Chapter 29 – Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (1)
Bibi Big – Bibi Big –
The monotonous sound of a cell phone alarm broke the silence of the morning.
Hyunwoo frowned as he forced his eyelids, which were difficult to open, up.
I felt a little tired because I made Hyeji climax several times last night.
Bibi Big – Bibi Big –
“Ha…”
Hyunwoo sighed and reached for his phone as the alarm continued to ring in his ears.
The time is 8:30 am. It was an alarm I set on purpose because I had work to do this morning.
Hyunwoo turns off the alarm and looks back at Hyeji lying next to him.
She was in a deep sleep without making a movement even when the alarm sounded.
He exposes his white upper body outside the blanket and lets out a small sigh.
As I looked at my slender shoulders and breasts rising and falling below my neck, I remembered the thrill of yesterday’s touch.
It was a breast spanking that wasn’t in my original plan, but I couldn’t control my rising urge and committed it.
As he carefully stretched out his hand and grabbed the breast that he had violated, his hand was filled with a pleasant softness.
She seemed to be feeling tickled in her sleep and was drooling, but she showed no signs of waking up.
Hyunwoo had no choice but to shake her small body and open her mouth.
“Honey, wake up. I’m working part-time this morning~”
At Hyunwoo’s urging, Hyeji curled up more and snuggled into the blanket.
The way she arches her back and curls up makes her look like a kitten.
Hyunwoo chuckled and found the nipple hidden under the blanket and started rolling it.
The light pleasure felt in her chest gradually taps into Hyeji’s consciousness.
“Wake up~ It’s 9 o’clock in a little while. If you keep doing this, you’ll be late for your part-time job.”
Only then did Hyeji come to her senses little by little and smiled faintly. She slowly stretches languidly and blinks her puffy eyes.
Hyunwoo was seen smiling through her blurry focus.
“It’s the first morning since we started dating. Are you just going to sleep in? Honey~”
The word ‘honey’ whispers in my ear with a voice dripping with honey.
That was enough to drive away Hyeji’s sleep.
That’s right, now that I think about it, she decided to date my brother since yesterday.
Hyeji shook off her daze and began to recall the events of last night one by one.
After receiving a confession from her brother, I giggled while looking at the comments on her community…
“Ah…”
Hyeji continued her thoughts and let out her faint voice. Her eyebrows were slightly frowned.
“What’s wrong, honey? Did you have a nightmare?”
Hyeji looks at her boyfriend who asks her affectionately.
Her eyes were full of worry.
She felt a warm hand on her forehead, wondering if she had a fever.
“… No, brother. I was just feeling queasy.”
“Me too. I guess we overdid it yesterday~”
Hyunwoo let out a mischievous laugh and played with her hair.
However, Hyunwoo’s eyes were looking at Hyeji’s expression without smiling at all.
It seemed like this woman was recalling undesirable memories of her yesterday.
Hyunwoo didn’t give her a chance to continue her thoughts and gently hugged her waist.
Fortunately, there were no negative emotions in the pitch black eyes staring at me.
“Did you sleep well? Good morning, honey.”
Hyunwoo was so adorable that I pressed my body against him with his helpless actions and voice.
We share warm body heat by touching skin to skin.
Since she was a woman who was weak to this kind of skinship, it should have been enough to shake off the thoughts she had just had.
As expected, Hyeji smiled brightly, leaving behind the subtle expression on her face.
“What, why did you wake up so early today? You always oversleep when I go out.”
“I told you earlier. It’s our first morning together. I wanted to wake you up in a special way.”
Hyunwoo said soft words and placed his lips on Hyeji’s forehead.
Since it was right after she woke up, she didn’t want to give a deep kiss because her breath would smell.
“Hehe… It was not just a little, it was completely special!”
Hyeji smiled brightly and touched her forehead where Hyunwoo’s lips rested.
It was a romantic morning where I woke up with excitement. It reminded her of a scene from her favorite movie.
She felt like she was the heroine in a romantic movie.
Hyeji surrendered herself to Hyunwoo’s body temperature and gradually became immersed in her current mood.
The more I did this, the more my love for Hyunwoo grew. There is also an overwhelming sense of happiness.
“Come on, my boyfriend! I’ll give you a hug!”
Hyeji pulled Hyunwoo closer and held him against her chest. The feeling of his greasy beard against her skin felt good.
From that appearance, I couldn’t feel any trace of yesterday’s regret.
Hyunwoo was held in her arms and nodded, thinking that everything had worked out as intended.
This was enough of a reward for waking up early.
The reason he set the alarm was to control Hyeji’s first emotions when she opened her eyes.
If she opened her eyes before he did, she could have felt her skepticism as she reflected on yesterday’s events alone.
No matter how much she left behind, she didn’t know where her thoughts would go when she woke up.
Fortunately, his acting as a friendly boyfriend was successful.
She colored her day pink from the start. Hyeji seemed to be experiencing a lot of happiness and love.
The sweet emotions she encountered as soon as she opened her eyes would play a big part in further solidifying her rationalization of yesterday’s situation.
Even though I wonder if it’s true that my brother loves me, I’m inclined to believe that it’s true that he loves me too.
Even while working part-time, it was obvious that she would only focus on the sweet memories of this morning rather than recalling the terrible memories of yesterday.
Hyunwoo was somewhat confident in his thoughts because he had seen this woman blindly obsessed with love once or twice.
“I love you, Hyeji. Thank you for being my person.”
Still, Hyeonwoo felt angry and wondered if the comments he had made up until now were not enough, so he once again expressed his love.
I was planning to extinguish even the smallest spark that remained in her heart.
“I love you too, oppa. I’m really, really thankful that you’re my boyfriend too.”
Hyeji nuzzled her cheek against the top of Hyunwoo’s head and muttered softly.
Most people believe what they want to believe. And no woman wanted to believe that her boyfriend, who had just started dating, was trash.
It was the same for Hyeji.
The violent and oppressive image of yesterday that suddenly came to mind has disappeared, covered by the confession of love just now.
She did an excellent job selecting the information Hyunwoo gave her.
She accepts information that her brother loves her and that her brother is a good person, and actively rejects information that contradicts that.
She swallows only the image of the boyfriend she dreams of and dwells on the happiness she desires.
It was an obsession with love that was both tear-jerkingly foolish and yet amazing at the same time.
Hyunwoo thought that any further expressions of affection would be excessive, so he raised her body and looked at her. Now she was thinking of telling him to go take a shower.
Hyeon-woo suddenly heard Hye-ji’s trembling voice.
“Ah… I’m yours forever. Uh, my body and heart are all yours.”
Hyeji stuttered her words and added her words impatiently. The expression of her love that he had requested came to mind later.
Surprisingly, instead of the happy smile from before, her face was filled with anxiety.
‘Did you break the rules your brother said? Wouldn’t it be okay since I said it late? Oh, we’re not having sex right now… But…’
The more she thought about it, the more the blood in her body felt like it was freezing. For a moment, her mouth and hands creaked like a broken doll.
When her brother said nothing, she suddenly felt short of breath. She bit her lip gently and blinked her eyes rapidly.
“What’s wrong, Hyeji?”
Her shoulders were shaking as she tried to look into her brother’s eyes as he asked her question.
“Ah… That, that… I, no, I…”
Could it be that my brother is angry again about his mistake? So is he questioning himself now?
Her stiffened tongue could not form proper words. She stammered for a while before finally opening her mouth.
“I couldn’t tell you that I love you the way you taught me… I did say that right away… But I was afraid you might be disappointed. I’m sorry…”
Hyun-woo was so thrilled to see Hye-ji like that he got goosebumps.
She was able to clearly realize how much her yesterday’s violence had tamed this woman.
The woman who had been whispering about her love just now was nowhere to be found.
There was just a bitch with her whole body stiff and shaking like a dog in front of her dog.
First of all, it seemed like there was a need to soothe that abnormal anxiety a little.
“It’s okay. I wasn’t role-playing like that right now. And when I told you to express my love that way, I was just asking…”
Hyunwoo blurted out the last words and grabbed Hyeji’s chin and lifted it up. I could see the dilated pupils shaking back and forth.
“It wasn’t an order given to bitch Jeong Hye-ji… So you don’t have to worry.”
Only then did Hyeji close her eyes and catch her breath. The only thing she heard was that it was okay.
Just a few hours ago, she admitted her wrongdoing and rationalized her punishment dozens of times.
She kept repeating over and over again what a mistake she had made and how justified her brother’s anger was.
In the process, she deeply engraved in her subconscious the rule that ‘if you do something wrong, you must be punished’ and ‘you must do well to avoid being punished’.
Her will to resist had long since been torn into dozens of pieces under the tip of Hyunwoo’s tongue.
“Yeah, yeah… I’m just in case… I’m afraid that my brother might be upset…”
“It’s okay. I didn’t feel bad at all. Is it because you care that I got angry yesterday?”
“No, no, I promised you first, I would do anything. But, I made a mistake… And I let you down… I think you deserved to be angry…”
Hyeji put into her mouth the self-suggestions of rationalization she repeated to herself like a machine.
She didn’t even know if she was saying those words to herself or to Hyunwoo.
Hyunwoo smiled as he looked at Hyeji, who gave only great answers to his questions.
Yesterday’s violence was unexpected, but looking closely at today’s situation, it seems to have been surprisingly effective.
Hyunwoo himself never imagined that she would fall apart like this overnight.
‘Is this what PTSD is?’
Hyunwoo smiled, remembering what he said he heard somewhere. He feels like he has discovered a hidden piece he never thought of.
She didn’t know whether this woman had a weak spirit or whether her own teachings were just as meticulous and delicate.
I thought that perhaps both statements were correct.
She is a woman who has been sick from the beginning due to wounds from domestic violence and extreme loneliness.
He became the only destined man she could rely on and leaned on, and bound her with love. He took away her free will so that she could never leave her side.
And then he delicately destroyed her soul with all her treacherous and cunning words.
Hyunwoo concluded that a good work of art was created when good materials and good craftsmen met.
However, since Hyeji was only staring at her own mouth, she buried those sentiments for now and opened her mouth.
“That’s right, the reason I got angry yesterday was because you took my feelings lightly and acted like a child. You said you understood everything yesterday, right?”
“Yes, yes… I really understand everything. So I’m not disappointed at all. It’s true.”
“I’m relieved of all my anger now. My wife has fully promised me that I will do better next time.”
Hyeji just nodded without saying a word.
“So don’t be so anxious. Then I’ll be more, sorry. If you do well, it will never happen again.”
Hyunwoo comforted her by gently stroking her.
However, if we reverse what we just said, it means that if something goes wrong, it can happen at any time.
In fact, Hyunwoo was thinking of a manual on how to use corporal punishment in the future.
It was clear that her brain had developed some form of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after the horrific experience of yesterday.
Perhaps the process of suppressing her original trauma with love and rationalizing her corporal punishment caused her more stress than she could have imagined.
Just now, she was so restless that I thought it was her anxiety disorder, and she was just looking around.
She played with it because it was fun to control her sick mind, and things got even more fun.
Thinking about how much she could push this woman and how she could take advantage of it made her happy all morning.
The first thought that came to her mind was that in order to maximize the effect of corporal punishment, she needed to act like an extremely affectionate lover.
In the following corporal punishment poem, weight should be given to the belief that ‘My brother originally loved me very much, but he was angry because he did something wrong’.
The stronger that belief becomes, the more willing she is to accept any corporal punishment to get back ‘the brother who loves me’.
I will pay for the sins I have committed, so I will beg with my whole body to love myself again.
Hyunwoo felt blood rushing to his groin just by simply picturing the future.
If you use it well, you have obtained a powerful card that can unleash tremendous destructive power.
It occurred to me that if she could carefully sculpt her psychotic symptoms, she would be able to get a slave who would never betray her even if she stopped playing with her useless lover.
Of course, it was obvious that this would not be a human being playing the role of a slave like now, but a miserable sex slave with literally no human rights.
