was right that words alone are not enough. Where have I been lacking in words so far?
Something more than words was needed. If I could instill faith in my brother, I could accomplish anything.
“It is more difficult to restore trust once it has been broken than to build trust from the beginning. It takes a lot of effort to cover up previous mistakes and restore trust. And only when you make that kind of effort do you feel like trusting again. “Do you understand?”
“Yes! Yes, master! I understand. I understood everything.”
Hyeji nodded her head in her haste. Thanks to Hyunwoo’s tone becoming more relaxed, her head lifted.
“Did you say mental illness? When I think about it… I guess I’m a bit mentally ill too. I’ve always been a person who doesn’t trust people easily, but I trusted you because it was you… If I don’t do this now… Huh, if I don’t do this, I won’t be able to bear it because I’m anxious.”
“How? Just tell me. I can do it all. I’ll do everything. Mingming will do anything so that the owner will not be anxious.”
Continuing from before, Hye-ji bites the bait thrown by Hyun-woo again. The words ‘I will do anything’ came out of her mouth, blinded by her forgiveness.
If so, it’s time to get the price that suits ‘whatever’. Hyunwoo’s tongue was aimed at her.
“I originally had no intention of forcing this on you. But now I think there is nothing better than this to restore trust. “Wear a symbol of her faith like the woman before.”
“Yes?”
“… Give me a piercing. Get a tattoo too. Prove your sincerity in a way that I can see.”
“Ah…”
“Looking at the proof engraved on your body, I want to believe that you are my woman. “I want to be reassured that you will never abandon me and that you will never be shaken.”
Hyeji held her trembling hand tightly with her other hand and reflected on Hyunwoo’s words.
Symbol of faith. There was definitely a need for something like that. And as symbols, nothing was more appropriate than piercings and tattoos.
Proof that you belong to your older brother, engraved on your private parts. A special promise between the two of them to love their brother forever. A sincere pledge that will never be erased for the rest of my life.
Her heart, trembling with fear, slowly tilted to one side. She was the one who broke her trust in the first place, so of course she had to be the one responsible.
“Remember what they said earlier? The day they got married and said they would be together forever, she went on her honeymoon that day and got her piercings done. “They got pierced like putting wedding rings on each other’s fingers.”
“… Yes, I remember.”
“If you don’t get married, it will definitely be difficult to accept. But marriage is with someone you can trust, right? Sadly, our trust in each other was shaken before the wedding.”
“Huh…”
Hyeji continued to nod her head as she listened to Hyunwoo’s words calmly.
Yes, marriage is meant to be with someone you can trust… It was absurd to talk about marriage after breaking trust first. Before that, she had to become a woman her brother could trust.
“So… You need to show me a clear decision so that I can trust you again, so that I can envision marrying you again. You shouldn’t ask people to trust you with just words, you should show it with actions. “Do you think I’m right?”
“Well, yes. That’s right. Everything is correct.”
“Then what should I do? What and how should I do next? If you think you understand, say it again. “The tears stopped, and you looked at me.”
The door to salvation she had longed for appeared before her. All she had to do was pull hard on her doorknob and throw her body away.
Hye-ji takes a submissive stance even though she is not told to do so. Lie on your back on the floor and raise your legs apart in an M shape. She pulls her breasts together with her hands and holds them out towards Hyunwoo.
“Please put piercings on Mingming’s nipples, black, piercings, master! Get a tattoo… Get a tattoo too! I won’t show you with words, but… I’ll show you with actions. Furthermore, I can show you. They say Mingming is the owner’s… She’s the owner’s woman…”
“I’m going to pierce your nipples and pierce your pussy. I’m going to pierce the clit, pierce the labia majora, pierce everything. “I’m going to dangle you with a bunch of piercings and turn you into a trash slut who won’t even look at anyone but me.”
Hyeji swallowed her saliva while listening to Hyunwoo’s terrifying words.
She doesn’t ‘play’ unless she is a trustworthy woman. If you consider the harsh words my brother is spewing out now as such ‘play’… I had to hurry and fan the flame of faith before it went out.
“Please go through everything. Mingming wants to be a slut exclusively for her master. Mingming, please put a piercing in her pussy too.”
“Huh, tattoos too? Are you going to engrave whatever words you want wherever you want? Are you going to break it as I please, like a disposable toy that is used once and then thrown away? Is it okay though? Still, do you trust me?”
My brother’s next test follows immediately. Whether her faith and determination were really sounded like a scream to Hyeji’s ears.
It sounded like a scream, asking me to please trust myself and not to be shaken again.
She realized once again how much of a mistake she had made and what a terrible thing she had done to her brother.
She decided to comfort someone who was hurt, but she ended up hurting them even more.
She was the only one who could embrace her brother, so she judged herself and couldn’t do it.
Hyeji shouted loudly with her surging guilt.
“Yes, I believe it. No matter where or what kind of tattoo I get, I trust the master. I will never, ever waver. “I will trust you unconditionally.”
Ah.
She sighed inwardly.
As her guilt faded away, relief gradually filled the empty space.
Her brother’s love should not be doubted. She shouldn’t doubt her own happiness. Then, your body and mind can be as comfortable as you are now.
Hyeji lifted the corners of her mouth and smiled like a crazy person.
“Phew… I understand. Don’t forget that now. It’s late today, so take a shower and come out. Let’s sleep quickly. Today… You had a hard time.”
[Fourth, smile, hug, and tell her you love her only when she begs for harsher treatment and to abuse you mercilessly.]
Hyunwoo smiled at her. He hugged her.
She just didn’t say she loved. Because it wasn’t the time yet. I saved those words for later.
Hye-ji, held in Hyun-woo’s arms, surrendered her body to his warmth.
It was fortunate. Because she has a way to be forgiven. She was so glad that she still had something left to give for her brother.
She felt infinitely at ease. I didn’t feel any fear.
Her piercings and tattoos were the punishment she deserved for doing something wrong. It was also a symbol of faith that would prove her love for her brother.
I can still vividly remember her brother admiring her at her bar. She could soon become that kind of woman.
She could be happy.
The door to salvation opened before her eyes as she slowly closed.
No, hell, which I believed to be salvation, has opened its mouth.
The world beyond her door completely swallowed her up. She smiled happily and crossed the door willingly.
Kuung –
The door closed behind her.
